Chapter 53 Four Weeks Pregnant
When they were adults, Jiang Chen mentioned to his two siblings the hardships Qin Qing endured during her ten months of pregnancy. Because it was twins, she had to suffer more than twice the pain of an ordinary pregnant woman. Jiang Chen remembered the heartache that shone through his loving eyes when he recounted it.
Qin Qing gently scolded Jiang Chen, afraid of causing unnecessary fear to the two children, especially Jiang Qingying. She said to Jiang Qingying, "Pregnancy is hard, but it is also very happy, because I felt the same heartbeat as you during this process. That moment of heartbeat resonance is the most precious memory of my life."
Jiang Qingying has a particularly deep memory of it.
There was one more thing she said that she never forgot, even after many years.
The parents said, "Children are the continuation of love in life."
Jiang Qingying was preoccupied with something on her mind. She refused Lu Jinyuan's advances that night and tossed and turned in bed, unable to fall asleep. Just as she was about to get up for a drink of water, a pair of strong arms wrapped around her waist, and a lazy, husky male voice lingered in her ear.
"Didn't you say you were sleepy?"
Jiang Qingying was being held face-to-face by him, her cheek pressed against his chest. His heartbeat was very clear, and for some reason, she was counting his heartbeats in her mind.
After a long while, she murmured, "I want to drink water."
After a couple of seconds, a long exhale came from above, and then the wall lamp was turned on, casting a dim yellow light over the two people on the bed.
Lu Jinyuan got up, put on his slippers, and left the bedroom. A minute later, he returned with a glass of warm water. Throughout the entire process, he didn't say a word, and his sleepy face showed no sign of impatience.
Jiang Qingying took the water glass, drank two sips, and handed it back to him, saying, "Thank you."
"You're welcome." Lu Jinyuan placed the water glass on the bedside table, turned off the wall lamp, and lay back down on the bed with her, instinctively pulling her into his arms.
Jiang Qingying stared unabashedly at Lu Jinyuan, who had closed his eyes and was about to fall asleep again. Her eyelids lowered, and after a couple of seconds of silence, she couldn't help but ask, "Why do you always like to hug me while you sleep lately?"
"I'm used to it," Lu Jinyuan replied with his eyes closed. "Can't sleep?"
“...A little.” Jiang Qingying’s tone was somewhat tentative, afraid that he would say something else the next second: “Then let’s do something else.”
Lu Jinyuan roughly understood the meaning in her tone, and silently curled the corners of his mouth in the dim light. He gently patted her back with the hand around her, "Close your eyes, don't think about anything else."
Jiang Qingying listened, but her mind was a jumbled mess of thoughts, so his comforting words didn't have much effect.
During those sleepless hours, she asked herself the same question countless times.
Do you want to have a baby?
In no mood.
I don't want to right now, at least not right now.
This is not in her current plans at all, neither in her career nor in her life.
On the one hand, she is a career woman. Next year, the company has a very important overseas project. If she gets pregnant, she will not be able to travel long distances for work. There are many women who work during pregnancy. If she gets pregnant, she will still have to work, but she cannot guarantee that her work will not be affected at all.
On the other hand, she had never thought about becoming a mother, nor had she ever imagined having a child with Lu Jinyuan. Having grown up in a loving family, she understood all too well what a child nurtured by love needed. She felt that the love between them wasn't enough to support a family that required a great deal of love.
The two most basic requirements are a stable economic foundation and loving parents.
The former has nothing to worry about, while the latter...
She lacked the confidence to believe that she and Lu Jinyuan could have the same kind of relationship as her parents, because their marriage had been based on mutual benefit from the very beginning.
As the saying goes: marriage alliances are for mutual benefit.
Her children must not become cannon fodder for personal gain.
My mind was in a daze all night, and I finally couldn't stay awake any longer and fell asleep.
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In the early morning, the warm winter sun slowly rises, its gentle light shining on the earth, gradually waking all things.
Lu Jinyuan was still awakened by his biological clock, on the same time every day. When he opened his eyes, his will gradually returned, and he found that the woman who usually slept soundly beside him was not there.
Jiang Qingying usually arrives an hour later than him, but this morning she was unusually not by his side. A brief look of doubt flashed in his eyes as he got up and went to the bathroom to wash up. The bathroom door was made of frosted glass, and he could vaguely see the figure inside.
A figure was curled up in a small ball on the ground. Her waist and back were very thin. Her expression could not be seen through the glass. All that could be made was that her head was resting on her knees, and she was not moving.
