Chapter Nineteen

Li Nan's eyes lit up, and she gave a thumbs up, praising, "What you said has really excited me. How come you're suddenly so motivated? I find you to be quite interesting. You say you're pessimistic, but I think you might be very optimistic."

Faced with so many failed pairings, you still have the heart to continue shipping pairings. I can only say that you are amazing. Just for this point alone, I think your mentality is too positive.

If this didn't break you, then what can defeat you? Nothing, right? I think pessimistic people are incredibly negative.

People like you who bravely ship different pairings are taking risks one after another. Passive people have no interest in taking risks and prefer to lie down and sleep, doing nothing.

I think you should have a realistic self-assessment. You're not as pessimistic as you think; you're actually a very optimistic person.

As for your so-called pessimistic views, they are merely judgments made unconsciously after you have integrated and summarized all the information you have received from the outside world.

Having a pessimistic view of something doesn't mean you're a pessimistic person. Just like some people who are always optimistic about everything, hoping for a windfall, but always slack off and do nothing.

Such a person is truly pessimistic; he has no expectations for life anymore, and living is just for breathing, or even for eating.

He has completely lost his desire for life, has no expectations for anything, no desire to explore, and no curiosity. When others communicate with him, he only feels annoyed and irritated.

He just likes to be alone, doing nothing, just waiting to die. I think the reason you have this distorted self-perception is because you haven't met truly pessimistic people.

I've seen him, so I know the difference between you and him. You are full of vitality and incredibly vibrant. I can feel your emotions and sense that your aura is pure.

Did you know? That pessimistic person's aura is like a black hole; getting close to them is unpleasant and makes you feel depressed. But being near you doesn't feel that way; I can still laugh happily.

Xu Weiwei pursed her lips, somewhat embarrassed, and said, "Is that how it is? It seems I didn't have a proper assessment of myself before. I might indeed be a rather optimistic person."

I've been wondering if love really exists. I once knew a couple where the guy was almost perfect before he won the girl's heart; he had no flaws.

But after winning her over and getting together, the man became incredibly selfish, constantly finding fault with her and treating her very badly. The difference between his behavior before and after was very obvious; you'll see once you see it.

I wonder why human nature is always so cruel? It's that once something is obtained, it's never appreciated. If I were the woman, I think I would be devastated.

I simply cannot accept that someone would treat me like this, and I cannot believe that such a person could love me. How could this possibly be love?

He might just have a desire to conquer and possess me, wanting to make me his. Once he got me, he would have achieved his goal. His various violent behaviors were just an attempt to drive me away, because he doesn't love me at all in essence.

This is very similar to the so-called "good heart of a bad person." The difference between a bad person and a good person is that a bad person gives out even a little bit of love, and may take it back at any time.

Good people give their all without expecting anything in return. However, many people feel that the sincerity of bad people is more precious and worthy of praise.

I think one of the worst things about shipping couples is that you unconsciously try to find a way to compensate by focusing on their sexual relationship. But in reality, people don't only have romantic love; they also have friendship and family ties.

I've found that it's really normal for people to drift apart. Like many siblings, the friendship is strong when they're young, but once they grow up, get married, and have their own families, their feelings become mixed with interests and are no longer so pure.

They might even turn against each other later on because of their interests, just like how ancient emperors could kill their own brothers and children for the throne.

Many things are simply a matter of the potential benefit not being significant enough; when the benefit is large enough, many people are willing to give up everything. However, the only thing that brings me some comfort is that I once met a man willing to spend all his money to treat his mother, selling his car and buying a house, even borrowing money from others, all to cure his mother's illness.

He was so filial and loyal, but his ending was not good. His wife divorced him directly, not wanting to deal with his troubles or suffer with him. She quickly remarried and had another child.

Moreover, she didn't care about the child she had with him. She wouldn't let the child see her even if the child wanted to. In the end, the child committed suicide because he was too busy taking care of his mother to care for his own child.

In the end, even after spending a lot of money, his mother's illness was not cured and she died in the hospital. He went from being a person with an incredibly happy family to a lonely person burdened with debt.

