Jiang Yi deduced a lot, including Yan Yiming's identity and purpose, which were almost correct, but some facts were not what he imagined.
People who act like him will always prepare for the worst first, especially anything related to Yan Yiming.
He knew that Yan Yiming had to protect the safety of several people so that she could return to where she wanted to go, but he didn't know that she actually still had half a year. The moment Jiang Yi rescued her and told her that everyone was safe, his heart was tightly clenched.
Yan Yiming might leave him in the next second.
So he asked this in a state of uncontrollable panic.
Everyone is safe, your goal has finally been achieved, so are you finally going to leave?
Yan Yiming hadn't yet dispelled the cold and damp air in the prison when he was already stunned by these words, his entire facial features showing unexpected shock.
She can only go home if everyone is safe. Why... would Jiang Yi know that?
"Are you surprised that I know this?" Jiang Yi smiled and took out a pomelo leaf from somewhere. "You always speak carefully, afraid of revealing something."
"Although you are innocent, the prison is not a good place after all. Sweep it to calm your mind." Jiang Yi gently swept her shoulders with a pomelo leaf and continued, "Try to be careful, but the more you do this, the more clues you reveal. Later, you risked your life to save Jian Yuyan and the prince, so how could I not guess it?"
"So you already knew it after I rescued the prince," Yan Yiming asked him, feeling a little uneasy.
"It was earlier than these." Jiang Yi put away the pomelo leaves, put his coat on her shoulders and pulled her towards the palace gate. "When Jian Yuyan found me and told me all of Prime Minister Jian's plots, I knew you were the Miss A Ming he had been looking for. I had already guessed it at that time. But I never told you. I wanted to tell you clearly after all the matters concerning Prime Minister Jian were settled, whether it was your purpose or when you would leave."
Yan Yiming felt an inexplicable uneasiness in his heart. His hand, which was held by Jiang Yi, suddenly shrank. He wanted to pull it out, but Jiang Yi changed his technique and held it tighter with his fingers crossed. Yan Yiming tried to shake it off with his backhand, but failed to shake it off. He could only let him continue to hold it and said, "But you didn't expect that the prince would be held hostage by Prime Minister Jian."
"Well," Jiang Yi looked at the gray sky in the distance, hiding the complicated expression on his face that was hard to understand, and said, "I didn't expect His Majesty to be so cruel, and I didn't expect the prince to be held hostage, so that Prime Minister Jian and others fled to Changzhou. Of course, I couldn't keep you, but at that time, I was particularly fortunate that the prince's life or death was unknown."
Yan Yiming's breathing stagnated, but Jiang Yi did not stop, as if he was talking about a simple household matter, "Because you must ensure his safety. As long as he is not out of danger for one day, you have to stay one more day. But, Ah Ming, guess how I feel after you leave."
"I have the ability to protect myself," Yan Yiming said with some lack of confidence, "and I can rescue the prince safely, so don't worry..."
"I have repeatedly pleaded for you in front of His Majesty to spare Princess Lin'an's life. Even if Prime Minister Jian and others cannot escape, I can still keep you safe." Jiang Yi recalled the dull pain in his heart when the secret guards told him that day that Princess Lin'an deliberately avoided them and left without any reluctance. Everything seemed to be calm these days, but finally after everything came to an end, all the unspeakable things that were covered up and deliberately hidden were nakedly peeled off before his eyes.
He did not listen to Yan Yiming's evasive talk, his clenched fists revealed the pain he had suppressed.
I made all the preparations, but you left.
Not long ago, they were still chatting intimately at night, but in the blink of an eye, they turned around and left without any reluctance.
He was never given the slightest chance.
Afterwards, she protected the prince and finally waited for the arrival of reinforcements. She was ready to leave quietly, but had to stay again because she bumped into Shao Jingyu.
Both times he left, he ended up leaving without notice due to unexpected circumstances. She still stayed here, eating and talking together as if nothing had happened. He never mentioned it, and she didn't mention it either.
Jiang Yi waited for so many days, waiting for Yan Yiming to mention it, or perhaps tentatively ask him what he would do if she was gone one day, but even such words did not come.
Just like the previous two times, she left quietly once again when he was least prepared.
Maybe it will be tonight after he falls asleep, or maybe it will be tomorrow when he goes to court, and she will leave without any regrets and disappear completely.
Now he told Yan Yiming directly that he could finally leave. He mercilessly peeled off everything and revealed the truth. Seeing Yan Yiming becoming more and more silent, his heart became heavier.
This was the worst plan he had ever made, and these words were inevitably exaggerated, but in the end, Yan Yiming never refuted it.
Jiang Yi held Yan Yiming's hand uncontrollably and tightened it. Yan Yiming could feel the strength in his hand. After a while, she heard Jiang Yi's cold voice.
"It seems that I guessed right again."
Yan Yiming was silent for a moment.
"Yes." Jiang Yi was always unexpectedly smart, but now she couldn't say this jokingly like before.
After a bumpy journey, they finally returned to the capital. The prince was safe, Jiang Yi and Shao Jingyu were both rewarded for their contributions, but Jian Yuer and Jian Yuyan were left on the other side.
As long as she can finally ensure the safety of these two people, she can leave.
