Chapter 185: Evildoers Feel at Ease

"Qingqing, what's wrong with you?"

Bai Xu showed a puzzled look and put down the things in his hand.

Luo Qing's tears made his heart ache. He hadn't seen her cry for a long time.

He walked quickly forward and was about to ask her in detail whether she had suffered any injustice, but Luo Qing seemed to have been electrocuted and took a big step back.

"Don't come over here!"

Luo Qing screamed loudly, her voice full of fear and rejection, as if he was some unforgivable sinner.

Bai Xu looked confused, but she really didn't dare to go forward. Instead, she picked up the bouquet of sunflowers that she bought when she passed by the flower shop, and the new orange mousse cake from her favorite cake shop.

"Qingqing, stop crying. Do you want to see your favorite flower?"

"This mousse cake is delicious. I bought it after I tried it. Do you want to try it?"

His voice is soft and warm, just like his name, like the warm and gentle sunshine.

Luo Qing, however, stared at the beautiful sunflower and burst into tears.

She collapsed on the ground, crying and despairing.

Why?

Why should Bai Xu be the culprit who caused all her psychological shadows?

Why can't she just weigh the pros and cons and play dumb?

Or why couldn't she love him a little more?

Maybe if she loved him a little more, she would be able to let bygones be bygones?

Seeing Luo Qing crying like this, Bai Xu didn't care about anything else anymore. He quickly put down what he was holding, walked over quickly, helped her up from the ground, and held her in his arms.

"Qingqing, what's wrong with you? Did I do something wrong and make you angry?"

"You can hit me or scold me if you're angry, but don't cry..."

He was extremely panicked when he saw her crying like that.

Luo Qing lowered her eyes, with sarcasm in her eyes.

Bai Xu is really good at pretending. It looks like he really loves her to the core.

But what’s the use of love?

Can love erase the harm he has done to her? Can it erase his crimes?

But all she can use now is this little bit of hypocritical love.

Luo Qing felt that she was really pitiful.

She was dazed and motionless, like a living dead person whose soul had been sucked out.

"Ah Xu..."

Luo Qing called his name as before, but her voice was full of pain, "I just had a nightmare."

"I'm here." Bai Xu responded to every word she said, hugging her slender body and wiping her tears.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have left you home alone. Did you dream of something scary? Don't be afraid, dreams are the opposite of reality."

"It's not the opposite, it's not even a nightmare."

Luo Qing stared at Bai Xu, his eyes dead and numb, as if the person sitting in front of him was a corpse without a soul.

Luo Qing grinned, and the bleak light made her face look pale.

“That’s what really happened to me.”

Bai Xu's face froze for a moment, his heart beating violently, and his strong sixth sense told him that he could not let her continue talking.

“Qingqing…”

"Ah Xu, seven years ago, I came back from my part-time job at night. The street lights were very dim that day. I was dragged into the green gauze tent and no one rescued me..."

"I couldn't escape..."

Luo Qing smiled sadly, his frail body looking as if it had been beaten by wind and rain.

As she spoke, she was staring at Bai Xu, not wanting to miss any expression on his face.

Bai Xu felt cold all over.

The memory that he had deliberately forgotten and sealed was finally cruelly peeled off and thrown in front of him, covered in blood.

"That man didn't let me go. Later, when I was going home from get off work, he pulled me into an alley..."

She grabbed her hair and cried until she was hoarse, "What did I do wrong? Why won't he let me go?"

When she spoke, she was like a rotten wood with its soul sucked out. Her eyes were dull and lifeless, and she just stared straight at Bai Xu.

Bai Xu felt a panic attack, and a subtle pain spread in his heart.

For a moment, he felt that Luo Qing seemed to be asking himself.

She seemed to be asking him why he was so cruel to her and why he just wouldn't let her go.

Bai Xu hugged Luo Qing tightly, and it seemed that he didn't notice that his body was shaking as well.

"Qingqing, this is not... this is not you... this is not your fault."

He closed his eyes and tears fell.

It's his fault.

Luo Qing's scattered eyes finally became focused.

She stared at the ceiling blankly, a trace of bitter laughter escaping from her throat.

It turns out Bai Xu also knows that it’s not her fault?

Then why did he treat her so cruelly at that time?

"Qingqing, let's let the past go, okay?"

"We must always look forward. We cannot trap ourselves in the dead end of the past."

He advised her like this.

He spoke every word gently, as if her pain had nothing to do with him.

Luo Qing didn't say anything either, she just struggled out of his arms and smiled at him with a dull look.

Bai Xu felt so heartbroken by her gaze.

He always knew that Luo Qing had never recovered from the pain he had caused her.

But he didn't know she would be so serious.

"You can't get over it, Ah Xu..."

"I can no longer start a new life..."

There was no expression on Luo Qing's face, her eyes were empty, and two tears just flowed down her eye sockets.

"I want to let myself go, but I can't..."

How could she let herself go?

During these seven years, she regarded the instigator as the moon that could redeem herself.

She fell in love with the man who violated her.

But she just couldn't hypnotize herself to love him a little more.

On what basis!

On what basis can those who do evil feel so at ease?

Why is she the only one who has suffered in these seven years?

And on what basis, after hurting her, Bai Xu could still ask her to move forward with a high-sounding attitude!

"You keep asking me why I don't want to marry you. Is it because you did something wrong?"

Luo Qing then realized that there were raindrops on Bai Xu's clothes, which felt like frost in autumn and was very cold when it touched his skin.

Just like that rainy night many years ago.

Bai Xu reached out to wipe her tears, "Qingqing, stop crying, okay? There's no rush to get married. I'll always be by your side."

Luo Qing seemed not to hear what he said.

She spoke in a hoarse voice, with pain on her face, "Because I still feel bad about being hurt."

"Ah Xu... My life was torn apart by that criminal two dark nights ago. He is still at large and I don't even know who he is!"

"How can I marry you? I tremble with fear when I think that he might still be watching me in the dark."

"Ah Xu, I could have held on a little longer for you, but I found that I couldn't hold on any longer..."

At this moment, Bai Xu's face turned paler than the bleak light.

It turned out that it was me seven years ago who tore apart my current self's qualifications to be with her forever.