Chapter 281 I Dare Not Even Kiss You

The doctor was surprised when he heard this.

He reminded again: "Mr. Song, medical abortion in the early stages of pregnancy is the best option. If you wait until the month is advanced and then want to abort it, it will be more troublesome..."

Song Yanzheng flicked the ash from his cigarette and said in a low voice with a level tone, "She has a weak constitution and a medical abortion would harm her body. It's just a child. I can accept everything about her..."

The doctor didn't know what to say for a moment.

He had followed Song Yanzheng for two years and thought he knew him quite well.

His love for Lin Yan was so obsessive that he almost couldn't live without her.

Now he actually said that he wanted to keep this child she had with another man. He really didn't know what he was thinking.

Could it be... because of his physical condition?

Looking at Song Yanzheng's calm face, he swallowed back the words that were on the tip of his tongue.

Just as he was about to leave, Song Yanzheng called him.

"Doctor Ruan, go treat Xing Yingxue's injuries. If something happens to her, Yanyan will be angry with me again..."

"OK."

"Doctor Ruan." Song Yanzheng threw the cigarette butt into the sea and turned to him: "You've worked hard these past two years. When we reach our destination, I'll give you some money. You can go wherever you want. You don't have to follow me anymore."

Dr. Ruan felt a little complicated.

He knew that Song Yanzheng was not a good person, but he showed enough respect to his subordinates and him, never treated him unfairly, and usually did not put on airs at all.

Sometimes he couldn't understand why a man who was obviously not a bad person would do so many cruel and perverted things for a woman.

He took a breath and looked at Song Yanzheng's increasingly thin and pale face, and his heart sank.

Even though Song Yanzheng told him countless times not to mention this matter again, he still couldn't help but nag about it.

"Mr. Song, the tumor in your body has spread. If you don't get chemotherapy..."

"Again." Song Yanzheng interrupted, becoming more serious. "Don't mention it again. I said I don't plan to get treatment."

"But……"

"Late stage." Song Yanzheng said casually: "There is no need to treat it."

He turned his head towards the sea level again, a hint of self-mockery and relief curling up the corners of his lips: "People will always be punished. God will not let anyone who does evil go. I accept it with pleasure."

"Yan Yan is my life. Losing my life... is worse than death... I've never been afraid of death, but I just can't bear to die now... If I die, it means I'll never see her again..."

"In the last few months, I just want to be with her and spend the remaining ordinary days quietly..."

"Doctor Ruan, I only trust you. Remember what you promised me: go back to my hometown and find a good caregiver for my mother so she can spend her later years in peace..."

Dr. Ruan sighed solemnly and finally just nodded.

After Dr. Ruan left, the deck returned to silence, with only the sound of the wind and waves hitting the hull.

Song Yanzheng took out another cigarette and was about to light it when he heard footsteps behind him.

Then, the sound of a lighter rang out.

Song Yanzheng turned his head and saw Shunzi walking towards him with a cigarette in his mouth. He leaned casually on the railing and stood side by side with him.

He bit the cigarette and looked at Song Yanzheng, saying sarcastically.

"Song Yanzheng, are you crazy? How could you possibly tolerate Lin Yan and Xing Yu's child? Has your brain really been eaten away by cancer cells and gone mad?"

Song Yanzheng didn't have the energy to argue: "We are just partners. I want to get Yanyan, and Qin Yuan wants revenge on Xing Yu and Lin Zhi. We don't interfere with each other, as long as we achieve our goals."

Shunzi snorted softly, "He's really in love."

Song Yanzheng: "Isn't your master also a love-brained person? Qin Yuan has put a lot of thought into avenging Shu En. However, Shu En, that vicious woman, deserves death. What she did to Yan Yan is enough for her to die eight hundred times."

Shunzi pressed the tip of his tongue against his cheek: "Song Yanzheng, if Brother Yuan hears this, you..."

"What?" Song Yanzheng interrupted coldly, "At this point, do you think I'm afraid of him? Tell Qin Yuan not to use Yanyan to deal with Xing Yu and Lin Zhi. If anything happens to her, I'll take Qin Yuan with me!"

"Shunzi, there's one thing you have to understand: a dying person is capable of anything. Don't mess with me. Treat me well. When I'm in a good mood, I'll naturally find a way to help you."

After saying that, Song Yanzheng turned around and went back to the cabin.

Shunzi put out the cigarette in his hand, gritted his teeth and kicked hard against the wall of the boat, cursing at Song Yanzheng's back.

"Fuck! You're still so stubborn!"

…

Lin Yan woke up again, not knowing how much time had passed.

