Chapter 1291 His life must be more painful than hers, which is worse than death

Hearing with the ears and seeing with the eyes are two different things. The photos that Chen Yan took out were all the photos he took secretly of Gu Wanqiu. Gu Wanqiu in the photos had very white skin, and her skin seemed transparent in the sunlight.

Chen Yan is very good at taking pictures and he adjusts the lighting very well. The first few pictures are still beautiful, but the later ones are not so beautiful, no matter how good the lighting or angle is.

Flipping through the photos one by one, Gu Wanqiu's weight loss speed was visible to the naked eye. When her eyes were not able to see, they were mostly closed. When they were open, her pupils were dilated and there were many red bloodshot in the whites of her eyes.

At first, you could still see the smile on her face, but it grew dimmer towards the end. In the process, she also secretly recorded a video of Gu Wanqiu.

She sat on the sofa, her head slightly tilted, her right ear facing the TV, on which was playing Li Jinxing's video.

She lowered her eyes, her whole body was shaking, and suddenly she fell off the sofa.

Watching the video, Li Jinxing subconsciously reached out to catch her. He didn't dare to look, but his eyes were fixed on the screen.

He also wanted Gu Wanqiu to stop watching the video. He wanted to tell her that he and Jiang Yun together on TV were all acting, it was all fake and could not be taken seriously. The media was also making up stories. He would never marry Jiang Yun.

After Gu Wanqiu fell off the sofa, her whole body seemed to be in severe pain. She covered her chest, her whole body shaking uncontrollably. She opened her mouth and spat out a mouthful of blood.

Shen Yan couldn't bear to watch any further. This video was not recorded by a mobile phone, but by the surveillance camera at home.

"She endures this pain every day, at least three times a day, and each time she has to take a lot of painkillers. Even though she's in so much pain, she always smiles and comforts me, afraid that I'll worry, and keeps saying she's not feeling any pain. After taking the medicine, she falls into a coma, but she says she had a very comfortable sleep. She thinks I don't know that she's vomiting blood every day, but in fact, I know everything. She doesn't want me to know, so I pretend not to know."

In addition to the painful scenes, there are also warm ones, such as the three of them eating together, Chen Yan gently feeding Gu Wanqiu water and food, holding her up and down, and taking her to bask in the sun.

Through the video, Li Jinxing saw at a glance that the tree next to the rocking chair was a camellia.

Chen Yan took good care of Gu Wanqiu and took her out to bask in the sun every day.

He stretched out his hand and touched Gu Wanqiu's face on the screen with his fingertips.

Li Jinxing was kneeling, and Chen Yan was standing, looking down at Li Jinxing.

Just as Chen Yan said, Gu Wanqiu would smile warmer than the sun, and when pain came, she would pretend to be fine and smile to comfort them.

That kind of smile was something she had never seen when she was with Li Jinxing.

They were always at loggerheads with each other. They didn't know when it started, but they couldn't talk to each other properly, and Gu Wanqiu smiled less and less.

Such a lively and warm Gu Wanqiu was seen on someone else's mobile phone.

"The day she died was her 32nd birthday. I got up early to buy her a cake, but when I came back, she was gone. I didn't get to see her for the last time. She lay quietly in bed, with her blood all over the sheets. She must have been in a lot of pain before she died, but she kept it in to avoid worrying us... When I got back, her body was so cold. I held her out in the sun for a long time, but her body was still cold. The camellias bloomed that day, but she didn't even get to touch them. Why did she love camellias so much?"

Shen Yan asked himself and answered: "I think it's because of you, right?"

"Li Jinxing, I really envy you. You can get all her love and make her miss you until her death."

Chen Yan kept watching Li Jinxing crying. He was also sad, but his heart was already numb with pain. He had looked through these videos and photos some time ago, and his eyes would get wet every time he looked at them. After watching them so many times, he might have become immune to them.

"You said you wanted to know how she lived her last days, then I tell you, she didn't live well at all. You said you'd rather die than live, then please, you must live a life worse than hers, that's what it means to be worse than death. After all, she also wanted to live a good life when she was in so much pain..."

Chen Yan choked up, "Li Jinxing, she asked me not to tell you this, so I never came to see you. She had you in her heart. Before she died, she was still holding the ring and watch you gave her. She also asked me to take her ashes and bury them in Haicheng, where she grew up. But more importantly, I think you were in her heart."

