81 Guilt and Crying
◎Why are you so nice to me? (More)◎
It has been hot for several days, and it rained today. The whole city was shrouded in heavy rain, and the weather has cooled down a lot.
Song Shixi leaned against the kitchen door, her eyes falling on the tall and burly figure of the man. He was very tall, wearing a black shirt and shorts, with a tan apron wrapped around his body. His short hair had not been trimmed for a long time and had grown a lot longer. It drooped in front of his forehead, covering some of his eyebrows and eyes, adding a bit of softness to his cold and hard appearance.
Usually, the two of them rely on a nanny to cook for them, or order food to be delivered to their door. This is the first time they have cooked at home.
"I promised you before, but I was too busy and only had time to learn a few dishes." Qin Yue looked back at her while washing the vegetables, with a rare hint of embarrassment between his brows.
Song Shixi also recalled the scene at that time. The two had just confirmed their relationship, and he returned to Shenzhen for work. However, less than two days later, because of a careless remark she made on the phone, he rushed back to Beijing overnight just to see her.
Because of a bowl of noodles, she promised to learn how to cook and he would cook for her in the future.
Thinking of this, Song Shixi's mind moved. She took two steps forward and put her arms around his waist. "So what? As long as you have the intention and take action, it's worth praising, so I want to praise you."
"Just three words?" Qin Yue couldn't help but let out a sigh, but a smile escaped from his throat, obviously deliberately teasing her somewhat perfunctory "praise you".
Song Shixi blushed and pinched his waist unhappily, "It's good enough to praise you."
Her fingertips felt hard and it was useless to pinch them.
Qin Yue came over and kissed her face, then smiled and said, "Thank you, Miss Song, for your kindness."
After he said this, Song Shixi's face turned even redder. At this moment, he patted her hands and coaxed her softly, "Go out and watch TV for a while. I'll be right here."
Hearing this, Song Shixi nodded and went to the living room, looking back every few steps. But even when she was sitting on the sofa, she couldn't help but look towards the kitchen. Her fingertips were scratching on the pillow, and she felt a little anxious.
When a person has emotional problems, it may not be easy to detect at first, but over time, people around them will always notice that something is wrong.
This is Qin Yue's current state. No matter how well he disguises himself, she is not blind or deaf. How could she not notice it?
He has something on his mind.
Song Shixi bit her lower lip in annoyance. How could she think that Qin Yue could recover as quickly as she did after learning about that incident and suffering such a huge shock?
She was hardly affected because she knew clearly that she did not do it. She did not feel guilty or ashamed. In addition, Qin Yue made it clear that he did not care, so she felt that as long as the two of them loved each other, that was enough.
Let the past be the past, and always look forward.
But she forgot that Li Yanxing was Qin Zhiyi's fiancé, and Qin Yue was Qin Zhiyi's biological brother.
The brother is together with his "brother-in-law's" mistress. This kind of plot is very explosive no matter where it happens. Who can accept it calmly?
in addition……
Even if she told him that she had only ever loved him, could that erase the time the original owner and Li Yanxing had spent together? Although everything they did did not cross the line, it was all real.
That night he said he would solve everything, so she didn't ask, didn't even think about it, and didn't care about what he thought, whether he was stressed out, or whether he was tired from solving the problem.
Keeping silent is a simple and crude solution, but at the same time it can easily turn into a thorn between the two people, which cannot be touched because it will hurt, so it is better to rely on time to dilute and forget it.
But is this really suitable for them?
A trace of confusion flashed in Song Shixi's eyes, and he clenched his palms tightly.
Asking herself honestly, if their identities were switched, she couldn't guarantee that she would be as indifferent as Qin Yue, and would forgive everything just because of her words and continue to choose to be with her.
What was going on in his mind? Song Shixi couldn't guess. She wasn't a worm in his stomach that could guess all his thoughts thoroughly.
Qin Yue is a man of outstanding abilities and a domineering and strong personality. He subconsciously chooses to digest many things by himself. Before the problem is resolved, he will not say anything unless she asks.
But there is one thing she can be sure of.
Qin Yue really loves her, loves her very much, so he stands by her without hesitation.
Whether it was when they first confirmed their relationship and he firmly told her that the Qin family would not become an obstacle between them, or when he protected her and supported her in front of everyone at the Liang family in Gangcheng, or now that the affair between the original owner and Li Yanxing had been exposed, his way of handling the matter, all of this fully demonstrated this point.
Not to mention the little things in daily life...
What about her? Did she love him as much?
Comparison is the most taboo in relationships, but at this time, Song Shixi couldn't help but think in this direction, because she has always been very clear about the simplest way to solve this problem.
That is to confess her identity and her origin to Qin Yue.
But she didn't, and she never even thought about it. No, maybe she thought about it, otherwise she wouldn't have said those ambiguous words that night, but she didn't say it in the end.
The reason was simple, she was afraid.
She was afraid of being treated as an alien, afraid of being sent to strange places for experiments, afraid of being considered mentally ill, afraid that if she mustered up the courage to reveal her biggest secret, it would be laughed off as a joke...
