Chapter 252 She Can’t Pretend Anymore It
was Cheng Jin.
It was because of Cheng Jin.
If it wasn’t because of Cheng Jin, he might have really died long ago, just like what Cheng Jin had read in the book.
Chu Chengye didn’t care about these past events now. He just wanted to know how to save Cheng Jin.
“You can’t save her.”
“You will watch her die, watch her die in front of you, and you can’t do anything.”
Xu Jilin was still talking to herself. She seemed to have used up her last bit of strength. She lay on her back on the ground, blood flowing down her cheeks. She looked miserable and horrible, but she just smiled and didn’t care at all.
Throughout her life, Xu Jilin had never had such a desperate yet happy moment.
She thought of Su Shen dying in her arms, and being unable to save Chu Huaian and Xu Fenghui who were doomed to die. The man she loved died for her, and the man she loved was doomed to die. Xu Jilin no longer had any desire to live.
If they all died, would it be a happy ending, a beautiful ending for them?
A sharp pain came from her abdomen, and everything that had happened before flashed before her eyes.
She wondered if everything was over, no more intrigue, no more endless fighting.
Although Xu Jilin lost, she had no regrets in her heart. She had fought for the power and status she wanted all her life. From the moment she entered the palace, she had done so many things. She had long been able to accept everything that the way of heaven had bitten back at her, all the retribution.
But she didn't expect that she would lose so badly. She
lost everything.
Xu Jilin closed her eyes.
It was retribution in the end.
Xu Jilin died, and Chu Chengye didn't even shed a tear. He just looked at Xu Jilin lying on the ground, feeling helpless.
It was like the first time he entered the palace from the temporary palace when he was a child. He had done nothing wrong but was punished for no reason. The bamboo sticks hit his back fiercely. The green bamboo sticks were stained with blood, and the broken bamboo chips penetrated into his flesh. He couldn't understand why he was punished even though he had done nothing wrong.
When he was young, he couldn't see Xu Jilin and couldn't get an answer, just like now he couldn't wait for Xu Jilin's answer.
Chu Chengye admitted that he had killed countless people and committed many evil things before. He was not a good emperor and should be punished by heaven. If that was the case, he admitted it, but why did Cheng Jin, who was not the one who did the wrong thing, have to suffer all this for no reason?
He deserved all this, not Cheng Jin.
He was the one who deserved to be struck by lightning and the one who deserved to die a bad death. Why should Cheng Jin bear all this for him? After
Xu Jilin's death, Chu Chengye had been working hard to find an antidote to treat Cheng Jin, but the result was just like what Xu Jilin said. Cheng Jin's illness could not be found at all, let alone cured. Many famous doctors just shook their heads and left when they saw Cheng Jin, and even Pei Yu remained silent for a long time after seeing Cheng Jin.
Not speaking means saying everything.
Pei Yu also couldn't understand the poison in Cheng Jin's body, or rather, it was not poison to others but only to Cheng Jin herself. Day after day, she was exposed to things that were mutually reinforcing and counteracting with Cheng Jin herself. At the beginning, no one would notice it, and even the patient himself would not feel that there was anything wrong with his body, and could not even find the reason for the discomfort. But when it really manifested, there was nothing he could do, and even gods could do nothing.
No one said these words, but everyone knew them, except Cheng Jin.
He did not dare to mention these words in front of Cheng Jin, but he knew his own body better than others. Since he did not want her to know, Cheng Jin did not ask.
At first, Cheng Jin couldn't get out of bed, she just wasn't in good spirits, she just felt uncomfortable after being out for a while, it wasn't unbearable pain, but it was like she had a serious illness that left a root of illness that
she couldn't get rid of for the rest of her life. She lay on the recliner in Jingyang Palace, the sun shining on every part of Cheng Jin's body. After the beginning of winter, it was rare to see such a good sun, warm and comfortable. Even the cat that Chu Chengye brought to entertain Cheng Jin was lazily turning over its belly.
But Cheng Jin seemed to feel nothing, her heart was calm, and she couldn't have any other emotions.
She raised her eyes and stared straight at the sun, the bright white light shining on Cheng Jin, she seemed not to feel the sun's glare, she could even confirm that she couldn't see clearly.
Everything in front of her was shrouded in a layer of black mist. Cheng Jin raised her hand and waved it in front of her eyes. Only a hazy black shadow moved in front of her.
Cheng Jin blinked weakly and rubbed her eyes hard. No matter how hard she tried, the black mist in front of her could not be wiped off.
Cheng Jin was actually able to accept the changes in her body. First, she was sleepy for no reason, then had headaches and abdominal pains, and then lost her sense of taste and smell. She could actually guess where the problem would be next.
But when the moment came when she couldn't see, Cheng Jin still couldn't accept it immediately.
She felt a little helpless, but she was not afraid or panicked.
She knew why Chu Chengye was so busy every day that he could not see anyone. He thought he had acted a good play, and everyone around him cooperated with Chu Chengye. Cheng Jin knew it a long time ago.
She knew her own body better than anyone else, so she just hugged Chu Chengye and cried, saying what if she was going to die?
Although she had been through so much, Cheng Jin was still afraid of death. She hadn't lived a comfortable life for two days, and she was going to die. To be honest, she was a little unconvinced.
Crying was useless, and being unconvinced was useless. Days passed, and her body was getting worse. She didn't want to admit it, but it was a fact.
After her health deteriorated, Cheng Jin spoke very little and almost fell asleep as soon as she hit the bed. Chu Chengye, however, was like a chatterbox. He would talk to Cheng Jin for a long time every day, and even asked Cheng Jin's opinion on trivial matters.
She was really tired. She forced herself to say a few words about serious matters, and the rest was perfunctory.
Chu Chengye was unwilling, and teased Cheng Jin like a child who had not grown up, insisting that she explain the reason.
Chu Chengye didn't say that much, he was just afraid that Cheng Jin would sleep too much.
After Cheng Jin fell asleep, Chu Chengye's previous chattering spirit disappeared.
He held Cheng Jin in his arms, lowered his head and looked at her quietly. For several hours, Chu Chengye kept the same action. When the sky was bright, Chu Chengye would call Cheng Jin softly, and only when Cheng Jin hummed in dissatisfaction would he leave with peace of mind.
Cheng Jin knew every time that only when she fell asleep would Chu Chengye hold her and take a nap out of concern.
Chu Chengye was too tired.
Being an emperor is not that easy. There are endless things to deal with every day, and he has to worry about Cheng Jin's condition. He is always worried.
Cheng Jin will also try his best to act like nothing happened in front of Chu Chengye. Both of them think that there are no loopholes in their acting skills, but their acting skills are particularly poor in front of each other.
They both pretended that nothing happened.
But today, Cheng Jin couldn't pretend anymore.
She couldn't see it.