Jiang Yi might take her back home, but it didn't matter. After Jiang Yi fell asleep at night, she could leave quietly, watch the winter snow scene with Xiaopingguo, and wait for next year's peach blossoms. After the peach blossoms faded, she would open her eyes again and see the familiar world.
She waited for Jiang Yi to appear, waiting for Jiang Yi to tell her that Jian Yuyan and Jian Yuer were fine, and she breathed a sigh of relief silently.
Until now, everything has been stripped apart by Jiang Yi and presented in front of his eyes in a bloody manner.
She was like an emotional liar without a trace of emotion. She said sweet words to Jiang Yi in a dramatic manner, and then gave Jiang Yi the most fatal blow.
Suddenly, it felt like a needle pierced his heart. The pain spread bit by bit, and instantly his whole heart began to hurt. With an indescribable feeling of guilt, Yan Yiming subconsciously took two steps back.
But she forgot that her hand was still held by Jiang Yi. She took two steps back and was pulled to his side by Jiang Yi again.
"So what's your plan, is it tonight or tomorrow morning?" Jiang Yi asked her, his voice even sounding relaxed.
Yan Yiming gritted his teeth and ignored the question, "Shaojun, no matter when, sooner or later I will leave. I don't belong here."
Jiang Yi didn't say anything.
Yan Yiming looked into Jiang Yi's deep eyes with some difficulty, and sorted out the unspeakable guilt in his heart with some difficulty, "I'm afraid that telling you will cause unnecessary trouble, I should tell you..."
Before she finished her words, Jiang Yi suddenly interrupted her and said, "Actually, it doesn't matter if you don't tell me."
Jiang Yi always listened to her quietly, and this was the first time he interrupted her so ruthlessly. Yan Yiming looked up in surprise and found that Jiang Yi actually had a smile on his face.
Jiang Yi smiled, but it was not a smile. His usually gentle and elegant side disappeared completely after this incident, just like the gloomy look he had when he pretended to be angry a few days ago, which made her feel particularly strange.
It doesn’t matter if you don’t tell me, Jiang Yi said.
Gentleness is always his most common attitude towards Yan Yiming. He can't bear to make her sad or embarrassed, and he even can't bear to see her frown. Yan Yiming liked him like this, so he became the person she liked. As long as he could keep her by his side, as long as she could remember this gentle and somewhat reluctant gesture, he would keep doing this.
But, no.
He failed to keep her, nor could he make Yan Yiming feel any lingering feelings, so she still chose to abandon him without even saying goodbye. He once thought that people would always have feelings and would always be moved, but in the end Yan Yiming was not moved at all.
What's the use of being gentle if you can't keep her.
All he wanted was to have her stay by his side.
The most reserved person is the one who suffers the most until the moment of emotional collapse. Jiang Yi leaned close to Yan Yiming's ear and whispered to her,
"You don't have to feel sorry, because from the moment I recognized you, I never thought of letting you leave." Jiang Yi looked at Yan Yiming's eyes that suddenly widened with satisfaction, and chuckled, "Whether you told me or kept it a secret from me, there is actually no difference, I will not let you go. It has been seven years since you left last time, Ming, I will not let you leave like before."
The only difference is that if you told me, I would slowly accompany you and make you willing to stay, but Yan Yiming never gave him the chance to choose, and he chose the way that Yan Yiming didn't like.
Yan Yiming could see the madness in his eyes, which were filled with a stubbornness that was even more unacceptable than Shao Jingyu's. The only difference was that Shao Jingyu's paranoia was like a knife blade, while Shao Jingyu was like a rope, tightening his neck little by little, making the air more and more suffocating.
Jiang Yi's out-of-control madness made his heart ache at the mere sight of him, but the feelings he had already given that could not be taken back and the longing to go home after leaving for so many years had been an irreconcilable contradiction from the very beginning.
From the moment Jiang Yi recognized her, this path was wrong. She couldn't give up and go home. She didn't belong here. Yan Yiming turned his eyes away with difficulty and said,
"Young Master, you can't keep me here," Yan Yiming said, "Even if you order your men to watch me without food or water, as long as I want to leave, you can't keep me here at all."
So, give up.
"Really?" Jiang Yi smiled. "If the person you have been protecting with all your heart has an accident, then can you still leave?"
All the expressions on Yan Yiming's face froze.
How could she forget that Jiang Yi already knew her purpose and everything she needed to go home, so it wasn't that difficult to guess how to stop her.
However, Yan Yiming quickly controlled his emotions and said for a while, "You can't do it, young master."
It is not easy to assassinate the prince. Shao Jingyu is an excellent martial artist, which makes it even more difficult. As for Jian Yuer and Jian Yuyan, Jian Yuer saved Jiang Yi when he was young. After leaving the Tianlao, Jian Yuyan left the capital.
"So, you can't kill them at all."
"I can't kill them," Jiang Yi nodded, "but,"
Jiang Yi smiled and said gently, "I can kill myself."
The city of Jinling was gradually getting colder in early winter. Yan Yiming had the coat brought by Jiang Yi draped over his shoulders. He shouldn't have felt the cold, but he shivered out of the blue.
Even the hands held together did not have the slightest warmth.
Apart from the guilt and unspeakable sadness, Yan Yiming felt fear when facing Jiang Yi for the first time.
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