Chapter 07 Return to Puberty

If they didn't quarrel, you wouldn't know how much resentment and resentment were hidden in the seemingly peaceful life between mother and daughter in the past six months.

Apart from daily frictions, the main conflict between Gu Yunsu and her mother still focused on the issue of marriage and childbirth. The daughter was dissatisfied with Wu Limei for not asking for her opinion, and the mother resented her daughter's lack of support.

In addition, we don't know whether Wu Limei was disappointed that her daughter was nearly 30 years old and had done nothing, or whether Gu Yunsu developed a defensive mentality of resistance due to inferiority and guilt.

The long-standing grievances between the two sides suddenly erupted, and the ideological opposition almost reached an irreconcilable point. Two days after the quarrel ended, the two men each occupied their own power, forming a relatively stable cold war pattern.

Gu Yunsu felt very uncomfortable because she found that in this new family, Wu Limei still occupied the absolute C position.

In fact, she had many cold wars with Wu Limei when she was young, whether before or after her parents' divorce. Every cold war made her realize that if family members were isolated islands, then her mother was the transit station: Gu Yunsu could not talk to her father, but she could not not talk to her mother; Gu Kangqi could not talk to his daughter, but he could not not talk to his wife.

So quarreling with Gu Kangqi was not scary, but being in a cold war with Wu Limei was scary, especially when those two were talking happily and she was excluded. She clearly felt that if Wu Limei didn't want her, then no one in this world would want her.

She didn't know why people in this world always wanted someone to want them, nor did she know whether longing for these things meant weakness and mediocrity, but she was afraid, and therefore concluded that the bond with Wu Limei was the most important thing to her.

Later, even after Wu Limei got divorced and went to college, Gu Yunsu still had this thought. Whenever she and Wu Limei had a quarrel or a cold war, she felt like she was an isolated island in the world, truly alone and lonely.

Now, this sense of isolation is even more obvious.

Let's put Li Yan aside for now. Li Jianxiong's emotional balance has always been tilted towards Wu Limei, not to mention that she is pregnant with his child. If he is not a saintly father, he must have accused Gu Yunsu of being "inhumane" in his heart. It would have been good enough if he didn't join in attacking her. How could he abandon his wife and children and stand on her side?

That's really shocking!

But in this case, even if Gu Yunsu reconciles with Wu Limei in the future, Li Jianxiong will still feel resentful.

"This is the snake-like woman who wants to kill my son."

Who can guarantee that Li Jianxiong would not secretly poison Gu Yunsu?

It's over. After thinking it over, I realize I can't stay in this home anymore?

This is very passive.

If she had to move out of this house, she would have to find a job quickly to pay the rent, but wouldn't that be the same as supporting Wu Limei to have a baby? Then why did she bother to do such an immoral thing that forced people to kill?

After all this trouble, I ended up offending people and got nothing in return. I really shot myself in the foot.

Gu Yunsu made himself depressed.

She told her troubles to Luo Jingjing, who said, "What did I say? Let you fall in love. You still have a way out now."

"I don't have as many backups as you do, so who can I talk to?" Gu Yunsu was very angry.

"Of course not, I clearly remember you told me about that one before, what was his name, Xu or something?"

Xu what?

Gu Yunsu tilted his head and thought about it again, and remembered that there was such a person, Xu Wenbin, who could barely be considered an ambiguous object.

But after not contacting each other for several months, that little bit of ambiguity is like sand, and has long since dissipated in the wind.

Gu Yunsu was too lazy to mention this, and only said half-jokingly and half-seriously: "It's useless to clean it up. If it really doesn't work, I will have to live in your house."

Luo Jingjing has lived alone since she started working, not for anything else but to make it easier to fall in love. Her declaration of independence is: "Bring a man home and do whatever you want with him."

It seems that every girl has a girlfriend who is good at dating. She is born for dating. She doesn't need to do anything. Her luck in love is always good. She is relaxed, comfortable and confident when it comes to dating. Luo Jingjing is different from Wu Limei, who is obsessed with love. She falls in love for happiness and to satisfy her physical needs. Once she is in love to death, she will say goodbye immediately.

Gu Yunsu respected and supported her friend's boldness, so unless it was an emergency, she would never say such nonsense as staying at Luo Jingjing's house.

The other party was also a smart person. When he heard the sister say this, he immediately noticed her distress and said straightforwardly: "No problem, as long as you are willing to sleep on the sofa, I don't mind."

Woo woo woo, he is truly a close friend, Gu Yunsu shed tears silently.

The two exchanged a few sweet words. Luo Jingjing hesitated for a moment and then asked, "Has it really come to this? Can't we talk it over?"

"What are you talking about?" Gu Yunsu sighed heavily, "You haven't seen her like that. She looked at me like a devil, the kind that deserves to be burned to death."

"So what do you think? Are you still adamant that they don't want to have a baby?"

"What's the use of me agreeing or not? The child isn't in my body! Besides, how would I know? I'm just so angry that I have to stand firm!"

Gu Yunsu said, after a short silence, he seemed a little confused and a little guilty, and asked softly: "Tell me, did I do something wrong?"

"...How can I say this?" Luo Jingjing concluded, "This kind of thing depends on one's standpoint. There is no absolute right or wrong."

