Chapter 56 Diary
In the evening, after Nan Xuqiu finished taking a shower, he came out of the bathroom. Since he didn't bring pajamas, he wore Chi Changgui's clothes.
Chi Jinjin looked at the person in front of her and was stunned.
Everyone says that clothes flatter a person, but why is it the opposite for Nan Xuqiu?
A piece of clothing that costs only a dozen yuan, when worn by Nan Xuqiu, looks like a trendy brand.
Zhang Xianmei arranged for Nan Xuqiu to sleep in Chi Jinjin's room.
Because they only have one guest room, but unfortunately one side of the bed in the guest room was broken by a relative's child jumping on it, and it has not been repaired yet.
Zhang Xianmei felt embarrassed to let Nan Xuqiu sleep on the rotten bed.
"I'll live in Jinjin's room. Jinjin, you won't mind, right?" Nan Xuqiu asked. He said he was embarrassed, but there was no embarrassment in his eyes. Instead, there was some joy hidden in his eyes.
Zhang Xianmei said with a smile, "I don't mind it."
"Senior, just go to sleep. I don't mind." Chi Jinjin was afraid that he would feel embarrassed and sleep uneasily and burdened, so she spoke to comfort him.
Nan Xuqiu smiled and said, "Thank you."
"It's getting late, senior, you should go to bed early. Good night." Chi Jinjin said.
Nan Xuqiu nodded and said, "Well, good night, Auntie, and good night to you too."
After watching Chi Jinjin and Zhang Xianmei return to their rooms, Nan Xuqiu closed the door and turned to look at Chi Jinjin's room.
After all, it is a little girl's room. The walls are covered with pink wallpaper, and the quilt and sheets are all cute pink.
There is a window at the head of the bed, and the windowsill is filled with various flowers. Under the window is a table, on which are placed her various books and notebooks, with various inspirational quotes posted on them.
Nan Xuqiu looked at the pictures one by one with great interest, and the smile on his face grew deeper and deeper.
At this moment, a relatively large spider suddenly crawled to Nan Xuqiu's feet. Nan Xuqiu raised his foot to step on it to death, but he missed it and it escaped under the bed instead.
Nan Xuqiu bent down and looked under the bed, trying to find the spider, but saw a half-open box. There seemed to be a red scarf in the box, and the letters "nxq" were written on the end of the scarf.
Nan Xuqiu felt that it looked familiar. After thinking about it, he remembered that this was the thing Chi Jinjin took when she confessed to him.
nxq, Nan Xuqiu?
He reached out and moved the box out, which was covered with a lot of dust.
Although it is wrong to look at other people's things without permission, Nan Xuqiu still couldn't help but want to take a look.
He opened the box and took out the scarf inside. It was indeed the same one he had that day.
It was obvious that the scarf was not bought. Even if it was bought, it would not be thrown under the bed like that. With Chi Jinjin's frugal nature, she would not throw away a new and undamaged thing.
Therefore, Nan Xuqiu speculated that this scarf might be a gift from Chi Jinjin to herself.
Inside the box was the pen he had given her, the rabbit bracelet, and even a broken basketball wristband.
He picked up the wristband, and his memory went back to an afternoon five years ago when he was playing basketball with Song Ci and the others. Suddenly, the wristband on his hand broke, so he threw the broken wristband on the bench next to him, put on a new one and continued playing.
It turned out that after he left, Chi Jinjin came to the basketball court, picked up the thing he had thrown away, and kept it carefully as if it were a treasure.
There were still many things in the box that he no longer wanted: draft papers, useless test papers, buttons on his shirt...
During that unknown time, Chi Jinjin collected fragments of information about him bit by bit.
The girl's love was as loud as the roar of a mountain or the tsunami, but when she was beside him, it was silent and not a sound was revealed.
Nan Xuqiu picked up the slightly yellowed chamomile diary again, slowly opened it and read it page by page.
Page 1
——Today, I met a very handsome boy.
Page 2
——Today, I met that boy again. It was a bit awkward because he saw me clumsily moving my hands and feet. But he gave me a pen. He is such a nice guy.
Page 3
——Today, I found out that the pen that boy gave me was so expensive. I don’t know if I can meet him again, but I think I will.
Page 3
——I feel a little regretful. I should have asked his name.
