Later, when his mother's illness became more serious and she even wanted to escape from this world, Yan Yiming thought, if he had not left S City because of the fear and irritability in his heart, and had not left his mother's side, would she not have become so sensitive and so easily hurt.
The harm caused by the illness separated Yan Yiming from her mother. Even though she could understand the patient's uncontrollable behavior, she would never forget her mother's words.
She said she was the original sin.
In order to get her father's so-called "forgiveness", she even wanted to drag her to hell. The doctor said that this was the result of the illness and that she should not blame her mother. However, Yan Yiming consulted other doctors, who said that all the uncontrollable behaviors after becoming ill were the truest reflection of the heart.
Then the pity and hesitation in my heart gradually disappeared.
She didn't tell anyone what she was thinking, nor did she ever explain anything to her mother after she woke up. She gradually found that the air after leaving home was much fresher than before.
But there are some things and some identities that you can never get rid of.
The sensitive mother seemed to realize that she missed and depended on her daughter much more than she had imagined after her daughter left. She always called her daughter affectionately every day, as if she had found someone to talk to again.
But the daughter who was always patient with her seemed to have changed a lot.
The patient never thought too much about it, but just called her more and more tirelessly. She didn't know Yan Yiming's classes, nor did she know when she was free or busy, but she wanted to hear her voice immediately whenever she wanted.
Even though Yan Yiming no longer loved her mother as much as before, she had never said a harsh word to her. But when she was too busy to pay attention, the phone would still ring relentlessly, irritating her like a life-threatening accusation.
She turned off her cell phone and finally her ears were quiet. She turned it on again in the evening. There was no call from her mother, but her father did call her for some reason.
The man who never dared to smile would never show any emotion when speaking, but at this moment Yan Yiming could hear his anger. He asked her what she said to her mother, "Do you know your mother...?"
Yan Yiming suddenly felt inexplicably absurd. She interrupted her father with a sneer. The depression and irritability of many days turned into hurtful words in an instant.
She said what qualifications do you have to say such things to her.
Since you planted the seeds, why should she bear the fruits that she doesn't like?
Her father was silent for a long time on the other end of the phone, and all the words were stuck in his throat. Yan Yiming listened to the silence on the phone and felt an indescribable pleasure. She remembered the smile of the woman and her father when they were young, and his indifference day after day.
"What qualifications do you have..."
"Your mother is missing."
Before she could finish her words, her father's tired voice overwhelmed her voice. Yan Yiming froze in place, not knowing what to say for a moment. Finally, he stammered, "...Then go find it quickly..."
"She bought a ticket to your place."
Because her daughter refused to answer the call, she did not call her again, but went directly to the city where her daughter was without telling anyone.
Yan Yiming touched his chest as he rushed to the airport. He was obviously very disappointed, but when he heard her running out alone, he was still extremely worried. His mother had always been in his hands and had never left home without someone accompanying her.
The plane hadn't arrived yet, so she waited and waited at the airport. When she couldn't wait any longer, she started looking for her in one place after another. Finally, she found her. She was even wearing the long skirt she wore at home and slippers on her feet.
Yan Yiming's heart finally sank. She breathed a long sigh of relief and called her. Her mother turned around, without smiling or saying anything, and slapped her in the face when Yan Yiming was completely unprepared.
Her proud mother rushed here after being rejected by her daughter, just to teach her a lesson and slap her in the face.
A slap was recorded in Yan Yiming's heart from that moment on. For the first time, she felt hatred in her heart, towards her mother and towards the woman in front of her whom she had cared for for so many years.
She was tall and had long legs, much taller than her petite mother. Passersby came and went, curiously looking at the mother and daughter. Yan Yiming looked down at her, hiding all her expressions in her heart. She said to her mother in a cold tone she had never used before, "Since you can come by yourself, it should be no problem for you to go back by yourself."
The mother, whose face was still young and beautiful, stood there in a daze. She imagined that she was teaching her daughter how to behave rudely, and her daughter was looking obedient when admitting her mistakes, but it shouldn't be like this now.
She suddenly regretted her behavior. With so many people around, her daughter must have felt embarrassed. Perhaps the slap was too heavy. She hurriedly chased her daughter but couldn't catch up with her.
She stood alone at the airport for a long time, so long that she didn't know what was happening. Finally, she was taken home by her uncle and father who came from S City.
Yan Yiming received a call from her uncle saying that her mother had been found. She said "Oh" and was about to hang up the phone. Her uncle told her that her mother was sick after all and she shouldn't worry too much about it.
