Chapter 253: Not being needed is the biggest punishment

Cheng Jin was lying on the recliner, blinking her eyes constantly, as if what she couldn't see was just an illusion.

But what happened happened, and Cheng Jin felt a little powerless.

She calculated the time, and it was time for Chu Chengye to come to Chunhe Palace as usual. Cheng Jin's first reaction was not to be discovered by Chu Chengye.

She couldn't accept that she couldn't see, so how could Chu Chengye accept it?

Cheng Jin admitted that she was not a brave person. When she first came to this world, her first reaction was to avoid it. Now that something like this happened, she couldn't accept it immediately.

Thinking of this, Cheng Jin immediately touched the handrail and stood up. While her eyes were still not completely blind, Cheng Jin stumbled into the house. .

It was only a few steps away from the house, a road that she had walked countless times every day, but it seemed particularly difficult because she couldn't see it.

Cheng Jin almost ran into the house. Cui Zhu saw Cheng Jin's somewhat panicked steps and immediately asked nervously from a distance: "My queen, why did you suddenly go back? Are you not feeling well? Should I go find the imperial physician?"

Cheng Jin stopped walking, holding the door frame, and didn't even turn her head, as if she was afraid that Cui Zhu would see her completely lifeless eyes.

She shook her head with determination and chuckled, "Nothing, I just want to go back and rest."

Hearing Cheng Jin's tone as usual, Cui Zhu felt relieved. She immediately walked towards Cheng Jin with the cakes in her hand and said, "Your Majesty, look, the cakes in the kitchen have some new styles. We were afraid that you would feel bored, so we sent them to you right away. Please try them first."

Cheng Jin tensed up immediately when she heard Cui Zhu's footsteps getting closer and closer . , she gradually put more force on the door frame until her fingertips turned white. Cheng Jin nodded and smiled, "Okay, put it on the square table on the recliner first. The cakes are inevitably too sweet. Go make a pot of hot tea."

Hearing that Cheng Jin agreed to eat, Cui Zhu's face became happy. Since Cheng Jin came back from Qinshan, she got sick inexplicably, and her appetite was always not good. She ate very little. Even if the Yu Kitchen sent food to Chunhe Palace in different ways every day, Cheng Jin was rarely interested.

Cui Zhu saw it and was anxious in her heart. She ran to the Yu Kitchen every day when she had nothing to do, hoping that Cheng Jin would eat more.

Today, she agreed so easily. Cui Zhu couldn't hide the smile on her face, and she immediately agreed.

Cheng Jin heard the sound of the porcelain plate hitting the table, and Cui Zhu's joyful footsteps. She breathed a sigh of relief, and while Cui Zhu was not paying attention to her, she groped and found her bed.

She didn't feel really at ease lying on the bed. Cheng Jin found that her hands were shaking as she touched the quilt. She tried her best to control it but couldn't.

Her heart, which was about to jump out of her chest, reminded Cheng Jin that she was afraid.

Not only was she afraid of the darkness in front of her eyes, but she was also afraid of the future.

She couldn't see anymore, what should she do?

Was she going to spend her whole life stumbling and relying on others for support?

Cheng Jin really couldn't accept it. Her eyes blinked helplessly. She couldn't figure it out, so she simply buried herself in the quilt.

In the quilt, she couldn't see anyway.

After Cuizhu made tea, Cheng Jin made up an excuse and stopped eating. Cuizhu's tone immediately became listless. She wanted to persuade her a few more times, but Cheng Jin immediately said that she was sleepy and would let Chu Chengye go back if he came later.

Just as Cheng Jin thought, Chu Chengye came not long after.

Cuizhu told Chu Chengye what Cheng Jin said, but Chu Chengye seemed to have some omen in his heart. He pretended to agree but did not leave.

At this time, Cheng Jin, who was wrapped in a quilt on the bed, raised his ears to listen to the movement outside. Calculating the time, Chu Chengye was about to leave, so Cheng Jin sat up and softly called Cuizhu's name.

Cuizhu heard Cheng Jin calling her and walked over immediately.

Chu Chengye followed closely.

Cheng Jin's eyes were looking somewhere unknown. She instructed Cui Zhu in a light tone, "Has the emperor left?"

Cui Zhu tilted her head to glance at Chu Chengye behind her. Chu Chengye nodded at Cui Zhu.

Cui Zhu immediately understood what was wrong with Cheng Jin. She suppressed her bitterness and just said "hmm" softly, and then burst into tears.

Cheng Jin was relieved after hearing the answer. She continued, "Go to Jingyang Palace tomorrow and tell them that I've been tired these days and want to rest alone, so that the emperor doesn't have to come here every day."

"Why don't you see me?"

Cheng Jin was interrupted by Chu Chengye's voice before she finished speaking.

Cheng Jin was startled and immediately pretended that she had closed her eyes. She tilted her head to look at the place where the voice came from and smiled, "You didn't leave? You scared me."

Noticing that the atmosphere was a bit awkward, Cheng Jin also said to Cuizhu, "Cuizhu, you too, are you teaming up with him to deceive me?"

Chu Chengye stepped forward and held Cheng Jin's hand to prove that he could see and raised his finger pointing at Cuizhu, and held it in his hand.

As soon as he opened his mouth, tears fell on Cheng Jin's hand. It was obviously warm, but it burned like a branding iron.

"How long do you want to hide it from me? Why didn't you tell me?"

It was rare for Chu Chengye to speak like this. It was obviously a questioning sentence, but it sounded full of grievance.

Cheng Jin wanted to smile and say that she was fine, but she just pressed her eyes. She opened her mouth but couldn't say anything.

She knew that she was not fine, but she couldn't see anymore, and she might even die soon.

Cheng Jin curled her lips, and the tears in her eyes split into several lines and slid down her cheeks. The wall of her heart that she had pretended to be strong collapsed completely, and she threw herself into Chu Chengye's arms. Her movements were quick and heavy, and she hit her nose and it hurt.

She didn't care at all, and her hands passed through Chu Chengye's back and wrapped them tightly around him.

Cheng Jin's words were almost incoherent because of crying, and her tone was full of panic.

"Chu Chengye, I can't see anymore."

"Chu Chengye, I can't see anymore."

"I'm scared, I'm really scared."

Cheng Jin cried in Chu Chengye's arms, as if she was not the one who didn't care about her illness a few days ago.

She didn't want to pretend to be strong.

In fact, Cheng Jin was really scared, she was too scared.

Chu Chengye hugged Cheng Jin, his heart seemed to be torn apart by life, and he was in so much pain that he couldn't breathe.

He slowly tightened his arms and told Cheng Jin: "You have been strong for so long, it's hard."

"But please, no matter what happens, don't hide it from me anymore."

As if it was particularly strange to hear the word "please" from Chu Chengye's mouth, Cheng Jin unexpectedly stopped crying, distanced herself from Chu Chengye, and stared at him blankly.

Chu Chengye kissed Cheng Jin's eyes that kept blinking, his throat tightened, "Don't even deprive me of the right to worry about you, don't carry it alone anymore."

"Please believe me, rely on me, need me, don't doubt, I will always be by your side."

Cheng Jin started crying when she heard Chu Chengye's words "I will always be by your side".

It turns out that not being needed may be the greatest punishment for someone who loves you.

A punishment that cuts your heart.

Chu Chengye hugged Cheng Jin and repeated one sentence in his ear over and over again, "It will be fine. I will find a way to cure you."