Chapter 196 Desperate Wish



"Of course, I support you, but there is one thing you need to understand."

Hinata Hajime said: "The fragments of despair will only bring despair. Once despair spreads, terrible things may happen. Maybe the whole city will be reduced to ruins."

"Now that you have consciousness and human thoughts and feelings, you need to think clearly like humans."

The girl looked at Hinata Hajime, and after a moment she lowered her head. "Sure enough, just as it said, you are a difficult person to deal with."

"Huh? Hard to deal with?" Hinata Hajime was stunned. "Ah, we were just talking normally, why did you use the word hard to deal with?"

The girl smiled and said, "I can also fulfill a wish for you. Is there anything you want to do?"

"Really?"

"Because I am a collection of wishes, what is your wish?"

Hinata Hajime tilted his head, and after a moment he spoke, "Then, can you help me recover my memory? I seem to be troubled by this recently."

"Of course."

The girl smiled and said, and the next moment, the entire starry sky disappeared in front of Hinata Hajime, and the whole world returned to its original appearance, as if nothing had happened just now. The wind blew over, lifting Hinata Hajime's black hair and coat, bringing a little coolness.

Hinata Sou turned his head and looked outside.

"Is this the end?" Hinata Hajime murmured, "It seems like nothing happened."

As soon as he finished speaking, Hinata Hajime felt dizzy for a moment.

He frowned and pressed his temples, and the next moment, countless images crowded into his mind.

"What? What what?"

He remembered a lot of things.

I remember that I entered the Preparatory Department of Hope's Peak Academy, but this preparatory department was a new department developed by Hope's Peak Academy. People here have no talent. They come here eager to have talent, and everyone hopes that they can be promoted to undergraduate.

Hinata Hajime is one of them.

He was among these people, all of whom were enemies, all of whom were opponents.

No friends, no companions.

Later he met Chiaki Nanami, an undergraduate student, and they became friends, often playing games together in the same place. This was the first friend Hinata Hajime made at Hope's Peak Academy.

Later... the death of Kuzuryu Nazhai from the preparatory department was something that should have been investigated further, but it was suppressed by the school.

It was also at that time that Hinata Hajime decided to participate in the "Hope Cultivation Plan" and become a test subject.

His consciousness during the operation was chaotic and he could only hear a few words occasionally.

"Do you really want to do this?"

"All the troublesome emotions and memories are cleared. He doesn't need them. Talent is everything to him."

"But is this considered cheating?"

"How did he know we were lying without memory?"

“We are shaping hope.”

So, Hinata Hajime died.

The god was born.

In the spiritual world, Kamijou Izuru stood up. Although they could not communicate with each other, Kamijou Izuru could probably sense Hinata Hajime's condition. At this moment, he felt that his spiritual world was showing signs of collapse. Sensing downwards, he seemed to realize that Hinata Hajime remembered something.

Outside, Hinata Hajime pressed his temple hard. The pain continued to erode him, but those memories still forcefully squeezed into his mind.

Whether it was a man named Enoshima Junko inviting him to watch a hopeless game, or watching the students of Hope's Peak Academy killing each other, Hinata Hajime watched the deaths of those people from the perspective of Kamuzuru Izuru and watched the preparation for the subject riot.

At the very end, Hinata Sou lowered his head, and Nanami Chiaki reached out her hand towards him, covered in blood.

"Hinata-kun." The strong girl cried, "I'm sorry I couldn't save you."

"sorry."

Hinata Sou opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but found that he couldn't open his mouth at all. He tried hard to reach out his hand, but he couldn't do anything.

Chiaki Nanami dies.

All members of the prepared department committed suicide.

Blood and flames dyed the entire Hope's Peak Academy red.

"…It turns out you didn't lie to me." Hinata Sou lowered his head, "I am actually a bad guy who destroys the world."

"Can I ask you a question?"

Kamukura Izuru didn't answer, and Hinata Hajime didn't ask any more questions. He just asked, "Why didn't you save Nanami?"

"I don't know her." Kamukura Izuru finally spoke, "She is no different from the student council members who killed each other."

"That's true. After all, after having your emotions and memories removed, this is the only possible outcome." Hinata Hajime's voice was a little stuttered. He slowly squatted down, his breathing becoming a little rapid. "I understand, I understand, but, but..."

"How can I accept this?"

"Create."

Hinata closed his eyes. "You always say that you did those terrible things, but what is the difference between this and what I did?"

"I participated in the experiment, I thought I could be a better person, I deserved to be deceived, but in the end it wasn't me who was killed, it was my friend. I watched her die and did nothing. She is dead."

"Hinata Hajime." Kamuzuru Izuru frowned. "It's really troublesome to restore your memory up to this point, but I guess you don't look forward to your past now, which is a good thing."

"Huh?" Hinata Hajime smiled bitterly, "Is there anything more painful than this?"

