Chapter 47

Yael thought he would be embarrassed.

After all, they both scared each other when they confessed their love, and for the first time ever, they couldn't control their emotions and cried their eyes out... Although the result was not bad.

In short, his face was burning with anger after he came to his senses. He prepared himself mentally for a long time the next day before he opened the door and walked out.

A familiar sound came from the kitchen. Yael poked his head out and saw the busy figure of the female insect, while 015 was helping her.

He sat down at the table in silence.

Caesar put a breakfast on a plate, hesitated for a moment, and did not hand it to 015. Instead, he untied the knot at the back of his apron and took it out himself.

"Ah? Yes, thank you."

Yael took the plate from the female insect with both hands with some timidity and stuttered.

"You're welcome, Lord."

Xi Ze whispered, his eyes moving away from the male insect's trembling eyelashes, and his Adam's apple moved.

Hmm... embarrassing indeed.

They didn't look at each other the whole time. Yer noticed that the female insect stopped beside him for a moment, then went back to the kitchen. He was trying hard to suppress his heartbeat that was about to jump out of his throat.

But it didn't seem that bad, like a mellow soup simmering over a low fire, bubbling away.

An inexplicable feeling of anxiety and peace of mind quietly permeated the air around me, filling every panicked breath.

Yael couldn't help but look up at the female insect, but he found that the female insect in the kitchen reached out and picked up a can of sugar, then put it back after a moment's pause and opened the salt jar.

Whether it was because of the military wife's serious demeanor or her own strict behavior, Nishizawa never got the seasoning wrong, and those things were all placed in fixed positions.

Although it was just a little chaotic, Yael somehow sensed a sense of panic and unnaturalness from it.

For example, when faced with something unfamiliar, although I can rely on my experience to remain calm, I will still accidentally reveal a little bit of my youthful side.

So this is how it feels, he thought.

They want to look at each other but don't dare to. They make cute little movements when they are embarrassed. They may even be more unfamiliar and restrained than before the relationship was confirmed.

But the atmosphere is completely different now, and I can feel it naturally without having to explain.

Yael pursed his lips and couldn't help but take another look at the busy back of the female insect.

Hmm... that apron does seem a bit too tight. Let's go out and buy a new one together.

I don’t know if the department store I went to last time has been repaired yet. It has a pretty complete range of things.

"Why don't you eat?"

When Caesar brought out his portion, he found that Yael was sitting upright, staring at the food on the plate. He waited until he sat down before picking up the cutlery.

"I'll wait for you."

Xi Ze was slightly startled, as if the tip of his heart was poked softly, and the corners of his lips could not help but curl up.

This was the first time he heard this sentence. Since he was not recognized by the mainstream society, he was really... a little too obedient.

Whether they are female slaves or female servants, they cannot eat with the male master. Generally, they need to stand aside and wait after the meal so that they can take care of the male insects at any time.

Only the female can eat with the male, but it is impossible to make the male wait specifically to eat together.

There are also a variety of strict rules, all written in the manual distributed when the relationship is established.

But Yael never cared about these rules. He did whatever he wanted and allowed his female insects to move completely freely.

They sat together and communicated on an equal footing, as if they were close and reliable friends or partners, without any need for unnecessary testing or requests.

It was really comfortable to be with Yael, but he himself didn't seem to know it.

Aren't you a little too lucky?

Xi Ze couldn't help but think.

Among countless male insects with different personalities but actually similar, among countless hypocritical or arrogant humiliations and charity, I can touch this only gentle and sincere moonlight.

Maybe he was in a trance for too long, Yael looked at him with some confusion, "Why don't you eat?"

Xi Ze coughed softly and picked up the tableware as he was told. "Let's eat now."

The meal was a silent one, with no further communication other than some subtle chewing sounds and brief requests and thanks.

015 felt a little uncomfortable and kept looking at the two insects with a strange atmosphere.

"Are you guys having a conflict?"

015 couldn't handle the overly complicated emotions. Considering that Yael hadn't been home for several days and now refused to say a word to the female insect, he could only come to this conclusion.

Yael was caught off guard and snorted. His face started to heat up for no reason and he whispered, "...No, stop guessing."

"Oh." 015 nodded, not quite understanding.

