Chapter 56: Waves in the Waves

Li Siyan later told me that he had had many beautiful and vulgar dreams. The me in the dream was as fierce and sharp-tongued as the me in reality, waving my kitten-like claws to make trouble for him, but the me in the dream was more willful and presumptuous than the me in reality.

In most of my dreams, I was breathing rapidly like a gorgeous flower, my eyes were red, and I kept spouting soft and harsh curses, calling him worse than a beast.

His description was too specific and too perverted. My fists became harder and harder, but my old waist was in so much pain that I couldn't punch. I could only let him tease me.

"But I only dare to do this in my dreams." He regretfully carried me into the steaming hot spring, licked his lips and said, "You have a very strong temper. I was afraid of scaring you."

I couldn't believe it. "Is it because of the dream? You look so skilled."

"Because I'm smart and I understand everything immediately." He smiled very charmingly.

"I think you are too thick-skinned to be penetrated." I rolled my eyes.

He happily kissed me on the earlobe, his satisfaction evident in his words.

My situation is not so good.

The hot spring water was so hot that I felt like a half-dead fish, with my limbs sore and limp as I lay on the shore blowing bubbles.

...My waist hurts, my legs hurt, and my head hurts. Why does it hurt? Because Li Siyan was blind and accidentally pushed me against the bedpost.

But it was this little mistake that confirmed his innocence for me. This person's belongings had indeed never been opened. Even though everything was in place, something went wrong in the details.

"Yingying is a good name," he said, rubbing his hair with a look of satisfaction, saying some very nasty things without blushing or beating his heart: "Neck to neck, whispering, whispering, it's very beautiful."

The conversation was terrible. I was too old to listen to such dirty stuff, so I turned around and tried to get ashore, but my legs were weak and before I could straighten myself up, I suddenly slipped.

Li Siyan quickly hugged me and said, "Don't move."

My body stiffened, and I roared, "You hooligan, beast, lecher! Where are you putting your hands?"

He showed an expression of immense enjoyment: "Curse a few more times, I love to hear it."

"Get out!" Just as he wished.

My body was injured, but it didn't affect my mouth. After I got ashore, I scolded Li Siyan from head to toe. During the scolding, I accidentally let it slip that he didn't play lightly and his technique was too poor.

Li Siyan was originally accepting the scolding obediently, but when he heard this, he immediately pushed me to the edge of the couch again and insisted on showing me his various ways of serving people.

I soon ran out of words.

This time was different from last time. He didn't care about his own pleasure at all and was only focused on serving me, so last time it was just painful, but this time it was really numb to the bone.

I didn't want to scream, but I really couldn't help it.

I don't know where Li Siyan learned these annoying skills, but he tortured me so much that my voice became hoarse. Another hour later, I lay on the couch with my back facing the sky, gasping for breath, with my mind blank.

When I regained consciousness, the first thing I thought about was, has Li Siyan been practicing tying cherry stems with his tongue every day recently? Yes, he must be, otherwise how could he be so skilled?

Before I could figure it out, I fell asleep in a daze. I was fucked twice in one night. God knows how fucking tired I was.

I slept until the next afternoon.

After sleeping for six hours, I woke up from a deep sleep. When I opened my eyes, I saw the scorching sun hanging in the sky. I touched the side and found no one there. Li Siyan had gone to the office.

My throat was smoking and my whole body was sore as if a big cat had stepped on me all night. I moved my legs and found that they were still intact - but there was someone's fingerprint on my thigh that was very obvious. Anyone who saw it would call me a beast.

I felt disgusted by the sight and stuffed my legs back into the quilt.

Even now, I still feel a sense of unreality. I was inexplicably... taken away by the dog emperor, right? ...It's so worthless. Why didn't I take this opportunity to make him some bold offers?

What a loss, such a huge loss. I didn’t expect that I, Chen Ying, would be blinded by lust.

After staring in doubt for a while, I accepted the fact with melancholy and decided to embrace my incomplete self.

Stepping into the adult world begins with getting up. I take a deep breath, roll out of bed—and then accidentally fall to the ground because my legs go weak.

