Chapter 89
Yael did not sleep all night.
The next morning, he cleaned up the remaining space from the previous night and put his belongings back into his bag.
Crunch——
The two door panels were put together, and Yael carefully fastened the old lock.
And as this clicking sound was rang out, all the memories seemed to be locked and well stored inside.
He took a few steps back and stared quietly at the old building in front of him.
This old house has been forgotten in the cracks of time for many years. Now the dust has finally been wiped off and it stands peacefully in the morning light.
Finally, Yael bowed deeply, then turned around and walked away step by step.
He probably won't come back.
…
The cemetery is further away in town and requires several bus transfers to get there.
Fortunately, many people came back to pay their respects, so it wasn't difficult to get a car to transport people to the town, though it was a little crowded.
Yael saw the young mother and daughter on the train again, and was somewhat surprised that they had the same destination.
"Mom, that brother looks so familiar, I seem to have seen him on the train..."
The little girl opposite me squinted her big round eyes and whispered to her mother.
Yael looked away somewhat awkwardly, looking at the scenery outside the window that was constantly receding.
After leaving the village, the road became much easier to drive on. The whole car went from stumbling to gradually becoming stable, and there were more people in the shops on both sides of the road.
This time I failed to touch the lamb again.
Yael looked at the street beside the road, thinking about his next plan and journey, and suddenly felt a little regretful.
"ah!"
The little girl opposite suddenly screamed in surprise, and the glass butterfly she was playing with slipped out of her hand.
As the glass was about to fall under the car and shatter into eight pieces, the space seemed to freeze for a moment.
The next second, the butterfly stood steadily on the ground.
The little girl exclaimed, picked up the butterfly from the ground, and held it in front of her mother, "It's not bad at all!"
Yael retracted his slightly moving fingers and was infected by the pure happiness. He couldn't help but smile.
After seeing the Heart of Vera that night, his mental strength recovered a little. Although it was completely incomparable to the original state, it was still incredible for a human being.
He could feel a thread coming from across the long and distant universe, with the other end tied to the little finger of his left hand, constantly pulling him.
As long as the right time comes, the way back will be reopened.
The car swayed slowly to the destination, and Yael opened the door, got out, and stepped into the bright sunshine.
This area is vast and sparsely populated, and because of an inexplicable belief, the people here are buried in cemeteries in the suburbs after they die. Every year during the Qingming Festival, a large number of wanderers return home to pay homage.
"The total is 198 yuan. Do you want to pay by scanning the QR code or paying in cash?"
Yael selected the offerings and white flowers, paid the money, and followed the crowd into the cemetery gate.
He walked slowly along the path in his memory, passed a large area of tombstones, and arrived at his own cemetery.
There are two rows of names carved on the tombstone in front of me, located on the left, and there seems to be an empty row waiting for the third person's name.
"Grandma, Mom."
Yael stared at the name on the tombstone for a long time, his expression gentle and with a hint of nostalgia.
"Long time no see, I'm back."
In this cemetery, the urns of my grandmother and mother are buried, and perhaps he will be buried there soon too.
This is the custom here. People believe that after death, they must have a place to be buried, otherwise they will not be at peace as ghosts. Also, if they are buried with their family, they will not be lonely, and they will be one family in the underworld.
If you are afraid of crowding, you can buy adjacent locations. If you don’t mind this or don’t have enough money, you can buy one location and everyone can share a tombstone and land.
After saying hello, fearing that they might complain, Yael explained softly again.
"I'm sorry, it's not that I forgot about you, but something unexpected happened in the past three years and I really couldn't come over."
I haven't been here for three years. A lot of dark green moss has grown here, and a thick layer of dust has accumulated. Even the red words are difficult to see clearly.
Fortunately, he had anticipated this situation and bought water, brushes and towels in advance.
"I'll clean this place first, and I'll talk to you guys while I'm cleaning."
The store outside has special cleaning agents that are very useful. Yael squatted on the steps, washing and brushing while talking about what happened during this period.
"…I did go on a long journey, so far that I even left the Earth (whispering). I couldn't find a way to come back, so I couldn't come to see you."
"I think it's a reward. I learned an alien language, got a well-paid job, and my status is relatively respected. I can support myself."
After wiping with the towel, the stone slab revealed its original appearance. Large pieces of moss were carefully brushed off, and dirty water flowed into the low places.
"The biggest reward is that I have found someone I like by chance."
Yeldon paused and wiped the sweat from his forehead, then he remembered to report Caesar's existence to his grandma and mom.
"We'll talk about this later. I'll introduce him to you formally then. Now just focus on worshipping him."
With the last splash of water, the tombstone, which had been corroded by time, finally revealed its original clean appearance.
He carefully soaked up the water with a towel, and under the bright sunlight, the wet water marks were quickly dried up.
