Chapter 45 Confession (End)
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Xing Chenyu will never forget that day in her life.
The atmosphere in the living room of the Luo family mansion was as silent as death.
She has been in the Luo family for all these years, and no matter how big the storm the Luo family encountered, she has never seen the atmosphere at home like this.
The suitcase in Luo's father's hand fell to the ground with a loud bang. At first, Luo's mother and two younger brothers looked at Luo's father in confusion, wondering why he didn't go into the house. But then Luo's mother took a closer look at the scene in the living room and understood. She immediately pulled the two younger brothers behind her with trembling hands to make sure they didn't see anything.
Luo Jingqu took two deep breaths, fastened his belt, and whispered to her, who was curled up on the sofa, trembling all over, "You wear my clothes and go upstairs first. Remember, don't come down if you hear any noise."
She didn't dare look at the door at all. Even though she was usually smart and calm, she was only nineteen years old after all. When faced with such a situation, her mind would definitely go blank.
Panic, shame, fear, guilt, embarrassment...all the emotions mixed together, and it was like a disaster for her.
After a while, she slid off the sofa and almost stumbled upstairs.
She had a vague memory of what happened later that day.
Because it left such a deep psychological trauma on her at the time, she later deliberately forced herself to forget this worst memory, so in the end, all the content of that day became blurred.
She only vaguely remembered that after sending her two younger brothers back to their rooms, Luo's father smashed the decorations in the living room directly on Luo Jingqu, and then vented his immense anger on his eldest son, whom he was most proud of. Luo's mother initially cried and screamed, asking him why, but later, when she was really tired of screaming, she sat silently on the sofa wiping her tears.
Luo Jingqu blamed all the mistakes on himself - he was the one who fell in love with her first, he was the one who seduced her to be with him, and he was the one who forced her to do those things with him.
He alone bore all the tsunamis.
In the early morning, she went to his room and saw him sitting by the window treating his wounds. When she saw the large bruises on his shoulders, tears couldn't stop falling.
He held her in his arms and gently comforted her, saying, "It's okay, it doesn't hurt, don't cry."
She really wanted to shoulder all that with him - she was an accomplice, and this was the forbidden fruit she had chosen herself, so she had no reason to let him face it alone.
However, when she thought of Luo's father and mother, she retreated in fear.
Luo Jingqu was their biological son after all, and no matter how big a mistake he made, they would eventually forgive him; but she was different, she was originally a sojourner whose fate had been changed and she had gained their love by accident, and no matter how good they were to her, after something like this happened, they would never look at her the same way again.
They might think that she was the jinx who brought misfortune and disaster to their family, or they might think that she was the one who seduced Luo Jingqu... People's hearts are unpredictable, and it's not surprising that they would have any thoughts when they see this kind of scene.
But they are all well-educated people. They will not show their thoughts on their faces and will give her enough face as a girl.
But she herself could no longer keep pretending everything was okay.
They gave her face, but she felt that she could no longer stay in this house.
So, the next day, when Luo Jingqu went to the company, she packed all her luggage and moved to the school dormitory.
Before leaving, she said to Luo's parents who were trying to keep her, "Mom and Dad, I don't know if you still want me to call you that. Thank you for all your kindness to me and for paying for my college education. Once I find a job, I won't ask you for money anymore. I will take care of my own life. I owe you enough. Leaving the Luo family mansion to live is the only way I can repay you now."
After hearing this, Luo's father and mother fell silent.
Finally, with tears in their eyes, they held her hands and told her, "This will always be your home."
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When Luo Jingqu knew that she had moved out of the Luo residence, he drove directly to her school to find her and asked her to move back immediately. She talked to him for a long time, and finally he insisted that if she did not return to the Luo family, she would have to move to the small villa under his name. She really couldn't persuade him and had to agree.
So he lived in the small villa almost six days out of seven.
In fact, Luo's father and mother knew all this, and they had many disputes with Luo Jingqu, but he never changed his ways.
