Chapter 90
Xie Zheng smiled slightly and asked her, "Who can I tell?"
Fan Changyu thought so too. It was quite embarrassing that he was kicked into the river in front of his face and had not yet gotten up.
She looked at him and said fiercely, "Anyway, you are not allowed to tell anyone."
After Xie Zheng gave repeated assurances, he handed the fish over and said, "Eat the fish."
She looked at the roasted fish in his hands, which was golden and fragrant. Just as she said "I'm not hungry" with a tough face, her stomach growled.
The temperature on Fan Changyu's face, which had finally dropped, rose again.
Xie Zheng suppressed the upward curve of his lips and said to the steps: "I roasted too much and can't finish it."
If he continued to be stubborn, he would be the one to be embarrassed. Fan Changyu stretched out his claws in grief and took the fish, and said, "Don't tell anyone about this."
Xie Zheng suppressed his smile and said "OK".
There is no seasoning in the wild, so most of the time the grilled game smells good but tastes bland or even fishy. However, the fish grilled by Xie Zheng not only does not taste fishy, but also has a slight sour and spicy taste.
Fan Changyu took two bites and asked in confusion, "You also brought seasoning?"
Xie Zheng picked up the unused berries beside the fire and showed them to her: "Some of these wild fruits are sour and some are spicy."
Fan Changyu whispered, "Did you taste them one by one and pick them back?"
Xie Zheng had very good hearing. He just smiled when he heard this. He continued to look down and pick the fishbone in his hand. He said, "I joined the army at the age of thirteen, starting as a soldier in the vanguard camp. It has been eight years now. Just like when you came to this mountain before, there is not always food in the army. When I was the hungriest, grass roots and tree barks were delicious. I have tasted wild fruits, and I remember the taste of the edible ones. As for the inedible ones, I will never touch them again after seeing my brother Ze being poisoned to death."
As Fan Changyu listened to him talking about these past events, he lost his appetite while eating fish and looked up at him in a daze.
When she first knew that he was Marquis Wu'an, she felt that he was very far away from her, and they were like people from two different worlds that should not have any intersection.
Only now did I realize that behind that identity, there was not only glory, but also suffering that others had never experienced.
She had experienced firsthand the cruelty of the battlefield.
He joined the army at the age of thirteen, when he was even younger than Wu Sanjin. Over the years, he has struggled all the way, and only he knows all the bitterness he has gone through.
With a complex emotion in his heart, Fan Changyu lowered his head and picked up the fishbone silently.
A fish that had been cleaned of bones and wrapped in a clean wild banana leaf was handed to her. Xie Zheng took the fish from her hand and said, "Eat this one that has been cleaned."
Fan Changyu held a small piece of cut banana leaf in his hand, but was hesitant to start.
Xie Zheng paused in picking out the fishbone, raised his eyes and looked at her, asking, "What's wrong?"
Fan Changyu said, "Yan Zheng, I'll just call you Yan Zheng. Don't be so nice to me. You are a noble marquis and a hero in the hearts of the people of Dayin. The only person who can match you is a well-educated and well-mannered noblewoman. I am just a crude border town girl who hasn't even finished reading the Four Books. I am not worthy of you."
Xie Zheng lowered his eyes and continued to pick the fish bones. He seemed to smile: "But among so many women in the world, I only like you."
Fan Changyu was stunned. This was the first time Xie Zheng told her his feelings so frankly. Her heart beat uncontrollably for a few times, and then she was filled with endless sadness.
She said, "Don't like me. You have made great military achievements and were made a marquis at a young age. You should marry a wife of equal status and live a life of glory and admiration."
Xie Zheng handed over the fish after removing the bones, and said, "I got to this position because of my military achievements, not because of the admiration of the world. Besides, there are people who respect me and people who hate me in this world. Those who respect me because I defeated the northern barbarians and recovered the lost land. Those who hate me are afraid that I will kill people like flies. I have spent half my life in the military in exchange for this life's fame, and I still have to worry about the world's eyes when I marry a wife. I am too stingy to be a military marquis."
He stared at Fan Changyu and said, "Before I met you, I really wanted to marry a girl from an aristocratic family with a strong character, and live a life of respect and courtesy with her. If I died on the battlefield, she could live well with the children and the family business."
"After I met you, I no longer thought about dying on the battlefield. How could I die?"
He laughed, and lay down with his arm as a pillow, looking at the sky full of broken stars. "After the war, I will apply for the border of Liaoxi. As long as I can keep the barbarians from coming south, the disputes in the capital will have nothing to do with me. Then I will ask the young emperor to grant me a marriage, and I will marry you back in a sedan chair with gongs and drums, and let everyone in the world know that you are marrying me."
The youthful spirit and joy on his face made Fan Changyu feel as if her heart was blocked by a ball of wet cotton, making it damp and making her eyes sad.
"You haven't seen the sunrise over Yanshan, nor have you seen the hunting grounds in Huizhou. I'll take you there when the time comes. Liaoning is so big, you won't be bored."
"But you always reject me, fearing that you are not worthy of my status. You were not afraid to be with me when I had nothing." He still looked at the dome, as if laughing at himself: "People are born with nothing and die with nothing. They are just bound by the false reputation of half a lifetime. What you think is a barrier between you and me is actually nothing."
