Chapter 159 It hurts here when you ignore me
However, even if Yan Yu thought this way, it wouldn't be of much use. After all, even before he became stupid, his mind wasn't sharp enough to think of any other way to bring him and Shen Jin back together. Instead, it only drove them further and further apart.
Now that his head is damaged and he's become an idiot, what other solutions does he expect to come up with with that broken brain? Isn't that just wishful thinking?
So Yan Yu had no choice but to seek help from others, and the only people he knew here were Shen Jin, Xiao Qing, and the old lady.
While waiting for Xiaoqing to come and examine him, he blinked and looked at her, then said hesitantly, "I need your help with something... Please don't leave, okay?"
Xiaoqing knew nothing about his past, so she had no prejudice against him. Now that he was a bit silly and had a handsome face, if the other girls in the village saw him, they would probably be eager to snatch him away.
"Sure, tell me, what do you need my help with?" Xiaoqing pulled up a stool and sat down next to him, checking his wounds and body as she smiled. "What could you possibly need?"
Perhaps because Yan Yu in front of her was already stupid, Xiao Qing couldn't help but speak to him in the same tone as if she were coaxing a child, no matter how he looked like a man in his twenties.
Yan Yu wouldn't care about any of that, since he couldn't tell the difference anyway. He simply felt that Xiao Qing was really nice, gentle, and easy to talk to, unlike Shen Jin who was fierce towards him.
“There are many things, but I don’t know what to do. It seems like whatever I do is wrong,” Yan Yu thought for a moment, frowned, glanced at Xiao Qing, and only continued after seeing that she wasn’t angry, “It’s about… about Shen Jin.”
"Hmm?" Xiaoqing was a little surprised after hearing this, then couldn't help but laugh and teased, "Since it's about Chen Jin, why don't you talk to him properly?"
"I wouldn't dare, and... he doesn't want to talk to me," Yan Yu said truthfully. He wouldn't dare say these things in front of Shen Jin, but he wasn't afraid in front of Xiao Qing. "If I said it, he would definitely get angry..."
Xiaoqing sensed his grievance. Girls are always easily moved, especially by a good-looking person. She smiled instantly and asked softly, "Okay, then tell me what happened. Let's see if I can help you."
“Okay!” Yan Yu nodded decisively, smiled, hesitated for a moment, and then said, “I don’t want Shen Jin to hate me.”
Xiaoqing: "..."
Xiaoqing's smile froze instantly, her eyebrows twitched violently, and for a moment she didn't know what to say, so she could only force a smile.
She's asking for something so difficult right off the bat! What can she do?
Although they didn't know what had happened between Yan Yu and Shen Jin in the past, since these were private matters, everyone could see that Shen Jin was very kind and polite to everyone, but ignored Yan Yu and didn't want to see him.
Yan Yu didn't notice her reaction; he just felt incredibly sad. He frowned and muttered to himself, "He really hates me. I don't know what I did in the past, but he just really dislikes me..."
Xiaoqing chuckled dryly, not wanting to see his pitiful, worried face, and said with a smile, "How do you know he particularly dislikes you? Did he say that to you? If not, then it's definitely not true, Chen Jin is such a nice person."
She had barely finished speaking when Yan Yu shook his head and sighed softly, saying helplessly, "You don't need to comfort me, I know everything."
Xiaoqing: "..."
Now she really didn't know what to do. She could only try her best to keep smiling, quietly look at him, and listen to what he had to say next.
However, to her surprise, Yan Yu suddenly stared into her eyes and asked very seriously, "He likes you guys a lot. How did you manage to do it? Teach me! I want to be liked by him too."
Xiaoqing: "..."
When Yan Yu first told her not to leave and asked for her help, she stayed with the intention of comforting a child, even though that child was actually a giant baby.
But to her utter surprise, this giant baby asked her several difficult questions in a row! She couldn't answer a single one of them!
"Well, how should I put it... well, it's a long story," Xiaoqing's eyelids twitched a few times, and she couldn't find a suitable word for a long time.
Remaining silent wasn't a solution, especially under the intense gaze of his alluring eyes. Xiaoqing could only awkwardly reply, "You can't get fat in one bite. Many things take time... cough, do you understand what I mean?"
Yan Yu stared intently at her, listening attentively, afraid of missing any important words. However, after she finished speaking, Yan Yu could honestly tell her, "I don't understand what you're saying."
Xiaoqing: "..."
In fact, she didn't understand what she was rambling on about.
