Chapter 307 Look at Me More
He was always silent. This was the first time he spoke so much and the first time he opened his heart to Gu Nan.
But his tone was very calm, as if he was just asking whether the moonlight tonight was bright and beautiful, which was incredibly ordinary.
Gu Nan looked at him, and easily saw the turmoil beneath the calm lake surface through his dark eyebrows.
Gu Nan asked himself, there is one thing Chunyi said that was right.
She had indeed not chosen him firmly.
Never from beginning to end.
Why? Perhaps it's because he has a teacher to guide him, preventing him from stumbling into the world of sensual pleasures and losing his only family. He's a child of destiny, his cultivation progressing by leaps and bounds. Wherever he goes, he's a respected and revered Pure One. He won't be driven by hatred to commit suicide.
The mission in this world is very simple, so simple that she doesn't have to pay almost anything, she just needs to cooperate with Junyi to go through the marriage process.
But the other people in this world are suffering. The country is in turmoil and people's lives are suffering. Gu Nan can't help but do something for them.
So it was natural to put him behind the others.
She forgot that she came for him.
Do you regret it? No.
Chunyi understood her choice, and walking with her to eliminate the evil was her fulfillment. Chunyi was just unwilling to accept that she could give up her feelings for him so easily and without hesitation.
At this moment, Junyi asked her: I follow you, can you turn around and choose me?
A monk was asking her for love.
Crying silently like a child, he made an exchange with her self-righteously.
Gu Nan: "Do you know what you are saying?"
Chunyi's eyelashes trembled slightly, and she tried her best to suppress her trembling voice, "I know."
Gu Nan stood up and walked in front of him. A little moonlight was reflected in his round almond-shaped eyes, making them look particularly clear and oppressive. "Between me and becoming a Buddha, you choose me?"
Chunyi raised his head, and with each word he spoke, his voice became firmer, "If you can't become a saint, then I can't become a Buddha either."
Gu Nan knew that he was talking about the merits and virtues that she had accumulated. She herself could not see them, but they were probably greater than before, making him think that she could also strive for the opportunity to ascend to sainthood in this Dharma-Ending Age.
"That's just nonsense." Gu Nan chuckled, and the weight of his heart dropped a little, his expression softening slightly. "If I can't stay with you for a long time, will you still choose me?"
Chunyi frowned: "Why?"
"There's no reason. It all depends on whether you seek short-term happiness or long-term peace." Gu Nan smiled gently, "I didn't lie to you. Think it through and don't let yourself regret it."
Junyi looked at the fleeting smile on Gu Nan's lips, and suddenly felt an indescribable sadness in his heart, "This is the first time you smiled at me like this."
Gu Nan paused smiling, and was about to recall whether he had been too harsh on Chunyi, when he heard him say:
"Since you are a bodhisattva, look at me more."
That's what choosing her means.
Gu Nan sighed inwardly and slowly replied, "Okay."
Junyi avoided Gu Nan's complicated gaze, lowered his head, and touched the burnt clothes with his hands for a few times, as if he had nowhere to put them. "This clothes..."
Gu Nan: "I'll pick out some new cloth and make you a new dress."
Chunyi's fingertips curled slightly. It seemed as if there was a switch in Gu Nan's emotions, which could be controlled by turning it. Whether it was gentleness or indifference, it could easily catch people off guard.
He kept asking her to look at him more, but in the end he was the first one who felt uncomfortable.
"I'm going to get some fresh air." He picked up his clothes and rushed out of the cave without looking back.
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