Even if that person was Qin Yue, she wouldn't dare share it with him.
Ultimately, she didn't trust him enough.
Thinking of this, Song Shixi unconsciously raised his head and looked towards the kitchen again. Unexpectedly, he met a pair of familiar deep eyes. Both of them were stunned. Then the latter spoke first, pointing to the refrigerator: "There is ice soda, do you want some?"
Song Shixi had something on his mind and didn't want to drink anything, so he shook his head.
"good."
Qin Yue looked at her again, then slowly retreated back to the kitchen, but not long after, he stuck his head out again. After confirming that she was still on the sofa, he felt a little relieved and started cooking.
Song Shixi saw all his little movements, and his heart beat faster and faster uncontrollably, as if some of his guesses had been confirmed, but it also seemed impossible.
But Qin Yue has indeed become more and more clingy in the past few days. As long as she leaves his sight or he doesn't know her movements, he will become anxious.
Situations like the one just now where people are worried about gains and losses happen from time to time.
This is one of the manifestations of insecurity.
Why? Didn't he feel any love from her? Or...
Song Shixi felt that the more he thought about it, the more outrageous it became, until a sentence suddenly popped up in his mind: The deeper the love, the more afraid of losing.
She pursed her lips and stared at the kitchen door without blinking until the sound of cooking stopped. Then the familiar scene appeared again. At that moment, Song Shixi's breathing became rapid. Before he retreated, she raised her voice and asked, "Why do you always look at me?"
Qin Yue paused, then a smile appeared on his face, and he answered slowly: "No, the chili is a bit pungent, I came out to get some fresh air."
He looked as if nothing had happened.
Song Shixi looked at his nonchalant face, her eyes gradually became sore, and tears rushed out from them like a flood. But she did not avoid him, but stood up and ran towards him, forgetting even to wear slippers.
Qin Yue rushed over as soon as her eyes turned red, and the two of them hugged each other in the middle.
"What's wrong? Stop crying, okay? What happened?" He helplessly helped her wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes, but he couldn't stop them. Instead, the more he wiped, the more tears came.
Tears fell like pearls from a broken string, one by one. She cried bitterly and wanted to say something, but no sound came out. After trying several times without success, she simply gave up, hugged his waist tightly, and cried her heart out.
This sudden change made Qin Yue feel for the first time how to describe the four words "at a loss", but he also knew to pick up her barefoot girl first, and then gently pat her back, as if coaxing a child, over and over again without getting tired of it.
"It doesn't matter."
"It's okay, no matter what happens, I'll always be here."
But these words acted like a catalyst, and she cried even harder.
Seeing this, Qin Yue immediately shut up and didn't dare say anything to irritate her emotions. He was afraid that the apron he was wearing was too dirty and would rub her eyes. He quickly held her in one hand and took it off with the other hand, throwing it to the ground. Then he carried her to the sofa and patiently wiped her with a soft tissue.
Those tears soaked the paper and stained his fingertips. Although they were slightly cool, they burned all the way to his heart, causing him to feel so painful that he was panic-stricken and kept thinking about what had just happened in his mind.
She asked him why he kept looking at her, and he said no, he just wanted to come out for some fresh air.
He lied.
Qin Yue's throat felt dry, and he couldn't care less as he hurriedly explained, "Shi Xi, I'm sorry. I came out to see what you were doing. I didn't want to be separated from you, but I was afraid that if I did it too often, you would get bored, so I just made up an excuse."
"Please don't cry, okay? It's all my fault."
Song Shixi's eyelashes trembled, and she felt that Qin Yue was a complete fool!
Thinking of this, she cursed out loud.
Who would have thought that he actually agreed to what she said. The moment Song Shixi heard it, he almost thought that he had misheard. These impudent curses were usually said in bed or when flirting, and it was okay to agree to them, but in this situation, why should he agree to them?
"You, are you made of clay?"
"Weren't you very bad-tempered before?"
"Why are you so soft now?"
Song Shixi stretched out her hands and hugged his neck, speaking intermittently with sobs and tears in her voice, and tears could not be held back and flowed from the corners of her eyes.
"You, why are you so nice to me?"
This series of words made Qin Yue silent for two seconds before he replied softly: "If I'm not good to you, who can I be good to? Shi Xi, you know the reason."
Yes, she knew it better than anyone else, so she felt guilty.
Song Shixi subconsciously wanted to bite her lower lip, which had already been bitten and was bleeding. Qin Yue held her lip with his hand to stop her from biting. "Why are you torturing yourself? Bite me, I have thick skin."
She almost lost her composure because of his last words. Feeling embarrassed and annoyed, she actually bit down on his index finger, leaving a circle of teeth marks on it. But she didn't really use much force. After calming down a little, she felt a little embarrassed. After spitting it out, she buried her face in his arms with feigned disgust, "It smells like cooking smoke."
Seeing her calm down, Qin Yue dared to relax a little after holding his breath and replied, "I came out too hastily."
But he washes his hands every now and then in the kitchen, so they are absolutely clean.
【Author’s words】
Mr. Qin: Because of love
Xibao: So corny (lip corners raised version)
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