Chapter 55 Chapter 55 Life is very difficult to explain.

"Really?" Feng Han's eyes were filled with disbelief. "I... can I keep this child?"

Mu Xi nodded gently, "Really."

Feng Han wiped his eyes and asked, "My wife, are you saying this because I'm crying?"

Mu Xi laughed, "If that's the case, then I'm too easily persuaded."

She took a deep breath and said solemnly, "I'm telling the truth. If you think about it and still want to keep the child, then I agree."

After hearing what she said, Feng Han still couldn't stop crying. He looked at Mu Xi through tears in his eyes, thinking that he was being too pretentious, and turned his face away embarrassedly.

Mu Xi was still wiping his tears and comforting him, "It's okay, you're pregnant now, this is normal."

Feng Han looked at her while sobbing, "I thought my wife would firmly tell me that she doesn't want this child."

He thought, it's like he firmly doesn't want me.

Mu Xi gently wiped away his tears and remained silent.

Feng Han finally stopped crying, sniffed, looked at Mu Xi, and spoke to her as if he had sworn.

"Don't worry, my lady. Even if I keep this child, I can still live the life you desire. The child and I will not be a burden to you, and I will not use the child to threaten you."

Mu Xi chuckled, "What are you talking about? How can a child grow up without a mother?"

After hearing her words, Feng Han was stunned.

After a long while, he finally thawed his frozen throat and asked in a hoarse voice, "Wh...what do you mean?"

After discovering that he could successfully make a sound, Feng Han quickened his pace and asked again, "What does my wife mean by this?"

Mu Xi pursed her lips and said softly, "I am willing to raise this child with you."

She paused and added, "Of course, my financial resources are not as good as yours. I've never thought about having children, so I don't know how much it will cost to raise a child. It may sound easy, but I will still have to use your money when the time comes..."

"What money?" Feng Han's expression was indescribable. It looked like he was still crying, but also like he was laughing. "Why are you talking about money for no reason..."

He excitedly restrained Mu Xi's hand and stared into her eyes. "What do you mean by being willing to raise this child with me?"

Mu Xi blinked and frowned, wondering if what she said was not clear enough?

She recalled each word and felt that it was clear enough.

Feng Han looked at her for a long time and asked, "Are you willing to stay with me?"

Mu Xi blinked, thinking that he had grasped the key point well. She smiled and nodded.

Fenghan's heart suddenly sank.

"Because of this child?"

Mu Xi thought for a moment and replied, "Because the child needs a mother."

Feng Han smiled bitterly. "I will be a very good father." He said, "I don't mean to tie you down with this child... Well, maybe I did, but what I said just now is true."

Mu Xi nodded gently, "I know."

She paused and said, "I have a friend..."

Mu Xi talked about the story of her friend, who came from a single-parent family but actually had no father or mother.

Her... friend has always believed that a family of three is essential since childhood, and she lives like an alien in that world.

Her friend had never thought about having children, but she said that if she had a child one day, she would never let her live in a single-parent family.

Fenghan stopped crying and began to ponder something.

Mu Xi laughed and asked him, "Or do you really just want a child of your own and don't need a mother?"

Feng Han looked at her, shook his head, and spoke after a long time.

"Of course I hope you can stay with me, but now that you really did this, I...I don't know whether to be happy or sad."

Mu Xi does not value this child, but she is willing to give up her life ideals for this unborn little life.

Fenghan felt very uncomfortable.

Although it was such a happy thing to be able to tie her up with the child, Fenghan couldn't feel happy for a moment.

Mu Xi pinched Feng Han's face and said, "Okay, we've finished talking about this matter. Let's make this decision."

She said, "Now that you've made the decision, you must take it seriously. Pay attention to your emotions, don't overthink it, get enough rest, and ensure the baby is born safely, okay?"

Feng Han grabbed Mu Xi's hand and asked her hesitantly, "Madam, are you really willing to stay with me forever?"

Mu Xi was silent for a moment, then smiled at him, "Have you forgotten? I usually don't make promises, but once I do, I won't regret it, won't change it, and I'll keep my word."

Fenghan's expression was a little strange.

Mu Xi asked him, "You said you liked me before, but that wasn't a lie again, right?"

Feng Han shook his head slightly, looked at Mu Xi for a while, and then hugged her.

His voice was hoarse as he whispered, "I want to keep this child, but I also want my wife to be with me, and I don't want her to suffer any grievances..."

As she spoke, she seemed to be about to cry again.

Mu Xi gently stroked his face, "It's okay, I actually... haven't suffered any injustice."

This was the result Feng Han came to after careful consideration. It was the true voice in his heart. He decided to listen to this voice, so he said those words and shed those tears.

