Chapter 48 Preferring to Always Be by His Side
Xingxing didn't stay in Liang Jinyu's arms for long.
He knows what he should do.
He sat back down and waited for them to ask more questions.
Chen Lin knew that she had just asked a very bad question, so she did not speak again this time, but left the time for questioning to Liang Jinyu.
Liang Jinyu's mind and heart were in a mess.
Now she had to ask, she pinched her palms, was silent for a long time, and then asked in a very soft voice: "Xingxing, is he... is he okay?"
This is what she wants to know most.
She wanted to know, after leaving this world, would her children be better off in a place she couldn't see?
Xingxing nodded slightly in her expectant gaze.
"After his obsession dissipates, he can go to reincarnation and choose the life he likes more."
Hearing this answer, Liang Jinyu's tense body slowly relaxed.
She was crying, but she took a deep breath and nodded with a smile.
"Okay... I understand."
If the child can pursue a better and more enjoyable life after leaving her, then what reason does she have to force it?
She smiled brightly with relief, but she couldn't wipe away her tears.
Xingxing didn't wait for her to ask Liang Nanxing more questions.
He waited until the human in front of him calmed down and asked him nervously, "Xingxing, what about you?"
What?
Xingxing looked up in confusion.
Liang Jinyu wiped away her tears under his gaze and asked seriously: "Then Xingxing is still willing to call me mom and stay?"
Without waiting for Xingxing to answer, she hurriedly said, "I know you are not him. I will not confuse you two, nor will I treat you as his substitute. Xingxing, can I still be your mother? I will love you, just like I love my real child."
If the dead cannot be brought back, if those who have left can never come back, then Liang Jinyu will only grasp what is in front of him and what he can grasp at the moment.
She would not confuse the existence of the two children, nor did she want to numb herself with various excuses.
She knew that she had not found what she had lost, but she was willing to treat the stars as her own children.
"Xingxing, are you still willing to call me mom?"
Liang Jinyu knelt in front of Xingxing, stretched out her hands in a hugging gesture, and waited expectantly for the silent child in front of her to make a decision.
The stars looked into her eyes.
It is filled with sadness, anticipation, a mother's painful tears, and a mother's sorrowful pleas to stay.
Her pupils trembled in tears, and every word in her heart was filled with sorrow.
Until Xingxing also knelt up, leaned over and put himself into her empty and cold arms.
Liang Jinyu's tears flowed violently, but her hands tightly held the child in her arms.
This is her child.
It's her other star.
"Mom will love you."
"I will always love you."
"No confusion, no replacement, thank you for staying."
Mother has so much love, countless love, and she once gave all this love to her only child. Later, she got another child and had even more love than before.
She didn't know if she loved both stars equally, but she didn't need to think too much, because she knew better than anyone:
The star in her arms is the only connection between her and another star in this world.
There is no fairness in maternal love because it is always too much to count.
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Xingxing stood at the door, watching her mother and Aunt Chen Lin pack up the toys and clothes in the children's room.
The two were so busy that they seemed to have forgotten all the sadness of losing their child.
But they collected these toys in order to give Xingxing new toys, and also to preserve everything of Liang Nanxing intact.
Qiuqiu squatted above Xingxing's head and watched the two busy humans with him.
"Boy, when you leave this world, you can pack some toys in your space and take them back to give to little Liang Nanxing."
Xingxing nodded quietly, retracted her gaze, turned and walked towards the living room.
"Boy, I have just sent an application to the boss. In the next world, we will let the original owner and his relatives explain it clearly in a dream, and then enter the mission world after his relatives accept it. In this way, after the original owner's relatives nod their heads in agreement, we enter the mission world, and they will instinctively ignore the differences between you and the original owner. Do you think this is okay?"
The application result has not come out yet. After calming down, Qiuqiu starts to ask Xingxing for his opinion. If Xingxing nods, he will wait for the application result. If Xingxing thinks it is not feasible, he will withdraw the application and think of another way.
Xingxing sat on the carpet with her cheek supported by her little hands, and thought hard for a long time after hearing what was said.
He couldn't understand human reactions, so all his thoughts were immediately put into Uncle Hu's mind.
If Xingxing and Uncle Hu are destined to die, would Uncle Hu be willing to let Xingxing start a new reincarnation and let another child enter Xingxing's body to continue to accompany him?
Willing to.
Xingxing knew and was certain of Uncle Hu’s choice.
It’s not because Uncle Hu needs the company of a star, but because Uncle Hu wants the star to live a new life without any obsessions.
Just like at the end of the world, when he knew that Xingxing had a better way out, he never said a word to keep her from beginning to end.
He would just hope the stars would get better and better.
Then...what if Uncle Hu forgets this memory after making the choice? What if he doesn't know that the stars have been swapped, that the stars have left?
