Chapter 121: My Own World (8) Back at the farm, she lay on the bed...

Back at the farm, she lay in bed with a high fever for three days.

I have never been so frightened by the appearance of a person that I had a high fever.

Those people and things that she didn't want to touch at all came back again, as if she had rushed into those battlefields again, with chaos and displacement. She was about to be involved in this endless war. Did she have to meet Chen De on the battlefield again, and return to the last scene of that life?

She doesn't.

I covered myself with the quilt and slept for three days.

The temperature on her forehead almost evaporated her body. Seeing her face flushed red, Code boiled a lot of sulfur tree flowers for her, which are the flowers that can reduce fever here.

She had the dream for three days.

I dreamed that everything was back in chaos, and I dreamed that Chen De's sharp face was staring at me seriously.

She felt that the sun and moon above were scorching hot, and she wished she could fall asleep and never wake up. She seemed to see Chen De holding a sword and rushing towards her with a surging crowd. In this crowd, there were people who wanted to sell her, some who wanted to kill her, some who wanted to marry her with a limp, and some who wanted to tear her into pieces and throw her into a foreign land. She never knew that she was so hated and that so many people wanted to kill her.

After waking up from sleepless nights for several days, she felt dizzy. The dark, starless sky was like an impenetrable wall, and the air pressure was extremely low, pushing her into the distant outer space.

During this time, there was a deep voice saying to her: Liubinghai, wake up, don't be scared to death.

It's the system's cheesy sound.

She finally woke up.

She slept for a few days without seeing the sun, and dreamed of a group of people who made her unable to see the sun.

After waking up, she still felt that her pores were open and there was a cool breeze blowing into her pores.

Ke De's deep eye sockets looked at her deeply: "Sister, you are awake."

Liu Binghai raised his eyelids weakly.

"You've been asleep for three days."

Code almost suspected that she was possessed by a ghost. He heard that in their place, if you encounter dirty things at night, you may fall into a restless sleep. She was obviously able to fight before, but why did she fall into a deep sleep after meeting the girl who wanted to dance with her with swords?

That girl can't be a dirty thing, right?

"Sister, are you okay?" Code said.

Liu Binghai sat up and rubbed his hair. He had slept for a really long time. "I slept for three days?"

"yes."

"Um."

"You're still running a fever. Let me see..." Ke De touched her forehead, feeling relieved. "Okay, the fever isn't that bad anymore."

Liu Binghai's eyes were blurred yet determined.

The confusion was caused by the messy dreams and past events, which made her confused and determined. Well, she didn't want to be mixed up with them again. This was extremely firm.

"What's wrong with you, sister?" Kede said, "That girl must be unclean. You got sick the moment you saw her."

Not clean?

It’s just not clean, hehe.

"It's possible." Liu Binghai suddenly seemed to have grasped some solution and said solemnly, "If you see him next time, stay away from him."

"Ah," said Curd, "I see."

"But that girl is pretty, how could she be unclean?" Code said.

The drifting ice sea looked towards Kede.

She remembered that in their world, there were no ghosts. They only had life forms of different races and dimensions. The "unclean" that Code mentioned was probably not ghosts from the outside world, but ominous creatures of a different race from them that would conflict with them.

In that case, isn’t that woman really an “unclean” thing?

In this life, she is not interested in either black butterflies or white butterflies.

"What's beautiful isn't necessarily clean; it's even more powerful when it's dirty."

Kord… "Are you okay then?"

Liu Binghai: "I'm fine."

You know exactly what's wrong with you.

Tiantian appeared, and according to the timeline, Chen De should also appear.

She was so angry that she was fuming.

There is still a hint of fear lingering.

But she is in the drifting ice sea, and she does not allow herself to be afraid. What is there to be afraid of in this world? It is just a pile of hard rocks.

There is nothing to be afraid of as a living being of Bang.

After rolling her eyes, she picked up the mirror and looked at herself. Perhaps, in this life, she should allow herself to be a little cowardly.

The innocent face in the mirror seemed to accept this change quickly. From now on, she was a coward who was "afraid", "terrified" and "evasive".

I have never done this myself before, so it seems quite fresh.

Thinking of this, her fear faded away. She held up the mirror and said, "Have some more water."

Kede quickly poured her a glass of water.

She drank it all in one gulp and warned, "Remember, you must stay away from that unclean thing. If it comes looking for me again, I will chase it away. If that doesn't work, I will kill it completely."

Ke De was stunned. "Why kill them all?"

