Say sorry to everyone

As I said a few days ago, my old father at home had some problems. I only updated one chapter that day and he was busy running around in the hospital.

The next day he was in the hospital, and my brother and mother were taking care of him, so I was able to come back and write 10,000 words.

In fact, I was in a very bad state those days, but fortunately I had plenty of time.

But I don’t have much time these two days. My brother has to go back to work for work reasons, and my father doesn’t want to stay in the hospital, so he has to come and live with me.

His illness is mental. He used to like drinking too much, which caused a cerebral infarction. After that, his entire brain had problems and he needed care basically 24 hours a day.

Not only do I have to go to the hospital every day, I also have to stay with my child at home the whole time.

Typing, a job that requires a quiet environment, has become a luxury for me. I can only spare half an hour to write once in a while. This period of time has exhausted me mentally and physically. Sitting in front of the computer, I can't think of any plot at all.

In fact, I was also very angry. After I made money from writing books ten years ago, I let him retire. In the past ten years, I have not let him go out to work for a single day, and I give the old couple a fixed living allowance of 4,000 yuan every month.

I also advised him not to drink, and sometimes when I got angry, I would even smash his wine bottles.

But he just couldn't be persuaded. He was the kind of old-fashioned and stubborn person who had been causing trouble for the family over the years.

These past few days, when I was in a bad mood, I broke down and even wanted to get angry with him.

But seeing that he is not in his right mind now and sometimes forgets what he just said, I feel very sorry.

I know he has suffered a lot in his life, just like Li Likun in the book. He is the second child in the family, unloved by his father and mother, and he met a bunch of awful relatives who sucked his blood everywhere.

When he was sober, he knew that he had let me down by lent out the retirement money I had saved for them and now he refused to get it back.

He wanted to change the status quo, but found that he was incapable of doing so. He put a lot of pressure on himself and eventually collapsed.

I have advised him more than once to let it go, but people who really care about you can never let it go.

As I was typing these words, he came to my study and asked me to turn on the TV for him. He said that the previous TV series was not good.

I'm probably in this kind of environment all day long. Apart from sleeping, I don't have any time to do anything, and my typing efficiency drops sharply.

I'm sorry again, I didn't do my job well and let you down.

I will try to resume updating 10,000 times tomorrow, no matter how difficult it is!

If you suspect that I am making excuses, you can come to the reader group to ask me for the inspection reports and various lists during this period.

(End of this chapter)