Similarly, Mu Xi did not make the decision in the heat of the moment.

After Bai Yi issued the notice, Mu Xi also thought a lot.

My meeting and acquaintance with Fenghan have led to the point where we now have a child.

And there is Ji Lian, the fiancé who was originally pinned on the main board.

Of course, the Second Princess is indispensable, and perhaps the Third and Fourth Princesses are also watching in secret, ready to launch an attack at any time.

In the ten years since I came into this world, what does Fenghan mean to me among all the people I know?

Feng Han is undoubtedly the most important one among all the people he thought of.

After Mu Xi understood this, making decisions about other things was not as difficult as she had imagined.

The Second Princess would not let her off easily, and Ji Lian was powerless to do anything about it. Or even if he was able to solve the problem, he might not help her. He was still thinking about creating a great cause with his wife.

Feng Han... Feng Han came to her... No, Feng Han's purpose in getting involved with her was originally the most bloody, but now the plot has suddenly changed, and the hardcore bloodiness has been changed into a pure love warrior.

Mu Xi decided to choose Feng Han.

Children are only part of the reason, but by no means all of it.

Fenghan and the child were the only reasons why she made this decision.

Mu Xi said: "Actually, it's not as aggrieved as you think..."

Fenghan sobbed and looked at her with tears in his eyes.

"My dear, I can raise the child by myself. I will be a good father. You don't have to worry."

"That's my child too. Are you trying to exclude me completely by saying this now?" Mu Xi teased him with a smile.

Feng Han frowned and said with a sad face: "You know that's not what I meant..."

"Yes." Mu Xi took a deep breath and said softly, "Anyway, we have decided to keep this child now. Isn't that right? As for the other things, if you still have any doubts, we can put them aside for now."

Feng Han's eyes were swollen from crying. He lay beside Mu Xi, who was lying on her side, looking at him quietly.

Both of them were in a daze, not knowing what the other was thinking at the moment.

Feng Han was the first to come back to his senses. He noticed Mu Xi's focused gaze and was stunned at first, then shocked.

He covered his red and swollen eyes, which also disturbed Mu Xi who was in a daze.

Mu Xi was amused by his childish behavior, "What are you doing?"

She pulled Fenghan's hand down. Fenghan looked reluctant and spoke in a low voice, as if he was accusing something.

"Why do you keep looking at me, ma'am?"

Mu Xi took Feng Han's hand in hers and asked him, "You have made up your mind to let this child inherit your business, right?"

In fact, she would rather her child live an ordinary life, but think about it, maybe being the leader of a faction in this world might be more promising.

Take myself as an example, her ideal is to become an ordinary person. Ideal means that you think about it but have not yet realized it.

She thought so, but the original owner had a special identity.

Life is very difficult to explain.

Facts have proved that when ordinary people encounter difficulties, it is difficult to fight against them even if they try their best.

But it is very hard to climb up like Fenghan.

Feng Han thought about Mu Xi's question and suddenly calmed down.

Lying together and talking about the future of their children is like an ordinary couple. He likes such moments very much and is happy to have such a comfortable feeling.

"That's what I thought, but things are unpredictable. Before I met my wife, I thought I would be alone for the rest of my life. Who knew I would have a wife and a child now?"

Feng Han was silent for a moment, remembering that he had promised Mu Xi that he would never lie to her again.

Still telling the truth.

"I became the head of Beiqu Pavilion. I told my subordinates it was because Feng Xin was unworthy, but in reality, it was to survive and to prove myself. If my child doesn't want to inherit, that's fine. She can do whatever she wants."

Mu Xi smiled. "You're quite open-minded." She commented, "I feel like you'd be a doting father."

"My wife seems to be the one who would spoil the child. I am very strict." Feng Han retorted in a low voice.

Mu Xi smiled, Feng Han approached her, first hugged her waist, and when she didn't refuse, he hooked his arms around her neck and offered her a kiss.

When both of them were out of breath, they regained some of their sanity and forced themselves to separate.

Feng Han looked at Mu Xi's moist lips and felt that it was not enough to satisfy him. If he really wanted to satisfy himself, he might have to tear this person apart and eat him.

He felt that after becoming pregnant, he might become more beastly than before, and he didn't dare to even mention these dark thoughts.

Feng Han had no choice but to close his eyes and slow down his breathing. Mu Xi calmed down much faster than him.

I couldn't help laughing when I saw him.

"We shouldn't actually live together anymore. It's such a mess."

"No." Feng Han opened his eyes immediately after hearing this, "What I need most now is to be with my wife."

Mu Xi smiled and said, "Okay." She pampered him again.