Even more unfortunate was that Xiao Jinlian happened to see it. The little girl was so frightened that she put down the teacup and shouted loudly: "Ah! Sister Huiyue, come quickly! The queen's legs are weak and she has fallen!"

The little girl's voice was sharp and penetrating, echoing throughout Furong Garden.

Almost immediately, several palace servants emerged from a corner I couldn't see and hurriedly carried me back to the couch. Little Jinlian covered her mouth in the crowd and cried, "How could Your Majesty fall so badly? Your legs and wrists are all bruised!"

These palace servants have received professional training and generally do not laugh unless they encounter special circumstances.

Lian Huiyue turned her face away, and the muscles around her mouth kept twitching.

My vision went dark, and I nearly passed out from anger. I struggled to pull my sleeve down to cover the bruise, and angrily yelled at Xiao Jinlian, "Just shut up!"

After noon, Li Siyan returned to the garden after the meeting, and was scolded by me.

I had regained the ability to walk and was sitting there letting Huiyue apply a plaster to my old waist. When I saw Li Siyan, all the new and old grudges came flooding back to my mind, and naturally I was in a bad mood.

"It's all your fault. Now the whole Furong Garden knows that I'm useless. You have to pay me back for my lifetime reputation!"

While throwing a cup at him.

He caught it with one hand, a smile on his face, and sat next to me. His bony hands gently rested on my waist and asked, "Does it hurt?"

Bastard, I thought bitterly, don't you know whether I'm in pain or not? Try it on you!

"You know that I have been writing at a desk for a long time and my waist is not in good condition, but you still do this to me. You have no sympathy for me at all and even say that you will serve me personally. What kind of servant serves his master like this!" I shouted in dissatisfaction.

The corners of Huiyue's mouth began to twitch again, and she relied entirely on her professionalism to hold back from laughing.

Li Siyan pondered, "...Are you feeling unwell? But from the look on your face yesterday, it was clear you were having a good time."

I was so shocked that my face turned red.

Oh my God, how can someone speak such fierce and cruel words so smoothly!

"But I shouted to stop at that time, but you didn't listen, and you still..." My voice gradually faded away.

Li Siyan asked, "How do I know if you really don't want it, or if you're just being coquettish?"

I frowned and said fiercely, "It means exactly what I say. If I say stop, then stop. Even if the king of heaven comes, stop!"

"Okay." He agreed casually with a smile and said to Huiyue, "You go down."

After sending Huiyue away, he came over again, looking sticky, took the ointment from Huiyue, and applied it on me himself.

He was in a surprisingly good mood today. After applying the ointment, he hugged me from the back, rested his chin on my shoulder, and rubbed my hair affectionately, like a big cat.

At this tender moment, my stomach made a loud and long growl.

"I'm hungry." I said.

"Okay," he pinched the flesh on my belly, "You've consumed too much, it's time to replenish it."

"Will it kill you if I don't say dirty words?" I slapped his dirty hands away and said, "Don't touch me!"

He laughed heartily, stood up, went to the kitchen, and made me some side dishes.

As expected of someone who had endured ten years in the Yunting, her cooking skills were good and her service level was not bad. I slowly ate the soft steamed buns, and the palace servants beside me looked at me enviously - having the emperor wash his hands and cook the soup and bring it to the bed personally, no matter how you look at it, it is a unique treatment in the world.

Are you envious? I thought to myself, it was all earned with my old waist that was killed in battle.

In the past, when I took the initiative to flatter Li Siyan, I would often make some small requests right away, but this time I didn't think about it. Firstly, Li Siyan is unlikely to give me more freedom, and secondly, I don't want him to think that I have any ulterior motives by taking the initiative to approach me.

Let him think I was just possessed by a ghost.

I often feel that although Li Siyan looks strong, he is actually very humble in soul and has a certain masochistic tendency. When he can't get what he wants, he uses all means to force it, and when he gets it, he is flattered. He can't confirm my feelings, so he has to do his best to indulge and please me, and at the same time ensure that I belong to him at all times.

