Chapter 47 My Name is Xingxing
"Don't go..." Liang Jinyu was already crying at this point. She could no longer sit still. When Xingxing took that small step back, she had already broken free from Chen Lin's hand. She came to Xingxing in panic, wanting to touch him but not daring to.
She knelt down in front of Xingxing, raised her hands weakly, shook her head and cried, "Xingxing, don't leave mommy, mommy will love you too, don't go back, okay?"
She knows.
She knew she had lost a child.
She didn't want to lose this one again.
She knew she couldn't bear such an ending, and she didn't dare to think about it. She could only look at the stars almost pleadingly, and sadly beg him not to leave.
She seemed to be crying all the time.
The stars looked down and into the human mother's eyes filled with tears and grief.
"Mom, but I'm not Liang Nanxing." Xingxing gently exposed the fact that she was trying to cover up and deceive herself.
Liang Jinyu's heart ached, and she curled up in spasms, but her eyes were fixed on the stars, and she said anxiously: "I, I know! I know... I know you are not him, but I..."
But I really can't bear to lose again...
Liang Jinyu knew that her star would never come back. As a mother, she should drive away the child who occupied the star's body, but... this child also called her mother.
Most importantly, how should she face the cold body of the child left in her arms after he left?
Once this child leaves, her star will really die! !
She would no longer be able to use any lame excuses to deceive and numb herself, and she would no longer be able to keep her child, either in body or soul.
What should she do then?
Having lost her only concern, how can she convince herself to continue living?
Liang Jinyu didn't know, she only knew that the only thing she could do now was to keep the child in front of her, to do everything she could to keep him!
She promised her love as a mother, she promised a better future, she racked her brains to reveal everything about herself to this child, to soften his heart, to make him feel pitiful, and to make him choose to stay.
She seemed to have retained a glimmer of rationality in the midst of confusion, and it seemed as if she was using this glimmer of rationality to witness her own despicable calculations at this moment.
Little did she know that all her messy thoughts, the despair that was sadder than it appeared on the surface, and the dead hopelessness suppressed in the deepest part of her heart, were all heard by the stars.
Xingxing stood with her hands hanging for a moment, and finally took a small step forward, raised her little hand, lowered her eyes, and carefully and gently wiped away the tears flowing from her face.
The moment he moved forward, Liang Jinyu subconsciously held her breath, staring at him blankly with tearful eyes, as if she was afraid of disturbing the child in front of her, and also disturbing the soul in this body that originally wanted to leave.
"Mom, stop crying."
Xingxing gently patted her shoulder with her tear-stained hands, pursed her lips and said seriously: "You can ask me a lot of questions, and I will tell you everything. After you have asked clearly, Mom will make a new choice."
Xingxing was sure that she had heard it correctly.
In the human mother's heart, the superficial thought is to keep him.
But what made her even more exhausted and heartbroken was wanting to know how her real child could have "died".
She had too many doubts in her mind, but the necessary condition to solve these doubts was to keep the stars alive.
Perhaps even Liang Jinyu herself didn’t know how conflicted and painful she was in her heart, but Xingxing heard it all.
Xingxing didn't want her to be so sad anymore.
So Xingxing reached out and hugged her gently as usual.
The child's embrace is very soft, and the furry pajamas make the embrace even warmer and softer.
Liang Jinyu suddenly had an illusion that the child in her arms was more like a floating cloud, soft and gentle when accepting her, but becoming distant and alienated when moving away from her.
What has not changed from beginning to end is that this cloud has always been quiet and gentle.
It was so gentle that Liang Jinyu's tears burst out again just by being hugged so gently.
She wants to keep this cloud and this warm star.
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Chen Lin was a bystander in this "confrontation".
Precisely because she was a bystander, she saw it more clearly than Liang Jinyu.
Maybe Liang Jinyu wanted to find the real Liang Nanxing at first, but later, she compromised.
It was not a compromise after being schemed against by this child, but a compromise that had to be made.
She would rather give more love and beg the child to stay.
Because she couldn't and didn't dare to accept it. After losing one child, she lost another, and in the end, all that was left for her was a cold and quiet corpse.
Perhaps the most terrifying thing in this world than her impending death was that she caught the body of her own child first.
Chen Lin had previously thought about how to exchange the two children, but now it seems that her idea was too presumptuous.
Liang Jinyu, perhaps out of her awareness as a mother, or perhaps she had already figured out the worst possible outcome on the return flight, so she didn't dare to enter the house, and compromised and tried to keep Xingxing without waiting for her to say more.
She was afraid and trembling, and her tears were not all for her two children, but also for herself.
What overwhelmed her more than the sadness of losing her child was the fear of reaching out to catch the child's body.
So she didn't dare to question, didn't dare to confront, and didn't even dare to ask in a tough tone the real reason why Liang Nanxing left.
So Chen Lin watched her embarrassed pleading in silence.