The offerings were placed on it one by one, including sake and cakes, with incense burning and white flowers blooming. It finally looked like a worship ceremony.
"How have you been doing in the past three years?"
Yael sat cross-legged on the ground facing the tombstone. After thinking for a while, he felt that he had been very disrespectful just now.
We just met, so I should have asked the elders about their situation first, even though I wouldn't get a reply.
"I heard that if the souls down there are not doing well, they will appear in dreams to the people up there. I ask them to burn more paper money and incense."
He held up the side of his face, his expression calm, but a trace of loneliness flashed in his eyes.
"For all these years, you have never come to see me in my dreams. I guess you haven't encountered any difficulties."
Yael stared at the tombstone in front of him, still recalling the past aimlessly.
They didn't actually spend much time together, and there were many frictions and even resentments during that time, but life and death is a big hurdle that can dissolve many, many things.
Those memories have been beautified by time, or in other words, have grown and matured, shedding their unpleasant outer shells, leaving only the warmest core.
"That's good. Even if I'm not around anymore, it shouldn't be a problem."
He finally chuckled with relief, as if he had voluntarily overcome a hurdle in his heart and was no longer tormented by the memory.
"Here, here!"
More and more people came to worship around, some came alone and some came with their families, and it was very lively.
In order not to block the way, Yael sat on the steps of the cemetery, just one step lower than the offerings.
"Well, let's talk about your daughter-in-law."
He coughed a little embarrassedly, but after holding it in for a long time, he still didn't know where to start.
"She's called my daughter-in-law, but she's actually a man. No, that's not right. I guess I can't say that..."
Yael sighed, and realized belatedly that it seemed a little inappropriate for him to openly show his secrets in front of the tomb.
But the words had already been said, and stopping halfway would have kept people on suspense and been disrespectful to the deceased. He organized his words and continued.
"His name is Cize, he has white hair, golden eyes, deep brows and features, he is more handsome than an international superstar, but he is not a star."
Her appearance is easy to describe, but I get stuck when it comes to her identity.
"I don't know if I can say that he was originally a general in the military, and later became a marshal. He is a powerful figure who ordinary people can only see on TV."
If the spirits of his grandmother and mother were still here, they would definitely think that this child was crazy after hearing what he said.
No matter how you think about it, this matter seems so unreal. After all, he is just a poor boy with no power or influence. Maybe he just has a good-looking face.
Yael continued speaking, vaguely skipping over the part about the Zerg.
"Although he is a marshal, he is not very old. The average age in that place is over 200 years old. We are all young and strong."
"He's very big and strong, can kill an A-ranked monster with one punch, is invincible on the battlefield, and can sweep away anything with ease - and I'm not really talking about Ultraman."
"But don't worry, he really loves me and treats me well. He won't treat me like a monster."
Yael always felt that what he said was getting more and more outrageous. No parent would be comfortable with such an introduction!
In order to emphasize that he was neither kept nor forced upon, he thought for a moment and began to recount the story of their first meeting.
"It was very dramatic when I met him. He was about to die, and I happened to pass by there. My heart softened and I picked him up. It was quite similar to when I picked up the glutinous rice balls."
"I don't know why I felt so soft-hearted. Maybe he was too tragic and too strong, and his eyes were too bright and shining, which made me..."
Yerka paused for a moment, unable to continue. Recalling his feelings at that time, they were already very vague.
Maybe it was just a sudden thought, or just a whim.
Anyway, life is so long, how can one always be cautious and rational? The sudden feeling hit him, and then the next second, he made a decision.
Whatever the cause, the result has become an established fact, and that is enough.
"After I saved him, things were not going well for a while. There were all kinds of troubles and problems, but fortunately they were all solved in the end."
After picking up Xi Ze, their stagnant life began to stir. No matter whether they were brought together by sheer force or if there really was destiny in the dark -
"In short, we just fell in love with each other."
Yael joked in a light-hearted tone, but his expression was serious.