But it seemed as if some barrier was broken, and the air began to flow slowly again.

After finishing his breakfast in silence, the plate in front of him was taken away, but Yael suddenly reached out and grabbed the hem of the female insect's clothes.

Xi Ze turned his head and looked at him, and like a snow leopard whose most sensitive tail was pulled, he immediately stood still obediently, "What's wrong?"

Yael's heart skipped a beat and accelerated, hitting his chest again and again, making a rumbling sound deep in his ear.

He almost suspected that the female insect would hear the sound.

But 015 looked at this side with a pair of bright eyes. Yael licked his lips and let go of his hand, whispering, "It's okay, go ahead."

The female insect seemed to sense something and coughed nervously, but still went into the kitchen first after hearing the words.

Usually, after breakfast, Yael would go back to his room to organize some documents or do something else, but today he never left the stool in front of the dining table.

He waited until 015 left to go somewhere else before he stood up quietly and went to Xi Ze who was dealing with the aftermath.

The automatic dishwasher is working diligently. White foam is constantly generated and swept away by the water. The machine emits a steady and subtle hum that melts into the tranquility of the early morning.

Xi Ze is preparing the ingredients for the afternoon. The meat of this star beast is very special and needs to be marinated for three to four hours in advance to make it flavorful.

Yael couldn't remember some other things to note. The salesperson talked a lot about it, but it was too difficult to understand for a kitchen black hole.

“Creaky…”

The slender and powerful fingers rubbed the raw meat, evenly marinating the seasoning. Before cooking began, the soft and vigorous fragrance had already emanated.

"Well, what should we do then?"

Yael's Adam's apple rolled, and he thought for a long time about how to bring up the topic, and finally asked honestly.

"First, marinate it with sauce. I remember I have some wine at home..."

The female insect's voice was steady, and her warm breath swept across the tip of her ear, bringing a slight tingling sensation.

Yael looked at it carefully for a while, and his eyes unconsciously turned to Caesar's profile, where he happened to meet a pair of soft golden eyes.

The bright golden eyes reflected the morning light, as if they had merged into the bright sky.

And in the very center was reflected a small figure, which was surrounded by the sunlight in those eyes, like a silent and pious pilgrimage.

There was a sudden roar in Yael's heart, and his originally restless mind went blank. The only thing left in his ears was the clear sound of each other's breathing.

He wasn't sure whether he approached first, or the female insect closed its eyes and lowered its head first, or whether both parties reached a consensus at some point -

The hot breaths intertwined and blended together. At first it was just a gentle test, but the moment they touched, they stuck tightly together, as if they were born to be together and inseparable.

The sweetness of the caramel diluted the bitter taste a little, making it less bitter for the female insects to eat.

It's like a whole piece of hard candy with maple syrup flowing in it. I roll it around in my mouth, and I'm reluctant to swallow it all in one gulp.

Yael didn’t know what kind of magic there was in kissing before, that was worthy of the protagonists in those idol dramas kissing again and again, twisting 360 degrees in various ways to force a kiss, and looking like they were savoring it after the kiss…

Other people’s saliva is so sweet, right?

But now - Yael thought without any bottom line: Well, it is indeed sweet.

"Remember to breathe through your nose."

The tightly pressed lips separated slightly, and soon pressed tightly together again. Caesar lowered his eyes, nibbled and rubbed the thin lips lightly, and spoke in a low voice.

The military has training on lung capacity and holding breath underwater. The male insects are definitely no match for him in this regard. If they don't work hard to learn to breathe through their noses, they will have to stop and rest after kissing for a while.

Yael's breathing was hot and rapid, and the tears that came out when he was suffocating wet his eyelashes, making him look like he was kissed and cried, "...Yeah."

Caesar lowered his head and traced the gentle ups and downs of the male insect's face with his lips, finally stopping at those beautiful eyes and kissing away all the wet and salty liquid.

This kind of intimacy without any other meaning was something that Yael liked more than kissing with his lips and tongue.

Like a gentle mother womb that nurtures life, it gently places a goodnight kiss on the forehead to soothe the anxiety and panic.

"My Lord..."

Yael closed his eyes slightly and was kissed until he made a sticky nasal sound. Like a cat whose fur had been smoothed, his belly was exposed under the skillful fingers, and his tail swung leisurely.

