Chapter 217 Antimatter Legion
"What does it feel like to establish a relationship with the Lord of Extinction and fall in love with him under the nose of a Star God?
——No special feeling.
As the vanguard general of the Antimatter Corps, Xing Xiao's daily energy is devoted to bringing destruction to civilization. If he's not destroying, he's on his way to destroying it.
What about you? What do you usually do?
You are looking at her.
Sit in the Nanook auditorium with the best view.
Xing Xiao doesn't meet Nanook every day. Basically, after the battle, he will occasionally have the opportunity to look you in the eye for a few seconds, and sometimes he will bring something for you.
A broad leaf, half carbonized, with only the veins remaining, a fragment of a shattered gemstone, a dehydrated, dried-out wooden stick that had been twisted and straightened...
It was simply found on the battlefield, but to some extent, it fits the aesthetic of destruction. Xing Xiao chose it specifically out of consideration for your aesthetic taste.
That's all there is between you.
Before this, you had suggested that Nanook wait and give you a few moments to talk. However, Xing Xiao rejected your idea, saying that he couldn't let a relationship hinder the advancement of his destruction career.
There is no need for communication, and there is no need to force a response to gifts. If Xing Xiao hadn't looked at you with eyes as pure as if nothing was in them, and her expression was obviously calm, you would have known that she really cared about you.
You will feel that you are talking to a lonely person.
Your understanding of this is that for some people, falling in love only requires the other person to stand there and be seen, alive and well, and everything else can be ignored. That's all they ask for.
——You take it well.
As long as both are alive, the relationship can continue no matter what the other person is doing or where they are.
After this exchange, Xing Xiao held onto a ball of [Void IX] slime and blanket, and condensed [antimatter] himself to make a ball of [destructive heterogeneity] "amber".
[Destructive Heterogeneity] It is similar to flame, but its temperature is not high and it has no ignition point. It has antimatter properties similar to flame. After contact for more than 12 seconds, it will destroy matter by annihilation.
To the Antimatter Legion, [Destructive Heterogeneity] is as worthless as that [Void IX] slime.
Xing Xiao: He seems to like garbage? Not sure, let's try it.
...Without delving into Xing Xiao's thoughts, this piece of antimatter amber is actually your favorite gift.
you:……
However, Sui Yang, who had been observing you and Xing Xiao for a while, said she had never seen such a pure couple. From a ratings perspective, it completely failed to live up to the bloody nature of the destruction.
What she said was wrong, so Sui Yang almost became the third strange-looking piece of garbage next to you in the form of fire.
No, it can’t be said to be almost. Before you decided to go to college, you had already left behind the little clone of [Huanlong].
The illusory life that arrived looked uncertainly at the little flame that was floating around you, letting you do whatever you wanted. "...What did you do?"
"It's love brain! I added a little love brain into it."
Essentially, it’s the concept of a little bit of [pure beauty], but it’s rubbed out by your hands and becomes your customized version of [love brain].
Frightened, Huanlong immediately used all available means to cut off the connection with his clone.
What a pity that Huanlong can't get a [destructive love].
You feel a bit regretful about this, and even wipe away your nose in sadness... Of course, the object you are using is the clone of Huanlong that has been cut off from contact.
Huanlong had to admit that this was devastating.
Or it is the kind of destruction on the spiritual level, which happens to belong to her aesthetics of destruction.
After that, Huanlong stopped commenting on your relationship with Xingxiao, and even went so far as to avoid you.
You won’t have the chance to meet the other Lords of Extinction for the time being, and you will go to college right away.
The main reason is that even if you have established a relatively close relationship with the Lord of Extinction of [Destruction], you find that you still cannot stand from the perspective of [Destruction] and face the civilization with life.
And you have been in [Nothingness IX] for who knows how long, and you are almost marinated by nothingness.
So, you give yourself a break and go get a degree.”
"Regarding the above decisions, it is obvious that you made them on the spur of the moment without clear thinking.
——You can't accept the concept of "destruction" in a normal and natural way, and you use all kinds of unconventional methods.
It’s not that you haven’t experienced destruction, the problem is that you can’t calmly, equally and indifferently bring destruction to all life.
It’s okay for so-called justice, it’s okay for hatred towards those close to you, it’s okay to vent your emotions towards those you hate... but for the sake of complete civilization, it’s not okay.
You like the wonderful stories that life tells, the beautiful qualities that blossom like the protagonist, the ordinary colors, warm smells, and natural sounds... Of course, you can also only care about the people close to you, but you can't only care about the lives of those close to you.
——You can only watch.
