Chapter 322 Have You Really Liked Me?
Beads of sweat the size of beans fell on the bright red wedding quilt, making a "pat, pat" sound and leaving dark wet marks.
Chunyi looked at Gu Nan stubbornly, tears streaming down her face, "Why?"
He had fantasies about Gu Nan and naively thought that they could be together for a very long time.
But why can Gu Nan always give up on him and his feelings so easily?
It seemed as if he was always her second choice, and compared to anything else, he was the one to be abandoned first.
Gu Nan, on the other hand, was resolute and resolute, without hesitation, and didn't care at all whether he was sad or not.
Even if she hesitated for just a second.
Gu Nan was silent.
She sat on the quilt, motionless, as if she wanted to merge with the darkness in the corner of the bed.
Junyi looked at the dark shadow in the corner, and was overwhelmed by unexpected anger and grievance. He clutched the quilt under him tightly with both hands, and a beast-like whimper escaped from his throat, as if he was about to pounce on her and tear her into pieces at any time.
However, he didn't, and only asked with a sob, "Why don't you speak?"
He was answered by silence.
"Gu Nan..." Chunyi finally couldn't stand this overwhelming indifference anymore and broke down sobbing, "Talk to me."
There is only silence.
Gu Nan seemed to express all his thoughts and words with silence.
She was refusing, she was in denial, she was avoiding any contact with him.
The remaining rationality told Junyi not to ask any more questions, but his pride told him that his hysteria looked like a joke.
Perhaps, at this moment, Gu Nan was hiding in the darkness and laughing at him?
Junyi also wanted to laugh at himself, but he had never laughed out loud before. Crying and laughing at the same time only made him choke and feel miserable.
He leaned over the bed and coughed, his face flushed strangely, his hands clutching the new bed he had carved with his own hands, tears and sweat falling to the ground.
Finally, he couldn't hold his shaking body steady and fell off the bed.
With a "swish", the red silk flower that had not been taken off after the wedding was also pulled down by him.
He ignored it, stumbled to his feet, opened his shirt that Gu Nan had unbuttoned, pushed open the door, cried and laughed, and ran into the endless night.
The wind started to blow, and the cold night wind rushed into the house, blowing the torn silk flowers everywhere like a hurried headless fly.
Finally, he was rolled into the dark bottom of the bed and was trapped.
In this dark night, apart from the howling of the wind, there seems to be no other sound.
Gu Nan didn't chase after her. He raised his hand and quietly wiped away the tears from his face.
*
I don't know where Junyi went, but he didn't take anything with him, so he will probably come back.
Gu Nan stayed in the cabin and everything remained the same.
She turned over the baby eggs regularly every day, watered the seedlings in the field twice a day, and tidied up the things scattered inside and outside the house. The rest of the time, she sat at the desk and wrote letters.
She wrote very slowly, scribbling and rewriting, and wasted several sheets of paper. It took her three days to finish the letter.
Junyi still didn't come back.
As the marriage contract had a deeper and deeper impact on her, Gu Nan became more and more like an ordinary person. Every night, even if she didn't want to sleep, sleepiness would come as expected.
She endured it for three days, and that night, she couldn't help but take a nap.
She knew she was dreaming again.
Because she returned to the orphanage where she was raised and met the director.
Everything was just as I remembered: the newly painted gate, the rusty doorbell, the honor column in the hall filled with red awards and certificates of honor, and the bulletin board with the name of every young child and the day's daily performance evaluation.
The director asked the children to line up in the hall, and then checked one by one to see if they had brought the picnic items as required.
The children cooperated by opening their schoolbags for the director's mother to check, and vied with each other for rewards, like a group of chirping sparrows.
Gu Nan stood at the door, his heart pounding, watching the scene almost helplessly.
A child noticed her, raised his hands happily, and shouted, "Mom, we have guests!"
The director's mother turned around, and her smiling face suddenly burst into great joy. She quickly walked over and opened the door, "Anan, you're back."
Gu Nan's eyes were filled with tears, and he threw himself into the arms of the director's mother like a fledgling swallow, "Mom."
The director's mother patted Gu Nan's shoulders and kept saying, "It's good that you're back, it's good that you're back..."
Gu Nan rested his forehead on the Dean's mother's shoulder, tears streaming down his face. "I miss you so much. I haven't seen you for a long, long time."
She raised her head, wanting to take a closer look at the dean's mother, but the next second, a strong feeling of weightlessness came over her.
Gu Nan struggled, opened his eyes, and hit his forehead on the table.
Gu Nan hadn't come back to his senses yet, his forehead resting on the table, vaguely recalling that extremely short dream.
She had been in this world for so long, and this was the first time she had dreamed of the dean's mother.
Like a good omen.
She couldn't help but smile.
However, the smile soon froze on his lips, and a heavy breathing sound came from the side. Gu Nan turned his head and saw Chunyi with red eyes.
He clenched his fists and looked like he was suppressing his anger, but the tears in his eyes seemed to say that he was about to break.
"You were talking in your sleep." Junyi said.
Gu Nan didn’t know when he came, but she only said two sentences in her dream. The one that caused such a big reaction from him must be the last sentence, “I miss you.”
Gu Nan pursed his lips and said nothing.
Junyi took a deep breath, trying to suppress the trembling voice caused by tears, and asked: "Is it me you dreamed about?"
Gu Nan's fingertips pressed on the table couldn't help but twitch, "No."
Junyi turned away.
He didn't want Gu Nan to see him crying, but Gu Nan still heard the sound of tears hitting his clothes and the uncontrollable, thin gasps.
After a long while, he regained his composure and said calmly, "Tell me the truth, and I will fulfill your choice."
"good."
Junyi got straight to the point, speaking faster than usual, with a determination to burn his boats: "Have you ever truly loved me?"
Gu Nan looked straight at him, his almond-shaped eyes seemed a little too bright in the darkness, like two sharp blades, ready to cut through all hypocrisy, dig a few gashes in the person sitting opposite him, and shave off some pieces of flesh.
"I liked it, but not much. I was more moved and felt guilty."
After a pause, she added, "And admiration. You're a very, very good person."
Junyi stared at Gu Nan blankly, his ears buzzing and his mind blank.
His emotions and reason were disconnected.
My five senses seemed to be in a mess, and I was in a daze and didn't know where I was or what I was doing.
Why is the wind so cold tonight? It makes him feel cold all over and he can't stop shivering.
Why?
He asked himself, why was he here?
He cast aside his reserve and arrogance and returned to Gu Nan to seek the truth.
But it was too much, and he wished he hadn't shown up tonight, hadn't asked those stupid, humble, and ridiculous questions.
Gu Nan could have lied to him, but he didn't.
She gave him a humiliation.
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