His waist was pressed against the hard surface. The cold touch penetrated his clothes, creating a sharp contrast with his gradually hot skin.

Soon, the trembling part was held by a pair of freshly washed hands, isolating the uncomfortable coldness.

"Do you want to clean the master bedroom today?"

015's voice suddenly came from the living room, accompanied by a familiar rumbling sound.

The sound, which was not loud at first, now seemed to explode right next to his ear. Yael was startled by the noise and his eyes widened slightly. He immediately distanced himself from the female insect.

He soon realized that his clothes were in disarray and straightened them quickly.

"Yes, please."

Seeing that 015 was about to break into the "aftermath scene", Yer quickly cleared his throat and shouted outside.

西澤比他冷靜一些，扯了扯皺巴巴的圍裙之後又洗了一遍手，将雄蟲額前淩亂的碎發一一梳理好。

“好的。”

得到回應，那滑動的轱辘聲立刻折返，向着一旁的主卧去了。

耶爾松了口氣，回過神來又覺得無比怪異而刺激。

怎麽莫名有種……背着家裏小孩偷.情的感覺？

這個念頭一浮現出來，他耳尖剛消去的熱度立刻回返，甚至比剛才還要嫣紅滾燙，看起來徹底已經熟透了。

“沒事的，”西澤低頭蹭了蹭他，聲音有些低啞，用哄幼崽的語氣輕聲道。

“雄主先去看會電視吧，我很快就好了。”

“好的。”

耶爾下意識舔了舔唇，依言從雌蟲身邊走開，沒有意識到自己的神情流露出不舍，下垂的眼尾泛着紅，濕漉漉的。

好像已經乖乖走開，卻還要将一條毛絨絨的尾巴勾勾連連着飼養員小腿的貓，不知道這有多考驗意志力和忍耐力。

西澤的手指動了動，又克制地收緊，垂眸掩去滋生的晦澀欲念。

*

耶爾開放了卧室的權限給西澤，也包括床的使用權。

雖然有些不習慣，但決定要試一試就要好好談，有心理障礙努力克服一下就好了，他是這麽想的。

但論如何裝睡騙過枕邊蟲，和判斷到底睡沒睡着這件事，耶爾遠遠沒有軍雌專業，所以在第一次裝睡時就被揪了個正着。

那之後西澤就不願意和他一起睡床了。

“我只是稍微有點不習慣，多一起睡幾晚就好了。”

耶爾堅持道，努力讓自己看起來真誠，但還是被雌蟲無情拒絕。

“我看見您在吃安眠藥了，有睡眠障礙的話是不能随便打破習慣的，雄主的睡眠質量很不穩定，不能因為我繼續壞下去了。”

第一次得到西澤這麽堅定的拒絕，耶爾眯了眯眼，發動了包括但不限于反複請求、賴在沙發上不下去，和抓住雌蟲就親等等大法。

雌蟲從來拒絕不了他，在這等攻勢下只堅持了一個小時就到了極限，被迫妥協着軟下口吻。

“我可以和雄主一起睡午覺，但是晚上一定不行。”

午覺一般持續一個到一個半小時，房間裏的窗簾會被拉上，外面的陽光一點都透不進來，昏暗得像是晚間。

耶爾不太習慣睡覺的時候旁邊有另一道呼吸。

但不知道是不是信息素交融過的原因，被熟悉的清苦氣息籠罩的時候，私有領地被入侵的不适感會消失很多。

“還是睡不着？”

身後響起翻身的窸窣聲，随後頸側掃過一道灼熱呼吸，雌蟲有些低啞的聲音傳來。

“沒。”耶爾嘴硬道，“五分鐘之內一定睡着。”