It's fair to say that an ordinary family can easily be financially ruined by a serious illness suffered by an important family member. However, if he had to do it all over again, he would still choose to spend money on treatment. His view is that money can be earned back, but life is irreplaceable; once it's gone, it's truly gone.

People have many complex and chaotic thoughts, and I am no exception. Sometimes I witness a good person turn bad, and it's very obvious; even their appearance changes.

Someone who used to have a genuinely sweet and innocent smile now smiles in a very fake way. Why is that? I think it's most likely because they've been corrupted by the pursuit of fame and fortune.

I've never been in the entertainment industry, but I've seen many celebrities fall from grace, so I know it's a rather chaotic place, and very kind people don't get along well there.

Just like queuing to buy something, if you look particularly nice and easy to bully, countless people will choose to cut in front of you, and you will have to wait a long time to buy something. In fact, by the time it's your turn, the item may already be sold out.

I never queue when I buy things because I know I can't change others, so I can only change myself. I'm especially afraid of having my expectations dashed.

If I queue for a long time and still don't get what I want, I'll break down. I feel like that's similar to watching a relationship slowly deteriorate or your looks gradually decline.

I'm not actually someone who has appearance anxiety. I understand that even if I'm very beautiful, there will still be people who think I'm ugly because aesthetics are different.

I can accept negative comments about my appearance, but if I see them too often, I might still care. People are made of flesh and blood, not steel, and they are not immune to pain.

There's a saying that you should be able to withstand as much criticism as you can praise. Indeed, reality is often like this: for every person who likes you, there will be just as many who dislike you.

There's no such thing as a perfect, all-encompassing relationship. If I had a ten-year relationship and we broke up, would I badmouth my partner?

If he were the one to break up with me, I think I would. I would become a person with an ugly soul. He wasn't wrong, he just didn't love me anymore.

But I'm convinced that he's the most despicable person in the world, worse than a murderer, because he hurt me the most.

If I still love him and he doesn't love me anymore, I won't be able to accept that fact. If I were the one who initiated the breakup, then I might wish him well and hope he's doing well, after all, I truly loved him once.

I'm the kind of person who would choose to wash my underwear with a cold face; I can be so humble in love that I'd be as insignificant as dust. If he comes back, I'll run back to him without hesitation, without any dignity.

Even if I become a backup option, I'm willing. As long as I still love him, I want to make my presence felt in front of him. I want him to know that once he messes with me, he can't get rid of me.

Sometimes I feel that a person only has one love in their life, and all subsequent relationships can't compare to the unforgettable first one.

I know a guy who broke up with his first love. After that, he dated countless girlfriends who all had similarities to his first love, whether it was their eyes or their personality. They all had something in common.

I think he's like he's looking for a substitute, because he feels regretful that he couldn't stay with his first love, so he wants to find someone to replace her.

There's another saying: if your ex cries, your current partner is bound to lose. Do you know why this is? I thought about it for a long time before I understood.

If the ex can still be contacted, it means that the man has a way to reach her. He is leaving room for maneuver and has not completely cut ties. It also suggests that he may still love his ex and has someone else in his heart, yet he still chooses to get together with someone new.

I find this kind of person terrifying. I simply cannot accept that the person I love has had many relationships. I don't believe I can love such a person for a lifetime.

I've been wondering how a couple who broke up can get over their past relationship if they rekindle it. They can only endure it.

Love makes people strange, makes them lose themselves. I may never figure out what true love should be like in my entire life.

Sometimes I feel that if I meet someone I really love, I'd rather be their best friend than their lover.

Unfortunately, I'm a woman, and the person I love is a man. If he has a girlfriend, I don't think he would allow me to be his so-called female friend.

The probability of becoming lifelong best friends is 50%, while the probability of becoming lifelong lovers is 0.000000000000000001%, because when you look at the whole world, you're not one in ten thousand or one in a billion.

If you can find a couple who can love each other completely from beginning to end, without emotional or physical infidelity, and who always love each other, that would be considered very good.

I really don't want to gamble on something with such a low probability actually happening to me. It would be much better to be a friend and stay by my loved one's side, which would make me incredibly happy.

I might be jealous for no reason, but that's okay. I'm your good friend, I won't leave you, and you won't leave me. That's already wonderful.