Liu Binghai said, "I'll tell you when I think of it. I'm going out for a walk now. Remember to feed the horses and cows. Don't wander around for no reason in the future. How could you possibly run into something unclean? Really."

After saying that, she got out of bed and went outside to the yard.

Code was stunned as he watched her walk away. When he came to his senses, he realized that this woman had told him not to wander around, but now she had disappeared. What would he do if he encountered something unclean again?

It was evening now. She had been sleeping for three days and was groggy and not very clear-headed.

She went to the river and picked some pond flowers.

There are countless flowers and plants here, and many of them can cure diseases. She felt dizzy, so she picked some mountain pond flowers to make tea. This method was discovered when she was hiding in an ancient tomb to steal treasures. One day, she had a headache in the ancient tomb, so she came out to boil water to drink. It happened to be the season when the mountain pond flowers fell from the branches, and they were blown into her kettle by the wind. The kettle had no lid, and the mountain pond flowers were soaked in it for a long time.

After drinking the water, her headache got better and her mind became clearer. After that, in Dazhong City, whenever she was exhausted and couldn't sleep at night because of Chen De, she would pick some mountain pond flowers and make tea with them.

It can be said that the Shantanghua has accompanied her through most of her life's troubles and is also her own little secret.

She picked some mountain pond flowers from a tree by the river and secretly put them in her pocket. She planned not to wander around until she regained her sanity, just in case.

After picking the flowers, she went home and soaked them in mountain pond flower water for a few days. The water had a unique fragrance, and just drinking a glass of it would make her sober quickly.

The drifting ice rested for a few days. One evening, a farmer suddenly came to her door and asked her the price of renting a cow.

It was Tian He, the man who had more land but fewer cattle. He came secretly while it was getting dark and wanted to rent a cow, but he had many concerns and could not stand the criticism from others. He had to ask Liu Binghai to guarantee that he could take the cow away secretly without telling anyone, including the owner of the manor.

Liu Binghai agreed to his request and paid him a copper coin a day. He secretly took a cow back and told Liu Binghai that if there was nothing special, he should not come to his house to find him. If he had anything to announce, he could write a letter and slip it under the crack of his door.

"Okay." Liu Binghai took a deposit of 20 copper coins from him, signed a receipt, and agreed to his request.

For some reason, she still felt uneasy.

Ever since that day, the Great Autumn Festival, she has felt uneasy.

She took out the mirror and looked at herself again. Her oval face was so iconic. It was a pity to see it become an ominous thing here.

But if she wasn't here, where else could she go? Would she still go to Dazhong City to be a guard? Would she still wait for the year and moment to meet Chen De again in the chaos of war?

Although the wheel of history will not rotate in exactly the same way, as long as it takes the same path as the past, it will inevitably meet the past on a similar trajectory.

Putting down the mirror, she thought for a moment, then pocketed the 20 copper coins Tian He had given her and went out.

It was past dinner time and she had no appetite, so she said goodbye to the groom, gave him 10 copper coins, and told Tian He about renting the cow.

The groom was a little surprised: "Is there anyone willing to rent it?"

Liu Binghai said, "Well, he secretly took the cow away. If the cow dies, he will have to pay for a cow. Here is the receipt." She handed the receipt to the groom.

The groom saw the written document and patted Liu Binghai on the shoulder. "Silly boy, if the people here could be reasonable, would we still be living like this?"

So Liu Binghai was in a daze, wondering if she was born in an unreasonable country or a country that "does not recognize relatives".

"Let's do this for now. You keep the money. If you're worried, we can only rent two and keep the rest to sell."

The coachman thought it was feasible, but he felt that it was difficult for a little girl to worry about all these things. He suddenly felt that fate was unfair to her. As the sky gradually darkened, this feeling of injustice and pity became stronger.

He thought that if the owner of the manor came to urge her to get married again next time, he would just fight him off for her. At worst, he would just support her for the rest of her life.

Liu Binghai left the house before it got too dark.

She walked all the way south until she came to the small river and the gray brick house she had seen that day.

There's someone there who seems like someone I could tease a little, or ask about the seasons of spring, autumn, winter, and summer. But I don't know if he'd care to pay attention. After all, autumn has arrived, the weather is getting colder, and people's hearts might also become colder...

There was a gate outside the house, but it was closed today, so she knocked on it.

Tuta opened the door with an unsharpened knife in his hand.

"you……"

"My chest hurts." Liu Binghai said first, and took out a very small blade and a few copper coins from his pocket, "Do you want to sharpen the blade?"

You shouldn't hit a smiling person, nor should you hit a smiling guest, Tuta frowned.

