Having a high fever, Fu Shi returned to Jiangnan Garden and slept for two days. He always saw Yun Li when he was half asleep and half awake.

Fu Shi was awakened by the pain, his abdomen was throbbing as if cut by a knife, his forehead was covered with sweat, and in front of him was the snow-white ceiling and white light tubes of the hospital ward.

Two days of fasting due to sleepiness, two years of irregular eating and drinking paid off overnight.

Seeing that he had woken up, Fu Dongsheng quickly stood up and said, "Don't move. Lie down."

Fu Shi frowned: "What's going on?"

"Gastric perforation. It's not a big problem. Your parents have arranged for you to have the surgery this afternoon." Fu Dongsheng comforted him, "Don't be afraid, son. It's a minor operation. You will be fine after a good night's sleep."

“…”

Fu Shize felt very heavy-headed: "Is the funeral over?"

Fu Dongsheng nodded and comforted him, "It's normal to be sad. The old man is old, and we have to accept this. I showed grandma the photo you sent me with Lili. The old man should have no regrets."

Fu Shi was silent for a while, then asked, "What time is it now?"

Fu Dongsheng glanced at his watch: "One o'clock in the afternoon."

I vaguely remember that it was early morning before I fell down, and Fu Shi asked, "What day is it today?"

"Number 26."

——Two days later.

I haven't contacted Yunli for two days.

Fu Shize's lips turned pale and he asked him, "Where's my cell phone?"

"Son, can you treat the disease first..."

"cell phone."

Fu Dongsheng reluctantly rummaged through the bag next to him and took out his cell phone. It took more than ten seconds to turn it on.

While waiting, Fu Shizhe pinched his abdomen with his five fingers.

After turning on the phone, he immediately switched to the chat interface with Yunli.

Yesterday morning's message.

Yunli: [My brother is sick. I am going back to Xifu now. Can you go back with me? ]

There is no new information.

"Dad, let's do the surgery later." Fu Shi pursed his lips and tried to get up.

When he straightened his body, the severe pain made him bend over again. His body fell to the side, and the IV bottle was pulled to the ground and exploded into pieces.

-

There was a heavy rainstorm in Nanwu these two days, and the dark clouds made it hard to breathe. Yunli stayed at home, doing questions that she couldn't understand.

The school term at South China University of Technology has already started. There are many classes this semester and they are quite difficult. She had trouble keeping up with the first week of classes.

If Fu Shizhe were here, things would be much better.

Yunli was tired from doing the exercises and stared at the empty seat next to him in a daze for a while.

During the two rainy days, Yunli did not receive any WeChat or phone calls from Fu Shizhe. She took the initiative to send several messages, but Fu Shizhe did not reply.

She felt sad, but also thought it was normal.

It's like, this is how everything should develop.

Fu Shize didn't come to see her, probably because he wanted to break up.

She didn't know what it was like for a relationship to end, after all, she had never tried it.

She didn't take the initiative to look for him.

She seemed a little tired too.

Yunli sniffed and continued to do her homework. She tried hard to keep her life normal, as if she could deceive herself that everything was fine.

When Yang Fang called her, Yun Li was racking her brains to struggle with a problem.

Yang Fang's tone was a little anxious: "Your brother started to have a high fever last night, 39 degrees, and he didn't get better after taking medicine."

She has a soft temper and doesn't know how to deal with things. Hearing her tone, Yunli didn't take it too seriously. She herself would have a fever every one or two years: "He can still have such a fever at his age. Let's go to the hospital and get an IV drip to reduce the fever."

"He was so dizzy from the fever that he couldn't even speak clearly. He just kept counting and mumbling 'one, one, one'." Yang Fang said anxiously, "I'll ask your father to come back quickly. I can't support your brother."

Yun Li comforted her with a few words, and then Yun Yongchang went home.

Yunli hung up the phone and put down the pen in her hand. Her thoughts stopped, and she recalled the previous phone calls when Yunye frowned and said he was not feeling well.

In less than half an hour, Yun Yongchang sent a text message: [Go home]

Just two simple words, without any explanation, and more like no time to explain.

Yunli couldn't help but tremble. He stood up from the chair, held his breath and opened the ticket booking software with trembling hands. After repeatedly pressing the wrong button several times, he booked the next flight.

The loading time was slow and every step of the ticket booking process seemed to be infinitely prolonged.

Yunli took her ID card and went out without taking any other belongings. The cold wind did not bring back any sanity to her.

No matter what conflicts they had had before, Yun Li still hoped that Fu Shi Ze would be by his side when such a big thing happened.

Yunli called Fu Shize several times, but no one answered. She quickly edited a message and sent it, then took a taxi to Nanwu Airport.