他聽到雌蟲輕笑了一聲。

然後從身旁伸過來一只手，先伸手掖了掖他的被子，然後隔着被子覆上胸口的位置，按照一定的節奏輕拍起來，完全是哄幼崽睡覺的手法。

那股專屬于雌蟲的清苦氣息愈發濃郁起來，散落在枕頭和被子裏，被捂得溫熱熨帖，像是築起來一座溫暖又安全的堡壘。

原本只是裝出來的綿長呼吸，不知不覺就變成了真的，然後一路滑落黑甜的夢境。

他們之間會隔着一定距離，也是為了讓耶爾熟悉和适應，但那只是一開始的狀态，等睡着了再醒過來，就會發現不知不覺已經滾成一團了。

第一次的時候耶爾很是臉熱。

他從來不覺得自己睡姿糟糕，畢竟每次都是按照醫生要求，平躺着醞釀睡意，然後淺眠幾個小時就醒過來了。

但和西澤一起睡才知道，他居然真的會踢被子，或者把雌蟲那一邊的被子卷走大半，把自己裹成團之後再滾進雌蟲的懷裏。

雖然入睡會更困難些，但真正睡着了之後，他居然能打一套廣播體操都不醒，實在是颠覆了耶爾以往對自己的認知。

“真的很可愛。”

那時西澤忍着一點笑，拍了拍他身上的春卷，低咳了一聲。

“我也沒想到，雄主睡着之後會這麽咳、活潑。”

耶爾感覺自己的臉在發燙，他埋進被子裏冷靜了會，下了床赤腳踩在地上，将窗簾唰得拉開。

被阻隔在外的燦爛霞光便傾瀉而入，在床上打下一片暖融的光影，有種已經睡到世界末日的安靜感。

……

但不可否認，耶爾的睡眠問題很大。

有時候狀态不好需要吃安眠藥才能睡着，蟲族的基礎醫療發展得很好，這些藥物已經沒有成瘾性或特別大的副作用。

很多時候耶爾都因為抗拒而偷懶不吃，在床上翻來覆去幾個小時後，第二天又若無其事地起床。

但這一吃藥習慣被西澤知道後，就好像之前耶爾每天晚上壓着雌蟲喝的牛奶一樣，變成了每日任務。

不過耶爾基本還是能賴掉就賴掉，雌蟲對他的撒嬌和耍無賴從來沒有抵抗力，立場十分不堅定。

“這是什麽？”

耶爾懶散地躺在沙發上，百無聊賴地轉着那個長條小狗抱枕玩，看到雌蟲端着一小盤東西過來，饒有興致地擡了擡眼。

“宵夜。”

西澤溫聲道，直接用筷子夾起那塊小甜點，抵住了耶爾的下唇，“只有一口，吃完就睡覺吧。”

睡前吃甜食對牙齒不太好，耶爾糾結了一瞬，又迅速淪陷在那香甜的氣味裏，啊嗚一口吃掉了。

沒關系，好好刷牙就沒事了。

蟲族的牙膏特別神奇，耶爾有時候會懷疑它的生産标準是方便雌蟲變回原形時，可以直接用來刷那可以穿透頭骨的鋼牙的。

照例是一個晚安吻，柔軟又滾燙地印在臉頰上。

耶爾腳底發飄地洗漱去了，迷迷瞪瞪地刷牙時，恍惚間感覺自己忘記了什麽。

……忘記了什麽呢？

一直到躺在床上蓋好被子，他才恍然好像忘記了吃藥，但是陣陣睡意翻湧而上，是吃完藥後才會發生的藥理反應。

他舔了舔唇，隐約還能嘗到唇齒間殘留的香甜。

真的好甜，要甜到牙痛了。

不是說那塊點心。

……

偶爾出狀況的也會變成雌蟲。

耶爾原本以為他的夢魇已經好了，畢竟精神疏導了很多次，重建的精神圖景汲取到了充足的養分，目前狀況十分良好。

但記憶和情感并不等于精神力，是可以被外力修複和介入的東西，否則軍雌的創傷後應激障礙不會那麽難搞，這是耶爾後來才慢半拍明白的。

本來只是一次很平常的午後。

上午沒發生什麽特殊的事，下午也沒有別的安排，一切都在正常的軌道上，甚至窗外的陽光都很柔和，非常安全而閑适。

但沒有絲毫準備的，西澤呼吸逐漸變得急促，在達到臨界點時猛地痙攣一瞬，連帶着床鋪也劇烈震動起來。

“咳……赫赫……呃啊！”

他似乎深陷噩夢，額上布滿了冷汗，眼皮下的眼球正不安地搖顫，一絲鮮血從緊抿的唇角流下，把驚醒的耶爾吓得正着。

“西澤？！”

