Chapter 84 I like you, Guoguo, I promised to let you go~...
Arip suddenly realized that he seemed unable to understand the common language of the mainland, otherwise how could he not understand what Easter was saying?
This time, Arip looked confused. "Huh?" he exclaimed, too surprised to utter a single questioning syllable.
This situation is extremely rare for Arip. Arip is thirty-two years old this year. Considering his age, he can be described as young and promising. His noble birth and strong abilities have shaped his personality. He has had a smooth and successful life. He can get whatever he wants and succeed in whatever he wants to do. But today, at this moment, he has encountered the most perplexing problem.
Easter's words went over in his mind again and again. Areper sorted out his logic, "No, do you want to hear what you're saying?"
East pulled his yukata tighter as if he were feeling cold, but the thin yukata didn't change because of his actions. "Many people have told me that we're not a good match. At the time, I didn't have the energy to think about it much. Maybe it was my arrogance that made me feel that it was only natural for us to be together."
"So you mean, after careful consideration," Arip emphasized the words "carefully considered," expressing his sarcasm, "you've concluded that we're not suitable for each other. What about everything you said before? Were you just playing me?"
Easter said, "I'm sorry, but I just think you should cut your losses. You're really at a disadvantage dating someone as troublesome, inconsiderate, and unable to provide positive emotional value as a partner. You can definitely find someone better." No need to hide, no need for you to be the only one giving, you can be openly affectionate together.
“I think you should know what you’re talking about?” Arip took out a black hairband and tied his hair up, fully revealing his sharp-featured face. Without the hair to frame his face and the calmness in his eyes, the aggressiveness of his face was evident. His deep blue eyes were extremely indifferent, like a vast starry sky, intolerant of any emotion.
Easter thought he had messed up.
He had never seen Aripal like this before. The Aripal in front of him was a restrained version of itself, a large cat that had sheathed its claws, its furry chest exposed, allowing Easter to pounce and roll around on it. Even when unhappy, it would only pat people with its paw pads.
At this moment, all East could think of regarding Areple was Areple Sansette, the Areple Sansette who had never appeared before him. He had once thought that Areple was unlike the Areple Sansette of rumors, but it turned out that East had been accommodating him.
"I'm sorry." He couldn't help but smile bitterly to himself. He probably never imagined that he could say "I'm sorry" to someone so many times, especially someone with whom he had a close relationship. It was absurd and ridiculous.
"I don't think you have any unspeakable secret or anything," Areber asked. "You just feel that being together isn't right for you, which is why you're talking about breaking up?"
East was speechless. Once he opened his mouth, there would be no chance to salvage the situation. But in this respect, he understood Areper.
“It seems you no longer need me.” Arip nodded, taking East’s silence as the answer. This sentence sealed their relationship, a tacit understanding that each was getting what they wanted, with little sincerity involved.
He thought it was somewhat ironic. He had discussed his relationship with Easter with Randall, and at that time he had assured Randall that his feelings for Easter weren't that deep. But not long ago, he had wanted to deepen his relationship with Easter. He couldn't think of any other word to describe the current situation except "ironic."
"Goodbye." Arip said those two words as he climbed over the balcony, his figure quickly disappearing into the darkness. He hadn't stooped to the point of relentlessly pursuing her; there was no need to force it. He had given her enough chances.
Easter sat stiffly on the ground. "System, was I wrong?" He was just like those scumbags who played with other people's feelings, irresponsible and only bringing harm.
His behavior can be described as arrogant, self-righteous, and condescending. He makes decisions based on the idea that he is doing what is best for others, which is incomprehensible. Anyone would think that he has lost his mind.
Even though she herself was reluctant, she still did something that hurt two people at once. It was foolish and thoughtless, creating contradictions and divisions.
【Host, why?】The system couldn't understand it. It was hard to comprehend. Perhaps it was because it was a system that it couldn't understand human emotions. But regardless of emotions, from a purely logical point of view, it was all too strange.
“System, this has always been an unequal relationship,” East looked up at the full moon. The wind was cool tonight, and the floor felt like ice. “I haven’t thought about the past for too long. In my eyes, none of that mattered. I’m not some pitiful little thing who can only be bullied. But for no reason, at that moment, all the memories came flooding back. A gust of wind swept by, leaving nothing behind. It turns out that from beginning to end, I had nothing. Nothing ever belonged to me.”
“I’m not sad, I don’t regret it, I don’t feel whether it was worth it or not, it’s just emptiness, a black hole, it’s there, ready to swallow people at any time.”
"To describe it in a pretentious way, Arip is like the only bright spot in the black and white film, bringing color to the black and white world, making it magnificent, vast, fantastic, and dazzling, the most vivid, the most moving... and the most beautiful."
“So he deserves better,” Easter sighed softly with a smile, gently gathering a sliver of moonlight. “This is enough.” He has already received more than he could have.
[Host, are you trying to use reason to discuss emotions?] The system began to doubt itself. Who is the system, really? Any normal person should know that emotions are irrational. If you really analyze it rationally, there are no two people who are truly suitable to be together. You can always find flaws and shortcomings, from family background and status to appearance and character, and from appearance and character to every little detail of life. There are never two people who are completely compatible. Even you yourself may not be completely compatible, so how can you talk about yourself and others?