“雖然聽起來也許很奇怪，但我們真的是正常地談了個戀愛，現在正在熱戀期呢。”
“這次突然回來，都沒能和他好好告別，那邊的身體一定會出問題，可能會因為一直昏迷被診斷成植物蟲。”
想了想，耶爾又補充道，“總而言之，要快點回去才行，不然他一定會哭鼻子的。”
這句話莫名散發着戀愛的酸臭味，乍一聽只會覺得他戀愛腦大爆發，而不會覺得這是什麽神仙愛情。
大概每個操心兒女婚事的長輩，聽到這種土味愛情故事都會忍不住撇撇嘴，吐槽幾句又傻又愣又天真的兩人。
特別是一方要跟着一方遠走他鄉時，就更加不放心了。
她們沒辦法回話，但想必應該也會擔心這個，耶爾不知道該怎麽說，只能幹巴巴地寬慰幾句。
“你們不用擔心，我們是相處了很久，彼此都知根知底的，他是個好蟲……人，對我也一直很好。”
“光聽那些唬人的名頭可能會覺得他很可怕，但實際上他是很正直很溫柔的，做什麽事都很耐心細致。”
他掰着手指，一條條地數西澤的好在哪裏，努力說服外婆和媽媽也喜歡上他。
“他記得我所有喜歡和不喜歡的東西，所有瑣碎的生活習慣包括忌口等，多看了什麽東西一眼，那東西下一秒就會送到我的手上……有時候還挺困擾的。”
耶爾低咳一聲，下一秒也忍不住笑起來，自己也覺得自己在凡爾賽。
大概只有真的被縱容溺愛得無法無天，才會有這種煩惱吧。
“他會尊重我的意願和想法，一般我拒絕過的他都不會問第二遍，也一直都将我保護得很好，雖然大多數時候都很沉默寡言，但很多事都不會瞞着我。”
“平常的時候……”
耶爾倒豆子一樣說着西澤的好，說了好半天都沒說完。
“總而言之，反正他就是很好，你們大可以放心，我不會在異國他鄉悲慘度日的。”
一縷微風吹過，輕輕撩動額角的發絲，帶來一絲別樣的清涼。
樹葉發出簌簌的輕響，白花的花瓣被卷上半空，随着風去向不知名的遠方。
耶爾慢慢安靜下來，看着一望無際的天空出神。
“剛才說了那麽多，亂七八糟的，其實都沒有好好說明白我自己的想法。”
他深吸了口氣，一想到外婆和媽媽可能正在聽，就忍不住有些羞赧，但還是一字一頓、咬字清晰地道。
“他很愛我，我也很愛他，我想和他生活在一起，然後一直一直走下去。”
“我是認真的。”
耶爾強調道，“非常、非常認真。”
他沒注意的是，身後包紮好的小白花被風吹動，柔軟的花莖上下搖晃着，仿佛在一下下地點頭。
“如果可以，我真想帶他來和你們見一面。”
正式地見一面，正式地介紹他，然後再好好地告別。
雖然機會渺茫，但未來總是充滿無限可能，未必不會有這個機會。
耶爾神色怔怔，一直等陽光傾斜位移，周圍祭拜的人來來往往又一批，才終于回過神來。
他掏出手機，打開了備忘錄，在标題那打出了兩個字——
遺書。
上次穿越是魂穿，雖然生成的軀殼和他原本的容貌一模一樣，但不可否認的是，他還留着一個身體在這邊。
這次穿越他不保證是什麽情況，可能真的什麽也不剩了，也可能還是會留下一具屍體。
要好好處理後事才行啊。
“第一條：如果有誰發現了我的屍體，請不要害怕，報警然後把我的手機和身體都送到警察局去，非常感謝你。”
“第二條：您好，很抱歉浪費了警力，但如果可以，請幫忙聯系較近的醫院，我願意捐獻身上所有能用的器官，請随便拿不要客氣。”
“第三條：不管現在接手這具身體的是醫院還是警方，如果可以的話，請把我火化然後把骨灰埋在xx市xx鎮xx墓園第67號墓碑下。”
“（ps：我的卡裏還有些錢，應該足夠負擔這一切的費用，如果還有剩餘，請幫我捐獻給希望工程或者流浪動物救助基金會，非常感謝！）”
“第四條：請不要把我去世的消息告訴通訊錄裏的人，因為我已經和他們說了要出門遠行一趟，大家都是很好的人，但不需要增添更多的悲傷了。”
“第五條：……”
寫到這條的時候，耶爾頓了一下，一時間想不出來還有什麽要交代的了。
他沒什麽特別重要的牽絆，就算離開也不會影響到任何人，只需要處理好這具身體，就能順利從這世界脫離。
但他往回翻了一下，還是覺得不太妥，似乎太麻煩警方了……不過器官捐獻倒是一件可以回饋公衆的事，拜托給警察也好。
耶爾愣了一會，下意識詢問道，“你們覺得呢？”
他應該怎麽做，才能不影響別人又妥帖安置好自己，然後回到身後的墓穴裏，長眠于腳下的土地。
墓園裏長風蕭蕭，人群已然散開，周圍只有一片安靜伫立的墓碑，沒有誰能回答他的問題。
但也許沒有回答，就是最好的回答。
想了一會，耶爾還是低下頭，繼續在備忘錄上删删改改，努力完善着這份沒有法律效力的遺書。
“……老屋的地屬于我的外婆，但現在已經沒有人居住（一個親友都沒有了），如果政府要拆遷修路，可以直接拆沒關系。”
簡潔明了地寫了六七條，最後署上姓名和身份信息後，他便停下了手，順便将手機密碼設為了無。
脖子後似乎有些涼涼的，耶爾伸手摸了摸，才反應過來自己行為的不妥。
在墓前寫遺書，要是外婆和媽媽的靈體真的在看，剛才他所做的努力肯定沒用了。
他連忙熄滅手機屏幕，連聲解釋道。
“呃，這個真的不是殉情，只是西澤……嗯，他其實是個外星人，想要和他在一起的話，就必須要舍棄這具身體穿越過去。”
“就像這樣子——biu的一下，我就越過宇宙和他重逢了。”
耶爾自顧自解釋了一會，直到旁邊走過一個小孩，一臉好奇地盯着他。
“哥哥，你在幹什麽呀？”
但還沒等耶爾回答，就有一個大人警惕地看了他一眼，連忙牽起小孩快步離開。
