Chapter 189 Please, Love Me Again
Each of her sobs was like a sharp stone, hitting Lu Xiyan's heart one by one.
Every time she sobbed, Lu Xiyan's heart ached a little more.
He looked at her helplessly and cried with her.
I wanted to push her arm away and touch her cheek, but I was afraid of breaking her.
"Ningning..."
He slowly stood up and suddenly knelt down beside her sofa with his legs bent.
When he lowered his head, his back bent slightly.
Tears dripped onto his black trousers.
"I'm sorry for you, and our Lu family is sorry for you too."
Tears fell one by one on my trousers, spreading out.
Lu Xiyan didn't dare to look up at her.
"I'm the bastard. I deserve to die. That's why you have to suffer so much."
"I even wondered if you would have been better off if I hadn't forced you to make things real with me six years ago and hadn't pestered you."
An Ning's sobbing gradually subsided and she sobbed softly.
"I've thought about it. If you really married someone else in these four years, and if you were really living a good life, then I would let it go and not bother you anymore."
"But it's too late to say that now." He raised his head and smiled, but there was a stubbornness in his tearful eyes.
"Since you chose me six years ago, and you still came back to me without hesitation six years later," he gently pulled away An Ning's hand that was covering her face and looked at her tear-stained little face, "then you can never leave again."
He held her slightly cold fingers in his palm and slowly tightened it.
Lu Xiyan's voice was hoarse, and his eyes were firm. "I won't let go again."
An Ning's sobbing became much calmer and her breathing gradually calmed down.
She tilted her head, her wet eyes were sparkling and her eye circles were red.
Lu Xiyan knelt in front of her, holding her hand tightly, like a child admitting his mistake.
"...Get up."
After a good cry, there was still a strong nasal tone in An Ning's voice.
"Kneel down first. You should kneel down if you are wrong." Lu Xiyan reached out and wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes. "Don't even mention kneeling. Even if you hit me or kick me, I should bear it."
An Ning propped herself up and sat on the sofa, lowering her eyes to look at Lu Xiyan's haggard but handsome features.
She raised her hand and gently touched the mole between his eyebrows and the bridge of his nose.
The corners of his eyes were still red, and the mole looked very charming.
"Actually, my life isn't that hard." An Ning smiled slightly. "When I miss you, I'll call your name, read the messages you send me, and listen to your voice. I lied to you and said I burned our photos, but I actually hid them secretly."
"When I have free time, I will look through those photos, and I will also secretly pay attention to some domestic racing news, but..."
An Ning lowered her eyes, "I've never seen you compete."
At that time, she didn't know that Lu Xiyan had been in a car accident and would never participate in the competition again.
Her voice choked. "Even though we're not together, as long as I know you still exist, no matter where you are or how far apart we are, as long as I know you're there, no matter what happens in this world, it's not too bad for me."
"Then why, why?" Lu Xiyan said hoarsely, "You didn't tell me you returned to Jinghai, why didn't you come to me?"
An Ning lowered her eyes and looked at the hand that he was holding tightly in his palm, and tears fell on the back of his hand.
"Because you sent me a message saying that you don't love me anymore, you don't like me anymore." An Ning cried aggrievedly, "You said goodbye from now on, we are just strangers."
"So I was afraid that my appearance would disgust you, and," she looked up at Lu Xiyan, "you were going to get engaged by then, and I had no reason to look for you, nor was I qualified."
Lu Xiyan was breathless after hearing this and buried his forehead in An Ning's palm for a few seconds. An Ning only felt the palm of his hand was wet.
He raised his eyes, "I said that to get you to come back. I thought if I said that you would stop hiding from me."
An Ning's breath trembled as she met his eyes.
The moment the misunderstanding was resolved, tears couldn't stop falling.
"Every damn thing I say to you is a plea."
He held An Ning's hands in both of his, lowered his head and buried it in her palms, "Please, love me again."
An Ning's hand trembled suddenly, and she realized that after four years of separation, they still loved each other deeply, but they both thought that the other party had no longer loved them.
That's why so many times they use the most hurtful words to stab each other.
It turns out that no one has had a better life than anyone else over the years.
"Who else can I love except you?"
An Ning lifted his face and smiled slowly, "Only you can catch me, thousands and thousands of times."
She leaned over, closed her eyes and gently touched his lips, "Lu Xiyan, you will always be my moon."
In every darkness, light the way ahead for her.
......
"dad!"
The clear and childish cries rang out in the night.
When Zhao Li brought An Xian back, An Ning and Lu Xiyan were already waiting by the car downstairs.
When the little guy saw Lu Xiyan, his round eyes lit up and he rushed towards Lu Xiyan.
Lu Xiyan's heart trembled, and he quickly squatted down and opened his arms towards the small figure running towards him, and then he was hugged by the small body.
"That's great! My dad is a handsome uncle!" Little Anxian hugged Lu Xiyan's neck and jumped up happily, "I have a dad! I finally met my dad!"
Lu Xiyan's face remained calm and composed, but the violent beating of his heart in his chest betrayed him.
From the moment he hugged An Xian, his eyes were fixed on the little boy's face and body, and he couldn't take his eyes off him for a long time.
The big hand gently rubbed his little head, and the voice was gentle, "Xianxian."
He raised his eyes to look at An Ning who was standing beside him, raised his lips and smiled, "Nice name."
Under the moonlight, An Ning smiled peacefully and her eyes were bright.
She squatted down and asked, "You just heard it?"
There was a hint of blame in his tone.
"I've thought about it." Lu Xiyan smiled, "But I don't dare to think about it. Besides, when I asked you to verify it, you denied it."
An Ning was originally right, but after hearing this it seems that he is no longer right.
Her eyes dropped, "You mean to blame me?"
Lu Xiyan stared at the corner of her mouth, his smile growing deeper.
The An Ning who was deliberately acting coquettishly was the same An Ning from the beginning.
"How dare you." He smiled, put his arm around her shoulders, and rubbed An Xian's head. "It's your fault. Why didn't you tell me earlier that you were my son?"
"Huh?" Little An Xian blinked his big eyes, not quite understanding, and looked at An Ning again, "Mom didn't say you were my dad."
Well, the topic is back to An Ning.
She glanced at Lu Xiyan, her eyes raised, meaning, "Blame me?"
"My fault." Lu Xiyan admitted without hesitation, "I'm stupid."
This little guy's face was carved out of the same mold as his, yet he actually suspected it belonged to someone else. He really wasn't very smart.
"That's great!" Little An Xian suddenly thought of something, and happily hugged An Ning's neck and kissed her on the cheek, "With Daddy here, Mommy won't cry secretly at night anymore."
Lu Xiyan felt a pang of bitterness in his heart. He glanced at An Ning's beautiful eyes and nodded gently, "Well, with Daddy here, Mommy won't cry secretly anymore."
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