Chapter 217 Be confident

Ren Limeng felt that she had never been so upset about anything in all these years.

Even though she argued with her mother about changing her career to Huangmei Opera, she did not regret it and was more determined to persist. She seemed to have never felt so uneasy as she does now.

Before she could experience the sweetness of love for long, she was already worried about gains and losses.

Although...she was wrong first, but she had already apologized proactively, Shen Xingzhi still asked her what she did wrong, wasn't that a bit aggressive?

How should she answer?

Do you analyze yourself seriously, or just muddle through?

When it comes to the study of love, as a primary school student who has just entered school, Ren Limeng has completely lost the confidence she had accumulated over the years as a top student. All that is left is a blank chat box that she has deleted and revised over and over again.

Before Ren Limeng finished typing, Shen Xingzhi had already sent a new message.

Shen Xingzhi: I don’t know.

Chen Xingzhi: Mengmeng, what is our relationship now?

How could Shen Xingzhi not know?

He... was actually serious enough to ask this kind of fatal question which is said to be one of the most common topics for couples to break up. He wouldn't really regret it... or have other ideas?

Once certain thoughts of worry and fear take over the mind, it is impossible to suppress them at all. They may even spread unscrupulously like a virus, growing exponentially in the mind, commonly known as scaring oneself.

It seemed like a simple question, but Ren Limeng was hesitant. She tapped the keyboard over and over again, carefully considering the punctuation of her answer. For a moment, she couldn't find a safe tone of reply.

Until Shen Xingzhi couldn't help but sent another message.

Chen Xingzhi:?

Shen Xingzhi: Is this question so difficult to answer? (Smile)

Ren Limeng: Couple relationship!

Ren Limeng: Romantic relationship!

Ren Limeng: Dear relationship!

Ren Limeng: Boyfriend-girlfriend relationship!

Ren Limeng: A relationship that can never be separated!!!

Ren Limeng: Brother Xingzhi, I just feel that our relationship is too deep to be simply described. I don’t know how to put it into words for the moment.

Ren Limeng: Actually, these descriptions cannot express how important you are to me!

Ren Limeng: Our relationship is definitely the longest-lasting one!

Ren Limeng: (Cat pointing to the sky seriously.jpg)

Ren Limeng finally replied quickly and confidently, trying to use her lively yet serious answer to dispel some of Shen Xingzhi's inappropriate implications, express her firm determination not to regret, and also fool around with this complicated topic that suddenly became a little serious.

Shen Xingzhi: Since you know it so clearly, why can't you do it?

The latest news on the screen interrupted Ren Limeng's plan to fool people. Ren Limeng's fingers paused as she typed quickly. She was stunned for a moment and subconsciously stopped typing the sweet words she was going to say to coax her boyfriend. Her eyes fell on Shen Xingzhi's question for a long time.

What didn't she do?

Ren Limeng's mind suddenly became a little confused, and the rational analysis that she was proud of on weekdays could not function properly at this moment. She bit her lips heavily, quickly thinking about the unfathomable tone behind the cold words in front of her, and thinking about Shen Xingzhi's actual attitude towards her at the moment.

Being in a long-distance relationship can easily cause relationship problems, just like now.

Ren Limeng sighed softly in her heart. She had no idea what Chen Xingzhi's true emotions were when he sent the message. There seemed to be intimacy hidden in his complaints, and helplessness in his alienation. His attitude was ambiguous, like he was close yet distant, which made Ren Limeng unable to find her own way to deal with it.

This is even more difficult to understand than trying to figure out the leader's thoughts.

Because she cares so much, Ren Limeng cannot completely deal with the problem from the perspective of a bystander, which makes the problem doubly difficult.

She took a deep breath, her cheeks slightly puffed out, trying hard to suppress the sour feeling that inexplicably rose in her heart, and adjusted to all the complex ups and downs that should not belong to a mature person in society.

She didn't understand Shen Xingzhi's question... It didn't matter. Maybe she could just ask Shen Xingzhi directly. He was her boyfriend, so she didn't need to be so hesitant and worried as she was in the workplace.

After thinking about it for a long time, Ren Limeng finally convinced herself. She had just typed the inquiry words in the chat box and was about to send it directly when she suddenly saw the message that Shen Xingzhi continued to send.

Chen Xingzhi: Mengmeng, you should be more confident about our relationship.

???

The sudden words made Ren Limeng's mind go blank for a rare moment. She held the phone in both hands, her eyes widened, and she read the message sent by Shen Xingzhi again in her mind.

Shen Xingzhi: You don’t need to apologize for this.

Ren Limeng: But you are obviously angry...

Angry that she acted first and asked An Ling for permission later, and negotiated the live broadcast directly with An Ling, Ren Limeng couldn't help but scroll through the chat again. No matter how much she thought about it, she found that Shen Xingzhi's questions were also very emotional.

Ren Limeng didn't believe that Shen Xingzhi didn't care, because... putting herself in his shoes, it was impossible for her to not mind at all.

When Ren Limeng was about to send a message, her finger hovered above the send button and paused for a moment unconsciously. She didn't know whether Shen Xingzhi's indifference in his words at this moment came from his true feelings, or was it a decent remark that he didn't want to quarrel with her or have a cold war with her.

