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Lu Jinfeng's schedule became much freer, and he took advantage of his free time to try harder and harder to integrate into Bai Shunan's life, but he still felt that they were not close enough. Bai Shunan thus realized that Lu Jinfeng would always appear.

Recently, Bai Shunan took on a melodramatic mini-period drama, teaming up with Li Suiwen for the fourth time. They once again played a couple. The whole story framework was very scattered, and each episode was narrated from a different perspective. The filming location was in a small town. Lu Jinfeng originally wanted to go with Bai Shunan, but he had some unfinished business to deal with and couldn't leave for the time being.

When watching Bai Shunan packing his luggage to leave, Lu Jinfeng said nothing and pretended to be calm as he said goodbye to him. As soon as Bai Shunan left, Lu Jinfeng fell to the ground in regret when he thought about the temporary long-distance relationship he had started with Bai Shunan. He kept reflecting on whether he had acted too nonchalantly, which was why Bai Shunan didn't kiss him goodbye. He should have kissed him at least.

For several days of filming, Bai Shunan and another actor, Lin Sixian, had a nighttime scene that they couldn't get right. They encountered numerous problems, and several unexpected rainy days delayed the scene's progress. Either the details weren't in place, or the director's feelings weren't captured. The director was relentless, scolding the two for days, but in the end, he always settled on Bai Shunan's emotional expression, "... Look, I'm scolding you, but you act like you don't feel anything. How can you act well in this scene?"

Bai Shunan couldn't forget these words. Thinking about them, it felt like a weight had fallen on his heart. He couldn't concentrate on acting, as if he was lost in the play. He followed the path his character had taken in the script and climbed a hillside. He stayed there for the entire afternoon, only returning to the crew when the moon was high in the sky. This scene also unexpectedly came to an end tonight. This should have been his last scene here. Due to the script being over, the screenwriter planned to expand another line and add some new characters. The director was cursing at him, but in the end, he confirmed that Bai Shunan would play another role, the son of the character he originally played.

The crew was very close to his residence. Bai Shunan was walking on the way back and almost fell down. When he was steadying his steps, he suddenly felt a weight on his forearm. Bai Shunan heard a very light laugh. He waited for a while before looking up and saw Lu Jinfeng looking at him.

Turning around, I saw Lu Jinfeng's smiling face.

Lu Jinfeng reached out his hand to support Bai Shunan, and said in a light voice, "How come you have become a little reckless after not seeing each other for so long?"

Bai Shunan stared at Lu Jinfeng blankly, "Why did you show up..."

"Why," Lu Jinfeng chuckled, "I can't show up yet."

Before Lu Jinfeng could finish his words, Bai Shunan leaned on him.

Lu Jinfeng stopped talking. He looked at Bai Shunan with a helpless smile. He felt that Bai Shunan trusted him more and more, which made him feel uneasy and relieved his uneasiness for many days. He planned to ask about the things that made him uneasy later. Lu Jinfeng took off his scarf and wrapped it around Bai Shunan's neck, letting him lean on him without saying a word. After a while, he said gently: "Shunan."

Bai Shunan leaned in his arms and nodded.

"Do you miss me?"

Bai Shunan hummed softly, "I miss you so much that your face is blurred."

Lu Jinfeng lowered his head and slowly leaned on Bai Shunan's shoulder. He thought about Bai Shunan's confusion at that moment, as if Shunan was always so confused, as if he was standing there, looking left and right, not believing it was himself, just as he also didn't believe it was himself. Lu Jinfeng slowly closed his eyes, "I won't let you forget me."

He was obviously trying to comfort Bai Shunan, but he buried his head lightly on his shoulder, patted his back, and waited for him to hug him.

Lu Jinfeng followed Bai Shunan into the crew. He had known the director of the show before, so he was not restricted in the crew. When the screenwriter of the show discovered him, he was surprised and asked him if he was interested in playing a cameo role. Lu Jinfeng thought it was okay and agreed. The screenwriter asked him if he had any requirements. Without thinking, Lu Jinfeng just said that he would try to have a rival role with Bai Shunan. Although the screenwriter did listen to his opinion and let him have a rival role with Bai Shunan, Lu Jinfeng did not expect that the role he played was a wedding photographer. This did not matter. The important thing was that he was shooting the wedding of the son's character played by Bai Shunan in the show.

At night, they returned to their residence together. Lu Jinfeng followed behind Bai Shunan, walking step by step. He looked at the shaking hand, trying to hold it, but also wanted to wait for Bai Shunan to take the initiative to hold his hand. Lu Jinfeng looked at the figure in front of him, and a vague sense of loss gradually appeared on his face. Soon, his heart melted gently. He waited for the warmth to spread in his palm, mixed with an itchy feeling that lingered on his fingertips. Bai Shunan held his hand, and Lu Jinfeng was reluctant to let go. He walked forward quickly, waiting for the moment when he could look Bai Shunan in the eye.

Lu Jinfeng tried to confuse the feeling of liking someone and separate some panic from it. After careful consideration, he determined that it was fear. However, it was like a hand that was reluctant to let go and always wanted to get closer.

"What are you thinking about?" Bai Shunan asked.

"I can't explain it clearly." Lu Jinfeng looked at Bai Shunan, then turned to look forward and shook his head. He sighed softly and it took a long time before he spoke, "How have you been living these years? I keep thinking about it and I feel like crying."

…

Lu Jinfeng fiddled with the camera in his hand with resentment, cursing the screenwriter of the play in his heart, and was almost angry openly. He looked into the distance and saw Bai Shunan standing in the shade of a tree, flipping through the script. Lu Jinfeng's attention was suddenly drawn away. The idea of ​​taking a picture of this scene flashed through his mind. He awkwardly found the button of the camera in his hand, and in a hurry, he seemed to have pressed the button correctly, so he took a few steps forward and hurriedly aimed at Bai Shunan in the distance.

Amidst the boisterous laughter, Lu Jinfeng realized that he could now capture Bai Shunan's face without fear, without having to quietly and guiltily delete it later to conceal it. He stared at Bai Shunan in front of him, the light and shadows filtering through the trees softly falling on him. He lowered his head, concentrating on the script, and this scene vividly appeared in his lens.

Bai Shunan found him, walked towards him, and gradually touched Lu Jinfeng's heart of longing.

Lu Jinfeng held the camera steady, facing Bai Shunan. The image, along with his vision, instantly shifted from blurry to clear. The autumn wind blew off a few still-green leaves. "I know what I want to do now."

He looked at Bai Shunan's appearance under the camera, with a faintly confused smile on his face. He had just finished asking "what" when Lu Jinfeng pressed the shutter slowly, looking at him all the time. "You will know."