Bai Yi knew at the same time as Mingyu and Yingzhang that they had decided to keep the child.

They were all very happy and their joy was beyond words.

Mingyu and Yingzhang have already started discussing the child's name.

Bai Yi smiled and said, "There's no need for us to come up with a name. It's naturally up to you and me. It's still early, you can take your time to think of it."

Mu Xi had never thought about the question of name before.

She subconsciously looked at Feng Han and found that he was also looking at her with a smile.

Bai Yi's diagnosis that day was still good. The child was normal and the calamity of impermanence had disappeared.

Knowing that they decided to keep the child, Bai Yi felt relieved. She looked at Feng Han with a slightly complicated look.

Bai Yi is not only Feng Han's most trusted doctor, but also his elder and his subordinate. The two have a close relationship.

Feng Han did not miss Bai Yi's gaze. He understood it and knew what the other person was thinking. Everything was implied.

A cold wind blew in the evening and Mu Xi sneezed. Feng Han took out the clothes he had prepared for Mu Xi.

He said embarrassedly that this was done by the shopkeeper as agreed upon at the time, and that he himself did not do it well and did not want to embarrass himself by showing it.

Mu Xi asked to see it, but Feng Han said it was not finished yet and he wanted to revise it and show it to her after it was done.

Feng Han thought a lot when he was pregnant. He patiently recounted his encounter and acquaintance with Mu Xi from beginning to end over and over again.

At night, he hugged Mu Xi and asked her if she was still angry with him.

Mu Xi said, "It's okay."

Feng Han guessed that she was still angry, so he tried all kinds of ways to please her.

Mu Xi spends most of her time in Bitian Villa reading and writing.

There are many books available for purchase in Yucheng, much more than in Luan County.

But Mu Xi would occasionally think of Feng Han, the child, and the fact that she would never be able to return to Luan County to teach while reading.

Then she quickly realized that you can't have your cake and eat it too, and it has been like this since ancient times.

Who am I? Why should God show mercy to me?

After thinking about it several times, I no longer felt unfair.

Especially when Mu Xi saw that Feng Han's belly was no longer as flat as before and was slightly bulging, she realized that she was really going to become a mother.

Her child was in the belly of the man in front of her.

She empathizes with pregnant men more than any other woman in the world because she comes from modern society, where this role originally belonged to women.

She was about to give birth to a child for her, Mu Xi thought, what else could she not get over?

So when Feng Han asked her again if she was still angry, Mu Xi replied, "No, I'm not angry anymore."

Feng Han refused to believe it, and insisted that she was annoyed by his questions, so she lied to fool him. After analyzing it, he still asked her if it was true.

Mu Xi was stunned by what she heard.

It turns out that he came with a question in mind to ask for the answer, and when he heard an answer that he didn't think could be categorized as "correct," he said the respondent was lying.

Mu Xi was very confused, so what kind of answer did Feng Han want her to give?

She didn't understand and didn't comprehend.

Ji Lian has been in Yucheng and has not left.

He came to see Mu Xi twice, but was stopped outside by Feng Han.

Feng Han said that he could contact Mu Xi, but he had to send a letter through him first.

After all, in the eyes of the people of Yucheng, they are just an ordinary couple. In what capacity does Ji Lian frequently contact his wife?

It is of no benefit to Mu Xi or Ji Lian's own reputation.

Ji Lian was holding back his anger and said that he just wanted to see Mu Xi.

Feng Han spoke frankly and said that his wife didn't want to see him.

"Even if you want to be a mistress, it depends on whether the wife is willing to accept you. Obviously, she is not willing."

Ji Lian was angry and left. Mu Xi knew that Ji Lian came to see her, but she was not sure whether to meet him or not. Feng Han volunteered to see him off, and Mu Xi agreed.

But she didn't expect Feng Han to speak so aggressively, as if he was under stress. However, Feng Han had been fulfilling his promise since he said he would never lie to her again.

As long as Mu Xi asked, he would always tell the truth.

Mu Xi thought about it and took the initiative to make an appointment with Ji Lian. After informing Feng Han, she met with Ji Lian.

Although Fenghan was reluctant, he touched his belly and let her go.

He also told Mu Xi not to be afraid, and that he would protect her in secret.

He also told Mu Xi that she didn't have to accept any promises made by the Second Princess and that she didn't have to do anything for her.

Fenghan said he had other plans.

"He keeps saying that you, Xi Niang, are his wife and mistress. Is that true? Has your relationship reached this point?"

Ji Lian's eyes turned red the moment he saw Mu Xi.

Mu Xi had no time to tell whether this was a true expression of feelings or an act. She whispered in her heart that they had actually taken it a step further and they even had a child.

