Chapter 238 Don’t You Want Me Anymore?

The crowd dispersed and Gu Lanchi informed them to close the door.

Shen Zhichu's grievance and anger burned his mind together. No one shared his pain. He was obviously already full of wounds, but he still endured it, waiting for Chu Xu to give him an explanation.

Chu Xu stood in front of Shi Pei, his face gloomy: "Is this how President Gu treats guests?"

Gu Niechi shrugged: "You have come from a long way, so I must treat you well."

Gu Nichi walked up to Shi Pei and said, "Mr. Shi, right? Can I have a word with you?"

Chu Xu frowned. Gu Yanchi was indeed amazing. He was able to find out Shi Pei's identity in such a short time.

"Gu Nichi, please don't..."

Shi Pei patted Chu Xu's shoulder and said comfortingly: "It's okay, I'll be back soon."

Lin Du looked at Chu Xu in embarrassment: "Chu Xu, don't be angry, I promise that Mr. Shi will be fine."

Chu Xu sighed and nodded.

The group left, leaving the space to Shen Zhichu.

Although his heart was broken, Shen Zhichu still kept smiling and hid the pain deep in his heart.

Chu Xu stood there, like a cold and abstinent painting.

It makes people covet it, but dare not approach it easily.

"Long time...no see, you..."

"I'm fine, can't you see that?" Chu Xu's expression was cold, showing his impatience to the fullest.

Shen Zhichu was stunned. He felt so heartbroken that he could hardly bear it, but he didn't want Chu Xu to see it.

He nodded, then raised a slightly bitter expression: "Forgive my poor eyesight, I really didn't see it."

Chu Xu carefully concealed his emotions, not daring to breathe too loudly: "Shen Zhichu, I'm doing well now, and you don't have to hold on to the past, it's meaningless."

Chu Xu's eyes dodged as he looked at Shen Zhichu's thin figure, with a hint of sadness between his brows.

He endured it, his chest heaving.

"It's boring?" Shen Zhichu repeated Chu Xu's words, and raised the corners of his mouth in self-mockery, "It's boring, why are you holding it in? It's boring, why don't you dare look at me?"

"Chu Xu, is it fun to play like this?"

Shen Zhichu approached slowly, his red eyes telling of his grievances.

He could never have imagined that his lover would use such a clumsy means to force him to let go.

Is this an underestimation of my determination or an overestimation of his acting skills?

Slowly approaching, Chu Xu firmly chose to stand still and not dodge.

But even at such close distance, he was still defeated.

He was afraid that being too close would expose his guilty conscience to Shen Zhichu, and he was even more afraid that he would lose control and throw himself into his arms.

God knows how much I miss him.

Before, Lin Du sent him a photo of Shen Zhichu looking lonely. He cried for a long time and also relied on this photo to ease a lot of his homesickness.

But people are always greedy and always want more.

Originally he didn't have to come this time, but on such an important day for Lin Du, he didn't want him to regret it.

Secondly, he still couldn't control his desire to meet Shen Zhichu.

But, no matter how much he thought about it or how much he loved it, he was still sober.

There was an insurmountable mountain between them, and they could not come together at all.

But Shen Zhichu was innocent. He had delayed him for too many years and didn't want him to be trapped by him for the rest of his life.

That's not fair.

Shen Zhichu forced Chu Xu into a corner. He held Chu Xu's arms with both hands and slowly leaned his forehead on his shoulder: "Chu Xu, don't you want me anymore?"

These words completely shattered Chu Xu's disguise. He clenched his fists, in so much pain that even his breathing was against him.

It’s not that he doesn’t want it, it’s that he can’t and doesn’t dare to want it.

"Do you think I will let you go just by bringing someone here?" Shen Zhichu's tears fell to the ground, and he sighed silently, "You underestimate my sincerity towards you."

"I don't, I really like Shi Pei." Chu Xu stubbornly refused to admit it, "We get along very well, he loves me very much, I... I love him too, so..."

"I remember the way you loved me, so I can also tell that you don't love him." Shen Zhichu slightly increased the strength of his grip on Chu Xu's arm.

Tears fall, making people sad.

He originally thought that his plan was flawless, but in front of the people who loved him, it was full of loopholes.

Chu Xu's sobs were like a sad elegy, gradually drowning out everything.

Tears fell helplessly, like dead leaves drifting in the wind. Endless sorrow filled the air, making it unbearable to watch.

"Don't be so cruel. I said I won't force you. I can wait..."

Chu Xu turned away: "Wait? How long do we have to wait?"

"It doesn't matter how long it takes. As long as I'm alive, I can wait forever." Shen Zhichu raised his face and lowered his eyes slightly. He stroked Chu Xu's cheek gently, rubbing it with heartache.

"Aren't my sins deep enough?" Chu Xu lowered his eyes helplessly.

He didn't want to bear such a heavy burden of love that would suffocate him.

"So, can you tolerate me abandoning you and being affectionate with someone else?" Shen Zhichu lifted Chu Xu's chin and made him look directly into his eyes.

Chu Xu's eyes trembled. He never thought Shen Zhichu would ask this.

His eyes dodged and he couldn't help asking himself, is it okay?

The answer is obviously no, but I can't give him the life he wants, so what's the point of dragging him along.

"Don't you know the answer is no?" Chu Xu looked into Shen Zhichu's deep and sad eyes, but looked away again after just a second.

"I don't know, I want to hear you say it." Shen Zhichu rested his forehead on Chu Xu's brow, and his warm breath lingered between the two of them.

Chu Xu's clenched fists couldn't stop shaking. He turned his face away and said, "Yes, I may not be able to accept it for a while, but I will naturally let it go after a while."

"Time can heal everything, right?" Chu Xu pretended to be relaxed. "We each take the first step, and then things will be much easier."

Shen Zhichu opened his mouth slightly in misery, but couldn't utter a word.

My heart seemed to be torn apart. It was a pain that went deep into my bones. It was as if all the sorrows were gathered in my heart, so heavy that it was suffocating.

"Haven't you heard that time doesn't make people forget the pain, but makes people accustomed to the pain."

Chu Xu pushed Shen Zhichu away and let out a deep breath: "No matter what, as long as the result is what I want, it's fine."

"What do you want? Torture yourself and me at the same time, and then both of you will suffer?" Shen Zhichu pulled Chu Xu's wrist, a trace of sadness flashed in his eyes.

"I have never thought of torturing you, never..." Chu Xu closed his eyes tightly, but his tears could not be controlled. "I would rather die than torture you."

"You're lying!" Shen Zhichu lost control of his emotions, his voice was hoarse and distressing, "You're not even afraid of death, why are you afraid of being with me?"

“They’re all excuses.”

"Sometimes I wonder if you don't love me that much, so you always choose to escape."

"But I can't accept this result. After all... I love you so much..."

A snowflake fell, silently wetting the soul.

Everything around seemed to have lost its color, leaving only gray.

Every snowflake seems to be knocking on my heart, so painful and so sad.

The pain in my heart is like a sharp knife, piercing deeply and then pulling out mercilessly.