It was the same in this matter. He had been threatening me to serve him before, but when the time really came to fight, he became timid, fearing that I would be dissatisfied with his performance, so he tried his best to please me every time. His business skills were so varied that even professional face-to-face chefs felt ashamed of themselves. He wished that I would indulge in this terrible happiness and be inseparable from him from now on.

I also tried my best to cooperate with his performance. The pleasure was real, and the pain in my waist was also real.

Sometimes I really feel like I have to leave. If I continue like this, I will be sucked dry sooner or later.

After spending half a month in Furong Garden, the day of departure for Mount Tai was approaching.

I don't want to count how many times he has done this. In short, he has no self-control, acts recklessly and absurdly. If I were still a righteous historian, I would definitely record a heavy record of him in the history books and make him infamous for eternity!

During this period, many unspeakable things happened. I cannot go into details. I can only sigh that you can't get a tiger cub without learning from the tiger. After several months of unremitting poaching, I finally dug a small hole in Li Siyan's defense.

If I had to say what made him unhappy, it would be that I asked him for contraceptive soup.

That day, after I had applied the ointment, I suddenly remembered that Li Siyan didn't seem to have used the fish bladder the night before. I immediately grabbed him and asked him about it. Li Siyan asked suspiciously, "Fish bladder?"

I could tell he had no experience at all, so I sighed and said, "Forget it, since I've already done it, why don't you go get me a bowl of contraceptive soup."

Li Siyan didn't know what fish maw was, but he knew what the contraceptive soup was used for.

His eyes turned cold almost instantly.

Seeing his sinister expression, I had a bad feeling in my heart. I grabbed his hand and said anxiously, "Li Siyan, you can't just kill me and not bury me. I don't want to get pregnant!"

His expression grew increasingly gloomy and ugly. He stared at me and asked, "Don't you want to get pregnant, or don't you want to give birth to my child?"

"What's the difference?" I asked, "Do you want me to be like your mother, giving birth to a child without a name or status?"

He pursed his lips tightly and said, "I won't make the same mistake again. If you are pregnant, I will find a way to give you the position of Queen."

"...What?" I suspected I had misheard.

I was stunned for a long moment before I realized from his expression that he was serious.

He really wanted me to bear him a child.

But I don’t want to!

How can this be?

If I have a child, and his father is the murderer of his own grandfather and uncle, how should I bring up these old stories with him? Moreover, he grew up in such a deformed and indifferent imperial family. Will he become the second Li Siyan, or the second former crown prince killed by his younger brother?

Thinking of this, I felt like I was falling into an ice cave. My acting has never been so good in my life. I blinked and tears flowed down my cheeks.

"Having a child is not as easy as you think."

"I'm so weak now. Even if I get pregnant, I won't be able to give birth to a healthy child. You're a member of the royal family. You know how difficult it is for a concubine with a weak child to survive in the royal family. Are you willing to let me suffer this?"

Without waiting for his reply, I wiped away my tears, opened the door, and said to Huiyue, "Make me a bowl of contraceptive soup."

Huiyue's eyelids jumped suddenly, and she looked over my shoulder at Li Siyan.

I took a deep breath and said, "If you don't have any medicine, go get me a musk sachet..."

"No need."

Li Siyan's voice came from behind: "Huiyue, bring her a bowl of contraceptive soup with the mildest herbs."

Huiyue paused, nodded silently and left.

He was playing with a cup with a gloomy look on his face.

He said calmly, "If you don't want to have a baby right now, forget it. Wait until we return from Mount Tai and have Doctor Fan take care of your health first."

"Okay." I replied in a low voice, "There's a long way to go."

He gently rubbed my head, and his voice was much gentler: "I can wait."

He was indeed trying to accommodate me, but this little bit of accommodation was insignificant compared to his bad character.

We spent ten days doing nothing in this royal villa.

Hunting and playing during the day, soaking in hot springs at night, living a corrupt and extravagant life.

During this period, with the fearless spirit of a tourist, I dragged my legs, which had been overused at night, to visit all the attractions around Furong Garden and wrote a poem for each attraction.

