Chapter 107 Misunderstanding
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[My guess is right, gods and humans are both backers of heaven.
I think I need to find a way to replace the gods with humans.
Hard work pays off, and I found a way to gain energy from humans - faith.
Humans themselves are fragile, but their faith can, to some extent, provide for the gods.
The stronger the power of faith, the more powerful the gods will be. When the way of heaven absorbs energy from the gods, it will not cause the gods to disappear.
I thought I could save Jiang Yang, and even other gods, but I just needed to deceive the heavens.
If I were to start over again, I would complete the first half step by step.
Humanity developed and rose, and then secretly pushed the gods to initiate a vote on the fate of mankind.
I know that although the Heavenly Dao seems to not care about this world, it has actually been paying close attention to the gods.
I will sacrifice all of humanity to the Heavenly Dao, and the Council of Gods is the best pretext.
However, I didn’t expect that in this life, even though Jiang Yang’s memories of his previous life on earth were taken away by me, he still had such a strong favorable impression towards humans.
At the meeting of the gods, I watched her walking towards me and gently asked me to visit the human world. I almost couldn't control my tears.
She must have thought I was weird, because as soon as she finished speaking, I turned around and reincarnated into the mortal world.
But if I had been a step later, I was really afraid that I would not be able to control myself and imprison her.
Maybe it’s because Jiang Yang left me too many times, so I’m actually afraid of her leaving.
I don't know how many times I have rehearsed the scene of imprisoning her in my mind.
Fortunately, every time I come into contact with her, I subconsciously consider her feelings.
She doesn't like that, I know that, so I need to be patient.
When I was reborn as a child, I didn't actually feel anything.
I was even glad for my short life, because it meant I could return to the divine realm as soon as possible and continue my plan.
After doing it again and again so many times, I clearly realized that the four words "delay leads to change" have never been an easy saying.
Jiang Yang might feel that the suffering of cutting wrists and bleeding, and being sacrificed to evil gods, was very painful, but it was nothing to me.
I was trapped in that small wooden cage, and what really scared me was the disappointed look in Jiang Yang's eyes when he saw me vote in favor when I returned to the divine realm.
But what I never expected was that Jiang Yang would come to see me specifically.
She came to save me, a mortal.
In the last second before I closed my eyes, I heard her familiar voice, so intimate that it seemed like we were back in our first life when we were in love.
The glory of the Moon Goddess finally shines on me again, as warm as ever.
I began to crave this warmth and got used to living in this world as a human being.
Jiang Yang and I did a lot of things. I saw how happy she was, and her smile was as sweet as in the first life.
I suddenly felt that being a human being was not bad.
I began to crave Jiang Yang's love, madly and humbly hoping that she would love me again.
My mind tells me that the plan has come to this point and cannot fail, but my body longs for Jiang Yang's touch, and my soul hopes to be saved by Jiang Yang.
I look radiant on the outside, but my soul is on the verge of breaking. It's as if Jiang Yang is picking me up piece by piece and sewing me back together carefully in the mortal world.
Jiang Yang always says that I am a gentle gentleman, but actually I am not. I am inferior, sensitive, fragile, and get angry easily. From time to time, I secretly want to kill everyone in the world and leave only Jiang Yang.
But she always comforts me silently, tolerates me, coaxes me when I am angry, and makes me happy when I am sad.
She knew I was not a good person, but she always said that she hoped I could be a good person, whether I was famous in history or unknown, as long as I could be myself.
Gradually, I began to pretend as she wanted me to.
After a long time, with the mask on my face, I seemed to have really turned into the gentle high priest Zhu Qing.
Later, Jiang Yang left for a while because of something in the divine realm. Only then did I realize that the passage of time in the divine realm and the human world is different. It turned out to be such a painful thing.
In Jiang Yang's eyes, she was only away for a short while, but to me, it was like she had been waiting for many years.
This was also the first time I realized that waiting is such a painful yet hopeful thing.
Compared with the hopeless waiting in the past, this time I can look forward to Jiang Yang's arrival.
But precisely because of the expectation, waiting becomes torment.
It was also at this time that I clearly realized that I was trapped in the period when Jiang Yang disappeared, and I had never really gotten out of it over the years.
Even though it has happened many times, Jiang Yang has appeared in front of me many times, and I clearly realize that they are the same person, but I am still immersed in the nightmare of her death.
Like a demon trapped in a bottle, my thoughts began to go wild and degenerate.
In the first year after Jiang Yang left, I still had some sense and believed she would come back.
In the third year, I began to have frequent nightmares about Jiang Yang disappearing, and gradually I began to lose the ability to distinguish between reality and dreams.
In order to escape from the dream, I began to stay awake all night long, as if in this way I could control the demons in my heart that were spreading.
In the following years, every time I came into contact with the priests in the temple, I would think darkly, if all the priests in the temple died, would Jiang Yang appear immediately?
Every time such thoughts appear, they are interrupted by myself in my mind.
After all, Jiang Yang seemed to like these humans very much. If they were really killed, Jiang Yang would be angry.
I felt like I had become Jiang Yang's dog, lying on the doorstep day after day, looking in the direction she left, and looking forward to her owner's return.
But I can't guarantee that if Jiang Yang doesn't come back, I will break free from the reins tied around my neck and bite everyone to death.
The wait was so torturous that when Jiang Yang came back, my first reaction was not to rush over to her happily, but to keep her and prevent her from leaving again.
At this moment, I suddenly remembered the information that Jiang Yang had accidentally revealed to me before.
The God of Light Chongli, my predecessor, may be the best excuse for me to keep Jiang Yang.
I had already succeeded, and Jiang Yang had agreed to my new plan.
I am conducting an experiment on myself. If it succeeds, I can shed my identity as a god and survive as a human being.
In that way, humans might be able to escape.
It’s a pity that Jiang Yang attacked me.
I experienced the sadness of Jiang Yang passing away in front of me, and my first reaction was to comfort her.
I don’t want Jiang Yang to experience the grief I have, not to mention that Jiang Yang killed my lover with his own hands.
I wanted to tell Jiang Yang not to be sad, but after hearing Jiang Yang's message, I cooperated and finished the play.
But what I didn't expect was that Jiang Yang actually wanted to extract a piece of my soul.
But in the first time and space, my soul was already under a spell, and no one can remove it.]
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