“…I guess so.”

Ji Lian clenched his fists tightly in his sleeves, and when he sat down, he placed them on his legs, trying not to tremble with anger, which made it too obvious.

"Why him?" Ji Lian gritted his teeth and asked, "Feng Han is not a good man. He killed his mother and sister, did all kinds of evil, and lied continuously. Doesn't Xi Niang know?"

Mu Xi had actually thought about this question, but what she was thinking now was that Ji Lian had already regarded Feng Han as her love rival, but still didn't understand him at all.

Fenghan doesn't even have a sister.

Mu Xi sighed and said, "Maybe sometimes making a choice requires comparison..."

Just after she finished saying this, Mu Xi met Ji Lian's shocked gaze as she looked up. She paused and added, "Maybe sometimes the order in which we meet is important."

These two sentences were actually Mu Xi's true words. The former was even more important to Mu Xi than the latter.

Ji Lian's eyes became redder and redder.

Mu Xi could almost see the tears welling up in his eyes, and her heart sank. Was she going to see a man cry again in such a short time?

Fortunately, Ji Lian didn't cry.

Feng Han and Mu Xi were quite familiar with each other. Perhaps because of this, Mu Xi felt that Feng Han was open and honest in front of her. He cried when he wanted to cry and laughed when he wanted to laugh. Sometimes... at certain times, he let himself go too much, and Mu Xi felt embarrassed, but Feng Han wouldn't do that.

He was very enthusiastic, perhaps because of the crisis of lies in the past, he tried his best to let Mu Xi see the truest side of himself.

Ji Lian had his own dignity to maintain. When he felt he was about to cry, he turned his face away and raised his hand to wipe it away.

Mu Xi had no choice but to pretend not to see it.

Adult restraint is respectable.

"Are you looking for me because of the Second Princess?" Mu Xi asked Ji Lian.

"Did you choose Fenghan because of the Second Princess?" Ji Lian asked instead of answering.

Mu Xi was silent for a moment. Ji Lian turned to look at her. Her eyes were still red, but the tears in her eyes had disappeared. Moisture spread in the corners of her eyes. Mu Xi could only pretend not to see it.

"Not only that." Mu Xi said, "That's all I can tell you."

Ji Lian smiled bitterly. "I didn't come to you because of her. I wanted to ask you when you would come back to Wu Yue Tower with me, but when I thought about how you didn't want to see my mother and father from the beginning, I couldn't bring myself to ask."

He said, "There are still some of your mother's former subordinates in Wuyue Tower, although not many. But because I don't know if you are willing, I haven't told them that you are still alive, nor have I told them that I have found you."

Mu Xi raised her hand, her eyes determined. She looked at Ji Lian and said, "Let them all think I'm dead, okay?"

Ji Lian's face became increasingly ugly, and he did not agree.

Mu Xi said, "It seems like I haven't asked you to do me any favors since we met. This is the only one, okay? Let them all think I'm dead."

She was silent for a moment, thinking of other possibilities, and then she said, "Even if someone has heard that I might still be alive, please let them think that I'm dead now, okay? You can make up any excuse you want, please."

Ji Lian fell into a long silence, and he kept looking at Mu Xi.

After a while, Ji Lian sneered, with a mocking look on his face.

He said, "Even if I help you spread this fake news, what's the point? Feng Han will still pass on the news that you are still alive to valuable people. How can you be sure that he can..."

"I'm sure." Mu Xi spoke softly, interrupting him before he finished speaking.

Ji Lian felt as if struck by lightning and stood still.

Mu Xi pursed her lips. "I know you don't trust him, but I completely trust him now. I believe he will help me hide my tracks, as long as you do the same... I beg you to do it."

Ji Lian seemed to be amused by anger. He turned his head and laughed, then turned to look at Mu Xi.

"Xi Niang, you have to know that if I said this and he still betrayed you, I would also be implicated."

Mu Xi thought, this is the difference.

She nodded gently at Ji Lian. "I know." She said, "I know very well." She said, "He won't."

In fact, Mu Xi's confidence in Feng Han is probably more than half of what she shows in Ji Lian.

But she felt that she could attack with all her strength at this time. After all, only with sufficient destructive power and shocking force could she drive the other party to do things for her.

Mu Xi's attitude was low enough. What she showed in front of Ji Lian was the mentality of an ordinary person who didn't want to get involved in messy things.

Perhaps Ji Lian would be angry at her for not fighting back and think she was like an ostrich.

She didn't want revenge, she didn't want to accomplish anything, and she chose a bad man.

But Mu Xi didn't care, as long as Ji Lian helped her.

The life you want to live is not something you can tell others about.