Chapter 155 Withdrawal Reaction

Lin Du looked at Gu Shichi's funny look, feeling both amused and a little distressed.

His eyes couldn't help but look at his injured hand, fearing that he would touch the wound.

Gu Nichi got up and approached Lin Du: "You are making fun of me."

Lin Du dodged and said, "I... didn't."

"You have it." Gu Yinchi refused to give in and restrained Lin Du with one hand, preventing him from escaping.

Lin Du knew he had no way to escape, so he simply lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry..."

Gu Yanchi paused and suppressed the smile on his face: "Don't say sorry, okay? I like to see you smile. You... haven't smiled for a long time."

Lin Du tightened his fingers slightly. He really hadn't laughed for a long time, and now it seemed that there was nothing worth laughing about.

"Lin Du, you are really cute when you smile." Gu Yinchi hugged Lin Du and lay down. Lin Du did not resist, but he felt very awkward.

After all, they had such a fierce quarrel before, and now they are lying together again, which always feels ridiculous.

"Lin Du, I still remember when I first met you ten years ago, you didn't like to smile either. You were very quiet, and you didn't say anything unless I asked you."

"But when you smile, I will be happy too. Although I don't know why, I really like seeing you smile at that time."

"I think your smile is very innocent."

Lin Du placed his hands between Gu Nianchi and himself. Ten years ago, he had only smiled in front of Gu Nianchi.

At that time, I lived in dire straits every day. I was bullied by my classmates at school and abused by Shen Rong and his son when I returned home.

The only time he smiled was when he was with Gu Nichi.

"Lin Du, I'm happy that you're willing to come back to me." Gu Nichi hugged Lin Du tightly, "No matter what your reason is, I'm happy anyway."

Lin Du bit his lip and wanted to sigh, but was afraid that Gu Yanchi would notice.

There was a gloom in his chest and he could not calm down.

No one knows how much courage he had to fall in love with Gu Xinchi ten years ago, but the final result was so bleak.

When they met again ten years later, he tried hard to restrain himself, but in the end he could not resist the impact of Gu Jingchi.

He once again resolutely chose to be by his side, but what was the final result?

In Su Wenlang's words, he was a joke, yet he was still immersed in the illusion of happiness.

So, no matter how much you love, the result will be the same.

Lin Du turned over and faced away from Gu Yinchi. If he didn't get the depression out of his chest, he would really be suffocated to death.

Gu Nishi came over and hugged his waist tightly, but he didn't dare to put his hands on his lower abdomen like before.

He was afraid that his actions would irritate Lin Du's fragile heart. After all, he could not bear the pain of losing his child on his behalf.

Lin Du clutched his collar tightly. He couldn't help but think, since he and Gu Nienchi were together, they would have to have close contact. What would he do if he got pregnant again?

He doesn't want to have any more children, not in this life, he doesn't deserve them.

But what qualifications do I have to bargain with him now, and how could Gu Xinchi agree?

Another vicious cycle, one thing after another, unable to be untied.

"Aren't you sleepy?" Gu Xinchi rubbed Lin Du's ear, "Do you have anything to ask me?"

Lin Du suddenly opened his eyes. He did have a lot of questions.

"What did you do to Lian Qi?"

"Damn it!" Gu Penichi answered simply and clearly, "He deserves to die." Gu Penichi clenched his fists fiercely.

Lin Du paused, and his body trembled uncontrollably.

He didn't know what he was afraid of, but he just couldn't control it.

"Are you scared?" Gu Nichi hugged him tightly, "Don't be afraid, everything is over."

"Lin Du, do you know how scared I was at that time? If you were really bullied by Lian Qi, I would hate myself."

"I can't imagine how desperate you must have felt. I feel really bad for you."

Lin Du sighed. He had gone there with the determination to die. He had never expected to survive.

"Lin Du, I have never bowed my head to anyone in my life. You are the only one."

"No one taught me how to love someone. I loved you so much, but I foolishly thought I was pitying you."

"Little did I know that I was the poor one."

Gu Yanchi hugged Lin Du tightly, his voice trembling: "I am a bastard, and I have caused you so much harm and injustice."

"My initial calculations and attempts to exploit you gradually collapsed as you approached me, waited for me, hugged me, and showed me your unfamiliar love."

"I thought... I thought you really loved me, but when I heard that you stayed with me only for Lin Yue, I admit that I went crazy."

"Because I can't take my heart back, I morbidly think that this is all unfair. I love you, so I want you to love me too, and even want you to love me a little more."

"But think about it, why should I ask you to do this? I was the one who fell in love first, who can I blame?"

"After you left, I also tried to quit, but... Lin Du, it's really hard!"

"The pain of this separation is far more severe than the one ten years ago. I can't bear it."

"I want to see you like crazy, want to know your whereabouts, watching you being so intimate with others, while I am hiding in the dark like a peeping Tom, I am really going crazy."

"I selfishly think that you are mine, and I won't allow anyone to take you away from me." Gu Nichi choked.

"But I lost you without making a sound."

"Lin Du, you must be in pain after losing your child. But I am more sad than you, because I lost both of you at the same time..."

Lin Du bit his lip and burst into tears.

"I've never felt so alone. I thought I had it all, but it's nothing compared to you."

"I just want you."

"I thought if I just tried harder, you would feel my love for you, but every time you looked at me, your eyes were so cold that I really couldn't stand it."

"I have thought about imprisoning you. Even if you don't love me, even if you hate me, I will not let you leave."

"But...but when you threatened to kill yourself and force me to leave, I knew I was really going to lose you."

"I am suffering from the withdrawal reaction caused by your leaving, but gradually I have become obsessed with loving this pain."

"Because these are what you brought to me. These pains are the only traces of our existence. I began to accept them and enjoy them."

Gu Yanchi buried his face in Lin Du's neck, his voice choked with sobs: "Lin Du, no matter whether you loved me before, can you love me from now on?"

"It's okay if you're not ready to love me. I can wait. This time, I really can wait."

Lin Du's heart ached to the extreme, as if his soul was torn apart, and all his emotions turned into endless sorrow.