Xiaoqing said, "Sigh, I don't know what to say. We outsiders certainly don't know about what's going on between you two, but there must be a reason why he treated you that way. You have to ask him yourself and find out what happened between you two in the past, otherwise it will be very difficult to change your relationship."
When Yan Yu heard her mention the "past," his eyes flickered slightly. A strange voice deep inside him kept calling out something, making him feel afraid.
“I’m afraid to know about the past because I know it must be bad…” Yan Yu lowered his eyes. “I’m sorry to him. I must have done a lot of things to hurt him, but verbal apologies are useless. He doesn’t want to be near me either. I…”
He genuinely didn't know what to do, which is why he chose to ask Xiaoqing, but Xiaoqing didn't know either.
Having no other option, Yan Yu had to ask the old lady instead.
The old lady was very talkative and chatted with him for the entire afternoon, but Yan Yu had no idea what she was talking about. Instead, she rambled on about all sorts of things and ended up not getting anywhere.
Shen Jin himself knew about these things, but he didn't say anything and remained indifferent to Yan Yu as always.
More than half a month passed in the blink of an eye. Yan Yu tried to get close to Shen Jin in various ways, talking and chatting with him, even trying to please him or apologizing to him.
However, the result was the same; it was of no use.
Yan Yu couldn't help but ask, "Why do you hate me so much?"
Shen Jin stared at him for a long time without looking away, and said slowly, "It's nothing. We just made it clear before that I no longer care about the past, and neither do you. From now on, we should go our separate ways and treat each other like strangers. That's the best ending."
Yan Yuming clearly couldn't remember anything, but when he heard him say that, his heart still ached sharply, his throat tightened, and he stared at him without moving, his eyes reddening.
“It’s okay if you don’t remember, but you can try to ignore any remaining goodwill you have for me, pretend it doesn’t exist, and just treat me, Xiaoqing, and the old lady as the same kind of people,” Chen Jin said. “Do you understand what I’m saying?”
"I...I don't understand..." Yan Yu pursed his lips, scratched his chest hard a few times, and looked at Chen Jin with red eyes. "It hurts so much here...I don't know what to do to stop the pain. It hurts terribly when you say these things, and it hurts when you ignore me..."
“Every night when I think of you, it hurts so much…” Yan Yu’s voice trembled with tears as he spoke, his eyes red, “I really don’t know what to do, how to stop the pain, I…I…”
Shen Jin turned her head away from his eyes, looked up at the blue sky, blinked, and said softly, "It's okay, it's only temporary, it won't hurt for long, and it will fade after a while."
Tears welled up in Yan Yu's eyes uncontrollably. He stared intently at Chen Jin and asked in a deep voice, "Really?"
Shen Jin stared into his eyes and told him, "Really, believe me, time heals all wounds."
He spoke with such earnestness that it was impossible not to believe him. Yan Yu stared at him blankly for a while, then blurted out, "Are you like that too?"
Shen Jin was taken aback for a moment, then he suddenly smiled faintly, shook his head, and said in a calm tone, "I am not."
Yan Yu pursed his lips: "Then you..."
Shen Jin looked away, avoiding his peach blossom eyes, her voice low and deep: "I haven't been in pain for a long time..."
After he finished speaking, he stood up, turned around and left, leaving Yan Yu alone staring blankly at his back, tears streaming down his face.
But no one could see it at that moment.
Another half month passed, and Yan Yu had recovered. Except for his mind still being a little dazed, he was able to get out of bed and jump around.
Since his last conversation with Shen Jin, their relationship has become subtle. It's not exactly confrontational, nor is it particularly good; rather, it's a faint, somewhat distant feeling, as if they were two people who weren't very familiar with each other.
Yan Yu stopped thinking about how to see him and trying to make him not dislike him. Instead, he listened to him and kept his distance, even rarely appearing in front of him.
Xiaoqing asked Shen Jin what had happened between him and Yan Yu. Shen Jin just smiled and said calmly, "Nothing. We've just returned to a more normal relationship. We're probably like strangers now. We don't need to care about each other too much."
Now that Yan Yu has regained his mobility, they will soon be leaving this place. At that time, Yan Yu will go back to his home, and he will go back to his own home, and the two will no longer have any contact.
It was as if we had never met; we were just passersby in each other's lives.
In the blink of an eye, snow began to fall on this remote mountain village, blanketing the mountaintops in a gentle, fluffy blanket, and the so-called Spring Festival was just around the corner...
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