But what Chen Lin never expected was Xingxing’s response.
He said he could leave and he really was ready to leave.
He hesitated in Liang Jinyu's tears, neither taking advantage of her nor using this body to threaten a mother.
What surprised Chen Lin the most was that after Liang Jinyu's repeated pleas, he was not only willing to give her more time to resolve her doubts, but also gave Liang Jinyu another chance to regret and make a new choice.
This child was willing to let Liang Jinyu make a new choice after telling him everything, whether to keep him or decide to love him.
All of this was completely different from what Chen Lin had imagined at the beginning.
She seemed to see a more gentle and calm soul. Although it was immature, it was definitely not a ghost that maliciously occupied someone else's body.
He is more like... a child who grew up with a lot of love.
A young but very brave kid.
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The stars rejected the embrace of their human mothers.
He sat on the carpet, so Chen Lin, who was originally sitting on the sofa, also sat on the carpet with Liang Jinyu.
The two adults sat opposite each other under the stars and asked many questions in their hearts according to what he said.
But the first person to speak was not Liang Jinyu, but Chen Lin, Liang Jinyu's agent who had always been with her.
"Little boy, what's your name?" Chen Lin asked first.
At the same time, the stars heard her voice.
She wanted to ask the name of the star, which also allowed Liang Jinyu to be more calm and rational in distinguishing the two children and making the right decision without regrets.
But the result was bound to disappoint Liang Jinyu.
The little kid sitting opposite them, hugging his knees and leaning his head slightly, said softly, "My name is Xingxing."
Chen Lin was slightly stunned: "Your real name... is Xingxing?!"
Liang Jinyu's breath also stopped, and she was so nervous that her nails pinched the soft flesh in her palm.
As the two looked at each other, Xingxing nodded to them.
"Then...where are your parents?" Chen Lin asked again.
Hearing this, Xingxing's eyelashes trembled slightly. She was quiet for a few seconds before she lowered her eyes to stare at the carpet at her feet and slowly replied, "Xingxing doesn't have a father or a mother."
The child pursed his lips, looked up at them and said seriously: "Xingxing has uncles, people of the same kind, Wangwang, and Xiaohua... I didn't steal Liang Nanxing's mother."
The stars have lots and lots of love.
Xingxing would never be a bad little zombie that stole other children’s parents.
Qiuqiu was so heartbroken that she was about to cry.
It was a little angry, but more sad.
Xingxing is not only being doubted, but also facing the questioning of another child's mother alone.
Liang Jinyu and Chen Lin are working hard for their stars.
But in this world, no one can protect the stars at this moment.
While shedding tears, Qiuqiu quickly wrote a long application letter and submitted it to the boss of the General Administration.
If the stars have to face this situation again in the next world, it would be better not to do this rescue mission again.
If you think about it, Xingxing, who only has the memory of the end of the world, has only lived in this world for one or two years. He has been faced with such doubts and questions about his relatives again and again. Is it true that only these mission objects will be sad, and Xingxing's heart is empty and will never be sad? !
It's true that he is a cold-hearted little zombie, but he is also a precious star that is held in the hands of many people and zombies.
Qiuqiu opened his own storage device and deleted all the filming records of this world bit by bit, leaving only the record of Xingxing and Liang Jinyu playing the game of growing mushrooms.
It didn't dare to package up the memories of this world and send them to Hu Xingzhe and others in the doomsday as it did in the previous world.
If they saw and heard what Xingxing was saying at this moment, they would definitely not feel comfortable letting Xingxing, a cub, go on any rescue missions in various small worlds.
"...I'm sorry." Chen Lin apologized helplessly and explained in a panic: "Um...I didn't mean to ask that, I just..."
Liang Jinyu immediately leaned over, hugged Xingxing in her arms, patted his back and said seriously: "Baby, I am your mother, I can always be your mother, really!"
Xingxing lay in her arms, listening to the rapid heartbeat that only humans can have, and gently closed his eyes, hiding the slight confusion and sadness in his eyes.
Mingming Qiuqiu and the teacher of the Quick Travel Bureau both told Xingxing that every task is an equal and voluntary transaction among the issuers. It is their obsession that is captured and circulated by the Space-Time Bureau back in time, allowing the tasker to eliminate the obsession in order to maintain the stability of the task world.
But when Qiuqiu said that the human mother recognized Xingxing, recognized that he was not Liang Nanxing and quickly rushed back.
The stars also secretly doubt themselves in their hearts.
Did I really steal another star's mom?
Did I steal the love that originally belonged to him in place of another star?
Am I a thief, a liar, a bad star who has no parents and so steals the parents of other stars?
Xingxing couldn't figure it out.
He knew he had a stupid head.
So he kept all the confusion in his heart, and waited until he returned to the Space-Time Bureau to write a letter to ask the smartest Uncle Hu.
He will definitely tell Xingxing the answer.
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