A TV drama from the 90s was once the origin of Yu Yin's nightmares, and its ending theme song deeply influenced her.
Yu Yin's childhood was filled with the sounds of her parents argui...
After a good night's sleep in the sky-blue mosquito net, Yu Yin didn't find the rain outside unpleasant anymore. Listening to the sound of the rain was quite atmospheric!
After enjoying two days of comfort, it was time to rest again. Yu Yin thought that she wouldn't need that many mosquito nets, so she changed the ones for her parents as well, and also for that kid Yu Kang.
After the meal, the two of them, carrying the child and a mosquito net, headed towards the Production and Construction Corps where Yu's father worked.
Along the way, all the young people were exhausted and listless, having lost their initial passion.
Young people who once shouted slogans to build up the border regions of the motherland were defeated by the hot and humid environment, the high-intensity labor, and the unsuitable diet.
They were terrified by the unexpected deaths and feared they would be the next unlucky one, forever trapped here, never to return.
Yu Yin has no power to change anything; this is the course of history, and it cannot be changed by individual effort.
"Shurui, what brings you here?"
Lu Shuxin looked at her cousin approaching with delight, feeling quite happy, thinking he had come to see her. Wang Mengyao, following behind her, looked displeased, her heart filled with hatred as she gazed at the family of four.
"We're going to Yu Yin's parents' house. Are you done with work?"
"No, Mengyao isn't feeling well, so I'm going back with her to rest."
In fact, Lu Shuxin herself couldn't hold on any longer and wanted to rest, but she didn't have the same financial resources as Wang Mengyao, whose family provided her with enough subsidies every month to live on.
As for herself, her father didn't care about anything, and her mother favored boys over girls. After she arrived, she never sent her anything again, let alone money or tickets!
"Then you should go back quickly, we're leaving too."
Lu Shurui and her cousin were not close, and later, after the cousin drugged her in collusion with Wang Mengyao, they became even more estranged.
"Stop looking. With that woman around, you won't get anything out of her."
Wang Mengyao gave a sarcastic remark, then turned and left. She was too tired and couldn't take it anymore.
Mother Yu is resting at home today, so their trip wasn't in vain.
"Second sister, I'm back. Did you miss me?"
Yu Kang jumped out of the house, startling Yu Yin.
"Yu Kang, when did you get back?"
"I came back yesterday. I was planning to come find you later, but I didn't expect you to come first, Second Sister."
Eight-year-old Yu Kang is already almost up to Yu Yin's shoulder. He is tall and thin, and he eats a lot, but he doesn't get fat. I don't know where all his food goes.
Where's Mom?
"Sighing inside?"
Did you upset her?
"No, it's just that I heard my older sister was vomiting a lot, and she probably felt sorry for her."
Although Yu Kang is only eight years old, he understands a lot of things.
"Yu Yin, you're here. Sigh, put the baby on the bed, it's too hot to hold him."
Yu Yin put the children on the bed and let them roll around and play. Ever since the two little ones learned to roll over, she dared not leave them alone, for fear that they would roll off the bed.
Lu Shurui looked at the child. Yu Yin was holding a mosquito net, wanting her mother to find time to change it. Before she could say anything, Yu's mother spoke first.
"Yu Yin, could you dry some fruit for your sister and make some pickled bamboo shoots? She's having terrible morning sickness and can barely get out of bed. Dry a lot of fruit, Anze wants some too."
Yu Yin held the mosquito net in her hand, staring blankly at her mother with a somewhat indifferent expression.
"Oh, you want to eat my dried fruit? I don't have time, I can't make it."
Yu Yin refused without hesitation. She's so spoiled; does she really think she's a princess? If she wants to eat something, she just has to ask the Empress Dowager to give the order, and this servant has to scurry to prepare it.
"Isn't that your own sister? What's wrong with siblings helping each other out? I didn't ask you to make anything fancy, just some cheap dried fruit. Why can't I make it?"
Yu's mother shouted angrily, as if Yu Yin had committed some unforgivable crime.
"Oh, now I'm thinking about how brothers and sisters help each other. What has Yu Qing ever helped me with? Not to mention anything else, just this time when I had a difficult childbirth, besides asking you to send me a red envelope, did she send me any nutritional supplements or even a piece of cloth for the baby?"
Yu Yin hadn't wanted to bring up the past, so she happily brought over the new mosquito net, but before she could even say anything, she was already being assigned tasks.
"Doesn't she know these things? Do sisters really need to be so particular about gifts? Didn't she already give a red envelope?"
Yu's mother knew that her eldest daughter had done wrong, but what could she do? She could only try to make amends.
However, the Yu Yin of today is no longer the Yu Yin who silently dedicates herself without saying a word.
"Really? Then I'll give her a red envelope too, and wish her a healthy baby soon, okay?"
Perhaps because she had mixed up the original owner's being disliked and ignored with her own experiences, Yu Yin felt like a live volcano was about to erupt inside her.
"Then why did you say all that? From childhood to adulthood, Yu Qing has never done anything for me. When I was little, other kids laughed at me for being slow-witted, calling me an idiot. Yu Qing felt ashamed of me and wished I had never been born. I still remember her disdainful and hateful look clearly. I may be slow-witted, but I'm not an idiot. What about brothers and sisters? Apart from my older brother and Yu Kang, who doesn't understand much, who has ever truly treated me as a little sister who needs protection and love? From childhood to adulthood, only my older brother has given me a sense of security. Neither you nor Dad have made me feel at ease. I'm constantly worried about being abandoned because of my slow reaction time. Whenever Yu Qing is mocked for being an idiot, she comes home crying, and you always comfort her, not me, the one being insulted. And it's always my older brother who fights with them time and time again because I'm being mocked. You only complain about my slow reaction time, my lack of speech, and my inability to answer questions. But who has ever given me time to answer?"
Yu Yin finally spoke her mind, feeling much better. This was the original owner's sentiment, the unspoken resentment she had harbored towards her parents. If they didn't like her and didn't want to raise her, why did they bring her into this world?
"Yu Kang, come and watch the child for me."
Yu Kang was stunned by his second sister's words. Although he didn't fully understand, he could sense her sadness as she came over to check on the child, sobbing.
Lu Shurui felt a pang of sadness, not only for Yu Yin, but also for the part of herself that refused to dwell on the past. Parents can never truly treat their children equally; human nature is inherently biased.
Looking at Yu Yin, who was trying to hold back her tears, Lu Shurui wished she would cry out loud.
He walked over and hugged Yu Yin, giving this girl who kept her sadness hidden in her heart a place to lean on, to replace her brother, and to make her feel safe.
Yu Yin was quietly held by Lu Shurui, and her body slowly relaxed.
I've talked too much just now, and I feel completely drained; I'm even trembling a little. If Lu Shurui hadn't come over, I might have collapsed to the ground.
Yu's mother was also shocked. She never expected that Yu Yin was such a biased mother, harboring so much resentment, yet she herself had not noticed it at all.
The room was eerily quiet.
"Wow..."
"Second sister, come quick! Pingping and An'an have peed."
Yu Yin and Lu Shurui snapped out of their daze, went over to change the two little ones' diapers, packed their things, and left with the children in their arms.