Kamuzuru didn't answer. He just said, "But you have to stay calm."

"Whether you accept it or not, you have to understand that this is real. If you don't accept it, you have to resist it instead of falling into collapse."

"Okay, okay..." Hinata closed his eyes, "Give me a moment, okay?"

Hinata Hajime thinks he is a good person. Of course, he is a good person. However, when he was young, he was too persistent and had too strong a self-esteem, so he got himself into a ditch. However, Hinata Hajime absolutely does not want to hurt others.

His self-esteem and inferiority complex are limited to torturing himself.

He thought too little and trusted Hope's Peak Academy too much, so things turned out like this.

It is ironic that despair is called hope.

After a moment, Hinata sighed, picked up the things on the ground, then turned around and went down from the roof.

"Zun has never come back?"

"It seems that he said he had to deal with an accident, so he couldn't come back." Kusanagi Izumo prepared orange juice for Anna, "But it doesn't sound like it's directed at Hinata, don't worry."

Juzuka Tado nodded, "That's good."

Just then, they heard the doorbell ring. Thinking that a guest was coming, Kusanagi Izumo quickly shouted "Welcome", and Jutsuka Tadara also stood up to greet him.

The man was wearing a long coat, with a hood and a mask covering his face tightly, looking extremely suspicious.

Hinata Hajime took off his hood and mask, "Good morning."

"Hinata?!"

"Hush, keep your voice down." Hinata Hajime quickly covered Kusanagi Izumo's mouth, "I don't want to be discovered again."

Kusanagi Izumo slapped his hand away in disgust, and then said, "Then don't come back."

"It's not that question. I just want to talk to a friend." Hinata Hajime sat at the bar. "Can you give me a glass of orange juice?"

Kusanagi Izumo neither agreed nor refused, but Hinata Hajime knew that he had already gone to get orange juice. Because he had made a cup for Anna before, the raw materials were all on the table. Juusu Tadara closed the shop door and then sat next to Hinata Hajime.

"Back to the old Hyuuga."

"That's how it was supposed to be." Hinata Sou sighed, "So many things have happened."

"Do you know that there is someone inside you?"

"Yes, I knew it from the beginning." Hinata Hajime leaned on the bar, his voice full of fatigue, "I actually knew it when I lost my memory, because he would talk in my mind, but I didn't hate him, so I thought he was not a bad person."

Jutsu Tadara thought of the person he had seen before, "But, he can control his body?"

"Because he is also me, of course I can control him." Hinata Sou sighed, "Come to think of it, I have recovered some of my memory."

"Oh?" Jutsu Tado said, "Do you remember your friend?"

Hinata Hajime propped himself up, and at this time Kusanagi Izumo handed him the orange juice. Hinata Hajime held the orange juice, with a hint of sadness in his green eyes.

"You can't find her because she's dead."

"Eh?" Jutsu Tadara was stunned for a moment, "Sorry."

"No need to apologize. I am the one who should apologize. You have been busy for so long, but it is actually a problem that has no answer." Hinata Hajime said self-deprecatingly, "Do you remember what I told you, Jutsuka? I said I might be a bad person. Now it seems that I was indeed a bad person before."

Jutsu Tado looked at him helplessly, "Bad people will never admit that they are bad people. Only idiots like you who think they are bad people would say that."

"But, many people died because of me." Hinata Hajime looked at the orange juice in his hand, "And Nanami, I was her friend, but I couldn't do anything."

"If you really want to say it, you can even say that I killed her."

Juzuka Tadara patted his shoulder and said, "Don't think like that."

"The Hinata Hajime I know is a very cheerful, optimistic and gentle person. He is very responsible and everyone likes him. So, even if he says he is a bad guy, I don't believe it, because the person who says that is really suffering. Only good people will feel guilty about what they have done."

Hinata Hajime smiled, "Really?"

"Although I don't know Nanami, I think she wouldn't want to see you like this."

"But……"

"If I were Nanami," Jutsu Tadara said in a soft voice, "If I died, even if it was as you said, and to a certain extent you were the one who hurt me, I still hope that you, Hinata, would not blame yourself, because I know very well that you are definitely not someone who would intentionally hurt others."

Hinata Hajime looked at Juushu Tadara.

"Do you know that you look like you're about to cry?" Jutsu Tadara said with a smile, "How could anyone bear to let such a gentle Hinata Hajime cry?"

Izumo Kusanagi stood behind the bar, shaking his head and looking helpless.

"Don't think too much. You only said that you remembered part of the memory, but you haven't thought it through completely. Maybe there is something else going on, right?"

"I will make a conclusion after all my memories are restored."

Hinata Hajime looked at them, and after a moment he lowered his head, his green eyes fixed on the orange juice in his hand.

He thought of Nanami in his memory.

At the last moment, the girl reached out to him.

She said: I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I couldn't save Hinata-kun.


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