The day before leaving here, Li Siyan asked me if there was any place I had not visited. I thought about it carefully and answered no, I had been to them all.

Li Siyan asked, "Would you like to come hunting with me tomorrow?"

"hunt?"

I shook my head: "Have you forgotten? I have an old shoulder injury and can no longer draw a bow."

"It's a rare opportunity to come to Hibiscus Garden, it would be a shame not to go for a ride."

"It's not a pity. I don't like riding anyway." I wasn't very interested.

After a few more casual discussions, Li Siyan decided to compromise and take me on a ride along a small path to the mountain to enjoy the scenery. According to him, a pavilion was built there during the reign of Emperor Taizong, but it had been abandoned for a long time and had not been used.

I looked at the map over and over again: "Where is this pavilion you mentioned?"

Li Siyan pointed to a patch of dense forest. "That's right here. I once stumbled upon this place while hunting with the late emperor. The scenery is quite beautiful."

I said, "You also know how to appreciate the scenery? I thought you disdained such elegant things."

He said, "It's just a coincidence. That time, the Crown Prince messed up his job and was severely punished by the late Emperor. The Second Brother thought I was the one who interfered, so he and the groom tampered with the saddle. The horse got scared and ran all the way here. I jumped off the horse in time and climbed to the top of this pavilion. Only then was I able to determine my location and slowly walked back."

"There are wild beasts everywhere in the mountains at night. Why don't you just wait at the pavilion and someone will come to find you," I said.

"No one will come," Li Siyan said, "Second Brother is hoping that I'll die. He'll lie to others and say that I'm out sightseeing. No one will know what's happening to me."

The second one he mentioned is the second prince, the prince's biological brother. He is usually reckless and arrogant, and likes to make trouble for others for no reason. I often feel that the reason why Li Siyan treated his brothers and sisters so cruelly in the end was mostly due to this second prince.

"The former crown prince was a good man," I sighed, "but the second prince is a hopeless case. Not only is he completely clueless, but he's also a terrible person."

Li Siyan said, "He's a bad guy, but thanks to him, I was able to see a beautiful view. I'll take you to see it tomorrow."

"Okay, let's go and take a look." I inserted a small stick into the map.

The next day, Li Siyan brought his beautiful Wusun horse and carried me on it.

The big horse was not very happy about others riding it. It snorted in dissatisfaction and was severely scolded by Li Siyan.

The sky was clear and the sun was bright, the wind was gentle, and the Wusun horses carried the two of us slowly through the lush fields and up the mountain along a path.

It wasn't long before we found the abandoned pavilion Li Siyan had mentioned. It was located halfway up the mountain, surrounded by dense trees and scattered wildflowers along the ancient path. I asked Li Siyan what the flower was, but he didn't even look at it before answering, "Turnip, also known as Zhugecai."

I craned my neck to observe these small orchids, and exclaimed in amazement: "So this is Zhugecai. I remember that when Wu Hou went to war, he ordered people to plant it for military rations."

Li Siyan said, "The leaves of this thing can fill your stomach, but they don't taste good. If you want to try them, I'll have someone pick some for you."

I said excitedly, "Great! Let me also experience the legacy of Wu Hou."

Li Siyan has no interest in Wu Hou's legacy, but he is very interested in making me happy. As everyone knows, he can only eat meat if I am happy, and he can only sleep in the study if I am unhappy.

We set up an original pot in the pavilion, and put the good firewood picked up by the guards underneath. As soon as Li Siyan stretched out his hand, the head guard Wu Duizheng immediately presented him with a fire starter with a very respectful attitude. If you didn't know, you would think he was presenting some precious treasure.

I thought to myself, not really, it’s just a bowl of wild vegetable soup…

He put a small blue flower left over from picking vegetables into my hair and praised me, "You look very suitable as a country girl."

I rolled my eyes: "Why don't you let me be a village girl?"

Li Siyan smiled and poured me some soup. "When I get tired of being the emperor, I will abdicate the throne and come to Furong Garden with you to be the emperor emeritus."