After he finished speaking, Shen Yan squatted down and put his phone on the ground. He reached out and touched the urn in Li Jinxing's arms, and said to the box: "I'm sorry, Gu Wanqiu, I didn't keep our promise. I still told him about you."

The tone of his voice was no different from that in the video, as if he was talking to Gu Wanqiu herself.

Li Jinxing didn't know how much he heard, but he said everything he wanted to say, even the things he had agreed not to say.

Chen Yan picked up the phone, and Li Jinxing's eyes followed him.

"Li Jinxing, do you understand clearly now? Do you know how she lived? Why couldn't she hold on?"

Gu Wanqiu was in so much pain, not only physically but also in her heart. It was so painful...that she couldn't bear it any longer.

Those things he never knew were like filling in a whole puzzle, piecing them together, and now the picture has been restored.

Li Jinxing was speechless. From the moment he knelt down and Chen Yan took out his cell phone to show him Gu Wanqiu's photos and videos, his throat was blocked.

If his life is not as painful as Gu Wanqiu's, it is not called a life worse than death. It can only be considered true revenge when he is in more pain, more unbearable, and wants to die more than her but cannot.

When Gu Wanqiu died, he didn't think about taking revenge on Li Jinxing. It was he who wanted to take revenge on himself.

His lips were unusually pale, and when he moved his lips, the blood in his throat came out faster than the sound, and he vomited a mouthful of blood.

His whole body fell to the ground, holding the urn in his arms.

The sound attracted the attention of people in the corridor. Seeing Li Jinxing vomiting blood, Shen Yan subconsciously took a step back to avoid it.

"Boss Li."

Several anxious voices were heard, and the housekeeper came in with the servants.

Chen Yan frowned as he looked at everything in front of him, feeling that it was not enough. Gu Wanqiu had vomited much more blood than Li Jinxing.

Chen Yan was in no mood to stay here any longer. Facing Li Jinxing would make his finally calmed mood become irritable and angry. He didn't want to become like this. He knew very well that this was the last thing Gu Wanqiu wanted to see him like this.

Shen Yan turned to leave, but the housekeeper held out his hand to stop him: "You can't leave yet."

"Let him go." Li Jinxing covered his chest and looked up at them.

The butler withdrew his hand. They had no objection to Shen Yan leaving, as long as Li Jinxing agreed.

Shen Yan glanced around indifferently, picked up his phone and left.

As for Li Jinxing, he fell to the ground after saying this.

The housekeeper quickly called and sent him to the hospital. The examination results showed that he fainted due to excessive mental stress and lack of proper rest. As for vomiting blood, it was a stomach problem.

He slept for more than twenty hours. No one noticed him when he woke up. He didn't make a sound, but stared at the ceiling quietly, recalling the things before he fainted, the photos, and Shen Yan's words.

The people accompanying him included the butler, the nurse and the driver. The butler was the first to notice that Li Jinxing had opened his eyes.

I don't know how much he woke up.

"Boss Li, are you hungry? Why don't you eat something?"

"You've been sleeping all day, twenty-four hours."

"Are you thirsty? Do you want to go to the bathroom?"

"If you feel any discomfort, be sure to tell me. The doctor said you've been under too much stress lately and you need to get enough rest."

No matter what the housekeeper said, Li Jinxing didn't say a word, as if he had lost his soul.

He didn't know what to do for a moment, and didn't know how to deal with Li Jinxing at this time.

Li Jinxing now seemed like he had lost his soul, as if he couldn't hear anything. In the past, he could still act according to his father's expression, but now there was no expression on his face.

"The urn is kept at home."

When the ashes were mentioned, Li Jinxing reacted.

"Boss Li, while you were in a coma, Mr. Zhou called you and asked you not to go to the company yet."

"Why?" Li Jinxing finally spoke, his voice hoarse.

The housekeeper explained, "Because of Miss Jiang's death, there was a huge uproar online, and it hasn't been resolved yet. Some of her fan groups are blocking the area near the company."

Li Jinxing stretched out his hand: "Give me the phone."

Li Jinxing suddenly fell into a coma and was rushed to the hospital without even taking his cell phone. If he wanted to check his cell phone, he could only ask the housekeeper.

The butler handed the phone over, Li Jinxing took it and quickly browsed the latest news.

This was the first time he browsed the information on the Internet after Jiang Yun's death. This had already been deleted. At the beginning, the Internet was full of news about him.

