Chapter 183 Falling into the Abyss

Lin Du's heart tightened and his eyes trembled.

He didn't know what happened to Gu Yanchi, but he knew that at this moment he was not deceiving himself.

He was the one who said he wanted to let go, but his tears came faster than the rain.

There was no relief as I had imagined, but more complexity.

Lin Du wanted to pull Gu Yinchi up, but was stopped by him.

Lin Du felt distressed, and he could use the rain to vent his long-pent-up emotions.

He held up Gu's face and wiped away the pain in his eyes: "What's wrong with you? Can we go home first?"

Gu Nichi stared at his lover, greedily wanting to remember everything about him.

He is always so kind, and will endure the injustice silently alone.

Gu Xinchi tried hard to pull the corners of his mouth: "Lin Du, you are finally free."

Lin Du shuddered, feeling mixed emotions. Did he really still have freedom?

"Gu Nichi, you get up first, your arm is bleeding."

"Lin Du, will you still feel sorry for me?" Gu Nichi's eyes were filled with expectation, sorrow, and regret...

Lin Du sighed: "Yes."

Gu Niechi hugged Lin Du and buried his face in his arms: "Lin Du, why are you so stupid? I have done so many things to hurt you, why do you still feel sorry for me..."

"I don't deserve it."

"People like me should go to hell and suffer all kinds of torture."

Lin Du frowned, his chest aching badly: "Gu Nienchi, what's wrong with you?"

"Why did you hide it from me? Why didn't you tell me? Why did I have to lose you before I knew the whole truth?"

"Is this your punishment for me?" Gu looked up at him, "Lin Du, what should I do?"

Lin Du was confused. He pinched his fingers and tried to adjust his mood: "What are you talking about?"

"Why didn't you tell me what you went through ten years ago? Why didn't you tell me that Xingxing wasn't the only child we lost..."

"Why do I have to be the last one to know, but I can't change anything..."

Gu Yi's voice was sad and trembling, as if every drop of tears carried endless pain and sorrow.

Lin Du's body went limp, and he knelt down without any warning.

The secret he had hidden for ten years was finally discovered by Gu Xinchi.

Gu Yanchi held him in his arms and looked up to the sky and cried out loudly.

Lin Du grabbed the corner of his clothes tightly, trying to relieve the pain all over his body.

But why does a broken heart still hurt so much?

He pounded his chest and struggled to breathe.

The guilt he felt was like a thorn in the wilderness, corroding his heart.

He held Lin Du's face in his hands and rested his forehead against his brow bone: "Lin Du, I lost you."

"I can never find it again..."

Lin Du raised his head and let the rain wash away his bitterness. He was now completely open-minded in front of Gu Lanchi.

There is no long-awaited relief, but still helplessness towards life.

Lin Du sighed lightly. This was his fate and he accepted it.

Glancing at the wound on Gu Yanchi that had turned white from being washed by the rain, Lin Du slowly leaned his forehead against his chest and said, "Let's go home first."

Gu Yanchi endured it secretly, sobbing like a child out of grievance.

He hugged Lin Du tightly, feeling his presence with great greed.

"Take off your clothes and take a shower first."

Gu Ni stared at Lin Du tightly, and his hand did not let go of him for a moment: "No... I haven't finished what I want to say."

Lin Du sighed: "Can't we talk about it after taking a shower?"

"No... I'm afraid. I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself and regret it. I..."

"You can't regret it. I'll write it down for you."

Gu Niechi paused for a moment and nodded in a daze. Then, as if accepting reality, he raised the corners of his mouth in a bitter tone, "Okay."

He said that he wanted Gu Jinchi to take a bath first, but in the end he still forced Lin Du into the bathtub: "Soak for a while, you are weak and you will get sick."

Gu Lanchi knelt on one knee and rested his arms on the edge of the bathtub.

He kept avoiding Lin Du with his eyes, but he couldn't help wanting to look at him more.

He was afraid that he would never see it again.

After washing up, Gu Yanchi was about to speak, but was interrupted by Lin Du: "Take care of the wound first, can you talk later?"

"......, okay." Gu Yinchi endured it, tilted his head and stared at Lin Du.

It was like a little animal that was afraid of being abandoned, and it was always begging its owner to look at it.

After bandaging it, Lin Du raised his eyes, sighed softly, and shed tears silently. Who taught him to be so torturous?

The fingertips lightly brushed the corner of Gu Xinshi's eyes: "Tell me, how do you know all this?"

Lin Du's hand left, but Gu's displeased face reluctantly moved along with it.

He couldn't help wanting to pull Lin Du's hand, but in the end it was just a thought.

"Shen Rong came to see me."

Lin Du was shocked. The person who had disappeared for ten years appeared again.

Lin Duhun was tense because of his deep fear of Shen Rong.

Gu Nichi took his hand and comforted him distressedly: "Don't be afraid, I have controlled her, she will not appear in front of you."

"You...did you do something to her?" Lin Du was still frightened. In his world, Shen Rong was as terrifying as a ghost.

"No, I just locked her up." Gu Nichi kept rubbing Lin Du's hands, a hint of viciousness flashing across his eyes.

Lin Du's reaction directly showed how afraid he was of Shen Rong. It was conceivable how much harm Shen Rong had caused to Lin Du.

"Lin Du, ten years ago, my father deceived me and said that you and Shen Rong were in cahoots. I also struggled, but in the end I chose to believe my father."

"Because of this wrong decision of mine, we were separated for ten years and lost a child."

"Ten years later, I thought I was just taking revenge on you, but later I realized that without love there would be no hate."

"I loved you so much, but I was too stupid to believe that this was love. I made one mistake after another until I lost you."

"I know you will be miserable if you stay with me, so... I will let you go."

Gu Yanchi couldn't help but tighten his grip on Lin Du's hand: "You can continue to stay in Beichuan, or go anywhere you want."

"I...I won't disturb your life anymore."

"As for Lin Yue, you can rest assured and leave her to me. As long as I am here, she will be here."

"If you're afraid that I won't be able to control myself and will appear in front of you, you can choose to go somewhere farther away."

"As long as...as long as you can live well."

Gu Yanchi raised his eyes, but tears fell before he did: "Lin Du, you are free..."

Gu Xinchi tried hard to pull the corners of his mouth, but failed in the end.

How could he smile when he was obviously so reluctant?

Gently stroking Lin Du's cheek, his eyes traced every part of him.

A deep pain was tearing apart Gu Xishi's soul. Lin Du left, and his world fell into darkness from then on.

Lin Du is free, but he will fall into the abyss forever.