Chapter 75
"Ruoyi, Ruoyi."
"Who is it? Who is calling me?" Du Ruoyi was in a trance, walking alone in the fog.
I can't see anything clearly.
A faint voice came from the fog ahead.
She looked around, but still couldn't see anything clearly.
"Ruoyi, you can hear me, right?"
"You, you are?" An idea suddenly flashed through his mind, "Yun Niang?"
"It's me."
"I can't see you."
"I'm just a thought now, you can't see mine."
Du Ruoyi stopped running and searching after hearing this. She had just been running fast for quite some time and was exhausted and out of breath.
This place is like an invincible black hole, and any movement will make people extremely tired.
Her physical condition is already excellent, but she can't even bear this.
Not knowing where the person was, she sat down there as if she had given up.
"Ruoyi, are you feeling tired? This is why I haven't seen you. Your soul being forcibly dragged into a nightmare will hurt you. You can't stay long. We only have time for a cup of tea at most."
Upon hearing this, Du Ruoyi, who had just been sitting, lay down on the spot, saving as much energy as possible.
"Yunniang, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't know, I didn't know that my obsession would trap you here."
Du Ruoyi felt heartbroken when she thought about how Zhang Yunniang had been unable to find relief because of her for so many years.
"Ruoyi, I want to thank you. You know, I'm afraid of people. I don't dare go out or make friends. I live alone in a small courtyard. I'm very lonely and isolated. But I don't have the courage to go out. Your arrival has added a touch of color to my boring life. Every time you come to the temple and tell me about your family's daily life, what happened, and who you met, I am so happy. It's a joy in life that I have never experienced before."
"But, most of the time, you're left alone."
"That's no different from when I was alive. So, I don't feel any loneliness beyond that of being alive. On the contrary, every time you come to see me, the long hours you spend rambling on and on, are the happiest moments of my life."
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I should spend more time with you." Du Ruoyi was so upset that she couldn't help herself. If she knew that Zhang Yunniang was still alive, she would have given her more company.
Such a good girl, but she suffered so much. I feel so sorry for her.
"You've already brought me enough joy. My parents passed away early in my life, and I haven't been treated well since then. Meeting the Second Young Master has given me a peaceful life, which is my good fortune. Meeting you is the most worthwhile thing in my life. I love you very much, and I should repay your kindness myself, but you've done it for me. I don't know how to thank you."
"If the eternal lamp goes out, can you return to reincarnation?"
"As long as you need me for one day, I will always be with you. I have become accustomed to this kind of life. Now I just don't need to work or eat. I am still alone, just like when I was alive."
He paused for a moment, "Don't worry, I've long been accustomed to this kind of life. I can always be with you."
Du Ruoyi now knew that it was her obsession that had prevented Zhang Yunniang from reincarnating. It wasn't just the extinguishing of the eternal lamp.
For Zhang Yunniang and herself, she should let it go.
To truly accept this world and to face the people you meet.
From now on, she will let go of the past, become the master of this body, and become the real Zhang Yunniang.
"Yunniang, go with peace of mind. Previously, I always thought this world was virtual and non-existent. Second Young Master is right. Everything that happens here is real.
I now have so many friends, a lot of money, and my own little house. These are things I never dared to imagine before.
You can leave with peace of mind. From now on, I am Zhang Yunniang, and I will live a good life. If there is an afterlife, we will be a pair of real sisters. "
"Okay, then I'll be very happy."
The two chatted for a while, and Zhang Yunniang felt more and more tired, but she tried hard to suppress the discomfort.
This was the first time the two spoke, and it would also be the last.
She was reluctant to leave.
"Ruoyi, don't have any psychological burden. I am willing to stay."
"You know me. I can live well on my own. Before, I always felt that I had taken your place and was very sorry. Now that I know your feelings, I have no worries."
"Ruoyi, thank you. See you in the next life if we're destined to."
"See you in the next life."
There was a dizziness before his eyes, the fog dissipated, and Du Ruoyi fell into a deep sleep.
Her soul was pulled into the depths, consuming a lot of mental energy. In less than a cup of tea, she felt extremely tired and understood why Zhang Yunniang had never dreamed.
Zhang Yunniang and she once shared a body, so Zhang Yunniang is Du Ruoyi, and Du Ruoyi is Zhang Yunniang.
If two people want to meet, they need to go back to the depths of their souls and cannot rely on external forces to achieve the purpose of communication.
Jun Qingmo is an outsider, and Zhang Yunniang meets him in the temple with the help of the power of gods and Buddhas. With the help of a medium, she will not hurt him.
It was past noon the next day when Zhang Yunniang slowly woke up.
I still don’t feel very well and my body feels very tired, as if I climbed five or six mountains yesterday.
Maybe the worries in my heart have dissipated, and I feel a lot more relaxed.
The sunlight shines through the window frame and falls on my face.
She stretched out her hands to grab the sunlight, and the tiny dust in the air ran around in the sunlight.
