Chapter 187 The Last Hug

Luo Qing opened the door, tears still streaming down her face.

She looked at Bai Xu motionlessly, thinking that he had finally admitted it and finally told the truth.

But on her face, she showed a smile that was uglier than crying, "Ah Xu, you don't have to say this on purpose just to pity me."

"We have been together for seven years. When no one believed in me, you were the only one who believed in me."

"How could you do such a thing?"

She laughed miserably, tears welling up in her eyes, about to fall.

After seven years of living together, she certainly knew what expression of hers would make Bai Xu feel the most distressed.

She wiped away her tears and forced a smile.

"I know it's not you."

"How can you hurt me so cruelly and mercilessly, and at the same time protect me so carefully? If that's the case, it's too scary..."

"Ah Xu, you are not that kind of person."

Bai Xu's body stiffened.

At this moment, he didn't even have the courage to hold Luo Qing in his arms.

Every drop of blood in the body seemed to be frozen by ice.

Bai Xu felt very cold.

Every word Luo Qing said was saying that he was not that kind of person.

But every word and sentence shows that he is such a person.

Luo Qing didn't seem to expect him to give any further explanation.

She just smiled and said, "Ah Xu, I'm tired. I want to have a good sleep. Please stay with me."

"You know, I'm afraid of being alone for a long time."

Bai Xu's fingers trembled for a moment, and after a while, he lifted his lips with difficulty, "...Okay."

In front of him, Luo Qing took out sleeping pills and swallowed two.

Seeing this scene, Bai Xu's pupils shrank again.

He closed his eyes in pain, "Qingqing, do you really need to take sleeping pills?"

A trace of sad smile appeared on Luo Qing's pale face. "Yes, otherwise I would dream about the past as soon as I closed my eyes."

Bai Xu felt dizzy and staggered, his face paler than the light.

Now, he can never forgive himself for what he did back then.

How could he do such a beastly thing to her back then!

The rain outside the window gradually got heavier, and Luo Qing slowly fell asleep.

Even when she was asleep, tears were streaming from her eyes.

Bai Xu held her hand tightly, feeling a sharp pain in his heart.

He was enveloped by endless anxiety.

Mingming Qingqing was still lying beside him.

But he felt as if he was about to lose her forever.

Everything in this world has always been a matter of cause and effect, and retribution will always come.

People will eventually pay for the crimes they have committed.

"Don't come over here!"

"Don't come over here!"

"Please, let me go!"

"Please..."

Luo Qing, who was sleeping, suddenly burst into tears and screamed, her body curled up into a ball like a frightened bird, tears continuously flowing from her eyes.

Bai Xu woke up as if from a dream. He lay down carefully beside Luo Qing and hugged her from behind.

"Don't be afraid Qingqing..."

"Qingqing, I'm here. No one can hurt you. Don't be afraid..."

He was so careful, as if the person in his arms was something fragile.

"Ah Xu..."

Luo Qing opened her eyes in a trance, and her scattered and dull gaze gradually became focused.

"Did you have a nightmare? Don't be afraid...it's okay."

Bai Xu held Luo Qing carefully and patted her back gently, as if to comfort her.

Luo Qing was like a frightened bird, her body trembling slightly. She leaned to the side and hugged Bai Xu's waist tightly, but did not say a word.

This was probably the last time she hugged Bai Xu like this.

It’s true that she loves Bai Xu.

In the past seven years, he has taken great care of her. Even if she were a stone, she should have been warmed up.

But it is also true that she hates Bai Xu and wants Bai Xu to pay the price.

She said to Bai Xu, "Ah Xu, I want to eat the hot soup noodles downstairs. Can you buy some for me?"

Bai Xu always responded to Luo Qing's requests.

But today, he didn't move.

It's not that I'm unwilling.

It was Luo Qing’s current condition that frightened him greatly.

He was afraid that she would jump off the tall building as soon as he left.

Luo Qing smiled. She saw what Bai Xu was thinking. "Don't worry. I won't do anything stupid."

Anyone could jump off the building.

But she won't.

Bai Xu was not punished, so why should she die?

She moved her lips and said, "Ah Xu, please accompany me to the hospital tomorrow."

"I want to receive proper treatment and I also want to move on from the past."

"Ah Xu, do you think my illness can be cured?"

Bai Xu held Luo Qing's hand tightly, and a tear fell from his eyes as he lowered his eyes. "It will definitely work."

He will accompany Qingqing until she recovers from her illness.

If the evildoers must finally disappear from this world, he will...

That night, Bai Xu still went to buy Luo Qing her favorite noodle soup.

As usual, he reminded the boss to use less green onions and more coriander.

The boss smiled cheerfully and handed him the packed noodle soup. "Young man, you really care about your girlfriend. You always remember her preferences and never forget them once."

Bai Xu clutched the bag of noodle soup tightly, his jawline tightly drawn, and he said nothing.

The next day, Bai Xu accompanied Luo Qing to the hospital.

The doctor diagnosed her with severe depression.

The moment he got the list, Luo Qing had a blank expression on his face, but Bai Xu's breathing stagnated and he grabbed Luo Qing's hand, hurting it.

The moment he returned home, Bai Xu finally couldn't hold back his tears. He hugged Luo Qing and said sorry over and over again.

Luo Qing had a blank expression on her face, like a walking corpse. "What do you have to apologize to me for?"

"The one who harmed me was the murderer who is still at large, not you."

The more she said this, the more uncomfortable Bai Xu felt. He repeated over and over again, "It's me!"

"I am that beast!"

"I am that unforgivable scum!"

Luo Qing shed tears but smiled, "Ah Xu, stop joking like that."

"How can you describe yourself as that person just because you feel sorry for me?"

Bai Xu hugged Luo Qing's thin body tightly, as if this way he would never lose her.

"I'm not kidding."

"Qingqing...it has always been me..."

He closed his eyes in pain and tore his own self-deception apart with his own hands. "The first time, I covered your eyes and tied your hands."

"The second time, I came from behind..."

With every word he spoke, Luo Qing's face turned paler.

Only he and Luo Qing knew what he said, and only the abuser and the victim would remember these details clearly.

Obviously Luo Qing already knew the truth first.

But after hearing the abuser's words in person, she still trembled with fear.

"Get lost!"

Luo Qing pushed him away with all her strength, her tearful face filled with hatred, "Bai Xu, are you very proud?"

"All these years, you have seen me being kept in the dark like a fool. Do you think I am particularly stupid? How could I be so stupid as to fall in love with you and regard you as my savior?"

"Bai Xu, I have done nothing wrong to you, why are you so cruel to me?!

"Why!"