Unspeakable fear shrouded Yunli's heart.

Although she knew she should be rational now, all kinds of terrible possibilities kept flashing through her mind, and the scene of Yunye talking to her kept appearing in her mind.

Fu Shize didn't reply to the message until he got on the plane.

When the plane just landed, Yun Li had already reconnected to the Internet. When he saw the text message from Yun Yongchang, his mind went blank.

【Signed the critical illness notice.】

[Come slowly, don't rush, we are in the emergency room of the People's Hospital now. ]

When Yun Li arrived at the hospital, Yun Ye had already been transferred to the inpatient department. The hospital only allowed one person to stay with the patient, and Yang Fang cried so hard that the hospital made an exception and allowed Yun Yongchang and Yang Fang to stay inside.

Yun Yongchang came out and told Yun Li that it was cholecystitis that turned into acute pancreatitis and that an expedited surgery would be scheduled for tomorrow evening. Yang Fang still couldn't accept the reality and refused to come out.

Yunli sat in the corridor of the hospital, looking blankly at the people walking back and forth, the tears that continued to flow from her eyes made her vision blurred. She had a feeling of unreality, always thinking that Yunye should still be in school now, instead of lying in the hospital bed.

She suddenly remembered what Yunye had told her.

Yunye said something was wrong with him.

She didn't care.

She could have discovered it earlier.

In the past, whenever she felt a little uncomfortable, Yunye would drag her to the hospital.

A great sense of guilt and helplessness surged into her heart.

At lunch time, Yun Li went downstairs to buy lunch boxes and gave them to Yun Yongchang and Yang Fang. Yun Yongchang looked ten years older, with red eyes: "Go home and stay here. Come back tomorrow after the surgery."

"Dad, I understand. Call me if you have anything."

"Yeah." Yun Yongchang responded and returned to the ward.

Yunye's door can be seen from the gate of the inpatient department. Yunli imagined that Yunye would suddenly get better, come out by himself, and rudely look down on her dejected face.

However, they are all shadows of strangers.

Yunli couldn't help but look up the disease online. When she saw the 10% mortality rate, she collapsed on her knees. She didn't dare to imagine the worst case scenario, nor did she dare to go home, fearing that Yunye's condition would worsen in the middle of the night and she wouldn't be able to see him for the last time.

I never thought that Yunye would have anything to do with the word death.

I slept all night huddled in the hospital corridor.

Worried about missing any messages, she kept her phone on.

It wasn't cold in Xifu, but the temperature at night was about 10 degrees, which was uncomfortable. When Yunli woke up in the middle of the night, he looked at the lights that were always on, and there was no one around.

She opened the chat interface between herself and Fu Shizhe.

Suddenly, Yunli felt sad. They had been in a cold war for so long and their relationship was on the verge of breaking down. But now, she really hoped that Fu Shize could be by her side.

Early the next morning, Yin Yucheng called Yun Li. She didn't want to answer the call, but the other party persisted and called her several times.

After the call was connected, it was Yin Yunyi who spoke: "Sister, Yunye used to send me a text message every day, but he hasn't sent me any in the past two days, and I can't contact him. I want to ask, what's happening with Yunye recently?"

Yunli was silent.

Silence usually means bad news.

"Can you tell me?" Yin Yunyi's voice was filled with tears. "Sister, we agreed to meet during the summer vacation. Did something happen to him..."

She lost control of her emotions, and Yin Yucheng took over the call. He asked, "Did something happen?"

Yunli briefly described Yunye's situation.

When Yunli woke up in the corridor of the hospital, he realized that he had been sleeping for a while. Yin Yucheng sent him a WeChat message, saying that their flight would arrive in Xifu at 2 pm.

When the two arrived, Yin Yunyi's eyes were already red and swollen from crying. While calling Yunye's name, Yunli rubbed her head absentmindedly.

Yunli sat in a chair in the corner in silence.

Yin Yucheng walked over to her and squatted down, comforting her: "Don't worry too much. Acute pancreatitis is a very common disease. If you get to the doctor in time, the operation will go smoothly."

Yunli didn't listen to him. She whispered, "You stay with Yunyi. I want to be alone."

Yin Yucheng didn't say anything more. He put a bottle of water for her and sat back next to Yin Yunyi.

Yunye's surgery went as scheduled. During the operation, Yunli received a reply message from Fu Shizhe.

[Lili, I have something to do. I will come to see you in a few days.]

Yunli's heart was tense, waiting for the operation to be over.

The operation went smoothly. Yun Ye Ren was not awake yet, but the doctor said he was out of danger. Yun Li breathed a sigh of relief.

