Chapter 239 He personally let his lover go

The snow was getting heavier, and Shen Zhichu raised his hand to block the wind and snow for Chu Xu.

But even if he tried his best to protect her, the wind and snow would still erode his lover from every angle.

Chu Xu took Shen Zhichu's hand and spoke in a calm tone, but if you listened carefully, you could hear that he was helpless: "Shen Zhichu, don't doubt my love for you."

Shen Zhichu's stubbornness and restlessness made his eyes tremble. No one knew how much impact these words had on him.

But before he could recover from the shock, Chu Xu spoke again: "But I love you, I will be in great pain, and if I stay with you, I will be living a life worse than death."

"It's painful to be away from home, but I'd rather endure the pain of loving you than the pain of being away from home."

"Because it won't kill me."

"Of course, I am not a coward who is afraid of death. I have people I need to take care of, so I cannot die."

The melancholy thoughts are like a dark vortex that makes people unable to extricate themselves. The soul calls out in silence, but cannot escape this boundless sorrow.

Shen Zhichu's fingertips twitched involuntarily. What an ironic statement.

Loving him will make him suffer...

"Shen Zhichu, don't hate me. I tried my best, but it was so painful." Chu Xu raised his face and let the wind and snow erode the corners of his eyes.

Shen Zhichu felt as if his chest was hit by a heavy object. He felt extremely painful when he took a breath. "So... you want me to let go, right?"

Chu Xu turned his face away, not wanting to see the sadness of the man in front of him, but when he thought that he was about to leave again, he couldn't help but want to look at him again: "If you still want me to be alive, then let me go..."

Holding up Shen Zhichu's lifeless face, Chu Xu felt a sharp pain in his heart: "For the rest of your life, live for yourself. No matter where I am, I will always bless you."

Shen Zhichu greedily demanded the warmth of Chu Xu's palm. His tears were so blinding that it was unbearable to look at them.

Chu Xu slowly moved closer and kissed the corner of his mouth: "I will love you forever, so, love yourself well for me."

With these words, Chu Xu let go of Shen Zhichu and turned away.

The heavy snow was dazzling, and Shen Zhichu stood there quietly.

He was like an abandoned toy, accepting the baptism of wind and snow without any expression.

His whole body was convulsing, and he let out suppressed, painful sobs, as if being drawn out thread by thread with great difficulty from the depths of his soul, spreading in the wind and snow, weaving a gray picture of sorrow.

The remaining breath of Chu Xu dissipated, and his heart sank completely into the abyss.

Shi Pei was being stared at by a group of handsome men with outstanding looks and intimidating manner.

Zhuo Chengze snorted coldly: "What kind of vision does Chu Xu have? This guy is far worse than Shen Zhichu, okay?"

"It's obvious that this is not a good thing."

Shi Pei was helpless, but he still maintained a rational smile.

Gu Niechi walked over, his tone not as bad as Zhuo Chengze's, but equally unfriendly: "Mr. Shi, how much did Chu Xu spend to hire you?"

Shi Pei was stunned. Sure enough, he was discovered. He shrugged helplessly: "Is my acting bad?"

"No... your acting is very good." Gu Yanchi stared at the snow outside the window, "It's just that we know the relationship between Chu Xu and Shen Zhichu too well."

Shi Pei nodded without making any excuses.

Chu Xu walked in and looked at Shi Pei apologetically: "Are you okay?"

Shi Pei shook his head: "We were chatting, they were very friendly."

Chu Xu nodded and looked at Lin Du.

Lin Du came over, unable to hide his worry: "Can we talk?"

Chu Xu pulled the corner of his mouth with difficulty: "Okay."

The two came to a quiet corner, and neither of them spoke first.

It's all too messy and too thorough.

"Chu Xu, are you still leaving?" When Lin Du thought that Chu Xu would leave again, he couldn't help but want to hold him back.

He was not having a good life, he could feel it, and although he tried hard to remain decent, his eyes could not lie.

"Lin Du, I said I would die if I stayed here." Chu Xu stretched out his hand to catch the snowflakes blown away by the cold wind. They were so pitiful, they just wanted to fall down steadily, but the cold wind wouldn't let them.

"What should you and Shen Zhichu do?" Lin Du asked. He felt sad when he thought about two people who loved each other torturing each other.

He had experienced this kind of pain before, and he didn't want his friends to experience it again.

Chu Xu clenched the snowflakes in his hand, and when he opened his hand again, only a water stain was left: "Leave it to time. You see, I don't feel as much pain now as when I just left. It means that I have slowly let it go."

"Really?" Lin Du lowered his eyes and tickled his fingers unconsciously, "Since you've let it go, how can you remember how painful it was?"

Chu Xu was stunned and his breathing stopped.

"Shi Pei is not a boyfriend at all, he has admitted it."

Chu Xu raised his lips bitterly: "It's true, you are all too smart, it's hard to deceive you."

"He was my psychiatrist abroad."

Lin Du grabbed Chu Xu's hand, his eyes full of distress: "Chu Xu, are you okay?"

"It's nothing. I just couldn't sleep every day after I left. I kept thinking about how I could die to get relief."

"I feel much better now. I don't dare to think about death. I find various reasons to keep living every day."

"So, you see, Lin Du, I am also slowly letting go, right?"

Chu Xu spoke lightly, but the curve of his lips was so dazzling.

"I used to feel sorry for Qin Chang. He tried so hard to survive, but he died tragically in the end."

"But later I thought, he was living in fear every day and it was actually very painful, so death was his real relief."

Lin Du grabbed the corner of his clothes, feeling painful.

"Lin Du, don't feel sad for me, just enjoy your life."

Chu Xu took Lin Du's hand and patted it gently: "Everything you have now is what you deserve. Bless you, my friend."

Lin Du was tortured by a great sense of powerlessness. He wished that everyone around him could have a happy life.

But life is never as we wish, and even if we try our best, we cannot change the reality.

Chu Xu left, and Shen Zhichu did not come out to see him off. Everyone tacitly agreed not to mention him.

Chu Xu looked at the familiar faces one by one, and he felt so reluctant to leave.

Lin Du hid behind Gu Xinchi and poked his head out to peek at Chu Xu. He really didn't like leaving.

And after this farewell, when will we meet again?

Gu Yanchi sighed lightly, he could go through fire and water for his brothers, but he could do nothing to help with matters of the heart.

He pulled Lin Du's hand and kept stroking it. He knew that he must be very sad.

He doesn't have many friends, and how can he bear the death and separation?

Shen Zhichu stood on the rooftop, looking at the cars going away in the distance. He was holding a cigarette, but the smoke could not hide his sadness.

His lover is gone, he let his lover go with his own hands, and he will be trapped forever.