Later, her paintings won awards, she became more and more famous, and made a lot of money. She returned the credit card given by Luo's father and began to rely entirely on herself for living.
In fact, she had thought many times about ending this relationship with Luo Jingqu that would never see the light of day, because she felt that as long as it lasted one day, she and Luo Jingqu would be letting the Luo family down, but every time this idea was forcefully shattered by him.
She had no choice but to start leaving the city continuously.
Even though it was hard for her to let go, she also wanted to be the cruel person. She wanted him to slowly forget her, and she also wanted to slowly withdraw from his life completely and let him return to his original life track.
If he had not met her, he would not have had conflicts and breaks with his parents.
If he had not met her, he would not have to endure so much that he should not have endured as a child of destiny.
It was she who harmed him, it was she who dragged him into this bottomless swamp.
But no matter how many times she left, it could not shake Luo Jingqu's determination and persistence. So in the end, she could only take advantage of his business trips and disappear for two years without looking back.
She left her heart, along with him, in this city.
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In this dream, Xing Chenyu seemed to relive her past.
When she opened her eyes, she found that the pillow under her head was wet with her tears, but the person next to her was still sleeping, his handsome brows were slightly furrowed, as if he had encountered something bad in his sleep.
She gently rubbed his knotted brows with her hand and wanted to get out of bed to get a glass of water, but as soon as she moved, he grabbed her wrist.
She turned her head and saw that he had his eyes closed. He murmured, "Yingying, don't go."
He wasn't awake, he was just talking in his sleep.
Her whole body was tense, and she just stood there motionless, looking at his tightly pursed lips, and her eyes suddenly turned red again.
"Don't leave."
After a while, he murmured again: "I beg you."
She sniffed, and the tear that overflowed from the corner of her eye rolled down into her hair.
During the two years she spent secluded in the mountains abroad painting, she had wondered if he would come to see her.
Will he find despair, give up... and finally forget her completely, and then become the proud and omnipotent Luo Jingqu again, and start a new life without [Xing Chenyu].
She hoped he would do so, but deep down she always fantasized whether he would still not give up on her.
There were several times when she missed him so much that she ran to the village to borrow a phone to contact him, but in the end she gritted her teeth and returned to her residence.
She felt that she was doing this for his own good. She felt that she was sacrificing and selfless.
However, when Liang Yushi got off the helicopter and found her that day, Liang Yushi said to her -
"You think you're doing this for everyone's good, that you're being worthy of everyone, but you're wrong. You're being unfair to yourself, and even more unfair to him. You're simply imposing your own ideas on him, forcing him to follow your own path. Do you think you're not being selfish just by walking away like this? Can you say you haven't had a moment of hope that he wouldn't give up on you?"
"Xing Chenyu, you are just deceiving yourself. You are just creating a great image for yourself to cover up the cowardice in your heart."
The queen's words were harsh, but they woke her up with a slap in the face.
So she agreed to follow Liang Yushi back.
She finally wanted to change this ending that only she appreciated from beginning to end and that only she thought was the best.
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When Luo Jingqu woke up, he almost jumped up from the bed.
He turned his head and saw the empty bed beside him. He immediately reached out and found that the bed was no longer warm.
His expression suddenly changed and he immediately got out of bed.
In fact, his sleep quality has been very poor in the past two years, and it is almost difficult for him to sleep through the night. But on the day she came back, he fell asleep holding the treasure that he had lost and found again, and he actually had a long-lost good dream.
He was sleeping so soundly and peacefully that he completely let his guard down.
The whole small house was so quiet at this moment that there was not even a sound. It was hard not to think that the worst had happened.
He casually put on a T-shirt and sweatpants and wanted to rush downstairs, but as soon as he stepped out of the bedroom, he suddenly turned back.
He saw that the suitcase he had helped her carry up last night was still leaning quietly against the wall.
Didn't she leave?
Luo Jingqu's heart, which had just risen to his throat, instantly calmed down a little. But even though her suitcase was still there, it didn't mean she was there too. So he went downstairs again and found that she had actually peeled some fruit and fried some eggs for him and put them on the dining table.
