Prologue: You are the focus of a hundred million dazzling stars, and I went to great lengths to find you just to keep you by my side and prevent you from slipping away.
Everyone will meet someone they like, but it all begins with a bittersweet encounter. The more you care about them, the more regret you'll feel for not having them for the rest of your life.
Many destinies are unavoidable. At the moment we met, I clearly had the choice to start a story with you or not, but your clear, bright eyes confused my rational choice.
Every insincere expression of dislike is gradually melted away by your gentleness; your skin is so fair and porcelain-like; I'm willing to believe every word you say.
No matter how many years have passed or how far apart we are, I can still hear your heart beating. The melody of your heart burns like fire in my chest. My world is vibrant and colorful because of you. Do you know that every decision I make is for you? Every move you make can change me.
The warm sunshine of spring warms my heart; your name is something I will never forget. You have the other shore I want to reach, and also a paradise I can never reach.
The warmth of every tender moment flows through the long river of time, leaving a deep and unforgettable impression on me. Do you know that I dare not forget you, because I fear I will never meet someone like you again in this life?
Thank you for your sudden appearance, which brought a touch of warmth to my world. I will let you know that I am not fragile and that I can change everything for you.
I know you won't forget me, and I know you won't come back. I'll always remember your flaws with your new and old loves. Anyway, you fall in love with one person after another and can't be devoted to one person wholeheartedly.
My love for you has become increasingly cheap. The person I've admired for so long is no longer the person I used to know. If you leave me, you'll meet many more people who like you.
But do you know that you never took responsibility for the happiness you gave me and then cleaned it up? I can't forget you, but I do want to forget you just like that.
That day, I was lying on the sofa in our usual bar when the thought of "Why Isn't My World With You" came to mind.
When a stranger cares about you more than you like that person, our past becomes cheap and insignificant, and the promises we made can be nullified.
Whether it was because I couldn't wait for you or because you forgot to wait for me, I have no way of knowing anymore. Your perfunctory excuses have long since buried our sweet times in our memories.
No matter how much I envied and wanted to have you, I can never start over with you.
I can only tell myself I'm sorry a thousand times because I can't forget you. I thought that if I got together with someone else, you would come back to me, but you still didn't come back.
Everyone says you no longer love me, but I don't believe it. I still hold onto a sliver of hope that you might change your mind one day. But reality tells me that my unrequited love for you will become a fatal flaw in my future.
Whenever someone mentions you, I can't wait to learn about you and care about you, but I've long forgotten that I have no relationship with you. I'm so fixated on everything, but have you ever remembered me as clearly as I have?
It's been three years since we broke up, but every time I see my lover showing affection in front of me, I can't help but cry and say a lie to you. I can't forget you. I broke our promise and shamelessly wanted to get back together with you, but when you told me that we could never be together again, my heart turned to ashes.
Even though I know there's no future, I stubbornly refuse to admit that we're over. I can't get back together, and I still want to hear you reject me again. I just want to see you, want to see you, and want to be rejected. I don't want any of that. I just want you to be by my side, even if we have nothing to do with each other.
When you love someone deeply, you realize that you are just an outsider to them. You will tell others time and time again that you are the only one I love from beginning to end. Even if you don't like me, I am willing to treat you as a stranger.
I just miss you so much and don't want to lose you. I shouldn't have set foot in your life, but I don't know why I'm so unwilling to accept it. Maybe from the moment I met you, I never had the right to forget you.
You are my whole world. Without you, my life has no meaning, and every day is dull and colorless. Can you promise me you won't be so cruel? Let's be friends again.
When feelings become a barrier between us, there is no need for us to go back.
Tears streamed down my face, and no one came to wipe them away. Loving you was just humiliating myself. I wish time could turn back to the time when you loved me, when at least we were never in pain and were happy every day.
But I forgot that every bit of happiness could turn into pain after the breakup.
Actually, I knew from the beginning that you wouldn't like me, but I just didn't want to forget you, didn't want to lose you, and knew that one day we would separate, so I had already made ample preparations.
