Chapter 157
The conversation that day ended in vain.
Xie Xichao wanted to rest, and Fang Qingqing couldn't force him to work.
The phone was still vibrating. It was a message from the work group.
Before leaving, Fang Qingqing asked the question that had been lingering in her mind for a few breaths: "Should I find a psychiatrist for you?"
She still accepted that she didn't know Xi Chao would suddenly "strike". But she knew in her heart that if there was no real problem, Xie Xichao would not have made such a request to her.
This industry is very stressful and many people suffer from psychological problems.
Emotionally, she didn't want Jie Xichao to be one of them, but her professional ethics still forced her to ask this question.
Xie Xichao said, "I've found it."
Fang Qingqing remained silent.
After a moment, she sighed with a wry smile: "Why don't you just stop paying us."
Jie Xichao was stunned for a moment.
Then he reacted: "...No."
He thought for a while and said to Fang Qingqing very seriously, "I would feel more secure if I arranged this kind of thing myself. Otherwise I would feel very uncertain."
He paused, "Don't mention you. Even if my parents arranged it for me, I just have a feeling. It's a problem of my own personality. It has nothing to do with you."
He made it very clear.
Fang Qingqing felt mixed emotions. It is both for the other party's honesty and the content of their honesty. However, when Xie Xichao said these words, his tone was very calm and his logic was very clear. This made her feel a little relieved.
After a moment's silence, she made her final decision. She reached out and gave Xichao a gentle hug.
"Recently..." She thought for a moment, "The more important endorsements and shoots have all ended. The recording of 'Super New' is almost finished, the only difference is whether or not to join the crew. Don't put too much pressure on yourself."
"If you want to talk, feel free to come to me. I'm always here," she said.
Jie Xichao smiled.
"Okay." He said, "Thank you, Sister Qing."
Fang Qingqing left. Xie Xichao stayed in the room.
The deafening cheers and screams still seemed to echo in my ears. He lay in this position for a while, then stood up and continued the day's shooting.
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Although he said he was taking a break, the only person who actually knew the news was Jie Xichao's own studio. Because he is still working on it for the time being.
"Super New" 4 is being recorded as usual. The responses to the several stages of the third public performance were very good, and the stage performed by Xie Xichao and Liang Yi's group was even more impressive. The effect of the third public performance spread to the finals. Three of the five people in the group were eliminated. In addition to Liang Yi who ranked C and Yin Li who debuted in third place, there was also a boy who made a last-minute effort.
TP also came on the night of the final. She performed a new song on stage very politely. As a result, he attracted a group of fans who were not interested in him. At the celebration banquet, Ai Qingyuan was very provocative, saying that he would have to wait a hundred years to get to the top. In the middle of making a harsh remark, someone next to him poked him and said, "Move your hand."
So the bean sprouts at the table watched silently as the young master, who had just been talking nonsense, obediently moved his flailing upper limbs and let their beloved mentor beside him take the last piece of shabu-shabu beef in the pot. The senior brothers standing by were used to it, and Fu Wenzhe even scooped him a bowl of soup because of his distance advantage.
They will have to wait another hundred years to get to the top, but the food chain for the two most popular boy bands in the domestic entertainment industry in the future is already very clear.
After dinner, Xie Xichao followed TP back to the dormitory. In the car, Zou Yi asked him, "When will you join the group?"
They disbanded more than a year ago, and their group activities have been rare. The problem is coordinating time.
Xie Xichao paused, not wanting to make him worry, and said, "I'm still reading the book."
Zou Yi didn’t understand all this, he nodded as if he understood, indicating that he understood. When the car arrived at the destination, Jie Xichao did not get off. Zou Yi looked back at him, the young man's face was hidden in the shadows.
He said, "Brother, I'm going home."
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go home. There's no one at home.
After becoming an idol, Jie Xichao seldom found time to go home, so most of the time, his parents lived in the teachers' apartment near the school.
He didn't send any messages to either of them. He took some refrigerated food from the refrigerator and cooked himself a bowl of noodles.
After dinner, he turned on the TV in the living room and sat on the balcony to look at the stars.
Halfway through reading, he called the property management of the community. Five minutes later, the security captain came hurriedly, and the girls in the bushes put down their cameras with unhappy looks on their faces.
Xie Xichao said, "Don't come to my parents' house. I'll call the police next time."
One of the girls smiled and said, "Can we go to the dormitory next time?"
Xie Xichao smiled and said, "You can try."
The girl curled her lips.
She said, "Stop scolding us. You know the more you scold us, the more we get angry, brother."
Those who can be illegitimate children are basically not too timid. Actually, there is no point in saying anything to them.
The security captain apologized to him and took the man away. Jie Xichao stopped counting the stars. He picked up the watering can and watered all the flowers in the garden.
In the night, the cold makes people's senses particularly clear.
While watering the flowers, Xie Xichao suddenly thought of a world he had experienced.
In that world, he is also a member of a boy band, but he is the captain. Because of his character and personality, his popularity is the back of the team.
Perhaps it was because of this that he developed his people-pleasing personality. Even his fans could bully him, but in the end, even they lost interest in him, and after the group disbanded, he became an unknown figure.
Which mission is it?
Xie Xichao can no longer remember.