I didn't say anything, knowing that I would have to run away sooner or later. Abdication or being the emperor emeritus had nothing to do with me, so I let him dream on.

Anyway, I won't accompany you. I just want to spend the rest of my life freely and peacefully in a place with beautiful mountains and rivers.

After he came back that day, he carried me to the hot spring pool to relax. Although it was in the name of relaxation, he suddenly came to my side while soaking. Before I could react, his kisses were already sprinkled on my neck.

My brain must have been confused by the warm water, and I even forgot to symbolically refuse. I inexplicably enjoyed his service again.

During the brief moment of relaxation after the release of my vitality, I lay on the shore and angrily pulled out several of his hairs. Li Siyan wiped the suspicious liquid from the corner of his mouth and protested, "You didn't say stop just now, and I also brought fish maw."

I was so annoyed that I suddenly jumped up and grabbed Li Siyan to check him, and confirmed that he had indeed used the fish bladder.

This is really surprising.

I was stunned. "You...you're the emperor. Would the emperor be willing to use this thing?"

This principle is just like appreciating flowers. Seeing flowers through a layer of obstacle in the fog is not as pleasant as seeing them with the naked eye. Few noble children are willing to sacrifice their experience, let alone the emperor.

Li Siyan looked as if it was a matter of course. "I asked Doctor Fan, and he said that you are too weak to bear the strain of pregnancy. It would be best to wait a year or two before considering having children. You must be careful not to use cold things like contraceptive soup during this period, so as not to damage your foundation. Since you can't conceive and can't drink contraceptive soup, I can only use this little thing."

After just two serious sentences, he started talking nonsense again: "If Yingying feels sorry for me, why not help me take this thing off personally..."

"Fuck you!" I yelled at him, "Don't act like you're doing this for my own good. It's all your fault that I'm in this bad shape."

"It's all my fault." He admitted his mistake honestly, and then said something that shocked me: "Since you don't want to take it off, why not use it again..."

This time I told him firmly: "Don't even think about it!"

"Okay," he said regretfully, and cleaned himself up reluctantly.

I quickly turned my eyes away, but it was not in time.

"How is it?" Li Siyan came to conduct a satisfaction follow-up visit and strive to improve the service next time.

"It's so ugly." I said mercilessly.

I recalled that day in prison, when I was at my wit's end, and I actually had such thoughts... I can only say that I was really too brave back then...

Li Siyan smiled and said, "Of course it's not as pretty as yours."

I peeked at him through my fingers. Li Siyan had already put on simple clothes and walked out of the water. Seeing me still lying smoothly by the pool, he pulled a long towel from the side and wrapped me tightly.

The two of us sat on the rocks by the pool, snuggling together like two magpies on the roof, watching the sun set and the warm yellow afterglow falling all over the mountain.

While looking at the beautiful scenery, he talked about many of his future plans, saying that he wanted to take back the Sixteen Prefectures of Yanyun, wanted to launch a reform to reduce land taxes, and also said that he wanted to make me the queen and have a bunch of children with me.

After listening to his plan, I realized that this man had actually considered things like who to invite as the tutor in the future and how much fiefdom to give to the prince without saying a word... How should I put it, Li Siyan seems to be eccentric in his actions, but in fact he is much more responsible than his father. He said that he didn't want me to repeat his mother's mistakes. This was not to deceive me, but he really wanted to be responsible for future generations.

I didn't know how to respond to him. My heart felt choked up, and after a long while, I could only manage one word: "Yeah."

He laughed and said, "Why are you so listless? Are you too tired these past two days?"

I said, "My legs are sore."

"I'll massage you." He stretched out his evil claws.

I quickly pulled my legs back: "Don't mess around, or the historians will record you as a licentious person."

"Let them write, I don't mind," he said, "I have prepared everything. I am just waiting for you to recover and have a child with me. Naturally, I always want to work harder..."

I thought to myself, what the hell are you working so hard for! You're not afraid of being exhausted to death, but I'm afraid of getting plowed!

This unbridled behavior must be stopped!