"You said I could meet a better girl, but how do you know that you are not the best girl for me?"
Fan Changyu opened his mouth, but felt a severe hoarseness and pain in his throat. He covered his face with his hands, and tears welled up in his eyes.
Xie Zheng sat up and wiped her tears, saying, "I'm not telling you this to make you cry. I just want to tell you that I love you, not for anything else, just because you are Fan Changyu. I lost my parents when I was young, and I don't have any elders or sisters in my family. I didn't understand what you were worried about at first, but later I asked others and understood the pros and cons."
"Whether you are afraid of what others say or the future, I should have taken care of all this first. I asked my teacher to adopt you as his adopted daughter. He was the old Mr. Tao who taught you and wanted to take you as his apprentice. He is a great scholar of the time and once served as a tutor. Even if I hadn't asked for that favor, he still likes you very much. He will be your family from now on. Even if you don't marry me in the future, with your status as his adopted daughter, no one will dare to look down on you."
When saying the last sentence, Xie Zheng lowered his eyes to hide the sadness in his pupils.
If that day ever comes, it will probably be after his death.
Even though he died, he still hoped that she would live well.
He couldn't bear to part with her.
The only sun he had ever embraced in his life.
But he hated to be like his mother, so he wished the best for her.
She radiates her light and warmth in the world, so he doesn't feel cold even in hell.
Fan Changyu bit her lips tightly but still couldn't hold back her sobs. Tears streamed down her face: "I'm not as good as you think..."
Xie Zheng raised his hand to wipe away the tears rolling down her eyes, and said gently: "You are the kindest and bravest girl I have ever seen in my life. Do you think anyone has the courage to go to the battlefield?"
When he held Fan Changyu in his arms, Fan Changyu leaned on his shoulder and still couldn't help sobbing.
After her parents passed away, she walked alone with her younger sister. Suddenly, someone broke into her life and cherished her in every way. After being panic and cautious, he still broke the defensive wall in her heart, and what spread was not only joy, but also sadness.
Xie Zheng patted her on the back and said, "I will also help you avenge your parents."
When he heard about his parents' death, Fan Changyu stood up, wiped his eyes with his sleeve and said, "I will avenge my parents myself."
Thinking about the fact that he had gone to the Jizhou treasury to check the files but had not found any clues, Fan Changyu suddenly looked at Xie Zheng: "Do you know who killed my parents?"
Xie Zheng nodded slowly.
Fan Changyu pursed his lips and asked, "Who is it?"
Xie Zheng uttered two words: "Wei Yan."
Fan Changyu was stunned at first, then he remembered the well-known relationship between him and Wei Yan, and asked, "Your uncle?"
Xie Zheng looked slightly cold and said, "He doesn't deserve it."
Afraid that his expression would scare Fan Changyu, he explained, "I told you before that my powerful enemy is him."
Fan Changyu was obviously confused: "Wei Yan is the prime minister of the dynasty, and my father is just a bodyguard. Why would Wei Yan want to kill him?"
Xie Zheng looked at her for a while, and finally told her the truth: "Your father used to work for Wei Yan."
Fan Changyu was stunned, but when he recalled what Old Man Fan had told him when Fan Da got into trouble, that his father was not Fan Erniu, but that he was sold by them when he was young and found his father more than ten years later and continued to live in Lin'an Town as Fan Erniu, he realized that what Xie Zheng said was very likely true.
Wei Yan has done a lot of bad things. Did dad also follow him in doing evil things?
Fan Changyu's heart suddenly tightened.
Noticing that she had been lost in thought, Xie Zheng seemed to have guessed what she was thinking and said, "He Jingyuan, the governor of Jizhou, also worked for Wei Yan, but he never bullied the people. He can call your father an old friend, so he must be a like-minded person to your father."
He Jingyuan was the judge of the entire Jizhou. After hearing what Xie Zheng said, Fan Changyu felt much better.
She asked, "When did you start looking into my parents' affairs?"
Xie Zheng replied: "After leaving Qingping County."
When Fan Changyu thought about their separation, he still felt a little guilty. Then he remembered that he had just kicked him in shame by the river, and he felt even more guilty. He said, "I won't hit you anymore, and don't kiss me for no reason."
Xie Zheng paused in his fiery movements and said, "Just don't be so harsh."
Fan Changyu was stunned at first, then realized what he meant. His face turned red under the firelight and he glared at him: "I'm talking to you seriously!"
Xie Zheng raised his eyes slightly, and the slightly raised corners of his eyes naturally carried a hint of arrogance and seduction: "I'm talking to you seriously, when will I kiss you, and you won't hit me?"
Fan Changyu couldn't help it, so he picked up the banana leaf without the grilled fish and threw it at him.
Xie Zheng tilted his head to avoid the banana leaves and laughed softly.
Fan Changyu sat in front of the fire with his knees hugged, looking angry and ignoring him.
The author has something to say:
Changyu: Be patient, be good-tempered, and don’t be violent.
Xie is crazy and seeking death
Changyu (breathing fire): I can’t help it!
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In order to make Xie open his mouth again, the author plucked out a lot of hair (looking up at the sky sadly)
This chapter also sends out 100 red packets~ Muah~
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