Chapter 104: Fate always goes round and round...
It was dark inside the villa.
But Ian knew Hades was home.
"Heddes?"
Ian could smell the strong scent of Hades' pheromones, the scent of a cold blade with a hint of unease.
He turned on the light and walked from the first floor to the room on the second floor.
"Are you home? Why don't you turn on the lights?"
As Ian walked up the stairs, he saw Hades coming out of their bedroom.
Ian was stunned.
——The reason is simple, it’s just that Hades looks extremely frightened now.
It was not reflected in his facial expressions or actions. Hades had always been a very introverted person, so this emotion, which could be called fragile, could only be reflected in those silver-gray eyes, with a very heavy fear lingering in his eyes.
This sharp, steel-like female insect seemed to be forcibly broken open from the inside at this moment, forcing the softest and most vulnerable part to be exposed.
This kind of fragility is revealed because one can no longer hold on.
Ian felt a sudden pain in his heart, and without caring about anything else, he hurried forward, came to Hades, and hugged Hades.
He was tall, almost as tall as Hades. He stretched out his hand and hugged Hades, who was standing stiffly in place.
"Heddes, what's wrong?"
Ian hugged Hades tightly and felt the other's body stiffen.
Pheromones are trembling. Pheromones are the most intuitive way for Zerg to express emotions, and after they have deeply connected, they are very sensitive to each other's pheromones.
"Heddes?"
Ian asked in a low voice, his voice filled with worry that was hard to conceal.
He gently stroked Hades' back with his hand, trying to comfort him with his warmth.
In fact,
He's really bad at comforting others.
Words are like this, they seem sharp when attacking, but when they really want to protect, they seem so weak that I don’t know what to say.
The most primitive way for animals to express emotions is roaring and hugging.
Physical contact, feeling the other person's body temperature, smell and breath, is to feel the company of another life.
It's warm.
“…”
Hades didn't answer immediately, but just lowered his head and buried it in Ian's shoulder.
The great prince of the empire who always seemed to have his back straight finally bent at this moment.
Revealing a rare vulnerability.
It's a sign of weakness from a ferocious beast.
Ian could feel Hades' fingers tightly clutching the corner of his clothes, as if trying to grab something to rely on.
"Hero..."
Hades' voice was low, almost a whisper, his silver-gray eyes still lowered, his eyelashes casting a shadow in the light, hiding the emotions in his eyes.
Ian's heart tightened even more.
He had never seen Hades so vulnerable.
Hades has always been calm and powerful. He is the honor and merit of the empire. He always stands upright in the wind and rain, never showing weakness.
But at this moment, it seemed as if it was defeated by some invisible force, revealing a softness it had never had before.
"It's okay. I'm here."
Ian said softly, he stepped back a little, took Hades' face in his hands and forced him to look into his eyes.
Hades' eyes still flickered with anxiety, as if he was trapped in some invisible cage and unable to break free.
But, what is a cage?
What exactly is a cage for Hedis?
"Tell me, what happened?"
Ian's voice was a little cautious, but his tone subconsciously carried a sense of urgency that could not be refused.
Hades's Adam's apple moved, as if he was trying to organize his words. His fingers were still tightly grasping the corner of Ian's clothes, as if it was his only support.
If the female insect is very "skillful", she will definitely throw herself into the arms of the male insect at this moment and happily share the news of her pregnancy.
But Hades was Hades.
Their marriage happened to be like this, and Ian happened to have amnesia now.
No, maybe amnesia is better. If Ian had memories, there might not even be a hug like this between them.
This was a crazy idea, but Hades couldn't control himself.
"My Lord, how much do you remember now?"
Hades finally spoke.
Ian was stunned, and then a moment of discomfort welled up in his heart.
What does this question mean?
If he remembered, could he become the original Ian, the Ian that Hades had fallen in love with in the first place?
Ian frowned slightly, thought for a moment, and said:
"Maybe, there are still some parts that I haven't remembered completely, but there are also many things that I have remembered."
"Hero Lord,"
Hades' voice was still low, with a hint of pain that was hard to conceal, and a hint of collapse.
"Please... remember it quickly."
Being hung like this is like having a knife hanging around your neck that may fall at any moment. You know the ending, but you don't know when it will happen. It's so torturous.
At this moment, Hades felt mixed emotions and was very conflicted. He wanted Ian to remember it, but he also wanted Ian to never remember it again.
"...Even if you want me to remember it quickly, it's not something I can do just because I want to."
The expression on Ian's face grew slightly colder.
The coldness in that tone was too familiar.
Hades was all too familiar.