Xingxing shook her head subconsciously.
Definitely not.
Uncle Hu is a very rational and intelligent human being. He would not want to lose a memory, nor would he want to forget the stars.
Thinking of this, Xingxing held the ball in her hands and said softly, "You can dream, but... don't forget."
"But if that's the case, what if those humans treat you badly because you are not the original owner?" Qiuqiu was a little conflicted.
"It's okay." Xingxing's tender eyes relaxed. He held the ball in his hands and said softly to the ball, "Xingxing has the ball. Xingxing doesn't need to pretend to be another star."
If the transaction is destined to involve the emotions of the humans in the original world, then Xingxing hopes that the emotions he gets will be completely his own, clear and pure, and no longer the confusing emotions that were involved in the past.
If the feelings he gets are not truly his, then he doesn't need the stars at all.
He is a task-giver and a trading partner, not a little beggar begging for others to love him.
The stars don't need any confused love, nor do they want to snatch or possess the love of another star.
The stars don't need any fair treatment. They have already received the most and best favors in the world. Rather than being loved themselves, the stars prefer the stars in those small worlds, so that they can reincarnate with the complete love that belongs to them.
“Well then…” Qiuqiu was immediately convinced by Xingxing, but he still whispered to the little friend: “Xingxing, even if the mission targets don’t like you, Qiuqiu will always love you. We will be together forever, soul-bound, and we will never be separated no matter where we go.”
In the world of stars, from the beginning to the end, there will always be a shining ball.
Hearing this, Xingxing's eyes slightly curved and she answered seriously: "Yes, Xingxing and Qiuqiu will never be separated."
See, preference is always with him.
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night.
Xingxing was held in his mother's arms. His mother patted his back gently to coax him to sleep, but neither the mother nor the son really fell asleep.
The night light beside the bed was emitting a warm orange light. Xingxing poked her head out from under the quilt, grabbed the corner of her mother's clothes, raised her little face and asked her, "Mom, do you want to say something to your baby or bring a little gift?"
Mom's thoughts were so confused and she was about to fall into that sick state again. Xingxing could only interrupt her scattered thoughts and make her focus again.
Liang Jinyu was stunned for a moment, but her first reaction was to ask him: "Xingxing, what price will you pay for this?"
Xingxing and Qiuqiu were both stunned. They didn't expect her to ask such a question.
But it was only for a moment. Xingxing quickly shook her head, patted her human mother who was daydreaming with her little hand, and coaxed her with a smile: "No, but Xingxing is a little stupid and can't remember a lot of words~"
Liang Jinyu reached out and rubbed his little head, and laughed: "That's because Xingxing is still a child now. When Xingxing grows up and goes to school, he will learn a lot of knowledge and become smarter and smarter."
"Then..." Xingxing wanted to ask again.
Then I was silently stopped by my mother with a gentle look filled with tears.
She seemed to have become more determined, calm and stronger than before. Faced with the temptation of Xingxing before her, she not only did not accept it excitedly, but also half leaned against the head of the bed, hugged the little Xingxing, and rejected him gently.
"Xingxing." She called out Xingxing's name and whispered in the orange light, "Mom has a lot of words and gifts she wants to give to little brother, but not now."
Under Xingxing's clear and puzzled gaze, Liang Jinyu kissed his forehead and said with a smile: "In the very distant future, when mom is about to leave this world, I will ask Xingxing for this favor."
"So Xingxing, don't be in a hurry to grow up, and don't be in a hurry to leave mom. Mom is just beginning to love you, so mom has a lot of things to say to you and a lot of small gifts to give you."
"When mom is gone in the future, Xingxing will remember those words, keep those little gifts, grow up and live her life seriously. In the end, she will look after the little mushroom for her, tell her what she said to him, give him the little gifts to play with, and let him be like Xingxing, remember those words, keep those little gifts, and live a good life where her mother can't see."
"Mom can tell the difference. You are two different stars. One star is hidden in my memory, and the other star is held in my arms."
"Mom hopes that the light in you will always shine brightly."
Her voice was so gentle, and it sounded like she was telling a heart-warming bedtime story.
Xingxing curled up in her arms, her eyes slowly closed, and she took in every word her mother said.
Grow up slowly.
Live a good life.
I want to stay with my mother for a long, long time.
To shine brightly.
The child's breathing gradually became steady and shallow. Liang Jinyu slowly stopped patting him and looked down at Xingxing who was sleeping peacefully in his arms.
The tears that had been held back in my eyes fell on the carpet and disappeared in an instant.
"You're my mother's baby, too."
She smiled again and gently touched the child's soft cheek with her fingers.
There is heavy snow outside the window, and the lights inside the house are quiet.
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