Liu Binghai walked into his yard and said, "I've been feeling dizzy and my heels are particularly sore these past few days. I think it's because the razor blades at home are no longer sharp. Can you sharpen them for me?"

Tuta didn't know what to say to this excuse. Seeing that she looked listless and depressed, it was obvious that she had been lacking energy in recent days.

"The blade also affects your body?"

"In short, I couldn't cut it open at all. It was so strenuous and uncomfortable. Perhaps it was because the weather was too cold on the Great Autumn Festival."

Well, maybe if I find someone to hug me, I can feel warmer.

Tu Ta had no choice but to lead her into the yard and brought a small stool for her, "Sit down."

What was going on today? Was she begging him to rent a cow, or was she begging him to rent a cow for her?

But she obviously did not come for this matter, and never mentioned the matter of renting the cow. It was just that day, after sleeping for three days, she made up her mind to be a "coward", determined to be a coward who could face her inner fears, so she came to practice.

"How many copper coins does it cost to sharpen a blade?" she asked.

Tuta had never taken on this kind of job before, and didn't know how to ask for the price. He also guessed that her motives were not the job, so he didn't want to take advantage of her.

"Forget it, I'll do you a favor this time, I'll sharpen the sword next time."

"Thank you, then."

After saying that, she sat quietly by the side and waited, watching him sharpen the tiny blade very politely.

After it was polished, he handed it back to her. She put it away and felt sad for a while.

"Are you happy alone?" she asked.

Tuta's heart skipped a beat. Could it be that she still wanted to accompany him? This was not what he wanted to see, so he quickly said, "That's fine."

Liu Binghai said sadly, "I've been feeling very tired and exhausted lately."

Tu Ta was speechless. She continued, "My head is always dizzy and I have a lot of nightmares. I wonder if it's because I bumped into something unclean on the night of the Great Autumn Festival, which affected my spirit."

During the Great Autumn Festival, did you bump into something unclean?

He didn't stop and continued to sharpen other knives. He glanced at her and said, "No way."

How could it not be?

Liu Binghai's slender hand brushed through her hair. "Perhaps it's because the autumn wind is too cold. The autumn wind during the Great Autumn Festival hides too much homesickness."

Painted Tower? ?

Can you speak properly?

He glanced at the icy sea and said, "How is it related to homesickness?"

"Of course it's related." Liu Binghai said softly, "This farm and I are naturally incompatible. I just feel sad when I think about it."

Tuta's knife was sharpening, and the faint resentful voice of Liu Binghai could be heard. "It's autumn now, and I'm a little confused. I don't know how to survive on this farm. I think about it and it makes me headache. I can't eat much. I feel very scared in the dead of night."

She spoke one sentence at a time.

Tuta finished sharpening a knife, set it aside, and said in a cold voice, "Why would you be afraid? On the day of the Great Autumn Festival, weren't you still drinking and chatting happily in the market, gambling with others and playing swords to win the mighty battle?"

Um?

Liu Binghai raised his captivating eyes and paused for a long time without changing his expression. "How did you know?"

Tu Ta also remained calm, "I bet you a drink, and you're not afraid anymore."

What the hell...

Was he the one wearing a robe and betting with her over drinks?

No wonder that guy can drink so much, it turns out he has the endurance gained from sharpening his knife...

"Is that you?" she asked again.

Tuta put down his knife and said word by word, "It's autumn and the moon is full. I was just going out to have some fun. I happened to run into you. What a pleasure to meet you."

Liu Binghai lowered his head and thought without saying a word.

"I saw you arm wrestling and swordplaying, and you seemed so relaxed and happy. But after just two days, you developed a headache, a fever, and became confused. I'm afraid this is hallucination, and you need treatment."

Liu Binghai was silent for a long time. "I'm not lying to you. If you were there, did you also see a woman insisting on playing swordplay with me?"

"Yes, a very beautiful woman with a black butterfly on her forehead."

"yes."

"So what? This has nothing to do with your body."

Liu Binghai thought secretly, that woman is not clean, but you all say she is beautiful.

Tuta: "She's from Laihua Township. Their tribe uses the black butterfly as their seal. She's not a bad person. Are you scared by this outsider?"

Liu Binghai was silent for a long time and found that the character of a "coward" was really not suitable for her. If she continued to be weak, she would be pointed at and scolded as "you pretentious woman".

"I won't say any more." Liu Binghai said, "Anyway, I've been feeling very unwell these past few days. Do you know how to treat daily discomfort?"