When I opened my eyes, Song Yanzheng was sitting by the bed. He had changed into a light grey cashmere sweater and his hair had been combed. The fierce look on his face was gone, and he had regained his usual calmness.

But he still looked listless, his face and lips were unusually pale.

Seeing that she woke up, Song Yanzheng's eyes instantly rippled, and he smiled very softly: "Yan Yan..."

Lin Yan's hands had been untied. She propped herself up and sat up, and a soft pillow immediately rested behind her.

She turned her head and glanced at the small table next to her.

There was porridge and cut fruits on top, as well as a soup with a faint medicinal aroma, probably to replenish qi and blood.

"Yan Yan, are you hungry? The kitchen just sent it up, so hurry up and eat it while it's hot."

Song Yanzheng picked up the bowl of porridge, stirred it with a spoon, blew it cool, and handed it to her: "Yanyan, it's not hot anymore, drink it."

Lin Yan didn't answer and asked, "What's wrong with me? Is my hypoglycemia coming back?"

Song Yanzheng didn't mention the pregnancy: "It's okay, the doctor said you've been too tired recently and your body is very weak, so you need to nourish yourself well."

Lin Yan did feel weak and sleepy.

She took the bowl from Song Yanzheng's hand, lowered her head and drank slowly, spoonful by spoonful, without saying anything else.

But Song Yanzheng's eyes were fixed on her.

His gaze was very close, as if cherishing her, but also as if suppressing something, staring at her making her feel uncomfortable all over.

"You can go now. You don't have to stay here with me. I can't run away on the boat. I will eat the food. You can leave."

Song Yanzheng didn't move, his tone still gentle, with a hint of flattery: "I'll wait for you to drink the soup and then leave. The soup has been simmered for a long time, it's good for your health."

He put folic acid tablets in the soup.

Dr. Ruan said that it is better to take folic acid in the early stages of pregnancy.

"Then don't sit next to me." Lin Yan said coldly: "Stay away from me."

"Okay." Song Yanzheng agreed almost immediately and stood up decisively, fearing that he would upset her.

He walked to the sofa and stood still, still looking at her, just a little further away, but the concentration in his eyes had not diminished in the slightest.

Lin Yan became even more annoyed by his stare.

She picked up the soup, opened the lid and took two sips. It tasted very fresh, without the strong taste of medicinal ingredients. It was indeed stewed with great care.

But she really had no appetite, so she drank half a bowl and put it down.

"You're done eating, you can go out now."

"Yan Yan." Song Yanzheng: "Finish the soup."

Lin Yan didn't want to see him, so she picked up the soup and drank it mechanically: "Can I go out now?"

Song Yanzheng's expression was gloomy. "Well, you should rest for a while. You are tired too. Have a good sleep. If you need anything, call me. I'm next door."

Song Yanzheng had just turned around when Lin Yan called him, "By the way, how is Xing Yingxue?"

"I asked the doctor to treat her injuries. It's nothing serious, don't worry. It's just some minor skin injuries. It will be healed in a few days."

Lin Yan breathed a sigh of relief, but also felt uneasy.

She thought for a moment, then raised her eyes and negotiated with him, "Song Yanzheng, let her go when we get to the next port. Think about Nan Xin, she's not even three years old yet, she can't be without her mother."

Song Yanzheng was silent for a few seconds, walked towards her, slowly squatted down, and looked up at her calmly on the bed.

"Yan Yan, I was angry this morning because Xing Yingxue was planning to take advantage of my mother... I was just trying to scare her, not actually throwing her into the sea. Don't worry, I will let her leave safely, but not now."

"I told you, I only need a few months of your time... As long as you stay by my side and don't even think about running away, I'll do whatever you say..."

As he spoke, Song Yanzheng's voice became a little hoarse, and there was a layer of mist in his eyes.

Mixed with a lot of caution.

He held her hand and buried his forehead in it. Lin Yan could feel his voice trembling.

"Yan Yan... please... stay with me..."

"Actually... I'm very obedient... You don't have to be afraid... I won't hurt you..."

"Look... I actually had many opportunities to force myself on you... but I didn't do it... I didn't dare... I didn't even dare to kiss you... I was afraid you would get angry... I was afraid you would hate me more and more... I was afraid that the look you gave me would only be hatred..."

He slowly raised his head and looked at her, his eyes had become extremely red.

Two tears slid down the corners of my eyes.

All the emotions rolled down with the tears, and finally settled into a compromise that she could not understand.

"Yan Yan... lend me your time for a few months... just consider it alms... stay with me, okay?"

"If you love Xing Yu, then love him... I promise you... I will help you two... But now... can you help me?"