Chapter 321 Yes, I Don’t Want You Anymore
"Chun Yi." Gu Nan called softly.
Junyi hugged her tightly, stroking her back soothingly with his big hands, and whispered, "I'm here."
Gu Nan rubbed his chest gently, then climbed onto his shoulders, tilted her head back and kissed him on the lips.
They hadn't been intimate for several days since they got married. They lay in bed together at night, neither of them talking about anything and neither of them had any thoughts.
However, at this moment, in the dead of night, two hot bodies embraced each other, lips touching teeth, instantly igniting desire.
At first, Junyi lowered his head, and slowly, he fell to the head of the bed. His hands were tied and pressed behind his back, so he could only raise his head to accept Gu Nan's kiss.
Gu Nan was very gentle tonight. His rationality was easily captured and he fell deeper and deeper into the vortex of lingering affection.
Junyi was so dizzy from her kiss that he didn't react even when the buttons of his shirt were unbuttoned, until a slightly cold hand moved down his chest to unbutton his shorts.
Junyi was suddenly shocked and instantly woke up from his desire.
He wanted to stop him, but his hands had already been tied to the foot of the bed by Gu Nan without his knowledge.
He took a deep breath and said in a hoarse voice: "Gu Nan, wait."
Gu Nan sat astride his legs, looked up at him when he heard that, and said, "I can't wait."
After he finished speaking, he pinched the two trouser strings with his slender fingers and pulled gently, and the knot loosened.
The muscles tensed instantly, and the firm and flat waist and abdomen bulged with clear texture lines, rising and falling with the increasingly rapid breathing.
The beautiful mermaid line extends from both sides of the waist and abdomen to under the shorts, and the bulging blue veins are beating, sending an alluring invitation to the person on it.
Gu Nan didn't stop moving, pulling his pants down by the waistband.
“Sizzle—”
Junyi broke the cloth that bound his hands, sat up like a swift leopard and grabbed Gu Nan's wrist. His strength was so great that there was no doubt that if Gu Nan persisted, he would fight her.
"Wait." Junyi gasped.
Gu Nan raised his eyes: "You said you were willing to give it to me."
Chunyi didn't say anything. Her dark eyes shone like torches in the darkness. She stared straight at Gu Nan, as if she wanted to see through her eyes into her heart.
It was so sudden that he didn't know what happened.
Gu Nan has been in a daze these past few days, and his attitude towards him is somewhat unpredictable, so he doesn't dare to gamble.
The two stared at each other for a long time before Junyi broke the silence, "What happened?"
Gu Nan had already understood Chunyi's attitude from his long silence, and his mood instantly became extremely bad.
She knew that Junyi had made up his mind to completely give up on becoming a Buddha.
In just over a month, he had tasted the life of ordinary people. He wanted to stay here and wanted Gu Nan to stay here with him.
She finally understood the meaning of Junyi's sudden smile on their wedding night.
The last step of the pure Dao tribulation is dual cultivation.
If he succeeds in becoming a Buddha, the consequences of failure are unknown. Perhaps his cultivation will regress, or perhaps he will never make any progress. Gu Nan is not sure.
But she guessed that even if Chunyi failed to pass the tribulation, he would not fall into the devil. Among cultivators, dual cultivation and sinking into the sea of desire are two completely different concepts.
Forming a covenant and practicing dual cultivation, everything should have gone smoothly, and the outcome would be decided by God.
But Chunyi began to be attached to the world.
The Dao Tribulation did not have to be overcome, so he retreated, thinking that as long as he did not take the last step of the Dao Tribulation and let all choices remain at this moment, neither of them would take risks and they could be a worldly couple for a long time.
On the wedding night, Gu Nan did not go home just to avoid embarrassing them both, because she thought she could not spend the bridal chamber with Chunyi.
However, Junyi thought that she knew the meaning of marriage and dual cultivation, and that not going home meant she was choosing to give up helping him overcome the tribulation and not continue to take risks.
He might even feel that he was helping Gu Nan.
Now that Gu Nan wants him, he thinks it is a change of heart.
Gu Nan couldn't tell who was right and who was wrong.
From the very beginning, the information they received was unequal.
That's why there are so many coincidences between them.
Junyi waited for a long time but didn't get Gu Nan's answer. Gradually, he calmed down. He held Gu Nan's shoulders and asked her again, "What happened?"
Gu Nan's mood was extremely complicated, yet she remained calm. She asked, "Are you still willing to gamble with me?"
Junyi froze, tightening and loosening his grip on Gu Nan's hand. He feigned composure and asked, "What's the bet?"
Gu Nan: "I'm betting on the glimmer of hope you calculated."
Junyi looked at her blankly, as if he didn't understand why she said that. "Why do you want to bet?"
He had seen Gu Nan's death in his dream.
At first, he thought it was the consequence of her determination to fight against heaven and save the people, so he stopped her.
Later, when he successfully eliminated the disaster, he realized that he might have guessed wrong. It was not a punishment from heaven for the people, but a disaster caused by him.
He didn't want Gu Nan to take any risks, and letting everything stop at this moment would be their best ending.
"Are you unhappy?" Junyi asked, "Is there something I did wrong?"
He asked seriously and sincerely, observing Gu Nan's expression carefully. He believed that no matter what reaction Gu Nan gave, he would reflect and correct it.
Gu Nan: "There's nothing wrong with you. You're doing well, and I'm happy too. It's just that I have something I have to do."
Junyi continued to ask, "What is it? Maybe there is another way?"
Gu Nan shook his head, "I need your help."
"More important than your life?"
Gu Nan nodded without hesitation.
Chunyi fell silent, his eyes looking lonely in the darkness.
After a long pause, he asked, "What about me?"
"We just got married, don't you want me anymore?"
He is the Buddhist disciple with the greatest hope of ascending to Buddhahood in the past thousand years. After years of hard practice, he has a profound understanding of Buddhist teachings. He is a pure master who grew up in the style of his predecessors.
He possesses the qualities of a high-level monk: strict and upright, yet soft-hearted and compassionate. He is a poplar standing tall in the Gobi Desert, and is definitely not a dodder that would root itself in others.
But at this moment, he clearly knew that he was going to be abandoned, but he still exposed his vulnerability in front of Gu Nan, and asked her confusedly and helplessly: What about me?
He rarely gives in, is taciturn, and can't bring himself to say a thousand words to keep me. The only thing he can say is: Don't you want me anymore?
Gu Nan couldn't help but feel a pang in his heart, but he replied directly: "Yes. I don't want you anymore."
Junyi didn't expect Gu Nan's answer and his body shook violently.
"I……"
He wanted to say something, but after saying just one word, his throat became hoarse and he could hardly speak anymore.
He turned his head away, supporting himself on the bed with his hands, his veins bulging, his emotions jumping back and forth between extreme shock and panic, so that his body trembled slightly uncontrollably.
His lips trembled as he tried to speak again, but still failed.
He arched his back and gasped for breath, trying to suppress the discomfort in his body. However, the more he tried, the more he trembled, until his entire body was shaking like a sieve.
After a long time, he turned his head with difficulty, his forehead covered with sweat, and his deep eyes were like a broken gem, full of broken tears.
"I thought..."
He spoke intermittently, and finally said in a plaintive voice: "I thought you chose me."
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