這時候的雌蟲很難搖醒，可能是因為陷入了某些特定的場景，精神圖景外也豎起厚重的城牆，沒辦法強行突破。

只有信息素有些用，焦糖的氣味似乎能滲透進夢中，帶來一絲安撫。

西澤會依靠本能靠近耶爾，像是抓住救命稻草一樣抓住耶爾的手，幾乎止不住渾身震顫。

“！！！”

随後他猛地驚醒，眼裏全是血絲，神情恍惚而疲憊。

反應過來後第一件事卻是不斷輕吻耶爾被掐紅的手腕，冷汗滲進眼睛裏也顧不上，低啞着聲音道歉。

“沒事的，都過去了，別怕。”

耶爾低聲哄道，扯過被子把雌蟲包裹住。

懷裏的身體不複平常的滾燙柔軟，無比警惕而緊繃，甚至還在微微痙攣。

他沒有問發生了什麽。

雌蟲沒有主動對他說的，應該都是些不願提起的回憶。

反正一切都已經過去了，慢慢治療就好，不必再把傷口挖出來忍受陽光和目光的苛責。

一切都會過去的。

耶爾無聲道。

他将信息素釋放出來注入雌蟲的身體，低下頭在雌蟲的臉上落下安撫的吻。

*

圍繞着床的運動不只有睡覺，還有生殖腔療養和精神力疏導。

忙着想辦法拿到接觸雌奴頸環的芯片那段時間，耶爾一直早出晚歸，甚至一連兩天都不會回家，這些安撫措施自然而然就被落下了。

雌蟲不會主動索取，耶爾又對這方面常識印象不深，還是在西澤又一次發.情.期紊亂後，他才後知後覺自己還背負着專屬于雄蟲的責任。

好不容易疏通好奔湧的情.欲，床上的雌蟲已經渾身滾燙，漂亮的身體線條柔軟起伏，濕漉漉的蜜色中散發着蓬勃而溫暖的氣息。

像是一大塊正在融化的楓糖，因為從裏到外沾上了耶爾的氣息，變得甜滋滋的了。

耶爾被他整個抱在懷裏，期間還偷偷埋了一下臉，差點被那軟得過分的胸肌溺死，好不容易才撲騰起來。

他回抱住西澤，低聲囑咐道，“下次記得主動和我說，我不太記得這個……或者定個鬧鐘也行。”

The female insect beside my ear seemed to sigh softly, as if satisfied and relieved, and reached out to touch the back of Yael's neck.

"If there's a next time, I will."

Then it became an evening activity after 7 or 8 o'clock.

It's basically just routine counseling, or if it gets a little too much, they'll help each other a bit, kiss each other after they're done, and then wash up and go to bed.

…

Another night activity ends.

Yael pulled at his sticky clothes and decided to take a shower before the female insect.

After hearing the sound of water running in the bathroom, Xi Ze closed his eyes, felt his lost strength recover, and got out of bed wearing his clothes.

He wandered around aimlessly.

The layout of this room is very simple, and there is basically no decoration. There is only a bed, a desk and a chair, and at most a small sofa and some sundries.

It’s not even as big as the storage room in the admiral’s residence, but it feels particularly lovely, exuding a unique sense of warmth and security, like a small nest built in the corner of the heart.

The window might not be closed tightly, and a gust of cold wind blew in, and the sound of pages turning suddenly rang out.

Xi Ze's eyes moved slightly and moved towards Xiong Chong's desk, where a thick book was spread out.

I haven't seen it before. Maybe the male insect forgot to take it back.

He hesitated for a moment, then took a closer look.

The next second, his pupils shrank slightly.

There were densely written words on the pages. The handwriting was vigorous, powerful, elegant and graceful. The whole article was well-organized and very comfortable to read, but... he couldn't understand it.

Diplomacy is a very necessary part of being a general. Xi Ze has some knowledge of the languages ​​of various common races in the interstellar space, but he can't understand what the male insect is writing at all.

Maybe it's some rare language... Some insects are interested in unpopular languages ​​and will even study and research them.

The rustling sounds in the bathroom did not fade away. Xize hesitated for a moment, picked up the laptop beside the bed, and scanned the words on the paper.

【Warning! Unable to identify! Unable to identify! 】

【Please scan the correct language——】

The author has something to say:

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