Yan Yiming was reluctant to even say "Oh" and ended this boring conversation.
My uncle rubbed his brows and leaned weakly on the car seat. This mistake should not have happened from the beginning, but was deliberately ignored by them, and now it can no longer be salvaged.
He couldn't persuade his niece, so he could only tactfully tell his sister that Yan Yiming was very busy now, so it would be better not to call her every day. Yan's mother was stunned for a long time, as if she had something to ask, but she didn't ask it in the end.
The uncle thought she had listened to him, and left home with a sigh of relief.
A few days later, he came here in an even more embarrassed state.
Mother Yan committed suicide for the second time.
Although she was sick, she was still smart when she was awake. She noticed her daughter's unusual indifference and her family's concealment of the truth from her. She quietly avoided everyone and found the surveillance camera at home.
She saw her trembling as she walked into her daughter's room holding a fruit knife. The screams from her daughter's room pierced her eardrums. Then everyone rushed in and pulled her out. Her daughter covered her arm that could not stop the bleeding, and her face was the palest she had ever seen.
Mother Yan suddenly understood.
She watched the video over and over again, like she was being tortured. Finally, she quietly left here and hid in the room and cried for a long time again. When the servants came to knock on the door in the afternoon, there was no movement in the room again.
Yan Yiming once told a very good friend about his family life. The friend could not hide her surprise and said that it turned out that such a plot could actually happen in real life. She looked at Yan Yiming's beautiful and delicate face, and thought of the envy and love that many people expressed when they talked about Yan Yiming, and suddenly she felt a little sad.
God is always fair. Behind such glamorous appearance lies the cruelest truth.
Yan Yiming told her that he never wanted to go back, even if he would never go back in the future. But on the third day after he said this, Yan Yiming set out on his journey home again.
The mother was lucky enough to be rescued again, but a psychologist found her and said that her mother chose to commit suicide because of her guilt towards her.
He said it was both a good thing and a bad thing.
The bad thing is that her illness has become more serious again, but the good thing is that her inexplicable guilt towards her father seems to be buried. The only person left in her mind is her daughter. The doctor hopes that she can cooperate with the treatment, and maybe her mother's illness can get better.
She never uttered a word. So many people came to persuade her. They said that she was her mother no matter what and she was the one who gave birth to her. Yan Yiming thought absurdly that he should choose to end his own life like her so as not to bear such responsibility.
But she still wanted to live. Apart from this terrible family, she still had a lot of things she wanted to do.
She did not listen to them and left S City. Later, she heard that her mother finally received treatment and started taking medication, but she never received a call from her mother again. Yan Yiming thought that life would go on like this, but after the end of the semester, she was inexplicably expelled from school.
Her father came to pick her up in person and said it was okay and she could go directly to a top university in S City. He said her mother missed her very much and she said her mother needed her very much.
Yan Yiming finally cried.
She had never done anything wrong. She was the one who was hurt since childhood, she had been with her mother since childhood, and she was the one who never truly hated her father since childhood. But why did she have to bear all the consequences in the end?
Yan Yiming couldn't figure out what he had done wrong. The grudges of the previous generation had lasted for more than 20 years, but in the end, it backfired on him who had nothing to do with it.
Yan Yiming's absurd thought might not be irrelevant. Just as his mother said, she was guilty.
She is the original sin, she was born with sin, so she has to bear everything from the moment she is born.
Her mother needed to see her, she needed to tell her mother that she had never blamed her, she needed to stay by her side patiently and seriously and tell her that she still loved her, but everything happened, and when she saw her mother again, Yan Yiming couldn't even smile.
Her mother never said a harsh word to her again. She always asked her carefully what she had done and eaten that day, and how she felt, just like the careful and humble way she used to be with her father. I was afraid of saying something wrong and making her angry.
When she was conscious, she told the aunt beside her that if she got sick she must not let Yiming see her. She seemed to have forgotten her father, who was engraved in her heart, and only Yan Yiming was left in her heart.
Her mother moved to a sunny villa in the suburbs. The doctor advised her to visit her and talk to her every two days, but Yan Yiming was unwilling to go. She didn't want to see her, and she didn't want to see her cautious look. She just wanted to leave, but she couldn't.
When she was in a bad mood, she used all kinds of ways to ease her mood, and her words were much sharper and more harsh than before. She dreamed of leaving here and finding peace, until one day, she finally left here.
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