Page 4
——I still haven’t seen that boy. I hope I will never meet him again.
Page 5
—I saw someone today whose back looked a lot like his. I deliberately walked faster to get in front of him, but unfortunately it wasn't him...
Page 19
——I finally knew his name, his name was Nan Xuqiu.
Page 21
——I feel like I am sick. My mind is full of him. The words I write have turned into his name. I want to see him every day.
Page 22
——Today, I passed by his window and he was sleeping.
Page 23
——Today, I passed by his window and he was doing his homework.
Page 24
——Today, I passed by his window and he was talking to someone.
Page 38
——He seems to be with Shen Moli. I think I should let him go. I can't like him anymore.
Page 46
——He is not with Shen Moli. I was wrong. I am so stupid. I still want to like him.
Page 55
——It seems like he really has a girlfriend. I really can’t like him anymore. I want to let him go.
Page 59.
——I was wrong again, I still want to like him.
Nan Xuqiu read slowly page by page, and scenes of the past emerged before his eyes. He seemed to have become her, from being full of joy at the beginning to being sad and lost again and again in the end.
Without his knowledge, a girl had "passed by" him countless times with long-planned intention, had silently watched him in the crowd countless times, and had thought about him thousands of times in her heart.
You will be happy and joyful for the whole day just because someone passes by you, but your eyes will turn red and your heart will ache if he gets a little closer to others.
She once walked through the four seasons with a bunch of fragrant grass, and it bloomed just because he smiled at her.
She pondered over every word she said to him over and over in her mind, and would feel regretful and upset for a long time because she did not express it well.
I carefully calculated the time every day and appeared where he passed by, just to see him.
Every time they looked at each other, his face looked calm, but his heart was in turmoil.
I envy everyone who can stand shoulder to shoulder with him or greet him openly.
For three whole years, every step she took was with him.
She loved him and gave up on him at the same time, gave up on him ten thousand times, and risked her life ten thousand times, each time picking him up lightly and putting him down heavily.
She was a coward, but she bravely confessed to him. At that time, he didn't know that she had to use such great courage and almost gambled all her strength to put her heart in front of him.
Last page.
——Nan Xuqiu, this time, I really want to let you go. I don’t want to like you anymore.
The paper was covered with tear marks, and even some of the words had blurred and penetrated the paper.
She didn't have a camera, and she couldn't draw. All she had were words, which she was proud of. With those stiff characters, she depicted a vivid young boy on the page. Hidden within that cheap paper was the greatest secret of her, Chi Jinjin, her entire youth...
Nan Xuqiu's vision became a little blurred, and his eyes gradually became moist.
It turned out that what she said was true. She really liked herself for a long, long time, and liked herself more than she imagined.
There was a library card tucked into the notebook, with his and her names written in the last two columns, and a photo of them going on stage together to receive an award.
Many people in the photo were looking straight ahead, except Chi Jinjin. Her eyes were looking at him. Even through the slightly blurred photo, one could still see the immense love for him in her eyes.
If he could have looked at her at that time, he would have been able to feel her love that was difficult to hide.
Unfortunately, he didn't. He never really looked into the girl's eyes, never...
Nan Xuqiu slowly closed the diary, but did not look up. He remained silent for a long, long time.
It was midnight before Nan Xuqiu lay down on the bed to rest, but thinking of the contents of his diary, he couldn't sleep at all. He just wanted to find Chi Jinjin right now and give her a hug. She must have been very sad before.
At this moment, the door was suddenly pushed open, Nan Xuqiu sat up from the bed, and saw Chi Jinjin!
"Jinjin?" Nan Xuqiu was surprised.
Chi Jinjin didn't answer him. She just locked the door, walked over, lifted the quilt, and lay down in.
Seeing that she fell into a deep sleep in a second, Nan Xuqiu probably guessed why she suddenly appeared here and behaved like this.
Maybe I got up in the middle of the night to drink water or go to the bathroom, and in a daze I forgot that he was in my room, and subconsciously went back to my room.
"This confused little ghost..."
Nan Xuqiu reached out and poked her face.
If he could sleep with her like this for one night, he would definitely be more than happy to do so, but this is her home after all. If his uncle and aunt saw them tomorrow morning, both he and she would be in great trouble.