Watching the star howl bring destruction and then return. Just like that, from afar, across the vast desolate distance, staring at each other quietly, you will suddenly feel that destruction and the one who brings it, entangled in a strange posture, have a strange beauty.
…
If you think about it carefully, it is true.
You find it troublesome to carry the expectations of others, let alone countless lives?
...You've carried a life before, and you understand how heavy it is. After your parents died in a car accident, you took on your sister's life—she chose to live for you.
As I recall, when An Su was taken to the emergency room, he had absolutely no desire to survive.
You know why, my sister is so smart. Before she lost consciousness in the car accident, she must have realized that mom and dad would not survive.
——"If my parents are gone, I have to take their share and survive together... I'm only 14 years old, and my life has just begun! I should take a good look at the world, see the scenery, travel, enjoy life and delicious food..."
That's all a lie, sister... That guy An Su is simply incapable of saying such positive words from the bottom of his heart.
She is the best at deceiving people.
You are blood relatives from the same family, how could you not understand her?
The people An Su cared about the most before he was 14 were his parents, and you and An Su were just two people who had to live in peace under the same roof, similar yet different...
In her eyes, she could only see these three people in this world.
My sister understands you, just as you understand her. She has the same qualities as scholars like Dotole and Rhinedort: genius, arrogance, but also their own shortcomings: indifference, division...
Well, the way you interacted with her in your memory is also real.
Under the care of her parents, her sister looks like a very normal child. As a normal sibling, the older sister sometimes has a wild imagination like you, acts like a spoiled child like you, and is as lazy as you... because she is just learning from you.
You know it all, you allow it all.
After the car accident, only the last sentence she said when she woke up was true.
——"I have to take their share with me. Let them share my eyes, my stomach, my feelings... and survive together."
But my eyes lingered on you one by one.
——"Brother, later, when I almost couldn't hold on, I suddenly thought of you...I couldn't leave you alone."
She looked into your eyes with a strange and meaningful look and spoke slowly.
Real and intentional.
You cried then. Not just because of her sudden surge of kindness and desire to survive in the emergency room, but also because of the weight of that feeling.”
"You can't be as close to Destruction as your sister. You're too far away. You don't know how much longer she's been around than you, and you're starting to worry that you don't understand her as well as you used to.
After a few years of peaceful life at the university, your friend Osvaldo gave you another breakthrough. A man with a cruel hand and a black heart, he gave rise to the idea of "exploring".
Maybe...destruction doesn't matter.
You think so.
What is important is the process by which such a sister decided to move from [destruction] to [creation].
The self-simulator reveals its true origins in front of you. Just as you know that your sister cannot say positive and optimistic words from the bottom of her heart, you do not believe that the information she transmits is her true experience.
The experience you saw was so purposeful, as if from the very beginning, she embarked on this journey just to create a golden finger for you.
Impossible.
You understand each other, but it's also like looking in the mirror, completely opposite.
After losing your parents, there are occasional frictions in your lives, but you are responsible for her life, and she cannot completely abandon you and your bondage to her - because you are the only one left in her world.
This is one of the reasons why you took advantage of the time when she was out of growth and went to the hospital to have her amputated limb checked and went out on a trip alone.
There will always be times when you want to escape from each other.
Just as you no longer planned to think about your sister after traveling through time, you knew that she would be fine on her own. Of course, she also understood that you could be fine on your own...
But, but——
She gave you your simulator. After revealing this, you grinned, not daring to think about the direction that frightened you the most.
There is a high possibility that An Su traveled through time before you.
About the trouble she had to go through to find you.
The information she gave you was just something she deliberately chose, a typical example of only reporting good news and not bad news.
…
If your thinking direction can still be closer to her, even a little bit, from destruction to creation... what do you need to go through in between?
Back at the Antimatter Legion, you held [Void IX] in your arms and stared blankly for a long time.
Until Xing Xiao left the battlefield after the end, she looked at you quietly, and after consulting Nanook, she said to you: "Ming Chong, do you want to come with me for a while?"
“…What are you going to do?”
"Melrose Stein," she said calmly, pausing before adding, "'Agate World', the planet where the pure and beautiful Star God ascended, you should like it."
"Idlila...? Are you going there to bring destruction?"
Xing Xiao shook his head. "Perhaps it's to bring destruction upon me. I don't like doing nothing in civilized areas, but Foehn Feng said you seemed to like it, so let's go there. Besides, that's the birthplace of the Star God, it won't be destroyed so easily."
Then she added, "Lord Nanook will not go if we get married there."
Something suddenly flashed through your mind, and you hesitated to speak."
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