“不好意思，小孩不懂事……走了走了。”
大概是剛才旁若無人自言自語的樣子，真的很像個瘋子吧。
他意識到這一點，眼睫微顫，臉上的神情漸漸淡了下去。
“抱歉……”
耶爾将臉埋在臂彎裏，好半晌才啞聲道。
說到底，他其實也藏着私心。
他已經受夠了沒有親人也沒有朋友，無牽無挂，孑然一身的生活，雖然能适應得很好，但不代表不會傷心和厭倦。
遇到什麽事都是自己撐着，每次回到出租屋都是一片冰冷的黑暗……這些都讓他越來越難以忍受抑郁的痛苦，以至于終日泡在實驗室裏，最終以猝死告終。
他忍受了那麽久的孤獨，才終于等來了那一片家中的暖光，等來了可以攜手走過餘生的另一半。
怎麽可能舍得放開手。
“以後我可能不會再來了。”
耶爾緊閉着眼，埋藏在臂彎下的神色歉疚而不舍，卻還是堅持着輕聲道。
“我有新的家了，那個地方太遠太遠，沒有返程的車票。”
“不是做出了取舍，也不是把你們放在天平上稱量輕重，只是人這一輩子不能總是停留在原地。”
他睜開眼，看向遠處枝頭振翅高飛的鳥雀，眸底劃過一線微弱卻堅韌的亮光。
“我該重新出發了。”
“對不起。”
耶爾的話音剛落，一陣強勁的風就從遠處吹來，将他的頭發和衣領都吹得亂飛。
“唔……？”
一點沙塵被吹進眼睛裏，耶爾猝不及防擡起手遮擋，身體下意識往後仰倒，蜷縮的身體也敞開來——
那風就帶着無數紛飛的花瓣，滿滿地撲了他一身。
就像是一個安慰的擁抱。
耶爾瞳孔微縮，一下子愣在了原地。
“……媽媽？”
他聲音帶着一絲顫抖，難以置信地喃喃道。
那股奇異的芳香帶着暖意，恍惚間還是一個悠閑的午後。
金色的陽光灑滿客廳，幼童蜷縮在母親的懷抱中，嗅聞着無比安心的味道，在一下下的輕拍中入睡。
耶爾失魂落魄地起身，踉踉跄跄地往前走了幾步，伸手去抓張開雙臂去抱。
……卻怎麽也挽留不了那轉瞬即逝的奇跡。
好半晌，他才回過神來，重新坐回那臺階上，捂住眼睛斷斷續續地笑，用手背一下下地擦拭眼尾。
“您同意了，是嗎？”
同意他離開這裏，去追求前方的幸福了，哪怕再也不會回來，往後幾十年都見不到面了。
尾指上傳來的拉扯的牽引力，那股被吸附的感覺更強烈了些。
知道門快開了，耶爾站起身，伸手将有些歪倒的白花擺正了些，潔白的瓣葉之上，是兩行漂亮的紅色楷字。
Engraved on it are the two people he cares about the most and is most worried about.
He had stumbled out into the world from their arms, and now with their blessings, he was running towards a bright future.
"Mom, Grandma, I'm leaving."
Yael stood up, stared at the tombstone in front of him, and smiled gently.
"I will always miss you, and you should remember to miss me too."
"goodbye."
call--
A breeze swept past, blowing the little girl's bangs up, like a kitten with its fur standing on end.
But she didn't care about that at all. After seeing what was happening behind her, she jumped up and shook her mother's hand.
"Mom, that brother was standing there just now, but he suddenly disappeared!"
"With a flick of a switch, it disappeared without a trace!"
But the busy mother didn't care and reached out to touch her head.
"Be good, and mom will take you to eat candied haws later."
The little girl said "oh" and stood still without moving around, but she still couldn't help looking around.
"Mom, when will spring come?"
The sun was shining, the birds were singing, everything was looking its best, and she picked up a small flower from the ground.
"Silly girl, spring has already come!"
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