Visiting was allowed only during the day on the next day. Yin Yunyi didn't want to stay overnight in the hotel and insisted on waiting in the hospital.

Yunli sat on the chair.

Looking to the side, Yin Yunyi was resting her head on Yin Yucheng's legs. The little girl felt cold, so she curled up and covered herself with Yin Yucheng's coat.

Yunli asked hesitantly, "Yunyi, come here, do uncle and aunt know?"

"How is that possible?" Yin Yucheng touched his head. "She cried in front of me for a long time. I felt sorry for my sister, so I told my parents that I was taking her to a B&B."

"Yunyi has been pampered since childhood, but I didn't expect that he would be so hardworking for your brother now." Yin Yucheng glanced at the iron chair.

She and Yunye are not even a couple, they just have a crush on each other.

The taut thread broke, and Yunli was a little overwhelmed. She stood up and walked to the end of the corridor, where there was a stairwell.

There was no light inside, so she walked in. Fu Shizhe called her more than a dozen times that night, but she was watching Yunye's surgery and didn't answer.

Yunli called him back.

The call was answered immediately by the other end, and it was a long-lost, yet extremely unfamiliar voice that made her feel: "Lili."

His voice was very soft and he seemed to have no strength.

Why couldn't he come to her directly like Yin Yunyi did?

Why, all this time, he couldn't like her a little more.

Her eyes were wet, and the long-standing resentment was trying to find a burst point. She had a lot of dissatisfaction, sadness and pain that she wanted to let him know.

But in the end she said nothing.

She wasn't going to accuse.

She only said one sentence -

"Let's break up."

“…”

There was a long silence on the other end of the phone.

Every word came through the phone and hit Fu Shi Ze hard.

It seemed to be Yunli's illusion. There was a faint tremor in his voice. Fu Shi asked her, "Is it because I didn't go to see you?"

Yunli hardened his heart and said, "There is this reason, and there are other reasons as well."

“…”

It was quiet, with only the occasional noise of wind.

Yunli thought he would ask further questions.

But after a long time, there was only a barely audible sound——

"good."

New and old contradictions accumulated together, and Yun Li spoke without thinking, but she did not expect that Fu Shi would agree directly.

Yunli hung up the phone in a daze.

She walked back to the corridor and saw Yin Yunyi waking up, sobbing and saying that she had a nightmare.

Yunli also felt like he had had a very long nightmare.

Yin Yucheng glanced at Yunli and handed her his scarf: "You should take a rest too."

Yunli shook his head.

She stayed awake all night.

It was not until the middle of the night when she was startled by footsteps in the corridor that she reacted belatedly.

She and Fu Shizhe broke up.

…

Yunye woke up early in the morning. He had almost no memory of the entire process from the onset of the disease to the operation. He looked at his position in a daze.

When Yin Yunyi came in to visit, her eyes were still red. Yunye pretended to be relaxed and focused all his attention on the postcard he received last time.

Seeing that Yunye was still in good spirits, Yunli relaxed a little.

He still needs to stay in the hospital for a week. Yin Yucheng and Yin Yunyi returned to Nanwu, and Yun Li came to stay with him.

Yun Ye was young and recovered quickly. Two days later, he asked Yang Fang to hand over the exercise books at home to do the exercises. Yun Li was a little speechless: "Can't you just take a good rest?"

Yunye and she disliked each other: "I want to apply to Xi'an University of Science and Technology, don't bother me."

Yunli looked at him: "Don't get sick again."

Yunye had already heard about the dangerous process, and said with his eyes lowered, "I know."

-

When the boy was doing his homework, Yunli would support his chin and stare blankly, unconsciously thinking of Fu Shi Ze in Nanwu.

When Yunli went back with the porridge that Yang Fang had sent, Yunye was trying to get out of bed.

Yunli pushed him to the bed and said, "Stay."

"Damn, I'm going to get hemorrhoids." Yun Ye said dissatisfiedly. He looked up and saw Yun Li's haggard appearance, then closed his mouth again.

Yunli opened the lunch box and found porridge, still piping hot.

She scooped a spoonful, blew on it and handed it to Yunye's lips.

"..." Yunye stepped back in disdain, "Yunli, you are my sister, not my mother, I will drink it by myself."

Yunli had been patient for a few days. Seeing that he looked very good, she hit him on the head mercilessly and started nagging again.

"Yunli." Yunye interrupted her, "When will you return to Nanwu?"

"what?"

"It's so noisy. Go and talk to your brother-in-law. I need a quiet environment to recover." As soon as Yun Ye said this, Yun Li's face fell. He was stunned for a moment and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Yun Li pretended to be indifferent and said, "I broke up with your brother-in-law... your ex-brother-in-law." She forced a smile and said, "It's not a big deal, just take care of yourself."