It turned out that he remembered it very clearly. Because he had to fill out a task book within the system, and because he knew what indicators he had to reach in order to leave the system, every time he completed a task, he was one step closer to returning home.
In fact, very few systems can actually return home successfully.
The tolerance rate is too low and the completion rate requirement is too high.
Completing tasks is also like living other people's lives. People are living beings and it is impossible to turn them into rigid data. The accident rate was even higher than the system prompts, and he was in a mess most of the time.
Other people's embarrassment is truly embarrassing, but his embarrassment is an attempt to make himself embarrassed in a way that conforms to the rules.
The most relaxing time should be when the task is almost completed, and the red life countdown bar doesn't seem so scary to him. Because that represents short-term success.
Many employees in the system are reluctant to leave for the entire lifetime. They say it is eternal life. There is nothing missing in the system, but for Jie Xichao, this will always be a virtual world composed of data.
He will always be just a code name.
He is not loved by his “family” and he is not liked by his “fans”. The feeling of being rejected is very real. People can only pay attention to the side that makes them feel painful.
Not like now.
In the silent night, Jie Xichao quietly looked at his own reflection in the pond.
So what now?
Jie Xichao.
Why have you worked so hard to get to where you are today and to this position?
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It's a very strange feeling.
Xie Xi told Fang Qingqing that he wanted to find a psychologist, but in fact he didn't have the conditions at all.
His past has meant that his only psychiatrist can be himself.
These days, he's more of a medical examiner than a psychiatrist.
He calmly dissected his insides and saw the black wound beneath the beating heart.
One thing that Xie Xichao was very clear about was that he was indeed reluctant when he first entered the entertainment industry.
This unwillingness stems from the love for the stage and music that developed after countless system tasks.
He is a very focused person. Do your best in everything. Especially the things you like. But the system limited him.
During the years of "failure", he often wondered, if he could come back and stand on the stage as Jie Xichao without any constraints or shackles, how high could he reach?
Time gave him the answer.
He is liked by many people and does what he likes.
He should feel satisfied and relieved.
But why, when Fang Qingqing told him that his future would be smooth sailing, he felt like a pedestrian who suddenly stepped on empty air and felt a huge sense of emptiness?
Xie Xichao didn’t know.
But he knew that he was no longer fit to move forward.
He needs quiet, time and solitude.
He needs to let go. And a complete rest.
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Jie Xichao left. Leave quietly.
The fans were still denouncing the private life one second, and the next moment they saw the flight information posted by scalpers in the circle of friends.
It was posted a little late, of course, that’s also because Jie Xichao bought the ticket in the early morning and boarded the plane in the morning.
All in all, no one could catch him.
This is not his first time traveling. Fans were used to it and just went to his Weibo and cried: "Baby, why did you run like someone was chasing you this time? Remember to take pictures. You know the 18-square grid, right?"
Fang Qingqing was almost worried to death when she saw her fans laughing foolishly. I didn’t dare to send a message to Jie Xichao. I can only watch his IP floating around.
Miao Haicheng also came to ask. It's strange that you can cross a hemisphere in two days. Is this tourism?
Fang Qingqing said, "You're asking me about my boss's private life?"
Miao Haicheng: “…”
If you don't agree, there's no need to talk too much. Miao Haicheng is gone.
Changed to a different person.
Ai Qingyuan sent her a message: Damn Sister Qing, why is Jie Xichao watching kangaroos in Australia? Can he beat the kangaroos? No, why did he run away again? He still hasn't replied to my message. This person is too much.
Fang Qingqing felt that her mind had been taken over by the kangaroo.
She said: Life is too boring, he wants to find some excitement, and, Master Ai, don't harass your colleagues after get off work.
Colleague Ai Qingyuan was hit hard.
But five minutes later, Jie Xichao finally replied to him.
-Xi Chao, did you go out to play? Why so sudden? When will you be back?
-[Cat in a daze.jpg][Cat looking at the scenery.jpg][Cat surprised.gif] Such a big kangaroo, let me show you [picture]
Ai Qingyuan: “…”
hateful.
How did this guy get away with it?
There is another person who got away with it. Xie Xichao sent Ji Yan away with a set of sunrise pictures. But he never answered any question related to "time".
He seemed to have completely let himself go.
For two whole months, he traveled to many places in the world. Once upon a time, this was his graduation travel plan. This plan is separated from the present him by a grand death that seems like a lifetime ago.
But it's obviously not too late yet. He also had time to take a serious look at the most beautiful scenery in the world he lived in.
He met many people, some who knew him and some who didn't. A lot of things happened in the meantime, both planned and unexpected.
Two months have passed, and he has not yet found the answer to the question, but he feels much more relaxed.
Just when he began to think that there are indeed some questions in this world that will never have answers and that once a hobby becomes a job, there will be no more fun to slack off, etc., his peaceful life was finally disrupted by an accident.
That afternoon, Xie Xichao's plane landed in the southwestern border of our country. Revisiting the old place, he signed autographs for fans he met by chance at the airport, but before leaving for his accommodation, his cell phone suddenly rang.
Not many people knew his private number, so he picked up the phone directly:
"Hello?"
The voice on the other end was weak: "Xi Chao."
Xie Xichao: “…”
He took down his phone and looked at the caller ID, a little surprised:
"Propaganda?"
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