Nan Xuqiu got off the bed, covered her with the quilt, turned around to leave, but after taking a step, he couldn't help but look back at her.
She rolled over, scratched her cheek, and fell asleep facing outward.
Nan Xuqiu walked back again, supported himself on the edge of the bed, slowly squatted down on one knee, and looked at her sleeping face.
In her diary, she had gazed at his sleeping face again and again.
Now, it was him staring at her.
Nan Xuqiu reached out and tucked the hair that was stuck to her face behind her ear.
He slowly moved closer, kissed her forehead, then moved down to kiss the center of her eyebrows. His breath continued to move down, sweeping across the bridge of her nose, and finally his lips gently covered hers.
His eyes slowly closed, and he simply stuck to her, without any lust, only deep heartbeat and cherishing.
Chi Jinjin, this time, let me like you, okay?
After kissing for a long time, Nan Xuqiu left reluctantly, then got up and walked out of the room, going to the guest room where Chi Jinjin was going to sleep.
The next day, Chi Jinjin woke up on time. She slowly sat up from the bed, rubbed the back of her head, looked out the window, and closed her eyes again.
But suddenly, her eyes widened.
etc!
Am I in my room?
Chi Jinjin finally came to her senses and realized that she should be in the guest room. She turned her head and saw that there was no one around her.
She breathed a sigh of relief.
But if I sleep here, what about my senior?
What about others?
Chi Jinjin vaguely remembered that she seemed to be very thirsty last night and wanted to drink water. Then she wouldn't just climb out of bed and return to her room in a daze, right?
Oh my god!
Chi Jinjin quickly got off the bed and opened the door, just in time to see Nan Xuqiu coming out of the room.
"Good morning." Nan Xuqiu leaned his shoulder against the door and smiled at Chi Jinjin.
"Good morning, good morning..." Chi Jinjin smiled awkwardly, then walked forward and asked, "Senior, why did you get out of this room?"
"Shouldn't you ask yourself this?" Nan Xuqiu joked.
"I'm sorry, senior. I'm just like that. I tend to act silly when I sleep. I didn't mean to take your room." Chi Jinjin apologized hurriedly, and then asked anxiously, "I didn't do anything to you, did I?"
Nan Xuqiu suddenly approached her, lowered his head and deliberately said in a hoarse voice, "What do you think you can do to me? What will you do to me?"
"I, I didn't hit you, did I..." Chi Jinjin asked guiltily. She couldn't guarantee that when she found someone in the room while she was in a daze, she would not hit that person.
Nan Xuqiu chuckled, rubbed her head, and said with a smile, "No, idiot, I left the room after you came back from sleep last night."
"Well, that's good." Chi Jinjin dodged his hand that was rubbing her head, and said embarrassedly, "I'm sorry, senior, I made you sleep on a rotten bed all night."
Nan Xuqiu felt a little disappointed when he saw her avoid his hand, but it was only for a moment. After a moment, he continued to smile and said, "It's okay, I slept quite well."
The breakfast was extremely sumptuous. This was the first time Chi Jinjin had ever met her own mother. She was so exaggerated that she wanted to give all her specialties to Nan Xu Qiulu.
While eating, Chi Jinjin noticed that her old mother never moved away from the person, and the love in her eyes was almost overflowing.
Chi Jinjin was glad that Nan Xuqiu was not her neighbor, otherwise she would have no share.
"Senior, when will you go home?" Chi Jinjin asked Nan Xuqiu.
The next moment, she felt her foot being lightly kicked by Zhang Xianmei.
Chi Jinjin was puzzled and looked at her old mother in confusion, thinking that she didn't seem to have said anything wrong?
Nan Xuqiu replied, "In the afternoon, someone will come to tow the truck and pick me up."
"It's so early..." Zhang Xianmei said reluctantly, "Auntie wants you to stay a few more days."
Chi Jinjin now knew why she had kicked her just now.
Nan Xuqiu said with a smile, "Auntie, don't worry, I will definitely come to see you often in the future."
As he spoke, he looked at Chi Jinjin meaningfully.
"Great." Zhang Xianmei said happily, "You can come whenever you want. Auntie welcomes you anytime!"
"Yeah." Nan Xuqiu nodded, looking well-behaved.
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