When time becomes our clock of mistakes, we unknowingly transform love into hate.
Do you know? I never disturb your sleep. Because I love your sleeping posture the most. But that day I saw you giving chocolates to that girl, my heart ached so much, but my love for you remains unchanged.
Flowers will never forget the kindness of those who water them, and I will never forget the memories you gave me.
Jing Mo Ran, the world is stained with ink, but you do not know. It is what I love, so can you be at peace?
I so wish I were the one lying in your arms, but why did you lead us to this point? The promises we made have long since vanished with time and memories.
Unrealistic promises only inflict fatal wounds.
The person who loves you must love you more than I do, so why can't my love compare to hers? Do you think it's cheap, or do you think I'm not worthy of you?
Perhaps you don't know that I've been moved to tears and laughter by your every word and action, but I've fallen in love with you and feel that you shouldn't apologize to me.
I don't know why, but when I see other people's happy smiles, I feel particularly ridiculous. I know you have someone you like, yet I'm still willing to be the third party and step into your world.
I just want to hear your voice, I'm so shameless that I want to bother you and hear you scold me. I don't want our relationship to be left stranded in the memories of time. The biggest regret is that I can't fulfill my love for you. Do you know how much I care about you? I can't even bear to hurt you. I bear all the hurt alone. I don't want to see you sad, upset, or in tears.
I know we can't go back, but I'm still indulging in memories. So many years have passed, and if you can't forget, then remember forever. Let us remain strangers, forever separated by a barrier.
Honestly, I really can't forget you, and I dare not forget you. I can't bear to lose everything you gave me. On the day we broke up, it felt like the world had stopped, except for my heartbeat, which was different from usual. We went from two hearts to one.
Can you tell me how I can live without you? I can't bear to part with the memories you gave me, so every day I can only silently tell others that I'm fine and have already let you go. But I can't, I'm going against my conscience.
Perhaps silence is not an admission, but I am 100% certain that I have no right to forget anything about you from the moment I met you.
Watching the raindrops fall from the sky and hit the potted plants in front of my window, the water droplets reveal the scenes of us together in the past. The heart-wrenching pain increases day by day, and I can only deceive myself by saying that I have already let you go, letting the insincere self-deception become a permanent painkiller. I can't even hide the fact that I want to join in and care about everything that others mention about you.
After loving you for so many years, I truly regret my youthful arrogance and unwavering faith in you. I still can't forget the moment you left me, and my gentle words of advice to myself were nothing but cruel perfunctory words.
How I wish we could go back to the beginning, to when you asked me what my name was, to when you barged into my world. I should have known that one day we would suffer for the rest of our lives because of being together, and I shouldn't have agreed to be your lover without your consent. But can I still act as if nothing happened now, just like before?
People are prone to nostalgia and self-deception, and I'm no exception.
All these years I've thought that if I escaped the city where our story happened, my heart wouldn't ache, my heart wouldn't ache, and that if I closed my eyes, the tears wouldn't flow. But no matter what I do, I can't forget your gentle words and the loving reproaches you gave me.
Your hands were so strong and powerful; you once shielded me from all difficulties with your body. But when I thought that this kindness would always belong to me, I made a mistake. I was too arrogant.
Every hope carries the risk of disappointment, and fleeting happiness only brings eternal suffering.
Jing Mo Ran, do you know? I've transformed myself for you, and I'm no longer myself, yet why are you still so heartless?
I rejected other people's concern for you, refused the advances of suitors, and refused the bright sunshine in my heart, enjoying the solitude. But now I no longer have the right to approach you.
The focal point formed by billions of stars is just a fleeting spark. The fire is blown out by the wind, leaving only boundless darkness in my world, with no end in sight and no direction in sight. Pain is constantly devouring me, making me give up and become dejected.
If you could do it all over again, what would you choose?
You will still love the girl named Xiong Yingguang without hesitation, instead of loving the girl named Mu Xinghe. Would this choice be a different ending and a different beginning for you? At least Xiong Yingguang won't suffer, at least you will still be together, and you won't both suffer for the rest of your lives because you can't forget each other.
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