After playing alone for a while, she looked out the window in the direction of the sunlight.
I also saw the people there.
Jun Qingmo was outside the window, his hands resting on the window frame, looking at her without blinking.
"You're awake. Are you hungry? What do you want to eat?"
"Did I forget to close the window?" Zhang Yunniang got out of bed and walked to the window. It seemed that she had indeed forgotten last night.
Oh, yes, she looked at the moon.
"No, no, it wasn't me who opened it, I, I." Jun Qingmo was caught and his face flushed. He was eloquent in the court, but at this moment, he stammered and couldn't say a complete sentence.
Could it be that her state of mind had truly changed? Or perhaps it was a psychological effect, but Zhang Yunniang seemed to have some tangible feelings.
"I saw her last night."
Jun Qingmo was a little nervous, "Will you leave?"
"Leave? Oh, where else can we go?"
Zhang Yunniang chuckled dejectedly. She had been in this world for so long, so long that she often didn't even know who she was.
It’s just that the feeling of being alive is so good. Even if there is endless longing, it’s good to be alive.
"After I extinguish the eternal lamp, I want to go to the outer reaches of the Great Wall with Sister Amina. Is that okay?"
"Can I refuse?"
Jun Qingmo's eyes were filled with mist, and tears burst out of his eye sockets and ran down his cheeks, one by one, like rain.
Unlike the sobbing and crying in the past, he just stared at the woman opposite him without blinking, tears flowing like a flood.
Seeing him like this, Zhang Yunniang choked.
The two of them were not related at all. Since they met, she had always remained true to herself and had never had any other thoughts.
Even as a friend, she had never defined it that way.
As long as you don't have any expectations in this era and don't take anything to heart, even if you leave suddenly one day, you won't have any regrets or reluctance.
She always thought that coming to this world was an accident, and that maybe one day when she opened her eyes, she would find herself in another strange place.
Now, she seems to be staying here permanently.
"You, really can't stay?"
"You, don't cry."
She held the stunning face in front of her and wiped away the tears from his eyes. Drop after drop of water fell, and no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't wipe them away.
"If you want to leave, can you take me with you like luggage? I won't bother you or cause you any trouble. Just take me with you wherever you go.
Please, don't leave me. I can live without anything, but I can't live without you. Even if I have no name or status, as long as I can be by your side, I will be content.
"What nonsense are you talking about? You still have your ambitions, your future, and your success."
"Everything is based on you. Without you, none of this would be what I'm pursuing.
It was because you said you wanted money that I tried every possible way to establish Shuyuxuan.
To protect Shuyuxuan, I decided to take the imperial examination. Everything that happened to me was based on you. Without you, my ambitions would be worthless.
"Why me?"
Zhang Yunniang was puzzled. Jun Qingmo had suffered a lot when they were together. She thought that even if he was generous, he could only classify her as a friend at most.
Or, a fairly capable subordinate.
She does not have a stunning appearance, nor a strong family background.
She has no talent and no ambition.
She is just an ordinary civilian who couldn't be more ordinary.
She and Jun Qingmo are not from the same world or class at all.
Jun Qingmo's big hands covered the hands that were wiping his tears from his cheeks.
"The answer is very long. It will take me a lifetime to answer it. Are you willing to listen to it slowly?"
"I have no idea."
Zhang Yunniang thinks she is useless, and once, she did not believe in Wei Yijun's feelings.
At this moment, she also didn't believe in Jun Qingmo's feelings.
Jun Qingmo had never expressed it clearly before, so she didn't know.
One day, his feelings suddenly became strong and turbulent, too passionate and sincere, making it impossible for her to cut the Gordian knot as she did with Wei Yijun.
"If you still need me for a while, I will stay."
Once upon a time, she considered herself an outsider and never really thought about what she wanted to do.
Now, she is a returning visitor here, and in the future, she can think carefully about whether there is anything else she wants to do.
The retirement plan has been completed long ago. In the future, I will have enough free time and will not be in a hurry to leave.
"Really? Really?" Jun Qingmo murmured in disbelief.
Zhang Yunniang couldn't help but be moved by his anxious look. In her previous life, she had never been in love and had been single for more than 20 years.
Maybe she was too obsessed with watching TV dramas when she was a child, so when she returned to reality, she had never been attracted to anyone.
The main reason is that she has always been obedient to her parents and has never had a premature love affair. In junior high school, she may have had some innocent romantic thoughts, but she is a good child. Her parents told her not to have a premature love affair, so she rarely played with boys.
In high school, her homeroom teacher took drastic measures, separating boys and girls into separate groups. Because of the lack of interaction, she barely spoke to the boys in her class from freshman to junior year. Worse still, she couldn't even pronounce their names.
Later, when she went to college, she was busy working part-time, attending classes, and taking exams, and was very happy.
After graduation, I was busy with work again.
In her life, apart from relatives and colleagues, there are almost no other ways for her to come into contact with the opposite sex.
The older you get, the less likely you are to pursue pure love.
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