The internet was full of topics about him and Jiang Yun, without a single mention of Gu Wanqiu.

Yes, when I was with Gu Wanqiu, in order to protect her safety, I didn't dare to leak her information.

In public memory, Jiang Yun was the only woman he publicly brought with him. He frequently took her to various events, not only deceiving Gu Wanqiu, but also deceiving everyone on the Internet.

They all thought that he loved Jiang Yun the most and was going to marry her, and that Jiang Yun died because of him.

But the person he has always loved is not her at all...

Li Jinxing wanted to publish Gu Wanqiu's information online and announce to the world that the person he originally loved was Gu Wanqiu, the person he loved the most was her, the person he wanted to marry but failed to marry was also her, and Gu Wanqiu even lost her life to save him.

He was just pretending to be with Jiang Yun. The two signed an agreement and hired someone to act out the show just to provoke Gu Wanqiu and test whether Gu Wanqiu cared about him.

But he couldn't do that.

No one will care about such a truth, and it may even arouse public outrage and cause greater losses to the Li family.

From the perspective of onlookers, the biggest victim of this relationship is Jiang Yun. She died because of this "show". What did her death prove? That no one cares about her?

What kind of public opinion will Gu Wanqiu face?

She was already suffering during her lifetime. Was she going to be insulted and talked about because of Li Jinxing's mistakes even after her death?

This can’t happen…

Li Jinxing looked at his phone, his emotions gradually turning cold from boiling at the beginning.

No one knows who he loves the most.

"Gu Wanqiu doesn't want me anymore. She's gone. She's the one I love the most, the one I dream of marrying..."

"Mr. Li, I'm sorry."

How should he mourn?

If he had not suddenly asked Jiang Yun to act with him, Jiang Yun might still be alive and well now.

He is sorry for these two women. People online are right to criticize him. People like him really don't deserve love.

In the end, he didn't even dare to say who he truly loved. He could only bury it in his heart forever and seal it deep in his memory.

There are more and more new things on the Internet every day, and they will soon be forgotten. But how much time and how many things will it take for him to forget such a person?

Li Jinxing stayed in the hospital for three days, then went back and rested for another three days. Within a week, no matter how big the problem was, it gradually subsided.

Apart from a few extreme fans of Jiang Yun who are still making trouble, not many people mention it anymore.

After all, people are more concerned about real life than things on the Internet. Who would have the energy to dwell on something that has nothing to do with them?

I thought Li Jinxing would be depressed for a long time, and the urn he always held while sleeping would not be buried. Unexpectedly, a week later, he took a hoe and dug a deep hole in the yard. He took a last look at the ashes, reached out to touch them, and then buried them.

A camellia seedling was planted on the small pile of soil.

Camellia tree seedlings are very tenacious. They come alive immediately after being planted and sprout in the cold winter.

That piece of land had been vacant for a long time because the soil contained toxins and was difficult to grow crops on. Finally, the soil was replaced and several trucks were hauling transplanted red roses. Li Jinxing planted them one by one without any workers.

This time, the flower didn't die.

Life went on as usual every day, and Li Jinxing returned to his former self, as if nothing had happened. He was still the self-disciplined and rational person.

Whenever he comes across a problem in the company, he can solve it in no time. His iron-blooded approach is so convincing that one cannot even imagine that he is trapped by love.

Everyone thought he had survived, but he would dream of Gu Wanqiu every night.

He was in pain, but compared to what Gu Wanqiu had experienced, what he had endured was not worth mentioning. Just as Chen Yan said, he would have to suffer more than Gu Wanqiu to say that life was worse than death.

Li Jinxing devoted all his energy to work.

In less than a month, Li Jinxing settled these matters.

He Tian and Zhou Yi were finally able to take a long vacation, but on that day, He Tian found Li Jinxing and the first thing he said was that he resigned.

"You want to leave?"

"Yes." He Tian's eyes were firm, without any hesitation. He had already made plans to leave.

In the first few years after he followed Li Jinxing, he never thought of leaving. He admired Li Jinxing the most and wanted to follow him and witness the miracles he created.

But as Gu Wanqiu became involved, the usually decisive Li Jinxing became indecisive and made one mistake after another that he should not have made.

Until this time, after he knew that Gu Wanqiu was dead, he stared at him with murderous eyes. He Tian suddenly became disheartened and really wanted to leave this time.