"Qingying?" He called several times, but she seemed not to hear him, which inexplicably made him anxious. He had no choice but to open the door and go in. "What are you doing..."
He choked up halfway through his sentence, his mind going completely blank for once, because he saw a whole row of pregnancy tests placed in front of Jiang Qingying.
There were about five or six of them, all roughly similar in shape, but with slightly different packaging. The result for each one was the same.
Two very clear red lines.
Lu Jinyuan struggled to his senses, squatted down and hugged her. Many thoughts flashed through his mind, but when he saw her pale face, he couldn't say a word.
Her eyes were very red, with many blood vessels. He gently stroked her cheek with his fingertips, but he couldn't feel any moisture or see any tear stains.
She didn't cry; she was like a numb and fragile doll, showing no reaction whatsoever.
"Should we go to the hospital for a checkup?"
"......"
As expected, there was no response.
Even a man who is usually calm and composed, and who plans everything with ease, can be at a loss. He rubbed her head to offer some small comfort, and then put his arm around her knees, just as he was about to pick her up, she gently pushed him away.
"You can go out first, I'll wash up." She didn't look at him, and her voice was devoid of emotion.
"Okay." Lu Jinyuan hugged her and said in a deep voice in her ear, "Call me if you need anything."
"Um."
Lu Jinyuan left the bathroom, leaving Jiang Qingying with personal space.
Jiang Qingying picked up the pregnancy test strips that were laid out on the ground, and stood up by supporting herself with her palms on the cold tile floor. She had forgotten how long she had been squatting. Her legs were terribly numb, as if a thousand bubbles were rolling, colliding, and then exploding in her blood.
She looked at herself in the mirror, unusually lost and dejected, her mind blank, not knowing what to do and not wanting to do anything.
Actually, I had already guessed it last night, but I was just hoping that my luck would come true.
Why do people get pregnant?
I always take precautions, and I'm very careful about it. I always wear a condom from the very beginning. Why did I still get pregnant?
Jiang Qingying let out a heavy sigh, washed her face with cold water, trying to clear her head. After quickly washing up, she came out to find Lu Jinyuan already waiting for her at the bathroom door.
She was caught off guard by his unfathomable eyes. He wasn't much better, but she seemed to see something in him that she lacked.
On one rare occasion, his eyes held a mixture of surprise and anticipation, though this surprise was overshadowed by his astonishment.
Lu Jinyuan walked over, took her hand, led her to the dressing room, helped her change her clothes, and carefully kissed her: "Wait for me for five minutes."
"Um."
It's only a 15-minute drive from home to the hospital.
They went through the VIP channel; from registration to examination to receiving the results, everything went smoothly. Finally, in the VIP room, the doctor personally told the two that Jiang Qingying was four weeks pregnant.
All around...
That was the night before she went to Australia.
That night I went crazy in the car and I went crazy at home. Overall, that night was really crazy.
"We definitely used protection, how could she be pregnant?"
The elderly woman who diagnosed Jiang Qingying was an expert in this field. She adjusted her glasses and explained to Lu Jinyuan in detail: "While using a condom is the safest form of contraception, it is not 100% effective. If the condom is of poor quality, worn incorrectly, worn too late, or breaks or falls off without being noticed in time, pregnancy is still possible."
Lu Jinyuan's eyes darkened rapidly, his emotions obscure and difficult to discern. He guessed that it must have been that night in the car, under the influence of the special environment, that the two of them lost control and did not check the condom afterwards.
The doctor carefully observed the two, unsure of their thoughts—whether they wanted it or not. Their explanations were completely different, and due to the other party's status, she dared not say more.
Lu Jinyuan looked at Jiang Qingying, who lowered her head to avoid his gaze. A bitter and indescribable emotion suddenly welled up in her chest. She lowered her eyes and asked, "How is her health? What should we pay attention to?"
Upon hearing this, the doctor understood that the other party wanted to keep the baby, and a smile appeared on his face. "All the indicators are quite good. Just make sure to rest well. I'll prescribe some nutritional medication later, and... just don't have sex for the first three months."
Lu Jinyuan agreed to all of them.
After leaving the hospital, Lu Jinyuan took Jiang Qingying home; neither of them planned to go to work at the company today.
On the way home, Jiang Qingying leaned her head against the car door, and Lu Jinyuan held her hand the whole time, but she seemed to refuse to communicate.
He knew she was upset.
I didn't say much to her, and I didn't know what to say.
Should we persuade her to keep the baby? Will she keep the baby?
Lu Jinyuan asked himself, but he couldn't get a 100% answer. He himself wasn't ready to be a father, so what right did he have to ask her to be?
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