Zhan Peng stared at her and sneered, "A life without me?" He repeated,
"Yana, I can't understand. When you were with me, I never treated you unfairly. I believed I had fulfilled my responsibilities as a husband, loving you and doting on you. How did it come to this? Why is it so difficult for you to accept living with me?
Although I'm not a good person, I have to admit that I've given you all my sincerity towards a woman in my life and have never bullied you.
"Yes." Yana wiped her tears and raised her head stubbornly, "But you never asked me if I wanted it. You put a gun to my brother's head and forced me to accept your so-called love. I was not willing to do it. I had no choice. I was timid and cowardly and didn't dare to resist.
I often think that if I had been like Xixi, and would rather escape again and again, or even die on the way, perhaps life would not be so hard. At the very least, I would not be ignorant enough to bring my son into this world to suffer. Zhan Peng, actually, I hate you.
Every time you call me wife, I feel very repulsed in my heart. I gave birth to Zhan Zhan when I was less than 20 years old, but my peers were studying in college. While I was crying while holding my child, they graduated, found normal jobs, had their own willing lovers, and lived the life that I thought I would have.
You've ruined all of this. I've been surrounded by your family all day and night in Daqili. I haven't been able to go back to Thailand for several years. I can't adapt to the food and I don't even have any friends. Yet you think you've given me a good life, but I'm almost suffocating under your kindness..."
When Yana finished speaking, she felt so weak that she couldn't even stand up. She held on to the door frame and slipped to the ground.
Zhan Peng's whole heart seemed to be cut open by her, and cut into pieces bit by bit with a knife. He never knew that Yana had so many things hidden in her heart. Under her good and obedient appearance, she actually had so many regrets.
He had always assumed that just because she didn't say anything, she was willing. He hadn't even considered what she wanted. He thought that what he gave her was already the best. What else could she want? She should just stay home and take care of the kids.
You will eventually be trapped in your own cocoon.
"Baby, I'm sorry." He choked up in his throat, tears falling. He walked to her side and hugged the weak little woman tightly in his arms, "I'm really sorry, baby."
"No one cared about me before. I didn't know how to love someone. All I saw around me was scheming. Only A-Long and Na-Tu treated me sincerely. No woman ever really told me these things. They all just used money to make men happy. After hearing this so often, I thought that women would be happy as long as they gave them money and bought them things.
I didn't really mean to ignore you. I thought you were different from that troublesome and spoiled woman like Nanxi. You were well-behaved and obedient and wouldn't cause trouble to men. Because of this, I laughed at Aaron many times.
It was my fault. I can't be as attentive as him, and I let my woman suffer so much. I will change, okay? Baby, I will change. "
It was the first time he cried in front of Yana. Yana always thought that a man like him, who was as tough as a knife and had bones as strong as steel, and would not make a sound even if a bullet pierced his chest, did not have tear glands. But today, he was in front of her, his eyes red with pain.
"I don't want your apology. Just treat my son well and let me go free." Yana pushed him away.
"I am living a good life now. I am very peaceful. Every day, besides going to work, I take care of the children. I no longer have to worry about my husband standing up when he goes out and lying down when he comes home. I no longer have to worry about receiving the news that my husband has died in battle.
So, Zhan Peng, if you really regret what you did to me, please let me go."
"Letting you go and having children with that man outside, leaving my son motherless forever?" Zhan Peng smiled bitterly. "Yana, when did I become a living Bodhisattva in your heart, huh?"
Yana knew him. On the surface, he seemed unrestrained and heartless, but in fact, he was domineering and paranoid, like a wolf. No one would get involved unless they were willing. He could kill several of his half-brothers without blinking an eye, and even wanted to kill his own father, let alone others.
"I know I can't persuade you, but I still say the same thing. If you want me to go back, take my body back with you..."
Yana stood up with the help of the door frame and walked out with difficulty without looking back at him.
Zhan Peng sat on the ground, watching her close the door, then raised his hand and slapped himself hard a few times.
"Yana, I still say the same thing. Now that I'm back, I'll fight to the death..."
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China, Beijing.
Nanxi had been sitting outside the psychiatric treatment room of the Peking University Medical University Hospital, waiting for the entire morning.
"Sister Xi, please eat something first. I'll call you when Brother Lu wakes up." Biaozi came over and advised.
"No, I'm not hungry." Nanxi shook her head.
Before entering the treatment room, Professor Zhang had already explained all the risks to her. Although he said he was 70% sure, the remaining 30% uncertainty still made her uneasy.
In fact, as long as it doesn't affect his health, Nanxi doesn't mind whether he remembers the past or not.
But Balu was unwilling to accept the treatment no matter what.
"Wife, I don't have many treasures in this life. You are my only one. How can I have any regrets? I don't mind losing anything, but I can't lose you. Wait for me."
This was the last sentence he said before he went in.
The door of the treatment room was finally opened and Professor Zhang walked out.
"The treatment was successful. He is now in a hypnotic state. He will wake up in twenty minutes."
Nanxi nodded, "Thank you, Professor Zhang."
Professor Zhang pursed his lips and smiled, "That brat Zhou Qian asked my precious niece to call me personally, how could I not be attentive?"
He paused, "Miss Nan, you young people should be able to communicate well with each other. You should persuade Zhou Qian to live a good life. The divorce has been going on for several years and everyone in Beijing knows about it. His peers have children in kindergarten, but the couple is still making a fuss. How long will this go on?"
Nanxi was stunned. She didn't expect Professor Zhang to say this to her.
"Professor Zhang, Brother Qian and I are not very familiar with each other. When my son A-lu wakes up, I will tell him to persuade Brother Qian. They are good brothers."
"Yes." Professor Zhang nodded. "Your partner, although much younger than Zhou Qian, is much more reliable. He's a very good guy. You have good taste. You will definitely live a happy life in the future."
"Thank you, Professor Zhang. I appreciate your kind words." Nanxi felt a little embarrassed.
"Come in."
Nanxi nodded, watched Professor Zhang leave, and then entered the treatment room.
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