Reason told Ren Limeng that at this moment, Chen Xingzhi had already taken the initiative to offer a chance for reconciliation. She didn't need to dwell on these trivial details. She could just hastily send a hug emoticon to end this unpleasant topic. This was the most appropriate tacit understanding among adults.

But...Shen Xingzhi is her boyfriend.

In the end, Ren Limeng couldn't choose to completely fool people. She was afraid that she would feel resentful, and she was even more afraid that Shen Xingzhi would hide his true thoughts in his heart and "endure" everything.

Ren Limeng gently pressed the send button, indulging herself in a moment of emotional excitement.

Ren Limeng: Brother Xingzhi, I was definitely trying to coax you when I said I would never do this again, but don’t worry, if I encounter this situation next time, I will discuss it with you first no matter what choice I make, at least let you know my choice.

Ren Limeng could not forget the hesitation and repeated consideration when she told Chen Xing just now. She didn't want to go through such a difficult moment of worrying about gains and losses again.

Now that she has realized her problem and sorted out what she cares more about, Ren Limeng was very frank and sincere when she sent another message to admit it. She tapped the floating keyboard quickly and even ignored Shen Xingzhi's new reply for a moment.

Ren Limeng: This is my first time in a relationship, and I... may not be doing well enough, but I will definitely improve! Can you please not be disappointed in me and give me some more time and more opportunities (peek in)

Ren Limeng: (Cat pinching the corner of clothes - twitching.jpg)

After sending out her heartfelt words in one breath, Ren Limeng finally raised her head and looked at the white box on the left side of the chat interface. The new reply that came into her sight made her subconsciously hold her breath for a moment, and her eyes became extremely complicated.

Ren Limeng took a deep breath, puffed out her cheeks, and quietly looked at the chat interface where new messages were still popping up.

Chen Xingzhi: Mengmeng, I’m angry because you divide us too clearly.

Chen Xingzhi: We are lovers, not partners, so there is no need to make clear distinctions.

Chen Xingzhi: If I ask you to sign for a friend, would that be a bother? Are you trying to take advantage of me? Do you have to weigh the pros and cons before agreeing? Or do you want me to sign for you, too?

Chen Xingzhi asked very bluntly, directly pointing out the reason behind Ren Limeng's euphemistic apology in front of the two of them.

Ren Limeng felt that Chen Xingzhi was trying to confuse the concept. How could he confuse the things she ignored during the negotiation with An Ling with such a small matter as asking for a signature?

Besides, if she exchanged her signature for his, judging by the market price, Shen Xingzhi would lose a lot, and she would get the better deal...

She and Shen Xingzhi both knew her problem, so why was Shen Xingzhi... not as angry as expected?

Ren Limeng felt a little uncomfortable in her heart. With mixed feelings, her gaze stayed on the "clear-cut" answer on the screen for a long time. She exhaled and lowered her head to hide all expressions on her face.

In the silent room, the only sound that could be heard for a moment was the crashing of the wind and rain outside the hotel, just like the shock in Ren Limeng's heart at the moment.

Ren Limeng: Brother Xingzhi, you will be at a disadvantage if you do this.

Ren Limeng looked up at the raging wind and rain outside the window, took another deep breath unconsciously, and after a long time, she finally decided to continue to be honest.

Ren Limeng: I am not a 20-year-old girl anymore. Many things are more important to me than love now. Are you sure... you won't regret it?

Shen Xingzhi could tolerate her once or twice, but what about in the long run?

She will definitely owe Chen Xingzhi more and more, and may even become more and more unreasonable without realizing it. Can Chen Xingzhi really indulge her forever?

Even though she has realized that she has not done well in some aspects of this relationship, Ren Limeng is not sure whether she will change.

She would not give Shen Xingzhi false promises to deal with the current situation. Similarly, she also hoped that Shen Xingzhi would not promise anything that he could not do.

Because, she... might take it seriously.

Chen Xingzhi: Ren Limeng, you are just taking advantage of the fact that we can’t see each other now.

After carefully considering her words, Ren Limeng finally finished sending her tentative words. While she was waiting silently, Chen Xingzhi suddenly changed the subject and replied with another intimate sentence that could be felt through the screen.

Ren Limeng frowned slightly, unconsciously being drawn into the thoughts of Shen Xingzhi again, wondering why Shen Xingzhi suddenly complained about not being able to meet him?

With a lot of questions in her mind and remembering that she was weak in reasoning, Ren Limeng still responded cutely with a cute cat asking a question emoticon.

Shen Xingzhi: Otherwise, why do you doubt that my words are not true?

Chen Xingzhi didn't care about Ren Limeng's repeated apologies. At this moment, he couldn't suppress the heartache for Ren Limeng's cautious attitude.

Over the years, Ren Limeng has been wandering alone, from years of studying to several years of working. Ren Limeng has been independent for too long and must have experienced too many ups and downs that he or no one else can understand.

Chen Xingzhi could hear the hidden worry in Ren Limeng's words. He could certainly feel her changes in all aspects since the first day of the program recording.