"So what should I do? From my perspective, of course, it's better not to have a baby. But from their perspective, they must think I'm an unforgivable sinner."

"So this matter can't be clearly divided into black and white." Luo Jingjing said, and in order to comfort her friend, she made another joke, "But this kid has caused such a big mess before he was even born. He's pretty amazing."

Gu Yunsu snorted and laughed, saying, "Isn't it? There was no family harmony in the first place, and it hasn't even been born yet, but the whole family is in chaos and falling apart. So many people have to sacrifice their bright future for it. It's just like Satan."

Luo Jingjing also laughed: "Your family is really interesting. The little pervert is not enough, and now there is a little devil. What else? The little ancestor?"

"The little ancestor didn't come, but the old ancestor is not missing, so Ms. Wu is the right person to take the role." Gu Yunsu continued to joke, but was speechless and couldn't help shaking his head. "What kind of thing is this... no money, no love, terrible grades, and even quarreled with my parents to the point of running away from home. It's like going back to puberty. I'm speechless."

Gu Yunsu never liked adolescence. Her adolescence was empty and blank, without any stories, but full of countless self-doubts.

In fact, this self-doubt has always been with her and has not completely disappeared until now.

But compared to when she was young, at least she has learned how to say no and how to let go. If she hadn't done poorly, she would have really loved the feeling of growing up.

Luo Jingjing smiled and followed her instructions, "It happens to be the weekend these two days. If you really want to run away from home, hurry up and come over. I have time too."

Gu Yunsu responded, thanked him profusely, hung up the phone, sat in front of the closet for two minutes, got out of bed and started packing.

Really gone!

I don't care whether you want to have children or not, and how will you raise them if you do. She doesn't rely on her parents, nor does she lose her property. We are even, which is good.

But as she stuffed her clothes into the suitcase, she felt aggrieved.

This isn't the first time she's screwed up.

Gu Yunsu didn't know if she was the only one like this in the world, but many times, everything was moving in a better direction, and she was obviously not the focus of the disaster, but she had the ability to turn good things into bad things and make herself the target of siege at the last moment.

She used to blame fate, but then she slowly discovered this scary little secret: it is very likely that, subconsciously, she is the one who is preventing herself from achieving happiness and success.

But why?

She was troubled by this for a long time.

The conclusion that can be drawn is probably that you feel you are not worthy.

But what the hell is the reason for this?

The human heart is so complicated that even she herself can't figure it out.

When I went downstairs to collect the drying clothes, I ran into Wu Limei coming out of the kitchen.

The other person glanced at her, then quickly looked away, as if he was afraid of seeing something dirty or stye.

This is what happens when two people start a cold war. No one pays attention to each other and treats the other as air. Gu Yunsu has gotten used to it. Although she is not in a good mood, the physical energy consumed by quarreling is really too much. For someone with poor physical strength, she thinks a cold war is more appropriate.

And I felt a little proud in my heart: Humph, you are so arrogant now, but you will be dumbfounded when I run away from home!

Although she has never done this since she was a child.

There was only one time when she seemed to run away from home. It was when she was in the fourth grade of elementary school. She wanted to go to a concert, but Wu Limei wouldn't let her. The two of them ended up arguing and quarreling. In a fit of anger, Gu Yunsu packed up a bag of toys and clothes and put them in the closet.

The next day after school, she went to the gymnasium with her little sisters who also couldn't buy tickets. Unable to get in, they wandered around outside the gymnasium, crying and singing along with the faint singing they could hear.

It was already eleven o'clock when I got home. I knew it was useless, but I still took off my shoes and closed the door as quietly as possible.

It was at this moment that Wu Limei rushed out, hugged her and cried, "Where have you been!"

He still felt irritated after yelling, so he slapped her on the back again and again: "You didn't even tell me! Are you going crazy?"

Gu Yunsu was already feeling guilty, and after hearing that shout, she was so scared that she burst into tears.

Wu Limei hit her daughter several times, and felt distressed when she saw her daughter crying. She hugged her and started crying too.

The mother and daughter hugged each other and cried for nearly 20 minutes before Wu Limei finally understood what was going on. After she finished asking, she wanted to hit her daughter again. When she raised her hand, she saw her daughter's frightened and aggrieved look and couldn't bear it. Finally, she sighed, took her daughter back, and explained, "Mom didn't stop you from watching, but... our family is out of money this month."

Gu Yunsu sobbed and sobbed, hugged her mother and nodded: "I, I didn't, I didn't, I didn't, I don't want it."

A few days later, Wu Limei took Gu Yunsu to a record store and bought her a concert DVD as compensation.

That was the closest time in Gu Yunsu's life to running away from home. She was slapped a few times, but it was worth it. When she was young, she thought it was worth it because of the DVD. Later, she realized that the most valuable thing about this incident was that it made her realize that Wu Limei really cared about her.

It's reassuring to have someone who is afraid of losing you.

But for someone who cares about her so much, isn't what she is doing a bit too much?

Did I do something wrong?

Alas, you can't think about this kind of thing carefully, and you can't reflect on yourself after a quarrel. Once you reflect on yourself, the guilt will be like a surging river flowing through your heart.

After all, she is still kind.