Just like their marriage in name only, just like that unfair contract, Ian had that attitude.
Cold and distant, using the ice and spikes on his body as weapons, even though it doesn't hurt as deeply as words, it is like a very blunt knife that grinds the flesh and blood of the heart.
Hades' heart trembled.
It is because he cares too much that he is afraid of losing.
Only then will fear control him.
He also knew that his previous question was actually very offensive.
It's really magical. Only one day has passed. They were clearly in bed last night, hugging each other and sweating profusely. But now it's as if the mask has been torn off and all the reality is emerging.
As if an invisible hand was tightly grasping his heart, a trace of pain flashed in Hades' silver-gray eyes, as if the coldness in Ian's words pierced the softest part.
His fingers unconsciously clenched the clothes on Ian's back, and his fingertips turned slightly white.
"Hero..."
There was an almost imperceptible tremor in Hades' voice.
His throat seemed to be blocked by something, and his voice sounded like a broken bellows, which even he found unpleasant.
Sour and astringent.
Ian's expression had grown cold, his gaze fixed on Hades.
He used to feel indifferent because he didn't care, because he hadn't fallen in love, because he hadn't invested or poured his emotions into it, but now he can't do that anymore.
"I really don't understand. Would it be of any benefit to you if I completely recovered my memory?"
Ian's voice was calm and cold, as if it lacked any warmth.
"Were we happy in our previous marriage?"
This question was like thunder from a clear sky.
Hades' heart sank suddenly, hit hard by these words.
His body seemed to be torn in two. Half of him hoped that Ian would remember everything as soon as possible, while the other half was afraid that those memories would push them into the abyss again.
But his whole soul confirmed Ian's answer.
Only you know how your marriage is.
There was really no question of whether they were happy or unhappy before, they were just bound by a contract and an arranged marriage.
"Just as the Lord said."
Hades' voice was so low that it was almost inaudible, carrying the pain of a long-festering wound.
"Our marriage was indeed... indeed like that."
"If that's the case, then isn't it better if I don't remember? What are you so anxious about?"
As soon as Ian finished speaking, the air in the room seemed to freeze for a moment.
Hades's silver-gray eyes trembled slightly.
As soon as Ian said this, he realized that his tone was too sharp, and a wave of annoyance suddenly surged in his heart.
He pursed his lips, trying to ease the atmosphere, and softened his voice a bit:
"That's not what I meant... Well, it's not that I don't want to remember, but there's really no way."
Hades lowered his head and spoke in a voice so low that it was almost inaudible: "I'm sorry for making the Lord unhappy... It's my fault."
His acknowledgment came so quickly. He was clearly the Grand Prince of the Empire, clearly of such a noble status and with such outstanding achievements, but he even had a hint of humility in his marriage, which made Ian speechless for a moment.
At this moment, Ian felt powerless.
"Why are you apologizing?"
Ian sighed softly, stretched out his hand to hook Hades' chin, trying to make him raise his head.
"Heddis, we're already married. If even in marriage, every matter must be determined by right and wrong, then why don't we spend the rest of our lives in court?"
"Because I did something wrong, and I feel guilty towards the Lord."
Hades smiled bitterly, only to feel the pain in his abdomen getting even worse.
Perhaps the insect egg he was carrying could also sense the undercurrents between the female and male fathers.
Ian really wanted to ask Hedis what he had done wrong to make Hedis feel so guilty and so cautious.
After waking up from amnesia for so long, Ian felt that Hades would not do anything to hurt him.
Love is so clear.
But he swallowed the words back when they came to his lips, fearing that this question would make Hades even more uneasy.
In the end, Ian chose to remain silent.
He reached out and gently pulled Hades into his arms again, hugging him tightly.
Their bodies were pressed tightly together, like two inexperienced animals licking each other's wounds in the darkness, trying to soothe their inner anxiety with each other's body temperature and breath.
Ian's hand gently stroked Hades' back, from his spine to his lower back.
He could feel the tension and slight trembling of Hades' body, as if he was trying to suppress something.
Through a layer of flesh and blood, Ian's fingertips touched Hades's spine, which was as hard as a mountain.
"Heddis, whatever wrong you did, I am half responsible."
Ian's voice was steady and serious.
"I'm willing to do it, of course, not just because we're married."
Hades' body trembled slightly. If he was waiting for what was to come, he would have already reached the door of heaven or hell.
"In fact, Hades, even though I have lost my memory, I still love you."
"If you really feel that you have done something wrong to me, then please respond to me."
"I love you, Hades."
Maybe love really is destiny. After going around in circles, it always ends up with the same result.
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