Young Master Luo was completely puzzled and couldn't figure out what was going on.
But she was definitely not there.
So where did she go?
He frowned and sat down to eat the breakfast she had prepared for him. While eating, he picked up his cell phone and called Liang Yushi.
As a result, the phone rang for a long time, and the person who answered the phone was Shen Yixi.
The Queen's Hand's attitude was extremely bad: "Did you know that last night was someone else's wedding night?"
Luo Jingqu: "I know, but my wife ran away again."
"Do you think I'm a police station? I'm not responsible for missing people."
"I'm not looking for you, I'm looking for Shishi."
When Shen Yixi heard the word "Shi Shi", he felt a cramp in his head and hung up the phone without saying a word.
"Small-minded."
Luo Jingqu muttered something, and finally lost his appetite to eat anymore. He grabbed his coat and went out.
She didn't have a cell phone now, so he couldn't contact her and didn't know where she was. He could only drive blindly and aimlessly, slowly along this street.
He would carefully observe every dessert shop he passed by along the way. When he found that she was not in the nearby neighborhood, he would turn around and drive to her university, the art studio she used to like to go to, and the coffee shop...
It is really easy to hide in this huge city.
His heart sank little by little, and he was ready to use his connections to investigate the airport and train station. Just as he was waiting for the red light, he suddenly received a message from Luo's father.
When he saw the message, he almost wondered if he had seen it wrong.
Luo's father: [Take Yuyu home and live with her. Don't let her leave from now on.]
He was completely stunned by what he saw, until the people behind him started honking their horns, then he suddenly realized what was going on. Then his eyes lit up, and he turned the car around and sped towards the small house.
When he arrived at the door of the small villa, he jumped out of the car and pushed open the iron gate.
When he rushed to the door, he saw Xing Chenyu, whom he had been looking for for a long time, sitting at the dining table, eating the fruit he had not finished. Seeing him come back, she smiled at him and teased him, "You are sweating all over. Where have you been carrying bricks?"
He stood motionless at the door and looked at her.
"If you don't want to eat, I'll eat it all," she said, standing up from the table and shrugging. "Please help me pack my things later. I think there should be enough space in the car. I don't have much."
"The color scheme of your room is really too dark. Mom and Dad said I can change it to whatever I want."
"I won't use pink anymore and give you a way out."
Luo Jingqu's breathing stagnated for a moment.
This was a dream he had never imagined.
He once thought whether he would spend his whole life chasing after her and searching for her. He also once thought whether they would never be able to walk hand in hand together openly in this world.
He knew she loved him, but he also understood her fear and timidity.
He has also made up his mind. He is willing to wait for her for ten, twenty years, or even longer... He thinks that one day, she will be willing to be brave for him and be willing to fulfill their love.
However, he never thought that this day would suddenly come before him.
"Come here." Seeing that he had been silent, she walked up to him and pulled him to the sofa in the living room.
Then, in front of him, she picked up a painting that was carefully wrapped in bubble wrap and placed on the coffee table, and tore off the bubble wrap and wrapping paper one by one.
"Luo Jingqu," she placed all the outer packaging on the coffee table and handed the painting to him, "This is the most carefully painted painting I have ever created in my life."
He took the painting and his eyes suddenly became red.
That painting is a scene he will never forget in his life.
In the afternoon sunshine, he handed a piece of candy to her hand at the dining table of the Luo family mansion. He told her that she would have someone to rely on from now on, and the black-haired girl showed him the first heartfelt smile since she came to the Luo family mansion.
At that moment, their fates were closely linked.
"This painting," he began, only to find his throat was choked with sobs. "Does it have a name?"
Xing Chenyu looked at him, then smiled and nodded slightly.
"This painting is called Confession."
"I think I've never told you this," she said, "Luo Jingqu, I love you. I've never regretted it, and I've never stopped."
He tilted his head with a smile, and then burst into tears.
The color I love most in this world is your confession to me.
Every stroke, every thick and light color, represents my burning and endless love.
(over)
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