"Oh." Yunye took a while to react, "Break up? Who proposed it?"

Yunli: “I suggested…”

"Oh." Yunye tapped his spoon in the lunch box a few times. After a while, he asked in disbelief, "Didn't you pursue her for seven years?"

"The past doesn't count. Chasing someone is one thing, breaking up is another. These are two different things."

"Why did you break up?" Yun Ye looked confused, "Isn't your brother-in-law very good to you?"

He added: “It’s good for me too.”

“…”

"Don't worry about it." Yun Li said impatiently, "He doesn't like me that much. The problems between us have been going on for a long time."

At this point, her chest felt like it had been punched hard. She lowered her voice a little, and with red eyes, she tried to convince herself: "It's normal for relationships to break up and get back together."

She raised her eyes to look at Yunye, controlling her expression to be calm, and wiped the tears that flowed uncontrollably from her cheeks with the back of her hand: "It's normal, right?"

The time is too short.

It was so short that she still felt that she hadn't digested the emotions yet. The pain was still vivid in her mind, as if it happened just yesterday.

Yunye also fell silent.

Yunli was his elder sister, she was always strong in front of him, and she was never weak when protecting him outside. At this time, he didn't know how to comfort her.

He held Yunli's hand like he did when they were little and comforted her, "Sister, don't be sad."

"You still have me. You and Yin Yunyi are tied for first place."

-

I haven't been back to Nanwu for a long time, the fish food in the automatic feeder is empty, and several little goldfish have passed away.

The chat history between the two stopped at that breakup phone call.

Yunli: [I will go to Jiangnanyuan to pick up my things at 2 o'clock tomorrow afternoon.]

The chat interface kept showing "input in progress". After a few minutes, there was only one word: [OK.]

When he arrived at Jiangnan Garden, Yunli only took away things that had nothing to do with Fu Shizhe.

When she left, the balcony was clean, with a lonely chair on it where she left her key.

She deleted all contact information related to Fu Shi Ze and their photos together.

The internship at EAW was over. Yunli returned the apartment in Qilixiangdu without paying the deposit.

There are so many memories in this apartment.

When packing her luggage, Yunli noticed the photo taken a long time ago that was stuffed into the sofa. In the audience, he was looking at her with a rebellious look on his face, and she was uneasy.

For some unknown reason, she stuffed the photo into her notebook.

The bunny balloon at the head of the bed had lost its air and was hanging deflated on the floor.

Recalling that Halloween, he pulled her behind him, and she seemed to see those eyes again. Yunli's nose was sore, and she took one last look and closed the door.

Deng Chuqi caught up with the last batch of applications and received a master's offer from a school in the UK. She went to the UK in advance to work as a research assistant.

This opportunity also reminded Yunli of what his mentor once said.

The procedures for overseas exchange went smoothly. With the help of her tutor Zhang Tianqi, she will go to a British university for an exchange for one year.

As usual, Yun Yongchang opposed it, and when her kind persuasion failed, she simply ignored him.

Yunli stayed in Nanwu until July.

Occasionally, when the courier knocked on the door, she would have a momentary illusion.

Perhaps he and others had inquired about her new residence.

Maybe he came to see her.

In mid-July, Yunli arrived in the UK and rented a house.

Deng Chuqi and she are in different cities.

She dealt with all kinds of strangers independently in this strange city. She still had fear and resistance in her heart, but she did not retreat.

Living in a foreign country is not easy, so she often turns on live broadcasts to chat with fans.

The fans changed again and again.

Several die-hard fans will appear regularly, including the efe seen earlier.

Somehow, Yunli opened the homepage of efe. It was empty, with no gender symbol.

Over time, the two gradually became friends, and efe accompanied her through the most difficult period in a foreign country.

A few months later, Efe said to send her a postcard.

She received them one after another, all postcards were from Xifu. She could tell at a glance that the handwriting was not Fu Shizhe's, and he should be in Nanwu.

That’s right.

It has been half a year since they broke up.

Yunli felt that he was daydreaming.

Yunli goes out early and comes back late, focusing all his energy on his studies and updating the videos on E-Station.

When Yunli returned home from the laboratory that day, he put his lunch box in the microwave to heat it up.

While waiting, Yunli was still reading the post that was popular at that time.

It has recently returned to the hot list.

This is a long time ago post, but there are still a steady stream of new comments.

She looked at the boy in the video.

Unconsciously, Yunli also clicked on the reply box.

After hesitating for a long time, he finally made up his mind and began to carefully consider each word and type the next line.

It seems like I am comforting others, but also like I am comforting myself.

——Fortunately, I was brave enough and at least I met the moon.