Tu Ta said bluntly: "Sleep can relieve some of your worries."

Liu Binghai was silent for a long time. "Are you from Honjo?"

Tuta didn't know what she was thinking about, so he delayed and didn't reply.

"I believe you are a kind-hearted person, so could you please tell me how a woman like me can live happily? Without being forced to drift, living a life of mediocrity, or being devastated by the chaos of war?"

You are a kind person, otherwise you would not have secretly sent the medicine to me.

Tuta looked at her pure yet cunning face and fell silent. It was really difficult for a woman like her to live a happy and stable life, unless...

"Find a good man who will protect you for the rest of your life," he said.

Then he saw the light in her eyes.

He sharpened the knife harder. This woman's fiery gaze had lingered in his sight more than three times.

"I can't do it," he said. "You should find someone else."

"Why?"

"You are unlucky."

"What's ominous?"

Tu Ta said firmly, "Everyone says you are unlucky."

Liu Binghai looked at him again and said, "Well, I'll prove to you that I'm auspicious, okay?"

Tuta looked back and saw a pair of very sincere, simple eyes that longed for happiness.

How much this woman wants to fall in love...

She held out her hand, which contained ten copper coins, and told him, "Tian He came to me to rent a cow. He has begun to break through his stubborn beliefs. As a new-age man, shouldn't you also break through?"

After saying that, she put the copper coins back into the pocket of her long gown sleeve.

Little brother, she must pursue him.

We agreed in this life that we would live our lives, have a good relationship, and never ride a horse again.

Her determination to get the little brother's gaze made Tuta feel that she was definitely doomed.

After that, she would go to Tian He's house every now and then to slip him a letter, reminding him of the precautions for raising cattle. Her cows needed to eat tender grass, as old grass was difficult for them to digest. Moreover, the cows were old and had some temper, so she had to accommodate them.

She wrote whatever she thought of, and could finish an email in a few days. If she hadn't promised Tian He to stay away from him, she might have used a loud speaker to play the rules of raising cattle.

Occasionally, I would "encounter" Tu Ta.

But this chance encounter was not too accidental, as it happened to be the time when he was going door to door to return the knives.

If she met him, she would pull him over to chat in the village for a while. Tu Ta didn't really want to chat with her. She would follow him around and nag him like a dog-skin plaster. She was completely different from the woman who wielded a sword and a knife in the night of the Great Autumn Festival.

He felt he needed to show her a better way out, so when she chased him again, he said to her, "Actually, you have another path. You can go to a place in the outside world. You are good with the sword and your skills are not bad. There must be a place for you in the outside world. Dazhong City is a good choice. There you will have a better future with me."

This road has been traveled.

She shook her head firmly, "No."

He patiently advised, "A girl, a girl who is not valued by her family, should have the desire to seek a future and know how to plan for her own future."

Liu Binghai thought for a moment and lowered his head, "You are just annoying me."

This… "I'm not bothering you."

"You can drink quite well, why don't you become a wine gambler?"

this……

"Besides, I'm not unlucky, and I don't want your knife, so what are you afraid of?"

I……

Liu Binghai's eyes turned red. "Am I ugly? Not as beautiful as the butterfly girl that day?"

"No, you..." Tuta lost his composure, "You are no worse than her."

Liu Binghai felt relieved, "Then what are you afraid of?"

I……

Tuta turned around and sat down on the stone steps. He was not afraid of anything, but a woman of unknown identity suddenly

It was really uncomfortable to be so close to him out of nowhere.

Liu Binghai sat beside him, admonishing him earnestly, continuing to counsel him, "I am beautiful as a flower, pure as jade, and have never had any intimacy with men. I am strong, with broad shoulders and a slender waist, and I have a clear mind and eyesight, and I am very intelligent. Only if you can change your conservative thinking can you have a bright future. Otherwise, why are you asking me to learn to plan my own future?"

He was powerless to fight back. In the end, he just watched her nod seriously and said to him, "Think about it carefully. I may be a great asset to your future. The truth is in the hands of a few people."

She gave Tuta a serious lecture, left him alone, and went home.

She passed by the manor and the ridges of the fields.

What she didn't know was that a familiar figure walked past her from a place she couldn't see as she passed by the haystack.

The figure walked farther and farther away, and finally turned around. When he saw her, he called out to her, "Girl."

With just that sound, the icy sea stopped there and could not move for a long time.

She held her breath and slowly turned around. Chen De's face, which she would never forget in her dreams, looked at her with a smile, "Miss, can I ask you about someone?"