Chapter 44 Confession 06
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The kiss was heavy and a little reckless, carrying the most primitive impulse and overflowing emotions that had been accumulated for a long time.
Xing Chenyu was a little overwhelmed. She was young and inexperienced to begin with, and he held her so tightly and kissed her so recklessly that she almost couldn't breathe.
After a long while, he finally let her go, pressed his lips against hers, and panted softly, "There has never been anyone other than you in my eyes."
Behind all the alienation, indifference and neglect, there is a love between men and women that is as strong and hot as magma, and they are trying hard to hide it.
Because he knew it was not possible, he deliberately chose to stay away and turn a blind eye. Because he knew it was not possible, he tried to hypnotize himself about what kind of life he should choose instead of ruining her future because of his own selfish desires.
Her tears had stopped at this time, and her face turned red and her whole body trembled uncontrollably.
Fortunately, the darkness had concealed all her embarrassment, and only the people in front of her could see the splendor.
"Yingying."
Because he spoke in a low voice, it sounded particularly low and seductive at the moment: "I have deliberately stayed away from you recently, deliberately ignored your feelings, and even deliberately didn't say happy birthday to you on time today... Please believe that none of this is out of my own will, but I have no choice. Because if I don't do this, I am afraid that I will make this matter unresolvable."
"Just like just now."
She stared at him motionlessly, letting him wipe the tears from her eyes with his fingertips. After a while, she suddenly asked, "Can you please not marry Sister Xiaofu?"
After listening to this, Luo Jingqu suddenly smiled and sighed.
"Xiaofu was actually my best friend when I was studying abroad. She agreed to act this out with me in front of my parents to help me see my own heart clearly."
"Because she also has someone she loves but cannot have, she understands my feelings and is willing to accompany me in deceiving myself for a while. But when I just saw her off, she said she wouldn't continue to play along with me because she felt that my fantasy was reciprocated and she thought I should take this step and turn my fantasy into reality."
After listening to it, she was stunned for a long time to digest the story behind it, and then she began to feel sour in her heart.
He said, "You know what? I thought I could do this—obey my parents' wishes, marry another girl, forget all these ridiculous desires for you, and do what [Luo Jingqu] should have done."
"But then I realized it still didn't work. As long as I saw you, I couldn't stop fantasizing about you."
"I didn't know what love was before, and I also thought I wouldn't be able to truly like someone. But when I fell asleep with you that night, I suddenly realized that this is what it feels like to like someone."
"I can't stop wanting to see you, I can't stop longing for you, I want to kiss you, hug you, I want to do many things to you. And these are things that brothers and sisters can't do."
"Xing Chenyu, I want to do everything that only lovers can do with each other."
As soon as he finished speaking, she suddenly and gently grabbed his hand that was holding her cheek.
In silence, she rubbed her cheek against his palm, held his fingers, and looked up at him: "You came to me just now, what did you want to say to me?"
He closed his eyes, then opened his thin lips slightly.
"I want to make sure I'm not alone in this fantasy."
She smiled.
"Um."
After a long time, she stood on tiptoe, hooked her arms around his neck in the moonlight, and bit his lips.
"You're not."
...
Her first time was imprinted on this huge bed covered with dark blue sheets.
She used to sit here and listen to her "brother" tell bedtime stories, current affairs news, and lighthearted jokes before leaving to go back to her room to sleep.
And tonight, she stayed in this bed.
She is no longer a sister.
She is his lover.
When everything was settled, she only remembered that he carried her to the bathroom to take a shower, then carried her back to her room and gently changed her into pajamas.
Before falling asleep, she felt him tuck her in with the quilt and then place a lingering kiss on her forehead.
"Happy belated birthday, first day of turning eighteen, I love you so much."
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After the truth was revealed, they both knew that this was something that absolutely could not be made known to anyone else, so they handled it with extreme caution.
When they were at home, they were still the "good brother" and "good sister" as before. After a while, Luo Jingqu chose a more reasonable time to tell his father and mother that he and Xiaofu had broken up peacefully. Although the two parents felt sorry, they still respected his opinion very much.
Because they didn't know what the real reason behind his "breakup" was.
Every night, when it was late at night and everyone was asleep, Xing Chenyu would quietly go to Luo Jingqu's room after finishing her homework. At first, the two of them would just hug each other and chat for a while, but later on, things changed as they chatted.
He was so obsessed with her and her body that even he found it terrifying.
He used to feel that he had no great interest in sex.
I can only say that I never met the right person.
Fortunately, her affair with him didn't affect her studies. Xing Chenyu scored first in the college entrance exam and was accepted into the city's best art school. On the day of her graduation, Luo Jingqu turned down all his work to attend her graduation ceremony and serve as her dance partner.
That day, she truly experienced what it meant to be in the limelight. When she and he appeared on the school lawn together, everyone in the school was looking at them, looking at Luo Jingqu.
The girls' screams came one after another.
The person he loves is me.
She thought to herself.
He is mine alone.
Luo Jingqu had originally planned to wait until she was about to graduate from university before discussing this matter with her parents. He knew it would be a huge undertaking, so they both needed to be very thorough and resolute in how they handled it and safeguarded their love.
However, things did not develop as smoothly as he expected, because he forgot that once Pandora's box was opened, many things would inadvertently get out of control.
During the summer vacation of her freshman year, Luo's parents took their two younger brothers to the suburbs for a summer vacation. Originally, Xing Chenyu wanted to go with them, but Luo Jingqu found an excuse to send Luo's parents away.
So, during those days, they were in the deserted house, almost forgetting everything and entangled with each other.
Because in the past, they could only try their best to play their roles at home, and even deliberately keep a safe distance. This was actually something that made people feel depressed and suffocated. After all, they were two lovers in love.
And this was the first time that no one was home, no one was watching them, and no one was disturbing them.
When she was eating fruit at the dining table, he couldn't help but come up to her from behind, press her on the table, and lift up her home skirt; when she was painting in the study, before she could react, he would put his arm around her shoulders from behind and kiss her... In the end, the paint, the painting, and she were all turned into a mess.
"Yingying."
After everything was over, he would always say to her: "I know you really want me to be more restrained, but you have to understand that it is really difficult to do this when I am with you every day."
She would always blush and spit at him, reluctantly letting him continue to indulge himself in this way.
That day, Luo Jingqu came back from the company and saw her wearing a red floral dress, sitting quietly on the sofa reading a book. He was so engrossed in reading that he even forgot to close the door. He took off his shoes and strode towards her.
She was engrossed in reading a book, but he suddenly leaned over and pushed her back. She was stunned for a moment, and it took her a few seconds to recover. She responded to his kiss with a blushing face.
"I'm going to be here today," he whispered in her ear.
Her cheeks flushed, and before she could react, he had already untied the laces of her skirt.
They never dreamed that Mr. and Mrs. Luo, who were supposed to come back in three days, drove back early today because of the weather.
Luo's mother walked behind with her two younger brothers, while Luo's father walked in front dragging a suitcase. Luo's father found that the door of the house was not closed, so he opened it directly.
"you……"
The next second, Father Luo stood there in disbelief.
As soon as he heard the sound, Luo Jingqu reflexively covered Xing Chenyu with the shirt and jacket he had just taken off, wrapping her body tightly, and then blocked her behind him.
But it's too late.
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