"Maybe he drank too much tonight and did something impulsive." East stood up. He had a lot to do tomorrow, and he should go to sleep. His answer to the system was so unreasonable.
System, [...] How can you be so infuriating?
[Host, based on my analysis, while you say you want Arbelo to cut your losses, it's actually you who truly wants to cut your losses. No matter how noble your reasons are, ultimately, your feelings for him aren't strong enough—you don't want to be together at all costs.]
Easter's face paled even more, no longer from the wind. He forced a smile and said, "I thought you would like this outcome? Weren't you so enthusiastic about advising us to break up? How come you're unhappy now that we've actually broken up?"
"It's not a matter of being happy or unhappy, host. Have you forgotten? I am a system, composed of programs, and I don't possess human emotions," the system said. "I said all that simply to state the facts; there's no other reason."
East didn't go back to his room. He stepped forward and reached the railing. The white railing had turned gray and yellow from the wind and sun, and the rose vines were just bare branches in autumn.
With his hands on the railing platform, he climbed up with a push. The railing was about ten centimeters wide, enough for one person to sit on. Easter imitated Arip, with one leg bent and the other hanging down. He was wearing a bathrobe, and when he let his leg hang down, his entire leg was bare, gleaming like jade in the moonlight.
"What are you putting on this show for now?"
The sudden sound didn't surprise East at all. He slowly curled his lips and fell towards the outside of the railing, his whole body relaxed and stretched. It should have only taken him a second or two to land from the height of two stories, but unfortunately he didn't fall to the ground.
"Damn it." Ariber hurriedly reached out and hugged the person. Seeing the carefree smile on Easter's face, he really wished he could just throw the person to his death. This was no well-behaved and cute rabbit. He was clearly a fox in rabbit skin. He looked well-behaved and harmless most of the time, but when he really went crazy, he was like a little madman.
Easter wrapped her arms around Arip's neck, her eyes crinkling with laughter, "Guoguo, I did let you go~" It was your own fault for not leaving, so no matter what happens in the future, you can't blame me.
Aripelone lowered his head and bit East's lips hard, only letting go when blood was drawn. "I really owe you something."
Easter looked away and buried his head in Areper's chest, embarrassed.
Arip was completely helpless against him. The moment he realized that he couldn't bear to really leave, he had already lost, utterly defeated.
"I like you, but saying 'I love you' is too sentimental. You probably won't believe me, and I can't bring myself to say it. That word is too heavy, it represents too much. What I can say is that I like you, I feel your heart, I want to be with you. There's nothing else, just the two of us, just our feelings."
The two returned to the room. With Arip's abilities, taking one more person over the balcony was no problem at all.
East and Arip were sitting face to face. It was in this context that he uttered those words, very seriously and solemnly. His clear, light pink eyes held no smile, which made one notice that the texture and beauty of it all exuded an inorganic quality, unlike something made of flesh and blood, but composed of something purer and colder.
Arip, "So, all those words you said before were just empty talk?" But if you really think back on it carefully, before that, Easter had never truly said a word about liking him; all she said was about responsibility. It turns out that everything was traceable.
Easter smiled and said slowly, "I think you know better than I do what our relationship was before." It was nothing.
Arip shrugged. "I really thought you were a cutie." He frowned unsatisfiedly. Although he liked every side of Mr. Rabbit, this side of him seemed too heartless, not like a real person, without warmth or affection.
"Huh?" East's eyes widened slightly.
Arip stood up and ruffled East's hair. "After all this trouble, it's getting late. Go to sleep." People are complex; they can't possibly have only one side.
"You still haven't given an answer?" East didn't want things to remain unclear at this point.
"Isn't my performance enough to show my answer?" Aripor wasn't exactly known for his good temper; he wouldn't back down even after being humiliated like that. It was only because that person was Easter. Seeing the stubbornness in his eyes, he sighed and said, "Fine, I agree," giving a clear answer.
Easter breathed a sigh of relief. "Go to sleep."
They turned off the lights and lay down on the bed together.
"What would you do if I really left?" Arip couldn't suppress his curiosity.
Easter leaned against Areper's chest, nuzzling against his soft yet firm breasts, and mumbled, "I don't know how to do it."
"The truth?" Why was Arip so skeptical? He had already suffered a "great loss" because he had believed Easter's lies.
Easter wrapped his arms around Arebo's waist and sighed with satisfaction, "I'll be staying in the Sinclair Empire for a while longer. We'll meet again someday, and I think there will be plenty of people willing to help me make the connection."
"Then what makes you think you'll have a chance if I really leave?" Arip knew that if he really left tonight, it meant he could let go. For him, what he had given up, he would never pick up again.
“Then you should hope that I don’t like you that much, that I’m rational enough,” Easter said.
Arip chuckled softly, "Goodnight, sweetheart."
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The author's note: This is a mutual test, to see if they truly like each other and how sincere they are towards each other.
Arribel understood what Easter was trying to say—that he felt the two of them were not giving enough and that he didn't like him enough.
Easter realized that Arip was too important to him. In fact, it has been written in several places before that Easter's mental state is not normal. He is self-harming and self-destructive. If he attaches too much importance to Arip, his possessiveness may lead to things like locking him up. When he realizes this, when he can still control himself, he will give Arip a chance to leave.
Let me say it again: the last three volumes mainly focus on the romance and revealing secrets [heart emoji].
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