Ningxia was filled with mixed emotions. It was hard to imagine a seven-year-old child carrying so much burden growing up, only to encounter a disaster. After finally escaping and struggling to survive, at the age of thirteen, her younger sister...
A child, still only a teenager, who has experienced the greatest sorrow and pain in life, how can he not suppress his emotions...
Jia Jia was unfortunate, but fortunately, during the few years she was left in this world, her father and brother loved her with all their heart.
Liu Wenjie was lucky to have met Sangsang and the squad leader. But in this world, who can really say whether they want to be lucky or would rather die in misfortune?
"Don't you want to ask him?"
"What do you want to ask?" Xiao Jie spoke after a long time, his voice was hoarse.
"Go ask him, as a husband, he left his wife who was about to give birth at home, and when something happened to his wife, he blamed his seven-year-old son; go ask him, he was nearly fifty years old and had no basic judgment, so he let a wolf into the house, causing his daughter to die tragically, and his son was afraid to go home." Ningxia said in a calm tone, explaining her point of view.
"Sister Xia... I don't want to go look for him... I don't want to be found by him either... I want to spend my whole life with the squad leader and the others... Can you please not tell him I'm in the camp?"
Ningxia didn't force him, but told him what she knew, "I can't understand the grudge between you and your father, but Xiaojie, when we came to settle down at the beginning of this year, we happened to take a ride in the carriage of your father's caravan.
He established this caravan in order to get to know more people around him and find you. Chocobos have already settled in the south of the desert, and he has not gone back just to find you.
Do you remember what he looked like? The last time I saw him, his hair was almost completely white.
Xiaojie had an indifferent expression and refused all news related to him.
Ningxia sighed, "If you don't want me to, I won't tell him, and I won't bring him here."
No way, it seems that Xiaojie can't make a breakthrough here. Once the cold month is over, she will talk to the squad leader and see how to deal with this matter.
Lin Yi was asked to help Xiao Jie back to the room. Ning Xia sat on the sofa and stared at the fire barrel for a long time without saying a word.
The sound of Lin Yi sitting down woke her up.
"What do you think?"
Lin Yi shook his head and lowered his eyes, not knowing what he was thinking.
Ningxia took Sangsang, who was lying on the sofa, into her arms and said, "I don't mean to pry into your and your brother Xiaojie's secrets. It's just that, Sangsang, I hope you can be happy.
Your brother and I carefully protect you, hoping that you can grow up without worries. There are many things about adults that you don’t understand, and you shouldn’t understand. Those things shouldn’t be borne by you, at any time."
Ningxia said this, resting her forehead against Sangsang's and looking at her seriously. "At any time, Sangsang, your brother and I are people you can trust unconditionally!"
Sangsang nodded, seeming to understand, "Xia Xia, will Brother Xiaojie go find his father?"
Ningxia shook her head, "I don't know either."
"Xia Xia," Sangsang looked up, "I have a father too, right? Little Bear said every child is the fruit of their parents' planting."
At this point, Sangsang scratched his head angrily, "I don't remember, I don't remember Dad, I don't remember Mom..."
"You want mom and dad?"
Sangsang shook her head and leaned into Ningxia's arms. "I only want you and my brother! I don't want that bad dad, Uncle Liu!"
"Sangsang's father is not a bad father. Your father loves you very much, just like Little Bear's father loves Little Bear."
"Xia Xia, you're lying! You don't even know my dad!"
Ningxia was speechless.
After this incident, Ningxia gained a completely new understanding of Sangsang. In some ways, the little girl's thinking was even more mature than Lin Yi's.
She has a strong ability of empathy. She looks at the world with her not-so-broad vision and has her own set of criteria for judging things. Ningxia doesn't know whether it is a good thing or a bad thing.
As Ningxia expected, Xiaojie had a fever again at night.
The person lying on the bed was extremely restless. He kept struggling, calling for his mother and then for Jia Jia. He tossed and turned, but nothing went right.
The tears rolling down his eyes soaked most of the pillow.
Ningxia wiped the sweat from his forehead, and only then did she feel the reality of the shadow his father had cast on him.
"The temperature is too high, Lin Yi, go to the box and find some antipyretic medicine."
The person on the bed was unconscious, and the Ningxia siblings were in a panic.
I gave him some fever-reducing medicine in the middle of the night before he finally calmed down. Even then, he kept talking incoherently.
The word Ningxia heard the most was "I'm sorry". I wonder how heavy a stone of regret has been weighing on this child's heart over the years.
After that conversation, the atmosphere in the Ning family grew strange. Xiao Jie wasn't as relaxed as before, remaining silent most of the time.
Ningxia was as attentive as ever in feeding Xiaojie, but he was still visibly withering away. Yes, a sixteen-year-old boy, withered away. The wound on his back was also healing very slowly.
But after that time when he had a fever, Ningxia never heard him talking in his sleep again, and she didn't know whether it was a good thing or a bad thing.
"Tell me, why are you hiding from me?"
Xiaojie avoided Ningxia's sharp eyes and said, "I didn't."
"No? You don't even pay attention to Sangsang, and you still say no! Look at yourself, haven't you had enough of life?" Ningxia pushed the other person's thin face. In less than a month, his cheeks were sunken.
Xiao Jie forced a smile, the bruises on his eyes particularly obvious. "Sister Xia, don't worry about me. Once the wound on my back is better, I'll go to the sentry post to find Brother Tiger and the others."
Ningxia looked at the horrible dark circles under his eyes, and a thought came to her mind, "Why are your dark circles so serious? Don't tell me you didn't sleep last night!"
"...No...I slept..."
"Still lying!"
Xiao Jie put away his smile and lowered his eyelids, "The whole night is full of nightmares... I... don't want to sleep..."
These days he managed to get through the day by taking advantage of the fact that there were people in the room who could take a short nap. Even then, he had to be extremely sleepy before he could fall asleep for a short while.
"Don't you want to sleep or are you afraid to sleep?"
"Xia Xia! I want ketchup! I want to help myself! Help myself!"
Before Xiaojie could reply, Sangsang's voice came from inside the house.
"I'm really impressed! One by one, none of them are worry-free."
The conversation between Ningxia and Xiaojie ended in nothing.
Xiaojie sat there, raised his head and stared blankly at the window, not knowing what he was thinking.
"Sister Xia? You..." That night, Xiao Jie looked in astonishment at the two people who jumped from the iron bed to both sides of him.
"Can't sleep? Lin Yi and I will sleep with you."
Ever since they talked it out that day, Xiao Jie refused Lin Yi's request to sleep with him, and Lin Yi squeezed in with Ningxia Sangsang again.
Ningxia sighed quietly, finally she wasn't sleeping in the middle anymore, so cool!
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