Chapter 106 Disease
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[Not long after Jiang Yang and I got together, she suddenly fell ill.
A disease with unknown cause and unknown etiology.
I watched her body grow weaker and weaker, and her spiritual power gradually decline, as if she had contracted some incurable disease. In just a few days, she was already on the verge of death.
But gods cannot get sick. Their bodies are so strong that they are rarely seen in the world. Except for a very small number of magical weapons that can hurt gods, there is no disease in this world that can infect gods.
It’s not like there haven’t been diseases that can infect gods before, and that’s why the gods are wary of the disease called “love.”
But even "love" would not cause a god to decline so quickly.
I have a feeling that if I don't stop it, Jiang Yang will leave me sooner or later because of this illness.
I began to look for a way to save my life everywhere, from heaven to earth, and I searched almost every corner of this space and time.
If this time and space cannot save her, then let's change to another time and space.
I don’t know how many times and spaces I have traveled through using the key to the space-time rift, and how many future selves I have prayed for.
But every one of them remained silent after hearing about this incident, and no matter how I pressed them, they refused to tell me the reason.
I began to suspect that they had known I would end up like this...
Until the last time I traveled through time and space, I arrived at the day of the end of the world.
This time, I saw the self who destroyed the world.
But the purpose of my coming here is no longer to ask him the reason.
I humbly begged him to tell me how to save Jiang Yang.
Hearing this, he raised his eyebrows and laughed out loud, as if he had seen the biggest fool in the world.
"I can't save her, and you can't save her either."
The corners of his mouth turned up, clearly showing a smile, but big tears were falling from his eyes.
I could see the sadness in his eyes. He wasn't smiling at all, he was clearly crying.
"There are some things you can only understand if you experience them yourself," he said, looking up at the sky, with a hint of meaning, "There are some things we are not allowed to speak of. You can only know them if you explore them yourself."
He raised his hand and pushed me out at the last second before the world was destroyed.
Before the space-time rift closed, I could faintly hear his voice in my ears: "What a bullshit fate, screw you!"
I don't believe him, how could I not be able to save Jiang Yang?!
How could I not be able to save Jiang Yang? !
I began to lock myself in the temple, concentrating on finding a cure for Jiang Yang, but every attempt failed.
I can't find the cause of the disease, let alone a cure, I can't even find a way to alleviate the symptoms.
I could only watch Jiang Yang grow weaker day by day.
Until one day, she closed her eyes forever in my arms.
At that moment, my mind went blank.
I just sat there, feeling the warmth in my arms gradually dissipate, as if the whole person had left with it.
I spent many years in a daze until Mother Earth was suddenly infected with the disease, and then a large number of gods died.
The Heavenly Dao, which had previously been hidden behind the gods, suddenly awakened, and its power increased exponentially.
Only then did I realize that it was all because of that illness.
Gods cannot be tainted by love and affection; this is the lure of Heaven and also the rule set by Heaven.
The weak Heavenly Dao had long hoped that the gods would violate the rules and die so that it could take back its power.
And in its eyes, we are just fattened lambs to be slaughtered.
I think I should know the answer because I made the same choice as my future self.
No, to be precise, the me of today is the me of tomorrow.
The moment the world collapsed, the timelines of all the small worlds went back, and I returned to the beginning of my birth with my memories.
I suddenly remembered that when the world was destroyed for the first time, my future self had cast a spell on myself. My soul would not be lost, and no one could take away my memory, not even the heavens.
After my third rebirth, I learned my lesson and stopped taking the initiative to contact Jiang Yang.
In order to prevent other time and space from tragedy, I even specifically found other time and space that had contact with Jiang Yang, and at the moment when Jiang Yang was about to die, I extracted a wisp of Jiang Yang's soul.
I suddenly understood the future me whom I once cursed. I thought that when the me in that time and space reaches where I am today, he will understand me.
In this life, I have no contact with her, but she has had many intermittent relationships arranged by heaven.
Fortunately, there were some things she didn't like, and I helped her break up with some of them. Until the end, she didn't fall in love with any god or person.
But even so, she died in a place where I couldn't see her. I didn't even see her body.
The moment the world returned to peace, I seemed to connect all the words I had said in the future.
If death is Jiang Yang's fate, then break that damn fate.
The fourth time, I was extremely careful, but in the end I still couldn't escape this damn fate.
The fifth time, I took the initiative to find Tiandao, hoping to exchange my divine power for Jiang Yang, but in the end I could only watch Jiang Yang die in front of me.
The sixth time, the seventh time, the eighth time...
I have lost count of how many times I have been reincarnated, and I know that if this continues, I will collapse.
My mental state has become unstable, and I suddenly understood why those previous me in the future time and space were so resistant to the me who traveled through time and space.
Because I actually began to want to get temporary satisfaction in other time and space, those time and space when I was in love with Jiang Yang.
I did this several times. I killed my past selves in those time and space, pretended to be them, and fell in love with Jiang Yang.
Among them, there were many times when I would be recognized by Jiang Yang. Even if I was not recognized, it would not be long before I would experience the pain of Jiang Yang's death again.
I also clearly realized that as long as I don’t resolve this damn law of nature, this damn fate, I will not be able to stay with Jiang Yang.
I need to completely change the way of heaven. Why are gods destined to be its blood bags and follow the ending it has arranged?
I began to fight against the Way of Heaven, but in the end, I discovered that the Way of Heaven was also fighting against some behemoth.
Its energy was also exhausted in the confrontation with the behemoth.
Once the Heavenly Dao disappears, that unknown behemoth will instantly devour the world.
By then, not to mention the gods, even the laws of nature will disappear.
I realized that from this moment on, my real goal became finding enough nourishment for the Heavenly Dao.
In this world, apart from gods, what else is suitable for the way of heaven?
I began to turn my attention to the last species created by Heaven - human beings.
The Heavenly Dao didn't leave behind the celestial beings, but instead left behind humans and gods. There must have been a reason for this.
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