Chapter 422 They are the tragedy in Lin Shili’s soul
Is Lin Jingzhe also Lin Shili?
Lin Shili himself found it difficult to answer this question.
He even wondered if the brothers had such a big influence on him.
When Lin Shili was a child, he often played with a pair of neighbor brothers. The brothers were only a year apart in age and would often fight over trivial matters. Lin Shili found their noisy and quarrelsome behavior very annoying.
But after spending time together, they discovered that the relationship between the two brothers was actually very close. If one of them got into trouble or was bullied, the other would definitely stand up for him.
Lin Shili once felt disgusted by this contradictory relationship. He often thought that if Lin Qin was not having a good life, he would definitely not help.
If you hate someone, you should act like one. It's not manly to change your mind every day.
But when that day finally came, he accompanied Lin Qin to take exams and choose schools, and went through the important transition from primary school to junior high school.
He hated Lin Qin, and he hated himself even more. He hated people but didn't act like he hated them. He was a coward.
Many years later, he and Lin Qin also became that pair of annoying brothers. The entanglement that was rooted in their blood and could not be severed was like a rope tied around his neck, pulling him, preventing him from walking too far, but also preventing him from falling into the abyss immediately.
Lin Jingzhe to Lin Jingchun is like Lin Qin to him. Once the rope breaks, he will either die or be injured.
He is Lin Jingchun, but Lin Qin is not Lin Jingzhe.
Lin Jingzhe is a projection of consciousness that looks like Lin Qin, covered with his fantasy of Lin Qin. He has no independent personality and cannot return to his body.
But Lin Jingzhe came from him and was a part of his soul.
"I can't tell the difference." Lin Shili said slowly: "He is me, and he is not me."
After listening to Lin Shili's description, Gu Nan understood, "I understand."
Lin Shili looked at Gu Nan, quietly waiting for her to answer his questions.
"You love Lin Qin, and Lin Qin loves you. Two good people should be good brothers for life." Gu Nan said.
Lin Shili was stunned. He didn't expect Gu Nan to say such a thing, nor did he know how Gu Nan came to this conclusion from his illogical words. But somehow, he suddenly felt that a corner of his heart was hit hard, and something fell heavily.
It was heavy and expanded to fill his heart to the brim.
He could never have imagined that the family affection that he had been seeking but unable to obtain, and that he had forced upon himself, would one day be recognized by Gu Nan.
Did he love Lin Qin? Did Lin Qin love him too? Was that swampy nightmare of pain love?
Lin Shili choked up without warning, and when he lowered his eyes, huge tears rolled down onto the snow-white quilt.
Gu Nan raised his hand to wipe away the tears on Lin Shili's face. Lin Shili grabbed Gu Nan's hand and suppressed all the sobs he couldn't control in Gu Nan's palm.
Gu Nan let the tears fall into his palm and sighed softly in his heart.
As an outsider, she could see more clearly than Lin Shili that Lin Jingzhe was not just one person.
He is the intimate relationship fabricated by Lin Shili, and he represents Lin Shili's yearning and resentment for blood ties.
Lin Shili has been confused for many years and has nowhere to turn to. Even in another world, he has not found a win-win solution.
The lives of Lin Jingchun and Lin Jingzhe are the tragedy in Lin Shili's soul before he was 19 years old.
Fortunately, after all the hardship comes happiness. Now Lin Shili is 25 years old, and Lin Qin has grown up. They will definitely not end up in another world.
Gu Nan hugged Lin Shili and patted his thin back gently. "Okay, stop crying. You've cried like a kitten. Wash your face, change your clothes, and go home."
Lin Shili stopped crying, but was too embarrassed to raise her head. She said sullenly, "You got my hands wet."
The hoarse voice and shy tone sounded like she was acting coquettishly. Gu Nan said that it sounded good to him. "It doesn't matter. It's not the first time anyway."
Whether in bed or under the bed, he cried many times.
Gu Nan didn't dislike it, but liked it very much.
Especially when bullying him.
When Lin Shili thought of their past affairs, his eyes and cheeks turned red. He quickly threw off the quilt and got out of bed, running into the bathroom in his slippers.
But he forgot that the bathroom in this hotel was not very decent.
As soon as he pulled up his pants to let the water in, it was like watching a TV, with all the sounds and scenes.
Lin Shili completed the most important event in his life with great nerves, and left the bathroom with a deliberately cool face. Then, when he saw Gu Nan typing wholeheartedly on the keyboard, he was momentarily broken.
I don't know what he was acting for, no one paid any attention to him.
Gu Nan is really busy. He has to write code whether he attends meetings or goes on business trips. He starts working as soon as he opens his eyes. He works more hours every day than the donkeys in the production team.
Lin Shili took out clothes from his bag and changed them on the spot.
Gu Nan said last night that he might change jobs next year. If he jumps from a large company to another, the working environment will probably be similar, so there is no point; if he jumps to a small company, not only will his talent be wasted and his salary will be reduced, but the salary may also be higher, which is not cost-effective; jumping to a private company seems to be a good choice, but the demand for jobs in China is not that great.
However, Gu Nan would definitely take all these into consideration. She likes computers, has clear goals, and is overly steady and reliable.
As for him, he will take the exam next month, and I don’t know if he can pass it.
Lin Shili changed his clothes and turned back to see that Gu Nan had already packed his computer and luggage. "I called a taxi. Let's go have breakfast first."
Lin Shili put on his backpack, and then naturally took the suitcase and computer from Gu Nan's hand.
Gu Nan smiled, said nothing, took out the room card and went downstairs to check out.
Lin Shili told Lin Qin last night that he would go back to Kyoto with Gu Nan today. When they left, Lin Qin came downstairs to see them off.
Last night, Gu Nan's attention was all on Lin Shili. When he observed closely, he found that apart from his eyes, Lin Qin was not particularly similar to Lin Jingzhe.
Perhaps it was because he had not been exposed to society as early as Lin Jingzhe, nor had he suffered the serious trauma of amputation. As a healthy child, he was more lively.
Standing next to Lin Shili, it is like a small bamboo leaning against a big bamboo. Although it is tender, it is pleasing to the eye.
The two brothers whispered to each other for a while, then said goodbye with a smile at the door.
Seeing that Gu Nan had been paying attention to Lin Qin, Lin Shili said casually, "He doesn't look much like Lin Jingzhe."
Gu Nan raised his eyebrows, "It's not quite like that."
Lin Shili glanced at Gu Nan and saw that she was smiling. He knew that his little thoughts had not been hidden from her, so he calmed down and said nothing more.
Gu Nan never gave up on him when faced with a choice between him and anyone else, and he had to believe in Gu Nan.
At one o'clock in the afternoon, the two landed in Kyoto.
At two o'clock, Gu Nan arrived at the company, helped Lin Shili to get a visitor card, and then took him to the lounge for lunch.
A room full of single office workers were shocked, furious, and lost in thought when they saw Gu Nan bring back a handsome man after attending a summit meeting. They grabbed Gu Nan and asked him questions all afternoon.
Gu Nan was so annoyed by the questions that he left his workstation quickly at six o'clock and took Lin Shili to the cafeteria for lunch.
Lin Shili has a charming and affectionate face. Gu Nan doesn't find it strange after seeing it so many times. But others saw it for the first time, took photos and tried to find him in the group.
"Male beauty is misleading." Gu Nan sighed, "It's a pity that I'm not an executive and don't have any mortal enemies, otherwise I would send you to fight in the business war."
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