She returned to her bed and curled up like a wounded animal. Her body was trembling slightly, not just from the cold night, but also from the struggle within her. She closed her eyes, trying to calm herself, but her thoughts were like surging waves, crashing into her mind again and again.
She wondered what life would be like if she truly let go of her vengeance and was with Shen Qingchen. Would they be like ordinary couples, marrying, having children, and living a happy life? But could she truly forget her past? Her identity, everything she had experienced, seemed like an insurmountable chasm between her and Shen Qingchen.
If she rejected Shen Qingchen and continued on her path of revenge, would she regret it? Would she miss Shen Qingchen's warmth and love on countless lonely nights? She knew that once she made a choice, there would be no turning back. This choice would change her life and affect the fate of many people.
Jiang Zhi's mind replayed Tang Junxi's dying look. His eyes, filled with resentment and expectation, seemed to tell her that she must avenge him. This look was like a tight spell, constantly reminding her not to forget her mission. However, Shen Qingchen's love was also like a powerful magic, trying to break this tight spell and lead her in another direction.
She was in a painful struggle within herself, a struggle that kept her awake at night. She didn't know how she would spend the night, nor did she know if she would find the answer when she woke up tomorrow. She only knew that this choice was the most difficult of her life, and no matter which side she chose, she would pay a heavy price.
She remembered a sentence she had read in an old book: "Life is a journey full of choices, and every choice is accompanied by loss and gain." She now deeply understood the meaning of this sentence. In the darkness, she silently asked herself: between revenge and love, what was she willing to lose, and what did she want to gain?
Jiang Zhi's thoughts became increasingly confused, and she felt as if her head was about to explode. She tried to take a deep breath to calm herself, but it had little effect. Her hands groped in the darkness, trying to find something to ease the pain in her heart. She touched her phone, and the light of the phone screen was particularly dazzling in the darkness. She opened the phone album, which contained some photos of Shen Qingchen that she had secretly taken. It was in some inadvertent moments that she was attracted by a certain expression or action of Shen Qingchen and subconsciously took the photo.
Looking at these photos, she felt a mixture of emotions. She knew she had developed deep feelings for Shen Qingchen, feelings that she could no longer easily control. However, the flames of revenge also burned fiercely in her heart. She felt like a bird trapped in a cage, wanting to fly to the sky of love, but being tightly tied by the chains of revenge.
Her phone suddenly vibrated. It was a text message from Shen Qingchen. The content of the message was simple: "I hope you have a good dream tonight." Seeing this message, Jiang Zhi couldn't help but shed tears again. She knew that Shen Qingchen had always cared about her silently. No matter how indifferent she treated him, he never gave up. This persistent love made her both moved and scared.
She didn't know how to respond to the text, her finger hovering over the screen for a long time. In the end, she chose not to reply. She put the phone aside, lay back in bed, closed her eyes, and tried to fall asleep. However, those thoughts still churned in her mind, preventing her from falling asleep.
Jiang Zhi began to imagine what their future would be like if she had accepted Shen Qingchen's feelings. They would travel the world together, seeing different sights and experiencing different cultures. They would spend leisurely afternoons in their seaside villa, watching seabirds fly and listening to the waves crashing on the shore. They would have their own children, a son as smart and handsome as Shen Qingchen, or a daughter as strong and kind as she was. They would watch their children grow up and share their joys and sorrows together.
However, these beautiful fantasies were soon shattered by the desire for revenge. She thought of the enemies lurking in the shadows, still at large, continuing their evil deeds. If she indulged in love, would those enemies become even more unscrupulous? Would her conscience condemn her? She also remembered her identity: as the heiress to the Jiang Group, the largest chaebol in the Dragon Kingdom, she had her own responsibilities and mission. She couldn't give up everything just for love.
She tossed and turned in these conflicting thoughts, the minutes ticking by. The night outside deepened, the entire city seemed to have fallen into a deep sleep, leaving her alone in her struggle. Her body felt utterly exhausted, yet her mind remained remarkably clear. Her heart felt like a battlefield, where the armies of revenge and love clashed fiercely, and she was the commander, unsure which side to lead to victory.
Jiang Zhi's heart cried out in agony, longing for a force that could break this impasse and allow her to see her own path clearly. She didn't know how much longer she could hold on; this inner struggle was bringing her to the brink of collapse. She began to doubt whether she had the courage and wisdom to face this difficult choice.
She thought again of her medical skills. She had used them to save countless lives, and the gratitude on the faces of those she had cured brought her immense satisfaction. Her skills were her pride, and one of the assets that kept her in this world. If she chose revenge, her skills might become a tool for her vengeance. But if she chose love, her skills could be used to help even more people, to bring happiness to even more.
Her thoughts returned to Shen Qingchen. Shen Qingchen's achievements in business were also remarkable. He led the Shen Group to stand out in the fierce market competition. His wisdom and decision-making ability made her admire him. If they were together, they could support each other and create more brilliance in business. They could establish a charity together and use their wealth and abilities to help those in need.
However, these beautiful visions were overshadowed by the shadow of revenge. She didn't know how to find a balance between revenge and love. She felt like a traveler lost in the desert, surrounded by endless yellow sand, without direction or hope.
Jiang Zhi's heart gradually grew numb in this painful struggle. She didn't know how she had managed to get through this long night. When the first rays of morning sunlight shone through the window onto her face, she felt as if she had already experienced a life-or-death battle. Her eyes were slightly red and swollen, and her gaze was still filled with confusion. She knew that a new day had begun, but her inner struggle was not over. She still had to make that difficult choice between revenge and love.
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